#14
“Come on, here.”
“thank you.”
A teacup placed on a saucer.
He handed it to Rubia with a skillful hand.
Rubia who blew the hot surface back and forth. The liquid in the teacup was shaking unstable, perhaps because of lack of energy. It was supported by a plate, but it seemed like it would spill over if there was even a slight carelessness.
—Hrup.
Still, at last, moisten your lips.
I asked.
“What do you think?”
“… … warm.”
“It’s natural.”
“Ehehe… ”
Rubia smiled softly.
“Warm and… Hang on. Very, very tasty.”
“I’m glad.”
It was sincere.
The teacup in my hand contained the same tea Rubia had just drank. He took the plate and headed to the other side of Rubia. A small sofa, not a rocking chair. We sat there and enjoyed a cup of tea.
My tongue was startled by the flow of hot liquid. As you savor the sweet aroma and sweet taste, it becomes lukewarm and goes down your throat softly. Gradually, the lower abdomen became warm.
It would have been nice if there was something to eat besides drink, but it looks like it hasn’t been refilled yet. After that, I savored the tea a couple of times and then placed it on the table with the plate.
Tick. Tick.
We were at home in a quiet cabin.
It was spring, no lap blankets, and the fireplace was off. On a snowy winter day as time passed and I thought I would be able to feel a very good atmosphere if I came here.
Whether it be the body or mind that was frozen solidly during the winter and cold weather. Everything seemed to melt and disappear like water.
“It’s comfortable.”
“yes.”
No further observations were needed.
Because I knew it without saying it.
A hut with a feeling of nostalgia for some reason. It may be a brief moment, but we must have been younger than we are today. Not only that, but each other’s parents will be by your side. I probably forgot the tangerine rather than the hard cookie. Then, at some point, he was going to fall asleep.
“… Ezio.”
It was Rubia’s low voice that awakened my mind, which was shaking like a candle in the wind.
I blinked my eyes. Rubia asks.
“That way… Can go?”
“… … ”
I looked around me for a moment.
a small sofa I was sitting alone, occupying about 2/3 of the space. It must be cramped if you sit down. Considering Rubia’s body type, it wouldn’t be impossible at all, but it was a form that inevitably had no choice but to suffocate.
At that point, I shook my head.
“It’s narrow. no.”
Rubia grew pale at my refusal.
“… I never cared about that before.”
“… … ”
That’s it. Regardless of who sat on the narrow sofa first or not, if they wanted to sit together, they just walked over and sat on their hips. There was a time when I put a young Rubia on my thigh and fell asleep together. I woke up the rest of Rubia, who had no blood in the middle, though.
Either way, that’s a thing of the past.
Our bodies and minds have grown, and we have eaten enough to age. Some sofas are narrow, but we were friends. If you’re an ordinary friend, you wouldn’t or would not sit close to your body more than that.
… However, if someone asked me if we were childhood friends or not, I would have dared to give a positive answer.
Now nothing has been resolved.
Perhaps it was us that might have been worse than those ordinary friends.
As I recalled the goal I had come to this far, my mind calmed down. They needed a place to rest, but they couldn’t just rest.
Before bringing out the words I had been thinking about on the way to the hut one by one, I put one of the most important pieces of information in my mouth.
“Rubia. I have something to tell you.”
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Did you realize that this is just the beginning? Rubia puts the teacup down on the table. He looks at me with a ticking sound.
“… … yes. What?”
After thinking for a while, he opened his mouth.
“I lost part of my memory in the last accident. So, probably, I can’t answer the questions you’re most curious about me. What happened to me after dropping out, where I was when you said you were looking for me… … Everything, I forgot.”
“… … ”
At my words, Rubia was stunned for a while.
After a while, he said hard.
“that is… Really?”
“okay.”
Let me nod my head casually.
I ask again with some fearful eyes.
“Where, to what extent… lost? Come on, did you forget when you were young? me and me… … ”
“That’s not right. If it were, you wouldn’t have asked you if you like dew tea earlier. It’s still okay there. What I forgot are the things I just said and the memories of the accident. and… … ”
how do i say this
“The reason you were looking for me. What you apologized to me in the banquet hall back then. Everything related to that is probably lost.”
“… … !”
Rubia flinched. From that reaction, unlike me, Rubia must know something.
“… So I don’t know why you feel guilty about me. What the hell are you saying I did wrong? I think it could be that it’s difficult for me right now. Before the accident, my attitude was so cold, and above all… Because it happened in the past.”
