#6
“What is what? How do I look now?”
“That’s it… … ”
smoked cigarette. cynical eyes. blond hair. oblique posture. past deeds and speeches.
Isn’t this a set answer?
“bully?”
“… … ”
He made a face like “Heh,” and scratched his head.
“If it looked that way, it was a great success. It’s right to be f*cking in front of you guys, and it’s also true to f*ck you when you have time. Sheep, shepherd… … So you don’t want to deal with me, do you?”
“You don’t even know?”
“I know. I avoid it not because I am afraid, but because it is dirty.”
“It’s dirty. It wasn’t like that.”
“That’s the parable. And isn’t that wrong in the first place? It is said that if you touch dirt, your hands will become dirty. If you are like you, would you like to have a baby like me? ”
“… … ”
“Look, it’s the same thing.”
Youth Phil laughed at someone. He habitually puts his hand in his jacket pocket, and then glances at me with an ominous face. I think he was trying to get a cigarette. My lips are twitching. Will it come to withdrawal?
take a deep breath She is pounding on the floor with her shoes and trembling. As if his nerves were unstable, the youth felt suddenly spoke.
“I don’t know what you’re thinking – I’m working part-time here. As soon as I entered, I got a seat. I don’t have a lot of experience, but I have the confidence to do a good job. Besides, I’m a pretty good looking person if I decorate it, right? Hired me right away The boss seemed to like me. 👀”
“I wish I could say that with your mouth.”
“What, isn’t it? Facts are facts.”
“… … ”
let’s not talk
“So, this is the first part-time job I got. How about seeing that little bastard you talked about smiling for entertainment? Do you want to look like a pro?”
Facial expression management was an art.
Youth Phil chuckled as if he knew roughly my answer.
“… … What do you mean you saved first?”
When I asked, Youth Phil gave a light answer.
“Oh, I’m also doing other part-time jobs.”
“… … Another part-timer?”
“uh.”
Youthfeel pulled out his finger. fold one by one
“Part-time in the restaurant hall in District 4 on weekday evenings. At night, I work here until this time. On weekends, he works part-time in District 2 cleaning the shopping district from lunch to night. I’m trying to get another one around lunchtime during class time, but it’s hard to find anything that only has monthly payments. However, if you look carefully, you may find one. After all, this is the frontier, right?”
Saying that, he looks at me as if asking for my consent.
On the other hand, I asked, slightly dazed.
“… … Are you doing all three at the same time?”
“uh.”
It was a fight as if there was something wrong.
No problem.
However, on weekdays, hall serving and kitchen work are full-time. Even if it’s a cafe. I thought that it would be difficult unless you are a serious iron man to take on all the hard part-time jobs like cleaning the shopping mall by pouring all the time until the weekend.
Above all, if you live like that without even having time to catch your breath. When do you take a break?
It didn’t seem like Youth Feel was doing a part-time job to earn money for entertainment. In order to do that, I guess I should at least make time to spend the money I earned. It really was like someone who came to work on Frontier.
“why… Are you even doing that?”
My gaze looking at the youth felt a little strange.
It wasn’t that it was softer or something, it was something I couldn’t understand intuitively. for what the hell
“What is the reason for doing a part-time job?”
“You want to make money?”
“Yeah, to make money. Then why are you doing multiple?”
“… … to earn more.”
“That’s it.”
Much money. more money. That was necessary.
Youth Phil must have been a noble girl. Although he fell down like me, he must have never found anything related to these things in the past.
“It’s surprisingly common. What you owe for admission.”
Aristocrats are usually wealthy. At the very least, I seldom go into debt.
“I am not in a position to be tied down for more than five years after graduating here. That’s why I’m doing this shit to pay off all my debts as soon as possible after graduation. At this pace, there would be around 40 million left right before graduation. I can’t leave it like that, so I have to increase my part-time job.”
I was barely able to enter the school while I was in debt. What the hell did you want to achieve in Frontier? In the end, it seems that Youth Feel was not interested in studying. As if reading the thoughts on my face, Youthfeel giggled.
