#7
The morning air cooled the sweat.
I was running the track at a constant pace. body is hot It was a moderately pleasant heat. I wore training clothes and ran early in the morning as usual.
The wind was cool and the weather was perfect for running. His gaze suddenly went to the sky where the dawn had not yet been erased. As I looked at the empty space, it seemed that complicated thoughts were erased like lies.
I lowered the collar’s zipper slightly. heat escapes The breath that had been lingering in his throat finally spit out. Tick, tick, tick-. In the field of vision that oscillates up and down according to a certain rhythm, something comes to mind again in my emptied mind.
‘Aren’t you trying hard enough?’
I do not know.
I wake up like a knife in the morning and go to exercise. I eat breakfast, and if there is a lecture, I go to the classroom.
Otherwise, exercise or study in your room. On days when there is a swordsmanship class, I try to grab a sword early in the morning. It was like that today. I slowly replayed what I had learned in the gymnasium that was open 24 hours a day.
A numb arm due to hitting in the wrong position during training. Still, I can feel that I am improving day by day with my whole body.
Gabriel said I was sincere. To be honest, I’m not sure about that. I’m sure you’re working hard. Now it has become unknown. At some point, I vaguely felt that I wasn’t doing as much as I used to. Ever since I had a brief conversation with Youth Feel yesterday, that thought has settled in the back of my head.
Youth Feel is working part-time for money. On the other hand, I have no financial worries. Full tuition waiver. It is a full scholarship until graduation, and with the benefits of the Epic class, you can use all the luxurious facilities for free.
Moreover, this time, a large amount was paid in the name of compensation for damage. As long as I don’t have absurdly big dreams, well, I won’t have to worry about money for the rest of my life.
Somehow, the youth felt gave up something for something. If you tried to take it all, you would have a big problem. Because I couldn’t have it all.
If you want to have either one, you have to pay a corresponding price. Of course, there were so many things I didn’t want to miss.
is it greed was it overkill?
Accident-free school life and the future after that. I also don’t want to give up the relationship I have with them now.
“Whoa, whoa… … ”
Can I stay here right now? I could have worked harder. I don’t even run until I collapse from exhaustion. I have to attend an upcoming lecture. It’s natural.
Tak, Tak-. Increase your running speed. Your heart rate rises rapidly and your breathing becomes more rapid. ran with power. If it had been before, I would have collapsed from exhaustion from completing one lap.
Now it’s different.
If I can withstand a higher limit, and if I fall down and get up again, my body becomes stronger. Even though I have such a deceitful body, why am I-.
“!”
The feet leading to the intersection crossed. He staggered and lost his balance. In an instant, he placed his hand on the ground and rolled two laps through the fall method. I lay flat on the floor of the track.
As the morning dawns, the sky becomes clearer. Wiping the saliva from the corners of your mouth with the back of your hand.
Whoops.
shadows cast The canteen was pushed in front of my head. The reddish-brown hair came down softly.
Bent knees and waist. It’s not like me, it’s my usual pink cardigan.
“Oh, do it. ah-.”
Leilin opened the lid and said so.
“… If you drink like that, your throat will be blocked.”
Out of breath, he cut out the words, and then only his upper body jumped up. Reilin handed me a canteen wrapped in a towel.
As I nodded my head to receive it, my palms became cold and cool. is it ice water? You mean you always carry this with you? I don’t know where it came from, but I got it and drank it with gratitude. He lifted the canister upside down and poured it into his throat. My hands were trembling, and the raindrops ran down my chin.
I emptied half of it at once and let out a breath.
“… I think I will live. thank you Seniors.”
Raylin smiled brightly.
“If you are grateful, call me sister.”
“… … I do not like it.”
“Hey, why!”
I’m going crazy
“… What are you doing here?”
“yes? I came to see my pretty junior.”
“… … ”
“Really! I woke up a little early today, and I see you from outside. I gave you the card key, but you can’t see it in the circle room. Instead, I’ve been working out hard since dawn here, so I tried to give him some cool water because it wasn’t too hard.”
“… … Have you ever slept in a circle room? You won’t see it here in the dormitory.”
“Yeah, I slept there. why?”
“… … No.”
If you’re bored, you sleep there. that was real
“You work hard, Ezio. Trouble, trouble.”
Raylin came back behind me at some point and was rubbing my shoulders. No, I smell sweat. As he slowly pulled away, he hummed and came back to rub his shoulders. I was out of breath and hard to move, so I left it alone.
“… It’s not just me, what?”
It’s about morning exercise, it seems boring. There are many seniors who exercise other than here. The site is so large that there is not only one playground. It is unnecessarily wide for the number of students. What is the real reason? What on earth is the name of the sign that says the future of the empire… …
“Nope. It’s nice to see you, especially since you seem to work harder. I also think that he is a nice person. yes.”
Raylin, who was bubbly, presses on my shoulder.
I raised my hand for a moment.
“It’s okay now. thank you.”
“Eh, I just do it because I want to.”
In the end, we had to take it off somehow,” said Raylin, who was grunting, saying it was a pity.
“But, mate.”
“yes?”
“What were you thinking like that?”
“… … Did you get tea?”
“Of course, his serious expression is cool, but he seemed too serious. If the rhythm is twisted and you fall, I wondered if you were thinking about something else while running.”
“… … It is not wrong.”
