＜Episode 129＞ Absence 2
[Si-eun]
“but. If you don’t see Hwimin for a month, you must be depressed.”
Sohye, who had been chattering for a while, then quietly nodded her head.
To the question “Are you having a bad day?”, he only replied, “I haven’t seen my husband these days.” He seemed to understand everything.
He must have known that Hwimin had entered the training camp. Please contact me secretly… … ? Hwimin could do such a thing. You must have seen the KakaoTalk status message.
I didn’t want to give out a gloomy tea after meeting for a long time. Did Sohye see everything in her eyes?
Outside tables in a cafe near the house. Me and Sohye were sitting opposite each other with cocoa in front of them.
Being confined to the inside only adds to the loneliness. Besides, my friends finished 4th grade and were about to graduate. After this period, the day we meet is the end of the graduation ceremony.
So, while Hwimin was away, I decided to look at the faces of the people at school a lot.
While I was thinking about that, I got a call from Sohye. He said that he had called while he was on his way home after the final exams were over.
At that moment, I was getting ready to go for a walk with Hana. I decided to make a short appointment because I thought it was an opportunity, and it was this place right now.
Sohye with her arms crossed spoke with a smile on her face.
“Leave him alone and go somewhere else. Senior Hwimin. What a bad guy!”
It was an exaggerated tone to encourage strength. He smiled slightly in response.
“I know. he’s a really bad guy What if I want to see you?”
“Ahaha.”
Sohye smiled bitterly.
“Senior Si-eun. When you were with Hwimin sunbaenim, he was cold. You’re being honest with me, right?”
“Oh, no. That’s it… … .”
I got stabbed in the corner. I looked around for an expression to return my eyes, but I couldn’t find an answer. In the end, I gave up and drank only the cocoa on the table.
Sohye followed and drank cocoa. The sound of making fun of me as I was depressed did not continue.
After a while, Sohye put down her glass.
“Um, the two of you are very close. I thought you’d always be right next to me. You also talked to Hwimin-senpai. I need to be a good husband to my seniors and live happily for the rest of my life.”
It was a few months ago, when I was still pregnant with one. So-hye, who had come to our house, left, leaving behind this request.
As she nodded silently, Sohye’s story continued.
“These two have been separated from each other because of practical problems. No wonder you are sad.”
“Is that so?”
“Absolutely. He got married early and had children. Do you love each other so much that you can’t stand it? What’s weird about not being able to meet you and having a hard time?”
Sohye comforted her with a kind tone. … … I would like to point out the expression ‘unbearable’, but this time I decided to pass.
I don’t know though.
Do other couples feel this way? If she is separated from her husband for a short time due to unavoidable circumstances, does anyone often have such a hard time?
In the world, the word weekend couple exists. A couple who rarely have a chance to meet on weekdays because of their long distance from work. So, couples who only spend time together on weekends… … I know it refers to
That’s not all. Even couples who live together normally have no choice but to break up for a long time if their husbands go on a business trip.
In other words, it is quite common to not be able to meet face-to-face for a certain period of time.
Do these couples suffer the same heartache as me?
Or am I just making a fuss?
As complex emotions erupted, a sigh came out of my mouth. A breath of warmth spread outside.
It’s been warm this winter. It seems to be unavoidable that it is getting cold enough to breathe.
“It is so cold here. Will the training camp be colder?”
Sohye giggled at the sound of muttering to herself. It felt like he was trying to make fun of me.
Then I add a word.
“Senior Si-eun. I guess you really like Hwimin sunbaenim.”
“Yes.”
I like it so much… … . That expression may be correct.
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Maybe I had depended too much on it to the point where I would feel depressed when it disappeared.As I was immersed in these thoughts, Hana, who had been sleeping for a long time in the stroller, squirmed slightly.
I looked into it to see if it was cold, but there was no other movement after that. He seemed to be sleeping peacefully, just like at home.
How can you lie down so comfortably even in the windy weather? Is it because it is an expensive stroller, it has excellent performance against the cold?
This was also something to be thankful for to Hwimin.
