＜Episode 128＞ Absence 1
There are currents in the world that cannot be resisted. You grow old even if you stand still, and you die when you get old. If you stay away from studying, you will lack knowledge, and if you do not have enough knowledge, the professor will hit you with a mace called grades.
It might be better to leave your body to the current with no way to go against it.
so that.
When I was told to enter the training center for four weeks, I was not very impressed.
It was scheduled to start in mid-December. Thank you for providing a one-month preparation period. It was also fortunate that I did light exercise without listening to Si-eun’s nagging.
I am not sure, but the end of the year and the beginning of the year seem to be a time with a lot of work. Maybe you need to adjust your work schedule.
This concern arose, so I asked the manager.
“The schedule is irrelevant. It will be cold if I enlist in December.”
“Um, is that so?”
“Well. I don’t know much about the military these days. Winter is cold in society. It will be colder if you go to the military. Anyway, have a good day, Hwimin. Don’t worry about work.”
Because they understood it clearly, it was decided without any other schedule change.
Let’s feel good about it. Except for some of the chosen ones, it is a place you must visit someday. They say you don’t have to worry about work, so you can go there for a month comfortably.
Of course it couldn’t be.
It was because Si-eun’s face, who was taking care of Hana at home, kept glimmering.
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“The training camp schedule is out.”
After work that day, at dinner, Si-eun immediately stopped moving.
The rhythmic chopsticks that seemed to come out of a note, and the legs that were vigorously stirring under the table, stopped with a chin.
He looked frozen as if he had some kind of magic.
Si-eun then slowly tilted her head.
“okay? when?”
crouch and answer
“that is… … One month from mid-December.”
“December?”
There was no follow-up. Si-eun seemed to be speechless for a moment at the sudden remark.
With chopsticks in their mouths and silently staring at me, I could even feel the pressure of silence.
I had a similar experience in the past. It was a time when the first day of work had been set.
After a few days, Si-eun heard that she was going to work, and she was angry with a face she had never seen before.
Although it was a sensitive period, it means that my absence is a serious problem for Si-eun. Plus, it goes down completely in 4 weeks. It was different from now when we can spend time together after work.
So, this time around, I made a little bit of a commitment. Even if I heard bitter comments, I decided to humbly accept it.
However, Si-eun’s answer was different than expected.
“okay. Bye. I’ll have to look for something to bring with me.”
It was a tone that didn’t really care. His face didn’t change at all.
I didn’t expect to be surprised and even shed tears, but this reaction is just embarrassing. A new chopstick and rice bowl I didn’t know collided.
Si-eun’s eyes frowned.
“what’s the matter?”
“no. Are you okay?”
“Are you going to the military?”
“uh. I wondered if it would be okay without me.”
“it’s okay.”
Si-eun was waving her chopsticks instead of her head.
“It’s unavoidable. As long as you go, you should send it well. Looking at the past few days, I have been sleeping more and more at a time, so it’s not hard at all. It doesn’t matter if you go for a month or so.”
“Ugh.”
It was just as Si-eun said. Just two months after she was born, Hana gradually began to fall asleep. As we often take care of each other for three or four hours, we are less tired.
still… … .
While immersed in thought for a moment, Si-eun drew a V with her left hand.
“Now the know-how has been accumulated. It seems that if you play with the water while taking a bath, you will fall asleep easily. At that time, if you feed her milk and make a lullaby, it seems like she sleeps all the time.”
“but. After work, he slept every day.”
“yes. Besides, I eat well these days. I don’t see anything for no reason… … . Is there something that looks like honey and doesn’t rot at all?”
“Isn’t it because your mother took such good care of you?”
“Is that so?”
If you want a compliment, extend your end and shrug your shoulders. Very flattened, he is about to bow down.
Seeing that he even has a smile on his face, he must have been very happy.
If you want, I’ll be happy to listen. “Thank you for taking good care of me when I’m away.” He congratulated the ball, but this time he nodded his head.
At times like this, she is a very easy-to-understand wife.
Every time I got home from work, Hana was always out for a picnic in dreamland. Maybe it was because of it, it felt like I had barely seen him sleeping lately.
Still, watching the sleeping Hana for about an hour was the pleasure of a day.
Whether he eats in a dream or not, one is that he licks his mouth while trying to suck something while he sleeps. Do you have a strong appetite just like your mother? Anyway, it’s pretty cute.
Last week, I went to the studio and finished filming on the 50th. When I went to the hospital or when I went out to get some fresh air, nothing special happened.
Not long ago, Si-eun and I sat on the veranda and had time to drink cocoa. Now it may be at a level where I can afford it again.
So it wouldn’t be a lie to say that it wouldn’t be difficult to take care of one without my help.
This wasn’t something I was unaware of.
It wasn’t my intention to ask if it would be okay either.
“Not that.”
Si-eun tilted her head once more when she got out of luck.
He put down his chopsticks and added in a serious tone.
“I wonder if she will be okay without me.”
