120 – Nursing
…Muffy.
A white bubble began to form in Lee Jin-ah’s small hands.
My eyes were looking straight ahead, but all my nerves were focused on Lee Jin-ah behind me.
Lee Jin-ah covered her body with a white shower gown so that I was embarrassed because I had a slightly strange idea when she suddenly entered her bathroom.
…Pushing the back… What the hell is that talking about…?
-Swap…Suck…
I felt her soft sponge on my back.
When she was young, she volunteered at an orphanage.
She once volunteered to wash the elderly who had difficulty moving, and now I feel like the grandfather I washed for at the time of the volunteer work.
Did I look uncomfortable to Lee Jin-ah when she walked around her house earlier?
She may have looked like someone who couldn’t wash herself.
Maybe that’s why she offered to push my back herself.
In the past, I washed Jinah Lee several times.
When she was in elementary school, Jina Lee couldn’t even wash her hair properly, so she was always stained with dirty grease, so she was often bullied by bad boys.
So I took her shampoo and her soap from her nursery and took her to her faucet in her school yard and washed her up.
“The nape of her neck and the back of her ears smell a lot if you don’t wash them… Looking at it earlier, her arms don’t seem to be moving very well…’
At that time, I also washed Jinah Lee’s hair and taught her how to wash her face.
When you look at a person, her hair or face is the first thing that catches your eye.
She taught me how to take a separate shower and do the laundry, but she’s a girl after all.
You can’t even take her clothes off in the middle of the playground. So she squeaks with her hands… Rubbing her body with her hands, her bath is like this… I was told to do that.
“…”
“… There… That… Looks like she needs to wash the inside of her arm too… Let me help you…”
Why do I suddenly remember those days?
For some reason, the areas washed are different, but I felt that there was no difference between elementary school days and now.
Except for a change of position.
Lee Jin-ah, who was behind me, grabbed my arm.
“…?”
“Ah… Wait a minute…”
… I was immersed in old thoughts, but suddenly Lee Jin-ah grabbed my arm from behind and I was startled and couldn’t help but struggle.
I talked to her from behind, but she didn’t listen carefully.
So I moved Jinah Lee’s arm to shake off her hand, and as soon as I moved her arm in the opposite direction, Jinah Lee’s body, which was holding my hand, naturally began to move into her bathtub.
– Fondant.
And before she fell out, she grabbed Jinah Lee by the back of her neck with her opposite arm and pushed her back out of the bathtub like a puppeteer.
Because she is a woman, she has a thin frame and a small weight, so she was able to pull it out before it fell out.
“…It hurts…”
Lee Jin-ah touches the red-hot back of her neck. And when she saw the sponge in her hand, it made sense.
This is when I thought Jinah Lee lifted my arm and lathered the inside of her as well and I think I was thinking of doing that but I was taken aback because I suddenly thought I had her arm grabbed.
I tried to shake her off by grabbing her arm within her, and I think her body was naturally sucked into her bathtub by her force…
“…Oh! Yoo Seon-ah… Thank you..!”
Coming to think of it, Yoojeong is also taller than most girls, but her strength is weaker than mine, so Jinah Lee is much smaller than Yoojung, and doesn’t seem to exercise separately…
It reminded me once again of the fact that I could hold Jinah Lee in one hand and shake her if I wanted to.
“All right, can you leave now?”
“…Uh…?”
Lee Jin-ah’s pupils widened slightly.
Watching her huh-huh and her mouth open as if she had been hit over the head with her hammer, I instantly realized there was something wrong with my word choice.
I realized that I needed to refine my expression a bit, so I opened my mouth again.
“…Thank you for helping me, but I can do everything else,”
-And I can wash places like armpits by myself. I think I was trying to wash it here too, but unfortunately I’m not a three-year-old.
Actually, I never asked for my back to be washed.
You came all the way into the bathroom on your own.
I wanted to say the same thing, but I decided to hold back. Because…
It was because Lee Jin-ah’s face was as red as a tomato.
Seeing my eyes reddened and my shoulders swaying up and down little by little, as if I had insulted my personality, I thought I didn’t know what to do.
…Should I care about how Lee Jin-ah reacts?
After all, to be honest, I have no obligation to even bother with that.
I am also a victim, but I was also brought here… After all, everything that led to my being imprisoned happened because of Lee Jin-ah, so why should I feel sorry…?
“.. Hey..! You… That…”
-Sniff
There was something she wanted to say in her head, but when she saw Lee Jin-ah weeping lightly, her mind turned white like an eraser.
Still, she seemed to be trying to help me on her own, so she felt sorry for saying anything.
