＜Episode 111＞ Things to protect
That afternoon, I went straight to the obstetrics and gynecologist.
To Si-eun who had completed several examinations, the doctor said in a warm tone.
“You are 5 weeks pregnant.”
It was a word that confirmed the ‘good news’.
I can’t even remember how I felt at this moment. It was clear that all kinds of feelings were mixed together and that it was in a state that could not be fully expressed.
Joy and emotion, happiness and loveliness, on the other hand, responsibility and worry.
Countless emotions were running wild in my head and heart.
“The figures were normal and the nursery looked good. You can now take care of yourself and get regular checkups.”
“… … yes.”
To the doctor’s explanation that followed, Si-eun answered in a hazy voice.
Tears were welling up in his eyes.
After making a reservation, we decided to rest on the sofa in the hospital lobby.
When I took a seat in one corner, Si-eun sat right next to me. The appearance of moving his body from side to side immediately seemed to be in a good mood.
He reached out and grabbed Si-eun’s opposite shoulder. Si-eun, who was suddenly frozen, turned her head and looked at me.
“why?”
“Why? You have to take care of yourself, honey.”
“Even if this is okay.”
“Did your doctor tell you to take care of yourself?”
When asked, Si-eun snorted.
“Then can I not move at all? Can I throw away all the housework?”
“yes. are you okay. I will do it all.”
He tilts his head at the sound of rants.
“really?”
Si-eun asked the question with a look of doubt. How the hell do you see your husband? To instill faith, I answered with my chest stretched out.
“… … Except for cooking.”
“… … done. I’ll just do it all.”
Si-eun said with an exasperated face.
I think I failed to give you trust. what to do There is no other way than cooking. Because I can’t eat just three meals a day fried rice.
As soon as he released his arm, Si-eun raised the corner of her mouth.
Was the conversation just interesting? Or was I funny? Neither side has anything to say. It is said that laughing is good for the body, so I decided to leave it alone.
But hey, isn’t it something to seriously consider?
I was very happy when I first heard the news from Si-eun. After being confirmed by the doctor, I felt blissful.
However, as I gradually regained my sense of reality, I began to worry about the future.
When Si-eun’s stomach comes, I have to take care of the housework. Si-eun will have to suffer alone while I’m at work or training camp. When the school year started, there would be no one to look after the children.
Hiring someone to help solves some problems, though. It is highly likely that you will run into another problem.
For those of us who have just turned 23, maybe it’s a gift that came too early.
Was our choice really right?
we are… … Can you be happy until the end?
Unlike me, who was deeply concerned, Si-eun was only smiling. If it was the same, Si-eun would have taken care of the details. How did the roles get reversed?
Of course, it was easy to guess why.
“Oh.”
Si-eun stopped her shaking body and spoke.
“I need to call my mother right away.”
“I know. Call me right away.”
Si-eun, who smiled at my words, manipulated the phone and immediately put it to her ear.
The mouth, which had only smiled quietly, slowly opened up.
“Mom.”
As soon as he put these words to his lips, Si-eun’s eyes reddened again.
It wasn’t long before the tears that had dried for a while filled up again.
okay. It was only natural that Si-eun was so happy.
In a situation where you don’t know when your mother will get worse, to get married early and show your children. Because it’s something to be proud of.
I hope Si-eun’s mother puts her mind at ease. There was this wind within me.
I didn’t dare say it out loud, but Si-eun must have wanted it much deeper than I did.
“yes. That’s right. yes… … .”
Si-eun burst into tears as she delivered the news. Occasionally, he wiped the tears away with the back of his hand.
As I watched them talk while sniffling their noses, I felt like crying too.
After a while, Si-eun held out her phone.
“Mom asked me to change it.”
“Well.”
Si-eun was still sobbing. Is it because of the excitement that has risen from the drums? The cry seemed not to go away easily.
He patted his cheek and said, “It’s okay, don’t cry.” He handed the phone to me.
[hello?]
[Gosh. our son-in-law.]
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Mother’s tone was more recalled than usual.[yes. mother in law.]
[I heard everything from Si-eun. You said you already have a child?]
[Yes. I am being tested now and the obstetrics and gynecologist is contacting me.]
[Oops, really. How long have you been married and have children? Be quick too.]
It was a light reprimand. But wasn’t your mother married for speeding? … . It is only when he confronts his mother-in-law that it becomes a family problem. I barely swallowed the words I was about to say.
Instead, I responded with a joke I had heard one day.
[Maybe it is thanks to the overflowing power of love.]
[Oh my gosh. He.]
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My mother chuckled as if the conversion blow had worked. This was also a higher tone than usual.The story continued when the sound stopped.
[Originally, I was going to visit you soon. This is how it happened… … .]
When he mumbled with a faceless tone, his mother said, [Oh my gosh. It’s okay, boy.]
[Because you shouldn’t overdo it in the early stages of pregnancy. Just stay at home with Si-eun.]
[yes. I guess so.]
[okay. Si-eun, who is by my side, takes good care of me and takes care of me… … Please keep it.]
[I’ll keep that in mind.]
I don’t know if she protects me, but the role of taking care of me and taking care of me has always been Si-eun’s job. Now I can’t just rely on Si-eun. At least for the next few months, I have to take responsibility for Si-eun.
the next few months
When one concern came to mind, my mother asked a question.