It was not mentioned in detail.
Immediately after, I asked cautiously.
“What happened to me… I know?”
“… … ”
Rubia wasn’t looking at me.
I was looking at the table on which the teacup was placed.
reply is late
As for what he was so worried about, his eyes began to ripple violently. It opened and closed until the lips were repeated over and over again. It was so obvious that his stomach was burning.
After a while, the words that came out of Rubia’s mouth.
“… Ezio, you… You saved me.”
“… … What?”
It was an entirely unexpected story.
Am I saving Rubia? It’s the first time I hear it.
It’s only natural that I lost my memory, but at the same time I thought of a new question.
… If only I had really saved Rubia.
That’s what Rubia should thank me for,
It wasn’t something to be so sorry about.
“I don’t know either. It was a camp day at the Ministry of Magic before graduation. At that time, a senior from the graduating class came as a teaching assistant. On my way to the shopping street to buy ingredients for lunch with that senior… … I must have been kidnapped by demons. I have no memory of that time… … That’s what I’ve heard, but you’re probably right.”
kidnap. demon.
My expression became serious at the ugly words.
Rubia slowly raises her gaze. It looked like he was suffering from something.
As if a small stone has been thrown on the surface of the water, the green eyes with ripples begin to add moisture to them. As each word was finished, Rubia’s face seemed to be stained with guilt.
“… Ezio, I think you were also involved. So, so you saved me. He even saved me from being severely hurt by demons. It wasn’t the senior I was with who saved me… Ezio, it was you.”
As I looked at Rubia, who seemed to recall the memories of that time, something trembled in my heart. The identity was unknown.
“By the way, I really, don’t know anything… To you who risked your life to save me, I betrayed you. I mistook you for a senior, not you… you couldn’t have been there Judging by myself… No matter how many times I said thank you, it wouldn’t have been enough… You’ve done the opposite. I didn’t even realize that you saved me… let it disappear… Only then did I start looking for you. … I’m a real bad b*tch it’s trash For all my life, Ezio to you… … ”
“… … Calm down, Rubia.”
I wondered if the feelings would gradually intensify, and eventually it led to self-harm. It was also a very harsh and strong century of self-harm. I didn’t know that the word trash would come out of Rubia’s mouth. Rubia pursed her lips and shed tears like silver beads.
… Rubia’s words were difficult to understand. However, the emotion contained in it was conveyed desperately.
A feeling of guilt much deeper and darker than the meaning of the outwardly flowing tears. guilt. tangled gratitude. In the end, the emotions that could not be resolved within the time frame were stagnant and buried deep in the heart.
Is it that I saved Rubia?
I also don’t remember
To put it all together, on the day of the Ministry of Magic camp, Rubia was kidnapped by the demons, and I was caught up in the vicinity, so I guess I rescued Rubia from the demons.
To be honest, it was such a nonsensical story that I wondered if there was something wrong with Rubia, so I still couldn’t understand it.
But at least Rubia believes it to be true. That is why, after that incident, he searched for me, who would have disappeared suddenly, and in the process, he must have suffered a lot, both physically and mentally, and the result was not difficult to find out from the figure of Rubia now.
My head is throbbing. That’s where the last part of the memory of the past was cut off.
The day before Mew’s birthday.
Probably, November 18th.
I don’t have any memories after that.
… If so, then maybe what Rubia was talking about happened. I said it was the way to the shopping mall. If it was Mu’s birthday, I would have been at the shopping mall to find the ring I had reserved. You said you were going to buy lunch ingredients, so it must have been broad daylight. The appointment time with Mew… … It must have been 1 o’clock. If it happened before that——
I was silent for a while.
Mu’s birthday. The ring is now invisible. birthday promise. events that occurred before that.
The vague doubts were turning into reality.
… really.
You didn’t keep your promise.
As far as thinking goes, another question arises.
The only reason I couldn’t keep my promise must have been me. Why, well. If I was involved in the case. If it suddenly disappeared after that. Shouldn’t Mew blame me for leaving without a word?
… … No, wait.
That was it. letter.
It seems that I in the past wrote and delivered a letter to Mew.
… why? why?
Wasn’t it me who did the wrong thing?
Even if there was a misunderstanding in its own circumstances.
After ruining a time that will only exist once in a lifetime, isn’t the heart of Mew, who must have been seriously hurt in the end?
damn it My head was so confused.