Before leaving for the training camp, Hwimin offered to organize a party. The first wedding anniversary, Christmas, and the first day of the new year that we couldn’t spend together. It was decided to tie them together and celebrate.
Thanks to you, this year’s birthday was even more abundant.
Decorate the house with colored paper. Where did you buy helium gas and blow up the balloons? A big cake, a very early Christmas tree, and even the rice cake soup that I made.
They would have dismissed it as an unfamiliar landscape if a raw person saw it.
However, for me, it was a happy moment that I had never experienced before. I also felt an indescribable feeling, a mixture of surprise and happiness.
With one in front of me, I even got excited like a child.
Just two days in a year, there was a day when my mother showed tears.
One day is my father’s anniversary. And another day is my birthday.
On my birthday, my mother hugged me and cried, saying I was sorry I couldn’t take care of her.
Whenever my strong mother sobbed, I lost my eyes, not knowing what to do.
On the eve of my birthday, I would rather close my eyes and put a blanket over… … It made me want to sleep for over a day.
Because I didn’t have a relationship with my birthday like that. It was the first time I had such a blessed birthday.
Hwimin is well aware of this fact. Last winter, I explained it with my own mouth.
He even said that he would celebrate various anniversaries at once instead of going to the training center for a month. At first glance, there was an expectation that he would prepare a burdensome gift in many ways.
It was for this reason that I gave Hwimin a word about three weeks before my birthday.
“honey.”
“why?”
“It’s my birthday in about three weeks.”
Hwimin’s eyes widened as he lifted his luck.
“yes. What do you want to have? Tell me. I will prepare.”
“Oh, no. not that.”
I was afraid that I might be sorry, so I laughed out loud for nothing.
“You don’t have to prepare a present for me.”
“What?”
“If there is something you need on a regular basis, you buy it. I personally don’t want anything. done.”
Hwimin’s eyes widened at my words. The way he opened his mouth as if it was unexpected was even funny. He reached out and raised his chin, and then Hwimin pursed his lips.
Then the lips parted again.
“Ugh. Then, instead of a gift, shall we choose a stroller?”
“stroller?”
“yes. It’s a time when you can go out for a short while. If I buy it before I go to training camp, it will be convenient for my honey. I’d have to buy it anyway, but I’d like to buy it as a souvenir at this point.”
“Ummm”
I immediately agreed to this. If it’s a gift for the one of us, it’s because I and Hwimin want to give it generously.
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Moreover, it is a must-have item for the next few years of parenting. At this point, I also sympathized with the sound of a lion.The present I left behind is the stroller Hana is currently riding in.
Thanks to you, on a winter day like this, I was going out without any major inconvenience.
Having a wonderful husband, I was really happy.
Without realizing it, I lost my mind. I swam out of my thoughts and came out with a loose smile on my face.
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Meanwhile, Sohye was approaching me. It looked like he was looking inside the stroller, just like me.“The baby is so cute, senpai! The name… … Was it one?”
“Ah, yes. one below. A little over a hundred days have passed.”
“Um~ You’re cuter than when you sent me the picture!”
He claps his hands softly and praises them. The photo was taken at the cooking center and sent to me, so it was actually a newborn baby. It was cute back then, but it’s definitely cuter than it was back then.
“senior.”
“yes.”
When she answered the call, Sohye chuckled and laughed. Then he continued behind without taking his eyes off the inside of the stroller.
“Not one thing. Aren’t you sad that you couldn’t see your father? So, mom has to fight more.”
“yes. I guess… … .”
I muttered with a worried tone, and Sohye turned her head to look at me.
“I can’t take the place of Hwimin-senpai. If you are still lonely, please feel free to contact me! I’ll ride the train and run! I want to eat the dishes my senior made again!”
Then, he pounded his chest.
It was as if he was trying to comfort me when I was exhausted.
If I had to take the train, the way to get there wouldn’t be easy. Besides, I’m not asking for any compensation. You don’t even have to look good to me. How do you end up like this?