[Oh yeah. What is going on with companies that replace the military?]
The same thought seemed to have crossed my mind. Actually, that was the problem. He scratched his brow and replied.
[The exact contact has not yet been made, but it seems to be going to work in the summer at the latest.]
[Gosh.]
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My mother sighed deeply at my words.[From then on, our Si-eun will have a very difficult time.]
[Yes. So, I had to find someone to help me. I’ll go home and discuss this.]
[Oh. Have you thought about it all? It’s not really special either.]
“Ahaha,” she said back to her with a small smile, and her mother’s words continued.
[Our son-in-law is so straight. Much better than my husband.]
[Well, thank you.]
[There… … I do all the requests I made in the hospital room back then. He’s a really good son-in-law It was good that our Si-eun left it to us.]
It was a more serious conversation.
The desire to see Si-eun in a dress. And a request to see grandchildren. It meant that both of them were accomplished in a very short time. It was no wonder that my mother was so grateful.
[I will take good care of you so that you can have a healthy child. I will definitely visit you when Si-eun is stable.]
[okay. That’s right. In the meantime, you should brag to the nurses. I’m already seeing my grandchildren. Grandma is done.]
[You’re still correcting yourself when you’re called Grandma.]
In response to the words raised as if praising, the mother’s voice was mixed with laughter.
[You too are too young to be called Mom and Dad.]
[ah.]
That’s right though.
Afterwards, we exchanged greetings and ended the call. There must have been more stories you wanted to share. To me, it felt like a consideration not to disturb us.
I took the phone out of my ear and was about to return it, but for some reason, Si-eun leaned against my arm. Quietly, as if carrying weight.
Fortunately, the crying had subsided.
“why? tiring?”
“no.”
“then?”
“Thank you.”
“Thank you?”
“yes. My mother was overjoyed.”
Aha. was that talk I felt this too. He nodded his head slightly.
“It was. Your voice is more cheerful than usual.”
“Even after a long phone call, you are not out of breath. I think my body is energized because I heard the good news.”
“I’m glad.”
“I’m really happy.”
Si-eun answered with a smile.
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My mother-in-law’s health is also important to me. Because I don’t want to see Si-eun sad. Even if these reasons are excluded, now my mother-in-law is nothing but my parents.I hope you stay healthy for a long time. I longed for such a future to come.
After a while, Si-eun rubbed her lower belly and let out a sigh that seemed to contain a lot of meaning.
“Really, you have a child.”
“I know.”
It was just as Si-eun said. Indeed, we have a child. I came to the hospital, got confirmation, and even informed the people around me.
In a few months we will be parents of a child.
I still can’t believe it, but it was a fact that I had to gradually adapt and prepare for.
I was stroking Si-eun’s hair.
“I need to get a license for my child. It would be difficult to find time to go to work.”
“Good. Oh, I’ll have to come up with a name, so come up with a good idea.”
“okay. And I’ll have to look for prenatal supplies too. I’ll try to search for this.”
“Let’s go back and find it together.”
Si-eun responded with a smile.
Add a word to each other and start preparing to welcome the child. Really, it was blissful.
Si-eun’s voice was heard again as she tried not to hide the flowing smile.
“and… … We can go to school together again.”
It’s a sudden thing. asked like a slap.
“Take a leave of absence?”
“yes. Someone broke his promise and committed a crime before graduation.”
“… … I wasn’t the only one at fault.”
As if talking to myself, Si-eun rubbed her head on my arm.
“It’s a joke. Still, I have an excuse for pregnancy and childcare. I’m going to take a leave of absence until I have a baby and things get better.”
“excuse… … .”
It’s a lot like sleeping. Si-eun just smiled at the sound of muttering because it was ridiculous. This time, without even adding the word “joking”.
But it was by no means an excuse.
From pregnancy to childbirth to parenting. There must be difficult moments everywhere. In particular, I heard rumors that the early days of parenting are comparable to hell. It seemed that it would be difficult to combine with schoolwork.
A very difficult future awaits us.
Looking down at Si-eun with such worries, Si-eun smiled brighter again.
A bright smile, as if trying to show off.
I looked at this smile and thought.
For those of us who have just turned 23, maybe it’s a gift that came too early. Was our choice really right? Will we ever be happy until the end? … .
Let’s forget about these worries first.
Instead of worrying about the future, let’s live the present to the fullest.
What I need to do now is not worry about the future. Because it is a job to cherish this smile in front of you.
I’m going to have to study harder than this.
How to cook simple dishes. How to sort laundry. About mothers who have children, and about raising children.
There is so much to learn and learn. For a while, it seemed like busy days would continue.
When we get back, let’s find prenatal education supplies with Si-eun. After that, it would be a good idea to ask Si-eun to teach you other dishes. How to divide the laundry is well known on the Internet.
So for now.
“Shall we go home?”
Si-eun answered my question, “Yes.” he nodded his head.
Si-eun stood up from the sofa and stretched out her arms. It seemed like an unspoken request to catch him and raise him up.
I wouldn’t have been the type to be so affectionate. Did you change your mind like a child after having a child?
Well, good is good. He grabbed Si-eun’s hand and pulled him tight.
Si-eun got up from her seat and immediately giggled and hugged my arm tightly.
And we walked slowly towards our nest.