＜Episode 125＞ Beginner Husband and Beginner Father 3
That morning, I woke up a bit.
The human body is truly a mystery. If you are tired enough to fall asleep during a meeting, you should be able to get a good night’s sleep. Rather, there were many times when the fortress suddenly opened its eyes.
Si-eun also complained of these symptoms. One morning, they both woke up abruptly and looked at each other blankly.
The cause was simple.
One can’t fit us, so we’ve come to follow one lifestyle.
He half-opened his eyes and looked around.
Si-eun was lying close to me next to me.
This time, my eyes were somewhat closed as if I was the only one awake. Her pale lips twitched slightly from time to time. Her long, wavy hair glided down softly from the bedside of the pillow.
The attractive appearance that attracted many men did not change even after becoming a mother of a baby.
On one side of the room was a crib. Of course, it is the place where one of us sleeps. Cushion protection screens were installed on all sides to prevent them from moving and bumping into each other.
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Me, Si-eun, and one. In the room where the sound of the three people’s breathing reverberates.To be honest, I haven’t gotten used to it yet.
I’m slowly getting used to feeding the bottle and changing the diaper. I still feel a sense of alienation in such a small part.
The story of So-hye, who had the feeling of ‘living together’ at a small point in her daily life, was understood even later.
At that moment, I heard the sound of breathing heavily from somewhere.
At the same time, Si-eun suddenly raised her head next to me.
It didn’t sound very loud, but Si-eun seemed to wake up immediately. Before Hana cries, in response to the sound of breathing in.
Si-eun, who had a lot of sleep and took a lot of time to wake up, had already become a great mother.
A single cry soon filled the room with no time to prepare.
Si-eun slowly got out of bed and turned on the nightstand in the corner of the room.
Is it because I didn’t want to disturb my sleep because I didn’t turn on the light? Well, if you hear one cry anyway, you will run away from sleep. I also slowly got out of bed.
Si-eun, who suddenly grabbed one, raised her gaze towards me.
“Are you awake? you can just sleep If you can’t sleep because it’s noisy, you can go to your room.”
what are you talking about He shook his head so that he could see clearly.
“it’s okay. I can’t sleep alone.”
“no… … .”
“therefore? Can I get you a diaper?”
Si-eun hesitated for a moment at my question, then silently nodded her head.
I opened the drawer and took out the diaper. When I handed it to Si-eun, Si-eun changed her diaper with a quick gesture.
Used diapers are returned to me. I put the diaper in the trash can outside the room.
Now, it was a process that was slowly getting used to.
Diaper change, I could do it myself, but I have to breastfeed Hana anyway. When I was with Si-eun, it was better for me to just help.
I washed my hands and headed to my room, one of them was eating.
Si-eun, who looked down at Hana with pampered eyes, was still beautiful.
He came closer and whispered.
“My mom said she was great, so it must be true.”
Si-eun looked at me sideways and smiled softly.
“Why all of a sudden?”
“I saw that the sweetheart, who slept so much, took one as soon as she woke up.”
“Of course, if I don’t move, one of them will be hungry.”
Si-eun smiles inaudible and answers.
I also didn’t want to see Haha Hana starving. If Hana starts crying in Si-eun’s absence, I’ll get up right away and hand her the bottle.
However, that is not all. Even in the middle of a hard sleep, if Hana is about to wake up, open her eyes in advance. Even the posture of holding one is very accurate.
Si-eun has already become a full-fledged mother.
On the other hand, in my case, it was the same.
Because I still haven’t been able to take off my new daddy’s tee.
I remember when I entered middle school.
At that time, I felt a little closer to an adult. Regardless of whether that was a good thing, it felt like an upgrade anyway.
But strictly speaking, I was just an elementary school student who was one year older. Way of thinking, personality, and sociability. It wasn’t much different from when I was in elementary school.
It is still just like that.
Having a child did not reveal the abilities of a parent.
Decided to try harder for one. Study what you don’t know. This change of mindset came, but the immaturity remained the same.
How long will I be able to remain as a novice dad?
Soon after, Si-eun swept one back and started to burp.
Sit on the bed and watch the scene quietly.
Until last week, Si-eun also said, “I’m not crying anymore, so go to sleep.” I used to say things like Now, he was concentrating on quietly putting one to sleep.
He seemed to have accepted the fact that he would wait until he came back anyway.
After a while, Si-eun turned off the stand and returned to the bed.
As soon as I tried to lie down on the bed, he brought his mouth to my ear.
“Thank you for waiting.”
A voice whispering as if sorry.
There are so many things to be thankful for. Likewise, it whispered in my ear.
“It’s our baby, so we have to wait.”
“… … Hmm.”
Somehow, an unclear answer came back. No matter how many times we have had conversations, why is the reaction so low?
I didn’t care and went back to bed. Si-eun, who was staring at me, followed me and laid down.
Not long after that.
A crisp, rhythmic sound of breathing could be heard from right next to you.
Within a few seconds, Si-eun seemed to have fallen asleep.
How hard was it to fall asleep so quickly?
Indeed, it is natural. Even if you pretend not to, Si-eun will be very tired. It was fortunate enough that I told him to go to sleep earlier.
I don’t know how long I can live like this.
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Maybe this is why Si-eun falls. Or maybe I’ll get sick. Or maybe postpartum depression is coming because of an irregular life.It was enough to cause all sorts of concerns to arise.
