113 – No Exit
When I opened my eyes, I was not at home.
I’ve been crying all day, thinking about Yoo Seon.
I want to keep sleeping like this.
Besides the miserable reality, I’d rather have a dream I can’t wake from forever. Even if everything is false, I want to stay in a dream forever.
A red pill that tells the truth among the films made by a famous sci-fi director. And the blue pill that makes you have sweet dreams. During the two-choice scene, I now understand why the bad traitor chose the blue pill in that movie.
The reality is miserable, and there is no sign of improvement.
Because if you are soaked in a sweet fantasy, you can forget all the pain in reality.
..Yoo Seon-i.
I’d rather someone kill me without feeling the pain.
…
I have a desire to die, but first of all, what the hell are you doing here? For what reason am I here?
That… Felt more important to me.
When I came to my senses, I found myself lying on the soft carpet, and I looked around and saw that this was a study.
The bookshelves were stretched out in rows, and I saw the books in the bookshelf. Several familiar books caught my eye.
I’m not used to it, the feeling of moving all the things that were in my house? The people who moved the items didn’t seem to have done this once or twice.
When I opened a textbook that was barely visible and checked the contents, my handwriting was clear. Crooked.
When I listened to this lecture, I was drunk and took notes in the textbook as if I was scribbling in a daze.
…I remembered what happened in that country full of fog and hazy skies. …Wasn’t a very pleasant day. I don’t want to go back there again.
I like living in Korea much better. Because… It had all my favorite things here.
…Putting aside useless sentiments, once again, why am I here? It’s time to think about it.
Sure, I only moved the books, other than that, it’s the first time I’ve seen furniture, and the first time I’ve seen wallpaper.
…..
I looked at my arm.
There were dense blood marks on my arms, like barcodes on products.
I’ve been hurt dozens or hundreds of times so far, but I haven’t been able to get proper results even once.
Why do I live?
I can’t even do this properly.
I can’t even commit suicide on my own, I can’t do my job properly… I’m just an idiot who harms and gets in the way of people around me…
My head hurts because of my low blood pressure, and I was sluggish… But I got depressed. I don’t like to do anything. I think the food I ate will rise to the top.
I haven’t eaten anything so far, so I haven’t gotten sick. I felt a bitter sour taste in my mouth.
My head was dizzy and I sat down on the floor.
…Since I was lying still without doing anything, various miscellaneous thoughts came to my mind.
In my dream, I had a happy time with Yoo Seon. We went to the lake park together, ate delicious food, and picked out clothes. …The time that the child and Yoo Seon-yi spent together turned into the time I spent with Yoo Seon-yi in my dreams.
Sweet, happy times. Everything I always had in my heart and hoped for.
When I woke up from a dream- that it was just a dream.
I couldn’t accept that all the things I thought I was happy with were gone like bubbles.
Yeon Seon in my dream treated me kindly with an expression I’ve never seen before…
Actually, just looking at Yoo Seon from afar makes me happy- I can be satisfied with this relationship now.
That’s a lie.
Me too… I want to hold Yu Seon’s hand like that child, hug him from behind, and talk to him about something funny. I want to talk while taking a walk side by side… I want to whisper love to Yoo Seon every night…
There was no chance for that.
After high school, all relations with Yoo Seon were severed.
I can’t get it back. I can’t turn it around.
So… I had no choice but to stay still.
If I don’t touch it, at least I can see how Yu Seon is doing from afar.
If I intervene, I’m afraid I’ll hurt Yusun’s heart again.
Because she couldn’t even lose what she was barely holding in her hand.
So, is she wired? I couldn’t help but watch as she walked around happily with another woman.
I can do better, I can work hard too.
What that girl can do. I can do it too, I want to make Yoo Seon-ee happy, I want to make him feel good, but I can do everything he asks me to do…
My head hurts like it’s going to explode… Why am I here?
Obviously I slept in my house, but why did I wake up in such a strange place?
Until now, I cut my wrists and took sleeping pills. Drunk, so not where I am. It’s happened a few times in other strange places.
But then it happened either at my house or at a nearby hospital. I’ve never been in a strange place like this.
“Ah…”
Maybe he was kidnapped?
Perhaps they know that I have a lot of money and want to kidnap them and get a ransom?
But for a house set up by a kidnapper, it’s clean and well-maintained. It’s clean overall.
There is not a speck of dust on the floor, the wallpaper is clean, and the furniture is all new.
If you’re a kidnapper, don’t you just get paid well? Where is the kidnapper who makes the living environment of hostages so good..?
I’ve been thinking about it, but I don’t think it’s kidnapping. For now, I can move freely and express my thoughts.
Even if I were the kidnapper who kidnapped the hostages, I wouldn’t release them so freely. So… This isn’t just a kidnapping.
“…Hey…? Hey… There’s no one here…!”
I called someone, but there was no answer.
My head is dizzy because of low blood pressure. It’s hard to stand here right now… But I need to know what the hell happened to me right now…
…Walked to the front door.
I kept screaming here and there to check. It seemed that there was no one but me in this house.
Crying out in an ordinary family home- There’s no way that there’s an echo.
I have the illusion that my voice is hollow humming.
I was just afraid of being alone in an unfamiliar place, so I tried to open the front door and go outside.
-Rapped… Rattled…
…?
-Rabbing rattling
The front door didn’t open.
I checked to see if there was a lock I didn’t know about, just in case… But there was no such thing.
-…Thump…!
The front door still won’t open.
I tried kicking the door with my foot, but it only hurt my feet because it was made of steel. Then… Can we go out the window?
Since the windows here are large, I thought I could easily escape through them.
I’ve had a strange feeling since a while ago, but now I think I know what that feeling is.
The windows are all glass. A whole glass that cannot be opened or closed or pushed aside.
My current situation can be summarized in just three words.
I was trapped.
-Tung..! Tung…!
I brought a chair from the living room and tried to break the window, but it didn’t break.
As the chair leg touches the window, the color of the window changes to milky light…
– Excessive impact will damage the display.
This is no ordinary glass……. Is glass better than that?
Put down the chair you heard on the floor.
-Ding-dong.
Suddenly the bell rang. The sound of something opening with a click.
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When I went back to the front door, there was a package in the shoe box.
There was a hole under the door where someone could put things in and out, but it looked like someone had put a package in there.
I removed the tape from the box with my fingernail and opened the parcel box.
Tablet PC…?
First of all, I turned on the power.
It was an interface optimized for ordering something like a kiosk common in restaurants.
Looks like it was custom made by an individual rather than made by a platform.
There were several items to choose from, and I clicked on food.
Starting with Korean food, Japanese food, Chinese food… I could choose various foods, but I was never asked to pay.
What if I place an order?
So I ordered something that caught my eye.
Omurice.
You pressed omurice with your fingers.
-Rumble!
Omurice came out through the hole in the front door with a sound.
Looking like it was just made, the seaweed was coming up, the eggs were soft, and the rice looked delicious just by looking at it.
I finally figured out what the hole in the front door was for. This is a food court.
I understand how things are going now.
I’m confined to this house, and when I order food or other necessary items with a tablet PC, I realized that the structure is such that the items come in through that distribution port.
“…Excuse me..! Excuse me…!!! No one here…? Get me out of here!!”
I tried talking through the food outlet… But there was no response.