122 – Confinement
I had a headache because of the medicine.
I don’t know how much time has passed since my meeting with the chairman, but… (There was no clock in this house.) Even though I slept like a baby all day, I still felt the energy in my body.
Just like the sticky tar that is applied to the stomach to make it waterproof.. The sleeping pills that permeated the lungs did not disappear and continued to eat away at me.
When I woke up from the bed, Lee Jin-ah was there.
A light ivory-colored pajamas.
With her brown hair tied back neatly, she sat in her chair, looking at her body.
On the table beside her bed was a book she thought she had just read.
I couldn’t make out what the book was about because it was scrawled in English and cursive. Other than that, nothing was different.
Like yesterday, I was lying in bed. Jinah Lee was sitting next to me… But I could feel that the air in this room was quite different.
…Something… So it’s hard to explain in detail, but should I say the air is sticky..? An unknown subtle air current was swirling around.
Lee Jin-ah must have washed her hair once, and her light brown hair was wet and had a unique sweet fruity scent.
…It looks a little cute.
She involuntarily thought that she had.
…Thump…Thump…Thump…
Feeling the slow-moving pulse, I turned my head.
Today’s Lee Jin-ah was different from usual. As she placed her hands neatly on her lap, she couldn’t meet her eyes looking at me with her sparkling eyes.
She looks grown-up and mature, and… Somewhere hard to explain, a strange s*xual energy rises like a haze… Something strange… She didn’t seem to notice the change in herself.
No… Maybe, Lee Jin-ah is no different, but she might be what I’m thinking strangely.
Everything I’ve been through since I came to this house drunk has turned into a mess.
When can I get out of this house?
Lee Jin-ah said that once my body recovers, she will let me go outside. She even said that with her own mouth, and she should be able to believe it.
And she thinks that Lee Jin-ah, she doesn’t even know whether the future group that runs this facility will release me or not.
Her arms and legs are sore, but she can move them.
“…You can lie down some more… Are you going to move?”
She pulled up the covers and pulled herself up.
To be honest, I wanted to lie down on a soft bed and rest, and I didn’t want to do anything.
It felt like I had sand in my eyes, and I yawned… And my head was foggy, so I thought I’d be able to sleep again if I just kept lying down like this.
However, I slowly slipped out of the blanket, dragging my body as heavy as wet cotton, and stood up on my feet again, just like yesterday.
I feel drowsy, everything is bothersome, I don’t want to do anything, but… I can’t lie in bed.
When I was young, I used to wrap myself in a blanket and have various delusions.
What will I do when I become a middle school student later? How will I be when I become a high school student? Something like that
I didn’t know that at the time.
Thinking about it now, I think I was able to think about the future in my own way, and although it was not specific, I was able to have a chance to set a direction for my life.
What kind of life do people who left the orphanage live afterward?
Now that I know where the final destination is for a lost adult… My habit of setting goals in my head and making plans has been a praiseworthy habit.
Of course, she followed Jin-ah Lee and since she went to high school in the future, she hasn’t done anything like that.
Because I found out that everything in this world doesn’t go the way I thought.
My head is hazy.
There was no guarantee that everything would go as planned, but at least while I was in this house, I thought I should make a promise to myself once again and try to keep it.
In the current situation, if I had no plan, I would just lie in bed doing nothing.
“…Your complexion doesn’t look too good, how about lying in bed…? I’ll read you a book too…! What kind of book is this… There are dramas in the US and plays in the UK? It’s an incredibly famous novel…! I’m sure even Yoo Seon-yi will find it interesting.
I put the novel that was on the table next to me in front of me, raised my hand, and pushed aside the novel that was blocking my face.
Then, this time, Jinah Lee’s hands pressed my shoulders. Just like – telling me not to get out of bed.
But it was more like putting her hand lightly on her shoulder rather than pressing hard.
To be frank. Lee Jin-ah noticed that I didn’t like getting out of bed.
In front of my eyes, Lee Jin-ah’s hair flowed down like a waterfall. Me trying to get out of bed, and Lee Jin-ah trying to stop it.
Since I was sitting and Jinah Lee was standing, Jinah Lee leaned over her slightly to make eye level with her.
Through her ivory-colored nightgown, I could see underwear of the same color and a soft lump of flesh. I hurriedly turned my gaze elsewhere.
A pair of soft-looking thighs, and if she looked up from there, her waist, which looked like it could easily fit into one arm, caught her eye.
… Her head was a little dizzy.
“… She said she walked around a bit yesterday too. She was just sweating… Are you okay…?”