Can’t you make me sleep comfortably even this morning?
Suddenly, an idea flashed through my mind.
She slowly got out of bed so as not to wake Si-eun. Then he lowered his footsteps and moved on.
The destination was a stand placed in the corner.
When I turned on the light, the room was slightly lit up.
A waking person can see clearly, but a level of brightness that will not disturb a sleeping person. Fortunately, Si-eun and Hana didn’t seem to wake up.
What I wanted to do was simple.
I approached the bed again and… … He embraced Si-eun’s body with both arms.
It was the so-called ‘Hugging the Princess’ posture.
Si-eun said, “Ugh, umm,” even after floating in the air beyond what his hand touched. I only see sleep talk. didn’t wake up at all.
Even if one breathed in, he suddenly got up. It was truly pitiful to see him fall asleep so hard that no one knew who was carrying him.
So, holding Si-eun, she came out of the nursery.
There was nowhere else to go. We headed to the couple’s room we used to use.
Upon entering the room, he gently laid Si-eun down on the bed. Of course, Si-eun did not wake up. I tossed and turned in my arms and on the bed, but my eyes were still closed.
After covering Si-eun with a blanket and saying, “Sleep well,” he immediately left the room.
When I returned to the nursery alone, I saw a large bed. It was a large bed for a couple that Si-eun and I purchased to sleep together.
This morning, I will have to sleep alone.
I lay back on the bed again.
Is it because I showed off my strength out of the blue in the morning? As soon as I lay down, I immediately felt sleepy.
After a while, Hana will start crying again. I thought it would be better to go to sleep sooner rather than later. Without delay, I closed my eyes.
again after a while.
A single cry struck my ear.
It was not yet possible to wake up just listening to the sound of breathing like Si-eun. Besides, Si-eun, who always woke up first, was moved to another room. This time I had to sleep one by myself.
“Oh, yes. one of us This time, Dad will give you food.”
Hana got up from her bed, saying something she couldn’t understand.
Let’s see. I don’t have Si-eun, so I’ll have to feed her with formula this time. The water will stay warm in the formula pot. The milk bottle is in the drawer over there… … .
Even as I was wandering here and there, I didn’t know how to stop crying. It’s natural to cry because something is uncomfortable, but that hasn’t been resolved.
He grabbed a bottle of formula and quickly approached Hana.
After taking one off the bed, I laid it down on my body like the posture I learned in the kitchen.
Then, as soon as she gave the bottle to her, one of them stopped crying and it was time to eat.
Ummm, I checked the condition of the diaper, so I don’t have to change it this time. If you just trim it later, it’ll be fine.
I’m glad I didn’t have to call Si-eun.
After eating, Hana opened her mouth from the bottle.
Next, it was my turn to trim. Change the position and place one on the side of your armpit. Then, he gently stroked one of his backs.
Soon after, a burping sound was heard.
Now is the time to sleep. He laid one down on the bed and patted his stomach to fall asleep.
Not a single one who showed no sign of falling asleep could not stand the pats that continued for several minutes. One finally closed his eyes and began to breathe heavily.
All that was left was cleaning up. I went to the kitchen and washed the bottle I used. After that, the lid was removed and placed on a drying rack.
When I went back to the nursery, I put the bottle of milk powder that I had taken out earlier.
With this, one ‘parenting time’ has come to an end.
“ha… … .”
A sigh came out.
Caring for a baby is a difficult and tiring task.
Si-eun, who repeats this more than ten times a day, was only admirable for me.
Anyway, he succeeded in giving Si-eun a break. It would be nice if Hana could do well the next time she wakes up.
With this thought in mind, I was about to turn off the power of the stand.
At the end of his view, he saw the door to the room swung open.
Anyone standing outside… … Of course it was Si Eun.
Si-eun, with a puzzled face, was looking straight at me, squatting in front of the stand.
Her lips murmured, but nothing came out of it.
I turned off the light and walked up to Si-eun. Even during this time, Si-eun’s mouth did not open.
As I approached the door, Si-eun looked up at me quietly. Of course, there was a lot of embarrassment on his face.
asked carefully.
“Woke up?”
Si-eun remained silent for a long time despite my questions.
The answer came back after quite a while.
“me… … Why were you in that room over there?”
Si-eun asked this question with a sign of deep confusion.
I woke up and found myself lying in a completely different room. It was just very confusing. It was no wonder that he seemed so perplexed.
“sorry. Sleep comfortably even this morning… … I picked it up and moved it.”
When he answered quietly, Si-eun bit her lip as if at a loss for words.
An unfamiliar energy flashed in his eyes.
After that, Si-eun came one step closer to me.
Then he tapped me on the chest and slapped my face in the face.
Riding in the middle of her chest, she felt Si-eun’s lips move.
“thank you.”
The words that came out of Si-eun’s mouth were the words he had heard many times.
But today, it was a calming voice.
“it’s okay. sleep now… … .”
“… … Thank you.”
Si-eun cut off the waist and raised her head to look at me again.
From the corners of her eyes, a few tears were peeking out.
As Si-eun murmurs towards me, who has froze in surprise.
“still… … .”
Then he put his face to my chest again.
“please… … Don’t try to handle it alone, don’t… … .”
In a euphemistic and soft tone.
But with sincerity, with a desperate expression.
Stronger than I’ve ever seen… … angry