46 – A Girl’s Only Friend
…A lot has happened since the group assignment.
A story you can’t even tell.
The end of the story is that I am now raised by my grandfather.
Actually, nothing else matters.
I don’t want to think about anything else.
My grandfather is one of the busiest people in the world, so he can’t do anything with me.
It was good that I didn’t have to go through any inconveniences in my life because there were several people who could help me instead of my grandfather.
They were willing to do whatever I wanted and make it come true… I really liked it.
Except for one thing.
I’m fine.
I’m really fine and want to go back to school quickly, but post-traumatic stress..?
I didn’t like having to stay in the hospital for months because of it.
I am healthy enough to run lightly and eat well. I sleep well, but I don’t know where the hell am I to be locked up in a mental hospital like this because I’m sick.
I’m fine, I’m really fine. Nothing to do, lots of time. So i…
“I want to be pretty!”
I said that to the bodyguard who protects me in the women’s ward.
Perhaps it was surprising that I said that, and through the sunglasses I could see my eyebrows pouting up.
That… I’m a little embarrassed to say that.
Because, if a child who doesn’t even manage hygiene well, such as washing his hair and washing his body, suddenly starts behaving wildly because he wants to be pretty… It must be embarrassing..? Because a child who can’t walk well says he wants to run…
Still, while I was admitted to the hospital and then returned home to recuperate. I have changed a lot.
Starting with tidying up my hair, how to dress, how to put on makeup, etc… If I don’t study too hard, I can’t do group assignments like Yoo Seon and have to take separate classes, so I studied hard at school.
That… My grandfather also saw me like this and burst out laughing- Yeah… I’m going to work hard! It was a pleasure to tell you.
I want to be Yoo Seon’s best friend.
So… I helped Yoo Sun a lot during group assignments, so we got good results together. Also… So I worked hard to nurture myself so that I could win the competition with the girls who were just hanging out next to Yoo Seon-yi.
Because even if those kids cling to me like leeches, I want them to look at me. Pretty- prettier- so… I think Yoo Seon-i will like it-
2) I can finally go to school. I looked at myself in the mirror one last time before going to school.
The round forehead is slightly exposed with bangs, and the hair is neatly tied back. Today, I wore makeup better than usual.
At first, there was a reluctance in my heart to ask if middle school students were already wearing makeup, but that… Other people do it too- they all dress up a lot, but if I go around with a bare face… I wonder if it’s wired. It was because I felt like I was going to see another girl besides me.
– No! The lady is the prettiest child in school!
Although the stylist unnies said, but being a human being, if you don’t thoroughly prepare everything in advance, you will fail in an unexpected place.
Yeah… I wanted to be an astute person. I will be reborn as a new person in the future.
The twisted Jina. Dirty jinn. I don’t like Jin-ah like that anymore.
I just- I have a pleasant scent, and I wear extremely expensive clothes- and I dress well so that Yoo Seon-i won’t like me when he sees me?
Yes.
I hope Yoo Seon will like me.
The other day, when I did group assignments, Yoo Seon looked at those kids next to her, why did I feel bad. Now I understand why.
Yu Seon tapped her arm, laughed lightly and hugged her, blowing air into her ear. It’s not something you do with friends.
It’s good to play with a ball, it’s good to play house, and it’s good to talk. I… Plus, I wanted to do the same as what those kids did.
You can call me greedy. But you can’t help it. That’s a person … I also want to blow air into Yoo Seon’s ears, hold her arms tightly, and touch her belly from behind.
How about thinking like this..? Even the girls I just met do it, and I’m Yoo Seon’s friend. Even people I don’t know in the first place do it, but of course I’m a friend, because I’m closer than Yoo Seon.
Couldn’t that… Be even worse..? For example, putting my hand inside my clothes… Such an act.
“…”
My heart is pounding. My heart was pounding as if I was running.
I barely calmed down my trembling heart and entered the class.
Nobody. As she sat in an empty classroom and waited quietly… That… Click-and Yoo Seon-i caught my eye.
“…hehehe”
I was so glad that I raised her hand and greeted Yoo Seon… Yoo Seon’s expression seemed to be taken aback.
Why? Did something bad happen today…? That’s what I thought, but all of a sudden- a few people came into the class
– Hey! Are you a transfer student..? What’s your name…?