Looking at me, Lee Jin-ah’s face was full of expressions of concern for me.
For a moment, I felt remorse for leaving her like that, and having her eyes focused on her stern place.
…Remorse. It was a little funny that I was feeling that in the current situation.
“…Can we take a break today…?”
– Plop
Lee Jin-ah naturally sat down next to me.
She crouched down with her body holding my arm.
I hope you don’t wake up.
I didn’t say it out of her mouth, but she was pleading with me.
She clutched her own little head and started leaning over my shoulder.
Looking at her expression from the side of her eye, Lee Jin-ah seemed to have a lot of thoughts.
-Brush.
But there was no reason for me to listen to Lee Jin-ah. Her body, Lee Jin-ah, began to tremble.
I wasn’t feeling well, but I was able to get up.
“…Then..! I’ll stand up and help you..! Just like yesterday..! Hold my shoulders..! I can help you walk well..!”
When I got out of bed, Lee Jin-ah naturally followed suit.
Looking at Lee Jin-ah standing in front of me, I could clearly see the difference in her physique between us.
She weighs half as much, and she is only as tall as my stomach, so I don’t know what she can do to help.
I felt it when I stood up, but I definitely felt less dizzy than yesterday.
I didn’t feel any discomfort while walking.
At least … Jina Lee’s body wasn’t uncomfortable enough to walk around holding onto her shoulders.
“It’s okay”
“…”
“Then would you like some water? Are you thirsty? Or are you hungry? Eating and walking?”
“…I’m not very thirsty, and I’m not hungry either.”
“…Wouldn’t it be boring just to walk…? Shall we read a book together or watch TV…? There are only DVDs…But it will be fun”
“When will you send me home…?”
“…Be patient”
Should I tell you..? Shall I say…? I thought about it, but in the end, I felt like I had to speak up.
Do you intend to send me home, and… If so, when?
She brought out a sentence that could be called taboo in the current situation, but Lee Jin-ah didn’t get angry or cry like before.
Although the brilliance in his twinkling brown eyes had disappeared.
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“Because he was injured… That’s why Yoo Seon-i was here. If he moved forcibly, the wound could fester and explode… I don’t want him to move, but the wound shouldn’t open…? Hey, Yoo Seon-ah. .. How is life here..? Worth it…?
Are you bored just lying down? Still, because she could fall like yesterday if she moved alone. Let’s walk with me, okay?”
“…”
Although she heard that she wanted to go home quickly, Lee Jin-ah did not change.
At least in this situation, I knew that making such a suggestion again would itself require courage for Lee Jin-ah.
Her criticism of her self, and her criticism of her grandfather. At least I had the right to talk about this environment in which I am now trapped, and the moment I was about to speak about my legitimate rights once again.
Lee Jin-ah opened her mouth first.
“…Don’t like being with me…?”
Jinah Lee stretched out her hand and she was within reach.
This is a fact that she found out while washing herself the other day, but Lee Jin-ah was light-hearted.
Also, I worked out in the army, and maybe it’s because I’m taller and weigh more than men my age, so I was evaluated as exerting some effort in the army.
To be specific, I could hit 100 units of her bench press.
So I thought, maybe I can lift her Lee Jin-ah with one hand?
It’s nonsense in the first place.
It doesn’t make sense that this situation blindly pushed her man and woman into a room like this.
Did the chairman create this event knowing what would happen with me and his granddaughter here?
When I first came here, there were many things I wanted to say to Lee Jin-ah.
Why am I here?
And why are you here…? What did i do wrong Isn’t everything between us over?
I can’t live because of you.
I resent her a lot, and I wanted to pay her back even if it was 1/10th of what she had suffered…
The anger accumulated until now lost its direction and began to wander at random.
This time it was not Lee Jin-ah, but her Gina and her grandfather did whatever they liked.
Again- what do you mean by taking out your anger on Lee Jin-ah here…? Lee Jin-ah could have not wanted this situation.
Will my heart be relieved if I grab her by the neck and lift her up here…?
…Unlike me, I have a lot of useless thoughts.
I pushed Lee Jin-ah and ran out of her room. My steps were much lighter than yesterday.
Since she was confined to the house, nothing much has happened so far.
“…”
…Nothing will happen in the future.
I felt very uncomfortable in this space with Lee Jin-ah.
So I left the room and arrived at the front door. Grab the doorknob and pull it hard.
-Chunky… Chunkyong…
Of course, the door didn’t open. This time I knocked on the door with my fist and shouted… But the result was the same.
…Because hearing explanations in words and actually seeing them are different, this incident made me realize again that I was definitely trapped in this place.