Then he points to himself with his chopsticks.
“me?”
“okay.”
Si-eun rides loneliness well. Even my mother-in-law, who had been watching me for a long time, testified that Si-eun was often lonely by herself. At this point, it was all said.
Even if we spend together with Hana, wouldn’t a month be long enough? I wondered if I would be able to soothe the growing loneliness.
Si-eun kept her mouth shut for a while at my question. I wanted to add something, but in the end I decided to wait quietly for an answer.
Soon, Si-eun’s lips parted.
“it’s okay.”
Again the same answer.
“really?”
“yes. I ate well and didn’t notice.”
“What?”
“Honey, the speed was not rotten. maybe.”
The accident circuit stopped at the sudden words. Looking back on what the noise was, it seemed that Si-eun was continuing the story she had previously shared about Hana.
well He eats well and doesn’t slow down, but isn’t it a bit annoying… … . Of course, this is not what I want to say. I decided to make the point again.
“no. When I’m not here, honey, you’re lonely by yourself… … .”
“Okay, so just eat the top. I just got it today.”
Si-eun, who unintentionally intervened and cut off the waist, began to eat the pickled vegetables that she had made.
Now I know.
I only realized it when I saw him smoking unusually. Si-eun seemed to want to change the topic quickly.
There is only one reason for this. It’s probably because you don’t want me to worry.
Truly, she was a very easy-to-understand wife.
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“Are you okay?”
Si-eun lowered the volume and asked in a whisper.
I was just standing in front of the crib and watching Hana. When Si-eun sends such a signal, it means that it is time to sleep.
A small “Yeah.” After answering, he headed to the couple’s bed.
As I was walking, the lights on the stand went out and the sound of footsteps increased by one. It seems that Si-eun is also coming to bed.
As I tucked myself into the duvet, Si-eun, who followed me, clings to my side. When I glanced sideways, Si-eun only had a bashful smile.
Well, I don’t know if it’s summer, but in late autumn like now, it’s just nice because it’s warm. attached themselves together.
In that state, he sat up straight. There were only dim lights on the ceiling.
“good night.”
“yes. good night.”
After returning Si-eun’s greeting, she quietly closed her eyes.
But for some reason, I couldn’t sleep well today.
It was because of the miscellaneous thoughts running through my head.
When Hana woke up frequently, it was difficult because of lack of sleep. When Hana starts to sleep for a long time, thoughts come to mind and she can’t fall asleep. There is no other tree frog.
Still, there was nothing I could do about it today. It means that if you sleep 30 more times like this, you will live apart from your wife for a long time. Any husband is bound to be in trouble.
… … When I say that, the team leader seems to reply, “Isn’t it heaven?” At least, it doesn’t apply to the couple who haven’t taken off their newlyweds.
He sighed, covered in emotions. Then I tried to count the sheep for a late sleep, but somehow I felt a little uncomfortable.
Then, I couldn’t hear the sound of breathing next to me.
I don’t know, but it must have been more than 10 minutes since I closed my eyes. Maybe Si-eun hasn’t been able to sleep yet?
At a time like this, there is only one thing Si-eun is doing.
I turned my head and looked to the side.
Again, Si-eun was staring at me.
There was no sign of surprise as the eyes met. Haha, it was like this before we got married, so it would be strange to come and hide it now.
However, this is usually the time to fall asleep. It was clear that this was a very unusual situation.
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My face must be close, too, close enough to touch my nose, and whispered.“sit down?”
“I will sleep now.”
He was about to turn his back, so he grabbed Si-eun’s body with one arm. It was a light hug, but Si-eun didn’t like it.
“why?”
“Talk to Kim who is awake.”
“What are you talking about?”
“I’m going to the military.”
“yes. go well.”
Si-eun raised one corner of her mouth as if trying to laugh.
I guess I still don’t want to be honest. It’s not like I’m trying to hide my feelings until the day I go to training camp. I wonder if it will happen that I am left alone at home and sneezed. it’s not scary
Well, if you want the other person to be honest, you have to confess your feelings first.
He added some strength to the arm that was wrapped around Si-eun.
“I don’t want to go.”
“What?”
“I don’t want to go to training camp. If I go, honey, I’ll be left alone. I hate to go.”
Then I added a word.
“Is honey okay?”
It was the same question as before.
“huh.”
Si-eun snores as if telling me to listen.
At this point, I wonder if I really want to go. Like our team leader, Si-eun also raised doubts about whether he thought that a house without me would be heaven.
Fortunately, I guess that wasn’t the case.
Si-eun buried her face in my neck and said.
“If I don’t go, won’t you go?”
“Well. Can you please do that if you want?”
“Are you going to get caught?”
“If you go to jail, please come to visit me.”
“Don’t play around.”
Si-eun dismissed my joke at once.
“Go take care of yourself. … … I will wait patiently.”
told me this
Now you’re revealing it secretly. With gratitude, he patted Si-eun’s delicate back.
“Now that I’m there, I don’t have to be patient.”
