44 – Part 1 complete
Old, faded photos. Mom and Dad inside were looking so happy.
I am happy.
A line written in a diary. That was telling me what my dad’s situation was like at the time.
Her mother had no money and no family, but her father was able to meet her mother and create a happy family like everyone else.
Two people left alone in the world. The two met each other and were able to survive in a harsh society by relying on each other.
Although it was a small single room, my mom always cooked delicious food for my dad, and again- my dad worked hard without a break for a more spacious nest with mom.
A handyman at a construction site, a substitute driver, and- carrying flyers and delivering milk at dawn. Although the body was hard. For a brighter future, for a better future than yesterday, I ran looking forward.
A big accident for those two. One came into being.
An accident that completely turned Korean society upside down besides mom and dad.
IMF
The big thing that I only saw in textbooks came to attack my family.
Sebyeol group collapsed
Looking at the contents written in the diary, should I read this diary more or not…? I pondered for a while.
Because the content before that was difficult…But if you persevere, you will find a rosy future…I had that optimistic feeling.
I wonder if I should continue reading this because I don’t think the content full of dreams and hopes will be written anymore. I wondered if I should or not…
I couldn’t stop. Because, from the next diary, the contents I wanted to know.
Why, Mom and Dad, had no choice but to abandon me to an orphanage? And where did mom go, and why did dad work so hard alone – and met a lonely end.
In order to know that… I had to find out about it through the diary.
People who ignore the aftermath of the IMF, a large conglomerate in Seoul collapsed overnight, and commit suicide because of the hardships of life. People sitting on the street, fighting every day, beating each other, and again- there were a lot of discord in the family.
And then, the field my dad was working hard on at the time was ruined. I had no income for several months. Then- I… Was born.
My mother was not feeling well.
It was recorded in my diary that I couldn’t work at a restaurant for a long time because my skin was so weak that even if I stood in the sun for a long time, my skin would turn red.
But in that situation, I think her mother suffered a lot when I came out into the world.
I need an operation at the obstetrics and gynecology clinic, but I need money for that.
But my dad had no money for months because he had no income.
Even if I tried to save some money instead of moving my current house to a smaller place, no one would accept my dad’s real estate.
Because I didn’t have money like my dad, so I tried to sell everything I had to Hull.
Future Capital.
In the past, there were no regulations on corporate finance, so even if a company collected 1% interest per day, there was no bill to prevent it.
Besides, at that time, there was no education on how dangerous such private finance was, and there was even less awareness that it was dangerous, so many people used the loan system created by Mirae Group.
“…”
My mother was not in good health, so she had to undergo major surgery to give birth to me.
So my dad owed a lot to the future group for her mom and me to be born into this world.
But she succeeded in giving birth to me in the hospital. Her mother gave birth to me. I was sent off to the sky.
Hospitals of the future. It is a large hospital built by Mirae Group. If I had gone to another obstetrics and gynecology clinic instead of Mirae Hospital, would my mother have lived?
Because the IMF is dangerous, it was a difficult time enough to ruin even a leading conglomerate. Mirae Group did not choose any means and methods to quickly recover the money lent to people.
In the precious house where my father and I belong, men in black suits always visit. Daily. Breaking, smashing things in the house.
It was an unavoidable choice because I was screaming at him to pay me back quickly. First of all, let’s pay off the debt and bring Yu Seon again. Dad seemed to have made that choice.
I went outside to work today, and a kindergartener wearing yellow was walking around. Yoo Seon must have been around that age too- I want to pay off the money quickly and live with Yoo Seon.
Since her mother died and I went to nursery school, that was the only thing in her diary, so I couldn’t possibly read it.
Because the diary contains the struggles of a head of household who is trying hard to get his bones broken and his flesh torn to return to the happy past.
2)
I closed the last page of my diary. A diary of nearly ten volumes. And… 3-4 Photo albums.
The mourners who never came while reading them. What is Human? And what is a blood relationship? I do not know.
Even before I came down to this city, where did the strong resentment and hostility I had toward the human father go?
All the resentment and anger I had built up until now have already evaporated, and I have a strong longing for my father whom I have never seen before. Only sadness and sympathy remained in my heart.
“…Seonah Yoo!”
The entrance to the funeral hall is noisy. I lifted my crouching head and looked at her face… It was Lee Jin-ah.
Short tennis hippo, white karati. The clothes we wore when we came down here by train from school.
Come to think of it, as soon as Lee Jin-ah saw her father’s last appearance, she immediately lost her mind.
Right after she was discharged from the hospital. Did she come here…?
Future Capital. Since the IMF, the Mirae Group has shown overwhelming growth that is incomparable to the past.
It is said that Mirae Group alone accounts for 20% or 25% of Korea’s total production. Why was Mirae Group, an ordinary conglomerate, able to grow so much?
“Dog-like puppies”
“Yoo…Sunah?”
“Even then, you knew how to make cars, mine oil, build apartments- you knew how to make boats, and even semiconductors.
Hey, it’s because you bully and squeeze people weaker than you. What’s fun… ? Was it really fun?”
“..? Yoo Seon-ah, what the hell is that…”
Lee Jin-ah’s eyes were fixed on the diary and photo album next to me.
“…Ah… Yoo Sun-ah. I… I don’t know anything. I… I don’t know what that… Happened. Your father and I have nothing to do with it.