First of all, the purpose of this was to build a discussion with Rubia. Most of the lost memories can be found out by talking to Mew about this. However, since I haven’t experienced it myself, it will take some time to accept it as reality.
I approached Rubia, who kept saying I’m sorry. It wasn’t good though. If Rubia was devoured by more negative emotions here, a very dark future seemed to unfold.
A handkerchief that has not yet been returned to Yuri. Instead, he pulled out a new handkerchief from his pocket.
“Don’t cry. Raise your head.”
different from glass. I could have done this to some extent. But Rubia shakes her head slowly. With a sigh, he bent his legs and waist.
I met Rubia’s crying eyes.
As I brushed Rubia’s long, pale pink hair to the side, I reached out and began to gently wipe away Rubia’s tears.
Rubia took my handkerchief and looked like she was about to wipe it, but I grabbed Rubia’s arm with my other hand and stopped the action.
“If it’s true that I saved you, I’d be happy. After all, you are alive like this, and I am alive like this.”
It was a really thin wrist. It was so fragile that I thought it might break if I applied too much force.
“So don’t feel sorry for me. I should thank you.”
“… … ”
“Honestly, I still don’t quite understand. Before I lost my memories, I felt like I was more uncomfortable and cold than I was. Probably, I’m sure something big happened to me. That’s not who I am now.”
It’s unavoidable. Because I have no experience. It was for this reason that I decided to have a conversation with Rubia as soon as possible.
… … If I ever regained my memories, it seemed like I would not know how to treat Rubia.
“I will tell you one thing. If it’s because of me that’s the reason you’re having a hard time these days, then you don’t have to worry about it anymore.”
“… … ”
“I said that I neither like you nor hate you. Nope. I don’t hate it. I like it. No matter what anyone says, you are my friend. A friend of 9 years. Because they are childhood friends with us.”
okay.
This is correct.
We were friends forever. Because they were nothing but friends, we were able to become the most precious to each other. When I was in middle school, I tried to break those relationships and memories. So, it finally broke. From the beginning, it was only my fault that Rubia and I became so distant now.
He slowly wiped away Rubia’s tears with a soft hand. It looked as if there was going to be a drop of water from the eyes that were still glaring at any moment, but I could see how he managed to hold it in because I told him not to cry. was confronted
A more subdued cry.
I opened my mouth.
“Rubia.”
“… … yes. Ezio.”
It was a watery voice.
spoke quietly.
“I’m sorry for ignoring you in middle school.”
“… … ”
“It was too late, but… I’m sorry I couldn’t keep my promise back then. I said that I would continue to be friends with you. If it wasn’t going to happen, I probably wouldn’t even have said I would.”
“… … ”
“Rubia, it’s true that I liked you. Beyond liking – I loved it. In the end, though, that’s what drove us apart. I feel sorry for that too.”
Now I could speak quietly.
In the past, I might have been ashamed to say the word love, but not now.
okay. A lot of time has passed. Me too, Rubia. A lot has changed. grew up
After meeting another precious relationship and finally making another mistake, I was finally able to step on the stairs of becoming an adult.
Rubia looks at me. I see Rubia too. The street was close. There were times when I was even closer than this when I was a kid. There were many. But we grew up. They were friends though. As long as they are friends, no matter how precious they are. No more crossing the line
Anyway, Rubia thinks of me as a friend. Then there was nothing to hesitate. He put the handkerchief on her face and looked at him in anger. A distance where even our breaths mix. Really, unfortunately. In the past, looking at those pale pink lips, I felt a very strong impulse.
It wasn’t. Now is.
“Now I can keep it.”
I was relieved somehow.
Finally, I feel like I’ve completely shaken it off.
The friendship that Rubia wanted.
I feel like I can finally make it happen.
brought out such a word.
“Will you continue to be friends with me?”
“… … ”
Silence fell between the two of us.
Silently, Rubia looks at me.
and.
Although I vaguely expected Rubia’s reaction.
… … It eventually went awry.
Currently, Rubia was in a very weak state of mind and body. His health was not good, and there was even an accident that almost killed him today. It was me who saved it. Maybe he saved Rubia from death twice, no, three times. It was a fact that will be recorded forever.
Fatigue accumulated in the body. lingering emotions. A hut that brings back old memories. It was only then that I was able to truly face myself. We hadn’t seen each other for a long time. The pleasure, nostalgia, or——
It was a short question.
“… Just, are you friends?”
half-closed eyelids.
A hazy voice flows.
Rubia immediately said something she didn’t understand.
“As a friend… … Is it over?”