“That’s why you didn’t put up with it, honey, and kept watching.”
“just now?”
“okay. If you want to pre-refill the amount for the honeyless period. From now on, you should watch it twice as usual.”
all the fun sounds
“What kind of battery is that going to be like?”
“Will it be okay? If you watch it enough to get tired of it now, I don’t think I will miss you for a while.”
This would be unlikely. The only problem is that I am confident that I will not get tired of watching Si-eun all day long. I don’t know what to do with Si-eun.
“Then what do you do when the battery runs out?”
When I asked, Si-eun rubbed her face on my neck.
“She will be hugging the teddy bear she bought for me.”
“That’s it, because it was originally bought for that purpose.”
Something you can hold and sleep when you are lonely. It was the title suggested when I gave Si-eun a teddy bear as a gift. Of course, I bought it with the intention of making fun of half of it.
Si-eun’s story continued.
“I’m going to look at the photos and videos I took while on a date again.”
“That’s what I want to see again.”
“Or go into the futon that Honey was covered with… … .”
“You smell like a pervert?”
At these words, Si-eun hit my neck with her head. Their foreheads and collarbones collided, producing a weak crashing sound.
If not, why don’t you deny it? … . Better to just skip it. He rubbed Si-eun’s forehead with his hand and teased his mouth.
“If you’re lonely, say you’re lonely.”
“Even if it’s lonely, I have to go, but what should I do? I tried to send it off comfortably, but someone inquired about it without noticing, so I ended up saying it.”
“sorry.”
“It’s a joke.”
Si-eun let out a hoarse laugh.
“Actually, it’s okay to be lonely. I am sorry, but.”
“What do you regret?”
“yes. You can’t celebrate anniversaries like Christmas or New Years together.”
“Ugh.”
“There.”
Si-eun, who was more attached to my arms, quickly added a back word.
“The same goes for our first wedding anniversary.”
“ah… … .”
Here, I also shed a sigh of regret.
Training runs from mid-December to mid-January. It was a schedule that perfectly overlapped with the changing years of the year.
It seems that the work of the company is not busy, but there has never been a time when it was more important to a lover or a couple.
Our wedding anniversary is also on December 18th. It was after I entered the training camp. Anniversaries are like missing out on anniversaries.
“It’s kind of like that. Even though Christmas and New Years come every year, it doesn’t come as much as the first wedding anniversary. I want to take care of it without missing it.”
“it’s okay. Honey, I forgot 100 days, what?”
“… … .”
“It’s a joke.”
Si-eun said in a tone that wasn’t a joke at all.
From that day on, I decided not to miss any anniversaries. 200 days or 300 days, until the first anniversary of the first date. Even if they couldn’t bring you something big, they didn’t forget the words of congratulations.
So, for this wedding anniversary, I definitely wanted to take care of it.
Is there no way
After thinking for a while, I came up with something.
“honey.”
“why?”
“You have your sweetheart’s birthday in early December.”
“… … yes.”
After a small cough, I continued the story.
“Let’s take it all then.”
“What?”
Si-eun asked in a puzzled tone.
It’s a not-so-great idea, but keep your chest straight and put it in your mouth.
“From the first wedding anniversary and Christmas to the New Year. I’ll take it all at once. Buy a cake and have a party. You can prepare all the presents. Ah, but rice cake soup… … I’m sorry, honey, cook it for me.”
After a long briefing, he let out a light sigh.
Isn’t that the poem that I will be looking at a lot before I leave? If it’s the same logic, wouldn’t it be okay to celebrate as many anniversaries as possible before I leave?
Wedding anniversaries, Christmas and New Years. It can be dismissed that this year came a little too early.
This year’s Christmas will be warmer than usual. The New Year’s Eve is also slightly earlier, so it can be considered that the next year has become longer as the year has decreased.
Si-eun giggled and laughed at the half-playful idea.
“Other people would think it was a strange family.”
“How are you? make it look weird We should have fun.”
“yes. I know. sounds fun.”
As if my idea was quite groundbreaking, Si-eun flirted like a child for a long time.
I couldn’t lose, so I also kept a silly smile on my face.
After a while, Si-eun, who had a smile, grabbed my shoulder and climbed up to the top.
Si-eun’s face, which had barely touched my neck, was now placed right in front of my face.
each other’s eyes met Both of us had the corners of our mouths raised wide.
Our noses met. The scent of each other’s bodies grew stronger.
And our mouths too… … soon came across
After a kiss that barely met lips, Si-eun drew a shy smile on her face.
“okay.”
Then in a hoarse voice.
“Then, congratulations on my birthday. I will also cook delicious rice cake soup. And, I will prepare a present myself.”
It was a word of consent.
It seems to have been accepted in some way or another. He smiled brightly and agreed.
“yes. I look forward to it.”
“I look forward to it too.”
Si-eun answered with a lively tone.
The smile he made with him was full of joy.
With this happy expression on her face… … It seemed that the energy that would not run out even after several months had been fully charged.