＜Episode 23＞ Awakening
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My body just touched a little. I just heard a naughty joke. To have strange feelings for someone you’ve never had a crush on.It was really stupid.
A week has passed since the day Si-eun was drunk and exhibited abnormal behavior.
Si-eun, who was worried about what she had done, listened to me and raised her suspicions, but I gradually began to feel a vague sense of distance from Si-eun.
Especially after a weekend without Si-eun. His heart began to wield more power.
If there is Si-eun in the living room or kitchen, turn your head and walk past it.
It’s like trying not to even make eye contact with Si-eun, who sometimes looks back in the classroom.
Even if Si-eun raises her hand to greet her in the student cafeteria, she doesn’t accept it and ignores it.
There is no way to avoid it when we eat together at home.
“How about the food? Does it taste good?”
“… … yes.”
Or, by returning only a short answer, the story does not continue.
What made me fall in love with Si-eun… … I don’t think so.
He must have just come to accept Si-eun as the opposite s*x, which he had never seen before.
I told Si-eun, ‘Be careful because you live with a man.’ Conversely, it seems that I lacked the awareness of living with a woman.
Si-eun is a woman, she has a very pretty face, and she has a nice body. There’s a reason she’s popular with men. I finally understood it properly.
Even if they didn’t like it, the problem was still there.
As a man who lives in the same house as a woman, this is a feeling that should not be embraced.
You need to prune the buds before problems arise. It must be hidden so that the wind does not blow in the place where the embers came from.
So, I decided to keep my distance from Si-eun.
though it was
Si-eun couldn’t participate either.
That night, as I was just staring at my computer as usual, I heard a knock.
I thought it was coming. Si-eun comes once every three days with a snack. Sometimes it was two days and sometimes it was four days, but the approximate cycle was that much.
It seems that the day has finally come.
But now the time is 11:50 p.m. Isn’t it a little late?
Turn the chair and say, “Come in.” said
At the same time as the sound of words, the door slowly opened, revealing Si-eun standing in front of her.
He looks at Si-eun with a squint.
Si-eun, wearing a T-shirt and long jeans, for some reason didn’t have a plate in her hand. After seeing the plate, he left Margo and left his luggage behind.
Didn’t you bring snacks?
“Why are you here?”
“just.”
Si-eun, who gave me a very simple answer, sat down on my bed.
It was like this when you first came to my room. Behaving arbitrarily is the same as then and now.
“what are you doing?”
“Sit down.”
“know. Did you not bring any snacks today?”
“You don’t like snacks anyway. Besides, eating snacks on a late night like this will make you fat.”
“Um, what… … .”
It’s true that I don’t like snacks, and I know that eating snacks at night will make you gain weight. But then why did you come?
I doubt it, but it will be of no use to ask questions as long as you come in and sit down anyway. There was no way I could go out nicely, so I decided to ignore it and focus on what I was doing.
So I turned the chair back and looked at the monitor.
“What are you doing?”
When I turned my head to the words I heard nearby, Si-eun, who was sitting on the bed, approached the desk, and showed her face.
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Maybe it’s because it’s nearby? The scent of Si-eun oozes out. Not the scent of perfume or shampoo, but the scent of Si-eun.He put his face to the other side and answered.
“I am studying economics.”
“okay? There are a lot of curly characters.”
“It’s unknown in Greek, not in cursive letters.”
You’re attending engineering school just like me, so why don’t you know? Well, actually, equations and integrals are relatively useless to the computer. I don’t know, but it wasn’t strange.
As long as Si-eun sticks her head out, she cannot return to her original position. It was a little uncomfortable, but I leaned back and started doing what I was doing.
Then Si-eun said, “Heh.” After making a sound, he returned to the initial position and crossed his legs.
When the uncomfortable aura was felt through her back, Si-eun opened her mouth.
“Why are you acting awkward these days?”
The question I didn’t want to hear the most came up.