“I was trying to work part-time with studying, but damn it. it didn’t work I can’t. You earn much more money from part-time jobs than academic scholarships, so what do you study hard for? It would be nice to learn something properly here, but for me, this diploma is the most important thing.”
I’m too busy to work, but I’m trying to put my studies into my head, so my body can’t stand it. It deserves it.
I understood it with my head, but there were parts that I didn’t understand yet. For example, at the time of the first meeting. The stubborn attitude that Youth Feel showed that day was still engraved in his mind.
… … That’s right, so.
“Why are you talking to me like this?”
I was curious about Youth Phil’s intentions. To put it bluntly, individual circumstances are circumstances, and Youth Phil was not like a close friend of mine.
“I do not know.”
“… … ?”
“I’m just sorry that I’ve been rude to you and the kids. I’m also a normal bastard who’s always pissed off, but that day was especially badass.”
“Youthpil.”
“… … why? What are you mad about?”
“Don’t say things like that.”
“What do you mean? Did you say old age? This is also a fact… … ”
“Youthpil.”
“… … hello. It’s very consistent.”
Youth Phil looks at me like a sneer.
“Have you been like this before? Just because you have nothing to lose, don’t lose yourself. Honestly, you know I’ve been messing around a bit, right? You got goosebumps and seriously told me to f*ck you.”
Saying that makes me a little shy.
“Well, I don’t need to say that. you don’t even have to say why do i lose me It’s never going to happen. I haven’t lost it yet, and I always will. It’s unavoidable that it’s getting better and better. The original me can no longer be found, so the changing me becomes the ‘I’. So don’t try to interfere with my life. Because that is what makes me most miserable.”
“… … ”
If that’s true, I have nothing to say.
At that point, Youthpil lowered his head slightly. Looking down at the shadows cast by the moonlight, I lifted and lifted my heels.
“This is my life. It’s the way he chose to survive after his downfall. I have to build up my self-esteem, so I’m just bluffing when I don’t really have any shit, right? You’d be much better off putting it all down and acting like a b*tch with no roots.”
“… … ”
“Look, you guys are completely in love with me too. There’s nothing good about being entangled with me. Who wants to be friends with a girl who only has dirty hands on her hands? His personality is also very dirty. I know I’m a woman like this, so I’d rather not have anyone come by my side.”
A short sculpture was built from the mouth of the youth.
Well. I didn’t know what to say here. I don’t know why Youth Feel even talks to me about this. So I just kept quiet and listened.
“Tell me then.”
“… … at that time?”
“You know, the day we had our first meeting.”
“Ah oh.”
“At that time, I had a homework meeting, so I told the restaurant that I would do it for a little while before that time, but did they allow it there?”
Youth Feel suddenly remembered a funny situation and continued to speak.
“But just before the promised work time, while cleaning the warehouse, the materials collapsed.”
“… … ”
“Mak, ugh, something like black powder from inside the box swept over me like a f*cking flood. What did you flip it over? I was going to go right after work, but how are you going? There is nothing in the restaurant bathroom. Then I had to go to the dormitory, so I ran after work. After I washed up, it was already too late?”
“… … ”
“At that time, it was all over. I don’t know if I’m studying alone, but this is my first group assignment, right? If I’m the only one getting f*cked, I’d say something like that, but you guys are also involved, so I guess I’ll have to go first, right? So I did it except for part-timers, but when things really happened, I wondered what the f*ck I was doing. Hyunta came. You say your head goes blank like a goblin b*tch? I was originally a goblin year. Anyway.”
The moment I unconsciously called out her name because she said something degrading to me again.
I finally shut my mouth.
Youth Phil laughs.
“… … I didn’t even want to explain it to you. How do you say it’s off-putting? I was doing a part-time job cleaning the restaurant, and I was late because I had to wash my clothes with filth. No matter how far I got to the bottom, that’s a different matter. So, I was wondering what grades I should get for my topic, and I just rushed it. I’m sorry, I messed up my words. Apologies are also a good thing. sorry.”
He didn’t bow his head like he did last time. He smiled bitterly and said that, so I just nodded without answering.