Because of such a kind junior, Hwimin and I were able to become one.
There will be no shortage of benefactors for a lifetime. really.
“thank you.”
After expressing her gratitude, Sohye smiled hehehe.
“From next year, I will be in 4th grade. I want to set an example as a senior.”
“yes. Then thank you senior.”
In response to the answer she gave back as if joking, Sohye shrugged her shoulders as if she had been happy.
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After that, I and Hana came home together.
On the way home, Hana woke up, but fortunately there was no crying and no fuss. Is it because he resembles his father and has a calm and calm personality?
I put the stroller in the warehouse and went into the nursery, and one of them laughed. It seems that it was not cold at all thanks to the clothes he was wearing and the luxury stroller. He looked several times more energetic than me.
“It’s one. Did you enjoy looking outside?”
“right!”
One made a sound like this, trying to answer.
How can you be so cute “Good job. One.” and sent a smile.
A few days ago, Hana started babbling. Of course, this may sound meaningless, but to me, I got a sense of what it all meant. Just now, again, at least to my ears, I clearly heard “Yeah!”.
Perhaps we are truly geniuses.
When Hwimin comes back later, I’ll tell you that Hana answered my words today… … .
… … what the hell am i thinking
A few days have passed since Hwimin went to the training camp. There is still a long way to go before returning home.
Even though he was perfectly aware of this fact, there were times when he suddenly thought of Hwimin.
Tonight’s dinner is Hwimin’s favorite menu.
I saw some interesting news today, so I have to let you know when I get home.
Today, Hana showed such aegyo, I’ll have to tell you later… … .
Only then, when he realizes that Hwimin is absent, he is enveloped in an infinitely miserable feeling.
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My heart fills with nostalgia.Above all else, I regret the day I spent Hwimin away.
That day, I had to let Hwimin go from home.
Originally, I wanted to see you off to the front of the training center. I couldn’t take one that far away. Because it would be a big trouble for one who is too young.
Knowing this, Hwimin did not show any signs of regret.
Perhaps it was unfamiliar to him that he had his hair cut, so Hana cried when she saw her father, so in the end I was the only one to see her off. Even that, Hwimin laughed, saying that it was a no-brainer.
“I will be back.”
Hwimin waved his hand and said.
I snorted for nothing.
“yes. go fast I will be late.”
“it’s okay. There’s plenty of time left. Honey was smart, so I prepared it early.”
“Are you saying it’s my fault now?”
“Thank you very much. If you’re late, you’re in trouble.”
“huh.”
We exchanged jokes as usual, and only smiled faintly at each other.
Soon after, Hwimin opened the door and went out. Until the elevator arrived, he fixed his gaze on me and waved his hand.
Then, when Hwimin finally disappeared from sight… … From that moment on, I began to feel depressed.
He said that he would get tired of looking at it a lot, but he slurred his words. I haven’t seen your face for a month. How the hell am I supposed to be patient?
Even now, it looks like Hwimin is superimposed on everything. How am I supposed to survive the rest of the time?
The painful feelings showed no sign of fading.
“It’s one. Do you want to see Daddy?”
He frowned in loneliness. This time, one is “Uh…” made a sound As if he understood what I was saying, it was a somewhat subdued babble.
After tapping on such one, he headed to the couple’s room.
There, I picked up a large teddy bear and returned to the nursery.
I hugged the teddy bear in my arms. A soft sensation covered my body, and I felt a little bit like I was being held by someone.
But this was not enough.
When Hwimin strokes me, when he hugs me, when he pats me on the back, when he whispers in my ear, and when he kisses me. At that time, the temperature, the sound of your breath, the touch… … not revived at all.
He closed his eyes and took a deep breath.
Hwimin said that I had colored his empty sketchbook.
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My sketchbook was painted in countless colors.Someday everything… … Because it was dyed with Hwimin’s color.
Seriously, I think I came to like Hwimin so much.
Now to the point where I can’t live straight without Hwimin.
“come back quickly. Idiot.”
He buried his face in the bear and murmured.
The answer, of course, did not come back.