“…I’m sorry… I think I spoke too harshly… I’m sorry. I’ll be more careful in the future”
…To be honest, I don’t know why Jina Lee is crying right now, and I don’t know what I did wrong. I just want to rectify the situation…
-Sniff…
“I’ll be there… Call me if you need me…”
I felt my heart covered with sin… I was able to spend some time in the bathtub thinking about what I had done wrong.
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“…Ugh…”
Wipe the tears with your hands.
Since I was crouching alone in the quiet study, my heart felt a little better.
I…I didn’t mean to… But Yu Seon has a hard time even walking.
Of course, I thought it would be difficult to wash by myself… I was trying to help.
Just fine, no need.
Because you say it like that… It hurts a little… No, a lot.
I also want to help Yoo Seon, but I can do it well.
Today, when I walked around the living room with Yoo Seon, I could be of help to Yoo Seon.
…I was a little happy to have the opportunity to make amends for the wrongs I’ve done so far.
It was so… Nice that Yoo Seon had to have me.
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I want to take care of the sick Yoo Seon-i, I want to take care of her again, I want to be by her side… I even thought of going into the bathroom and pushing her back.
Before… Yoo Seon-i also taught me how to wash her face… So I wanted to help Yoo Seon-i too.
So… I just went into the bathroom and pushed my back… It’s uncomfortable to move my arms… But I wanted to push them instead…
When I was told to leave… It hurt a lot.
Yoo Seon doesn’t need me…
Until yesterday, when I went to the bathroom, I couldn’t do anything without my help.
Now I can wash myself, and Yoo Seon-i has gotten stronger, so now he can lift me up and put me down with one hand…
I can’t move well because my body isn’t relaxed yet… Yoo Seon-i will gradually recover as tomorrow goes by, and the day after tomorrow goes by…
I’m pretty sure I said with my mouth that if Yudeon feels better, he’ll be sent out.
I will keep my promise… I don’t want to break my promise to Yoo Seon anymore… So… I will keep my promise…
-Kikkik… Jerkjeok…
I could hear the sound of the bathroom door opening and Yoo Seon moving.
If… Come into my study and ask me why I’m crying, should I answer something…?
…I cried because of Yoo Seon..! If I say that… Won’t it hurt…?
I have bad eyesight, so when I get in the bathtub steam, tears come out. Yeah, I’d rather have a lame excuse like that…
“…Over there…”
-Kung
I came out of the study and tried to talk to Yoo Seon, but Yoo Sun went into the bedroom and slammed the door shut.
I just blinked in front of the closed door, not knowing what had happened.
I have a story I want to tell Yoo Seon. There are so many things to tell, so many things to tell… But it felt like a huge wall had gone up between us.
I don’t think Yoo Seon wants to talk to me right now.
Why…? Why…?
A lot of uneasy thoughts started popping up in my head.
Until now, Yoo Seon continued to take care of the sick, walk around the living room together… Also, feeding her and watching her sleep from the side.
Wouldn’t the little happiness I’ve enjoyed while living in this house disappear one by one…?
One word, two words. It’s okay even if it’s a trivial story… How many more times will we have to share that short conversation with Yoo Seon?
In the future, Yoo Seon will get healthier… And stronger… Then he won’t need my help.
Isn’t it going back to the days when I couldn’t help Yoo Seon-i and only observed him like before…?
I don’t like that. I don’t want to do any more just watching from afar…
I also want to stick together and get along well. I want to talk about old memories, I want to eat something delicious, and I want to go to a fun place.
…At least while I’m in this house, I want to do a lot of the things I’ve always wanted to do for Yoo Seon-i, and there are still many things I want to do…
Yeon Seon doesn’t need my help anymore.
I don’t want to be a useless person to Seon Yoo. Uncomfortable person. He doesn’t want to be an awkward person…
In front of the tightly closed door, I was contemplating whether or not to keep going in…
I want to be with you, but I also want to read a book next to Yoo Seon, who is sleeping snugly in bed, and I want to get into the blanket and rub my body, and I want to secretly do cute things in my arms…
Like I did in the bathroom, I’m afraid Yoo Seon will tell me that I can leave because I don’t need it anymore…
I’m so afraid of hearing things I don’t want to hear… I can’t even go into my bedroom like an idiot… I’m wandering around alone… My fingertips and toes are so cold… It’s not until the time I can’t stand it any longer…
I turned the doorknob just a little bit and looked inside the bedroom…
Wandering around the living room today…I wonder if I’m tired…? Yoo Seon-i was lying on the bed and sleeping.
…I waved my palms just in case, but Yu Seon didn’t want to wake up… I cautiously sat down on the chair next to the bed.