-Jinah…? There was a kid named Jin in your class..?
-Hey, do you want to go out with me?
All the people I didn’t even know the name surrounded me… And started asking me about this and that.
I’ve never had anything like this happen in my life. It’s about to hurt your ears.
It’s… It’s screaming so loud, it’s like it’s spitting. Also… I didn’t even allow it, but I just touched the hem of my dress- and… That… Grabbed my hair that was just tied back and sniffed it and sniffed it…
“Hey…Kids…!”
That… Is so scary. I have to say something, but I have to tell you not to… I was so scared that I couldn’t speak properly.
I looked at Yoo Seon.
Yoo Seon only stared at the window with a blank face, but he didn’t pay attention to me.
I’m being treated this way, I’m being humiliated by others in this way… Why…? Why…?
In that moment, I could feel that all the blood in my body was shooting out.
Yoo Seon doesn’t pay attention to me.
Before that time, when I was beaten up by Kim Tae-yang – It’s not that wonderful Yoo Seon-i who broke through countless people and helped me.
This is not Yoo Seon-yi, you have to help me… I’m surrounded by such strange people right now…
Why? Why? Aren’t you helping me? Why won’t you save me…?
“-These things! Do you know what kind of market this is…?”
The teacher, dressed in a sloppy hanbok, swung a danso and drove the people around me away. And our eyes met.
-Frown.
I heard that my grandfather gave small gifts to some teachers so that I could attend Hanbit Middle School safely.
Isn’t that why the hanbok teacher did that?
It’s not about chasing out flies that cling to some fish, it’s just like this with a single shot… It’s so threatening that I think you’ll get hurt.
“I will inspect my belongings from now on”
Inspection of belongings.
The first thing the teacher was looking for was a bag.
“… Hey~ You bastard… Why are you carrying a school uniform, Jin-ah Lee…? What the f*ck were you trying to do with this…?
Yumma, if you do that, your bones will die”
My school uniform was found in Seon Yoo’s bag.
When I said that I couldn’t buy a school uniform because I didn’t have money. At that time, Yoo Seon-i said not to worry, and he said he would find a school uniform somehow. He remembered talking to me.
…Thank God.
A while ago, Yoo Seon didn’t save me surrounded by people, so didn’t interest in me really fall?
Didn’t Seon Yoo’s ‘best friend’ position be stolen by another woman?
I was very anxious when I thought about that. That wasn’t it.
Even though it’s been months since I haven’t been to school, Yoo Seon still thinks of me so much that she brought my school uniform in my bag instead, so that I wouldn’t get into trouble because I didn’t have one. .
… Teacher and Yu Seon’s voice rises. So, just the two of them fighting, Yoo Seon hit the head with a single weapon – and Yoo Seon pushed the teacher with his hand – and tripped him.
The teachers in the next class looked at Yoo Seon-i and said something- and the classroom became a mess in an instant.
After that day, Yoo Seon-i was taken as a complete problem child in our class.
People don’t even think about how funny Yoo Seon-yi is talking about, or how kind, gentle, and kind she is, just because she came from an orphanage – there are a lot of rough parts. Violent. So I pushed the teacher. There have been many such stories.
“…It’s not like that guys…”
I hope there are no kids cursing Yoo Seon. In the hope that everyone would not hate Yoo Seon-i, the moment she opened her mouth and tried to take her side… I thought about many things for a while.
Once… No one is around wired right now. Then… Seeing Yoo Seon-i pushing away the teacher, the girls who did the group assignment the other day seem to be unable to treat Yoo Seon-i kindly like before and distance themselves a bit.
Not just the girls, but the other boys as well. It seemed like there was an invisible wall around the wire. So… Everyone seemed to be afraid of approaching Yoo Seon-i,
Isn’t that an advantage for me?
I thought that I didn’t have to worry every day because I was afraid that Yoo Seon-i’s friend, who was closer than me, would come out.
People cannot live alone.
I have to live with other people… But if Yoo Seon is isolated at school and alone…
Of course, you must be tired and lonely.
At that time, if I appeared in front of Yoo Seon like a princess riding a white horse… Wouldn’t Yoo Seon like me more than he does now..?
As I thought about that, plausible plans were drawn in my head.