I… I was just born then, how could I…! And it was hard for me too. I’m lonely, I’m in pain… I’m… I’m…
Even if you hate the future group, I hope you don’t hate me… I… I can give up everything! Mirae Group I said no!
…Sorry for yelling at you. I… I want Yoo Seon to remain a good person to you. Sorry. It’s my fault…!
I… I will take responsibility for you for the rest of my life with a sorry heart. With a sorry heart… Because I was wrong again.
I will try to live a life of reflection. So, I hope you understand this one thing… Yoo Seon-ah, I had a hard time too…
So I know. I know what pain is like, what it’s like to be poor, what it’s like to be hard, and what it’s like to be pitiful.”
Blah blah blah. I don’t know what you’re talking about. In fact, I don’t even want to understand.
No matter what the IMF is and what Jina Lee says, I like it.
Her mother passed away because she underwent surgery at Future Hospital, and her father ruined her life by erroneously borrowing money from Future Capital.
I was wrongly involved with Mirae Group, so this happened.
Future Group.
Future Group.
Future Group.
Just hearing the name makes me feel sick. I don’t need anything else, and I just wanted to stop being associated with this damn future group.
“…Hey, whatever the f*ck you say, I don’t want to understand that, and I don’t want to talk to you. Just looking at your face makes my blood pressure rise.
Don’t say anything- I’m so f*cking mad- why… What did I do to you… You’re bullying me like this?”
“…Yoo Seon Kang”
Lee Jin-ah’s pupils lost her focus and began to blur.
“What the f*ck. Just like my mom and dad, I’m going to kill myself. Now? Kill me, b*tch.”
I don’t even want to think about what’s going to happen in the future. f*ck your stomach.
That… I hate it. I’m so annoyed. Doing something with Lee Jin-ah is so disgusting and unpleasant.
Since the old days, I have never thought of impressing Lee Jin-ah. And… It still doesn’t change that fact.
I just wanted to annoy Lee Jin-ah, curse her, and annoy her. She kept pouring out and spitting out embarrassing words from her mouth.
When she utters obscene words, vulgar swear words, she flinches-flinches. You can see Jinah Lee’s body agitated in her eyes. She said so far she couldn’t do anything and she was helpless.
Seeing Lee Jin-ah suffer like that made her feel good.
“…Yoo…Seonah Yoo…Don’t talk like that…Please…I’m scared…I did it wrong…I did it wrong…I’m sorry…I’m sorry do…”
Lee Jin-ah, who can’t do anything but shed her tears. She’s rather heinous when you think of what she’s done to me so far.
It was hard for me too. I even tried to commit suicide, but I hate Lee Jin-ah, who shed tears after hearing such swear words a few times.
I hate it.
I wish I could just search.
Nothing will change even if you come back and mess around. Pungpung – Because the dead don’t come back just because they shed tears.
“I could have had a dad who could ride my wooden horse, and I could have had a mom who made me a delicious breakfast. We played soccer in the park on the weekends and had picnics together.
Also, I could have lived a happy life sitting down and grilling meat instead of cleaning the grill at the restaurant.”
“…Seonah Yoo”
“Or maybe my dad was a lousy man. Because he was stupid and pathetic, a heartless man who abandoned me at an orphanage and never thought to find me again. You could have made me think about it for the rest of my life.
I regret it so much. Because, when you said, “Would you like to go see my dad?” I should have firmly refused, but I regret not doing so. I’d rather not know.”
“..U..”
“It’s just that I regret the whole life I’ve lived so far. I shouldn’t have played with you when I was in elementary school- I should have pretended I didn’t see you getting beat up behind me.
Future Group. I hate being involved with you, it’s annoying, it’s disgusting.
Just… So, please, I hope you don’t stand out from me in the future. Or, I might get really annoyed and hang myself. Even now, talking to you while looking at your face makes me feel bad, and I feel like I’m going crazy because I’m annoyed.”
“….Yoo Seon prefers me gone..?”
“Oh. I hope you don’t appear in front of me again.”
“…Yeah! Got it! From now on, Yoo Seon will disappear forever in front of you!”
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It’s not like Lee Jin-ah. I thought I was going to cry, blow, and beg.
On the contrary, he had a faint smile on his lips.
…That’s what he says, but he might have some ulterior motive behind his back. I didn’t miss a lot of vigilance.
Then Jinah Lee suddenly approached me.
He didn’t try to stab me with a knife in his bosom like in some novels, nor did he try to feed me the poison in his mouth.
Just Jina Lee, she wanted to be held in my arms. I strongly pushed Jinah Lee’s shoulder.
-Quadang.
“…Ah”
I just don’t know what to do with me. She didn’t even control her strength and pushed Lee Jin-ah roughly, and Lee Jin-ah fell.
I was surprised that she fell down more helplessly than I expected, and everyone around me from Mirae Group was also surprised- Lee Jin-ah seemed okay.
“…It’s okay..! I’m fine. Everyone, please don’t worry.”
Lee Jin-ah, who brushed off the dust from her clothes, seemed to have done nothing. She turned around and started to leave her funeral home.
I quietly looked at Lee Jin-ah’s back.
One step. And. One more step.
Lee Jin-ah’s steps as she went outside stopped for a moment.
Her hair in a ponytail hung down behind her, her shoulders trembled, and a whimper could be heard.
…And then another step. Another step. Lee Jin-ah walked forward little by little.
Until I can’t see it. She didn’t stop walking.