There are some very sharp corners.
“If you were a senior, you would be wondering what I was thinking, right?”
Leilin’s face looking at me with half curiosity and half concern. If you don’t tell them, they will stick to you. If Raylin affirmed that, I was contemplating inwardly an answer that would be appropriate.
“… … Do you think of me?”
“… … ”
“… … It’s a joke! Don’t make that face! Am I really hurt?!”
He even showed an exaggerated reaction to an absurd answer, which made it even more difficult to know how to react.
After a while, Raylin continued to speak with a loud voice.
“… … Well, I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t curious. Is it the duty of seniors to listen to the concerns of juniors? Do you do the same there? I think so. you don’t know how … … I, I’m a fool, but I can listen to you in order.”
Raylin rolled her eyes and scratched her cheek.
Even if you look like this, you are two years older than me. It’s true that it’s a bit unreliable when you look at what he’s actually doing… …
“It’s not serious.”
After that, he took a short breath and said.
“Senior-nim has just grown tall and seems to be working hard. You said that, but I don’t think I really think that way.”
“Yes?”
“Of course, it is true that I try to work hard, but I don’t know what this is for. First of all, I have a primary goal of graduating with excellent grades, but that seems to be insufficient. I’m having a lot of problems right now. Trying to solve it all at once is complicated. If I go on like this, I’m worried that I’m going to fall somewhere. like that?”
Raylin blinked her eyes and replied.
“… … Chu, do you think this is a serious enough concern?”
“is that so?”
Sweat runs profusely. He frowned and ruffled his hair. Leilin looked at me for a moment, then tilted her head and said.
“Adolescence, huh… … ?”
“… … ”
“Hey, isn’t this? It is said that during puberty, everyone is often worried about life or falling into contemplation… … I did too… … ”
I think it’s too late for puberty. No, puberty has already passed in the first place. When I was in middle school, I was, really, something. uh. Do you think there have been times when I have said and done things that I can’t even open my eyes to? Thinking about it sometimes makes me feel ashamed. Now it’s something a little higher. Did you even come to second puberty? I don’t know, really.
I suddenly asked
“Are you a nobleman?”
“uh… … right? Aren’t you aristocrats too?”
Not all nobles are the same, but Reilin just asked that. After all, status in the Frontier doesn’t really play a big role. Going outside would be another story. Leilin was the daughter of a decent countess. On the other hand, I
“Because it was down.”
“ah.”
Raylin shut her mouth.
The atmosphere was going to be cheap, so I said something.
“It’s okay, because my family and I are getting along well. In fact, I am doing better than before.”
“That, right? I’m really happy… … ”
Raylin looked really relieved. It makes a sound like a deflated balloon and takes a deep breath.
Looking at the context, I didn’t really make a mistake. His feelings for me seemed to be genuine. When I’m by your side, I’m a little quick-tempered, but in times like this, I feel grateful for nothing.
The topic of nobility was not brought up further. This is because it seemed that if I continued to speak, I would even say things that I would not be able to say in front of others.
“Ummm,” said Raylin, who was moaning.
“I’m talking about my worries earlier… … ”
“yes.”
“Um, uh… … Whatever you think, if you’re not satisfied, that could be the problem, but… … At least, if the people around you look like you’re working hard, isn’t it the worst?”
“… Well, is that going to happen?”
“yes. Of course. On the contrary, you are doing very well. Even me, I think of you as a very sincere and kind junior, and that’s why I want to help you more personally… … Hey, maybe this is good enough? I think what you need right now is confidence. Don’t worry, you’re doing fine. I want to tell you this, I.”
In the end, it was a word of support, not a solution or anything.
“And I don’t like to live like I’m being chased! Life is too short to only do sports and training. Sometimes, take a break from your daily routine. How do people only do what they set out to do? You need to get proper rest to be more efficient at work.”
That was a little reassuring.
But, it seems like I’ve heard it somewhere for a while. I was dazed and looked up at the sky endlessly.
“… … ”
He patted his chin and nodded slowly. You know how to say the right thing.
With both hands on the track floor, I looked back at Raylin.
“Well, yes. Thank you. After all, a senior is a senior.”
“… … uh, uh.”
Leilin blinked at my laughter.
“Ok-.”
After stretching for a while, I got up.
“Drink well. I have to go to the lecture later, so I’ll just leave.”
“Are you going already? When is the lecture?”
“It’s nine o’clock.”
“You still have a long way to go!”
“I have something to prepare for when I go to the dormitory.”
Having said that, when I was about to leave the track.
“Your junior.”
“yes?”
“If you need something like a hobby, dress up with me-”
“I don’t.”
“… … hey.”
#8
The literary liberal arts lecture to be held this morning was a class to be taken with Mu. The same goes for the swordsmanship class that follows.
—Let’s start now. You are welcome to discuss in a free format.
The morning lecture was a class to read a set book and discuss the content.
“Are you the same? Let’s try our best.”
“… Ahh. yes.”
It became the same group as Mu. It’s one-on-one, so there are two team members. It’s just me and Mew. I sat down on the same table with a chair and opened a book. To be honest, I guess that’s why we were in the same group as Mew, but there was a slight problem with the selected books.
[You and My Own World / Eukremian]
“… … ”
“… … ”
Ummm… …
Also, I couldn’t help but feel awkward.