Youth Phil said as if he had suddenly remembered.
“… Oh, did I say how did you dry your hair? I don’t know why there is such a thing in divine art, but this is possible-.”
He pulled out his hand from his jacket pocket, muttered something and left it. Then, a warm light rose from the palm of his hand. The alleyway, which had been corroded by darkness, became as bright as a road of light in an instant. The youth-feel with the reflected light on his face spoke as if he was making a funny joke.
“If you rub it on your hair and rub it roughly, it dries out. It’s pretty comfortable. I use it to dry my hair on the way to work.”
… … what. did it really happen
After listening to what Youth Feel had to say, I decided that it wasn’t a lie at all. I looked at the calluses visible from the fingertips of Youth Phil, who had harvested the light that had bloomed from his hands, and then I slowly opened my mouth.
“Are you sure you don’t want to apologize?”
“… … ”
“If you apologize for something like that, you have to hurt yourself. It’s true that I’m so thick-skinned, so I’ll just stay there.”
Youth Feel hit my chest very softly with his fist. The tail of the cat’s eyes curved like a crescent moon. Then he put his hand in his jacket pocket, took out a cigarette pack, put it in his mouth, and then looked up at me with a sigh.
I didn’t react, but I click my tongue and put it back into my pocket.
That’s when I got a question.
“Didn’t you say you didn’t want anyone to come near you?”
“… … It did?”
“But why are you saying this to me?”
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Do you want me to understand the circumstances of the misunderstanding? Do you want to sympathize with the unfortunate situation? The latter is definitely not the case when you look at the youthful personality. Although there were several speculation reasons, it did not come to a single conclusion in the end.
“Well… … ”
Just by looking at his face, he replied, “I don’t know.” it didn’t Youth Phil shrugged his shoulders playfully.
“Sometimes I’ve been caught working part-time, and there are times when I just do that. I say this, but sometimes I tremble alone, right? I don’t even know what the b*tch I’m doing As a human being, I don’t feel lonely at all.”
Slowly, deliberately wrinkling his face, he continued his speech.
“Besides, it’s just that I haven’t had my period. Emotions also arise. come and go I thought you would listen well, so I just said it once. … … Still, it doesn’t seem like the prediction was wrong at all.”
I am careful with words that are somehow sensitive. As I flinched, the youthful groan blew out. Knowing that I’m not used to that kind of thing, he secretly poked my shoulder with his finger.
“Is this because it’s really mugwort? It was created to make dozens and hundreds of women cry. I must have gotten a lot of dashes in the social hall, but-.”
“… … I never did.”
“Gill. I don’t believe it. Goo is blatantly beaten.”
no, what If I had walked around with this body from the beginning, I might have really been like that. How do you do something that isn’t real?
Youth Phil asked suddenly.
“You don’t really have a girlfriend?”
“… … no.”
“Then, wasn’t it?”
“… … ”
“… … I can’t answer this. Well, it doesn’t make sense. Even if you don’t know who your partner is, your eyes must have been very strong while we were dating. Huh.”
no… …
It was probably the other way around.
“Yeah, but.”
“?”
“Aren’t you going to stop the tram?”
“… … ah.”
this. Been here too long.
Looking at the clock, I thought I would be able to set the time if I ran fast.
“Thank you for talking to me first. I will go.”
I hurriedly turn my back and run to the station.
“Hey, wait a minute.”
what else
“Just talking, you know where you can go and not tell anyone? You’ll end up biting your tongue later because of this, really.”
“… … is not it.”
“I thought so.”
Now go for real.
“And, one more.”
“I am late.”
“You can run faster.”
“… … What? Say it quickly.”
Youth Phil, who was humming with a relaxed attitude, as if in such a hurry, followed me out of the alley and continued talking.
“Some are sincere.”
“… … What are you talking about?”
I smirked and asked
“You are handsome. i see a lot of faces You said you didn’t have a girlfriend, didn’t you?”
“… … ”
After asking a meaningful question, he waved his hand toward me, who turned my head without an answer.
“See you on Thursday. Bye Bye.”
what do you mean
… … Well, it was a strange feeling.