Do I have to answer Because I see you with the opposite s*x, yes, if I give the same answer, I won’t be slapped in the face right away. Or maybe it’s a kick.
I didn’t know where and how it would fit, but I couldn’t tell it straight away.
“I want to go back to the concept that I can’t talk about like in the past.”
“You’re not a concept, you’re basically unable to speak.”
“Well, it doesn’t.”
“Don’t be kidding, tell me. Why have you suddenly distanced yourself lately?”
“Uh, uh… … .”
Since he couldn’t answer properly, Si-eun sighed as if frustrated.
“I’m just asking, just in case.”
“Yes.”
“The day we drank, did nothing really happen?”
Si-eun asked in a small voice.
As he asked with a frown on his forehead, he could even feel a kind of certainty.
Is this a woman’s intuition? Well, no. It was around that time that my behavior started to get weird. With a little thought, the answer would come.
Should I be honest with you now? Hesitating, Si-eun combed her hair with her hands and continued her conversation.
“If, even if. If I had said anything.”
Then I lowered my eyes.
“It’s all drunken bullshit. It was never meant to be sincere. So, forget everything.”
“… … .”
uhm.
I felt like my heart was relieved by these words.
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Maybe the truth was mixed. In my heart, maybe I was expecting something other than that.But can it be? A woman who is about Sieun would be able to like a man who is far greater than me.
“okay.”
I give a short answer and then I am lost in thought.
Si-eun should not have a strange heart.
Si-eun is here purely to work as a housekeeper. Our relationship is tied financially to the last. They live in the same place, but they do not live together.
Any misunderstanding makes me and Si-eun difficult in the end.
So, I… … .
Just then, a cheap electronic beep sounded in the room.
It was the sound of midnight from an electronic watch hanging somewhere in the room (probably behind a bookshelf).
I don’t know when I went in, but it rings every midnight. It was annoying and I didn’t even bother. In the first place, I’m always awake at midnight, so it doesn’t bother me at all.
At the same time as the sound, Si-eun took a deep breath and immediately began to ruffle her hair with her hands.
“Ha, really.”
“Why, why?”
When I asked in bewilderment, Si-eun raised her head and looked up at me with her upper eyes.
He rummaged through the blanket and pulled something out.
“receive.”
get it?
At that, he shifted his gaze to Si-eun’s hand. Si-eun held a transparent envelope and held it out to me.
Inside the envelope was found chocolates of various shapes.
“… … Is today’s snack chocolate? If you eat at night, you will get fat?”
“What? no.”
Si-eun, who snorted as if there was no absurdity, turned her face away.
“It’s a gift. It’s your birthday.”
said
birthday? By the way, my birthday is tomorrow… … No, it’s past midnight, so it’s today.
uhm.
It seems that Si-eun prepared a birthday present for me.
Si-eun said while twisting her hair with her fingers.
“I don’t know if I like chocolate because I usually eat anything… … . Still, if I had to ask, I made it because I thought children would like it.”
“It’s not even the taste of a child.”
I have a habit of choosing to eat a little, but I don’t eat picky food. It’s not something you’d call a child’s taste. maybe.
no, more than that.
“Have you ever made it? Did you make it yourself?”
“okay.”
If you look closely, it doesn’t look right. It must have been made by putting it in a certain frame, but it doesn’t seem to come out neatly like a factory product.
“I made it by secretly buying materials and tools without you noticing. I didn’t notice you because you suddenly started to lock yourself in your room.”
“I see.”
If you’re lucky, you’re lucky.
I laugh and say
“So, in the end, you mean you made it for me?”
“… … no.”
“no?”
“okay. I just made it to give it to someone else, but it was left over so I made it together.”
“Is it written Happy Birthday here?”
“How many people in the world do you think have the same birthday as you?”
well I think it’s only a few people you know.
What does it mean to be shy when you bravely put out chocolate? Unknowingly, I burst out laughing at the ridiculous sight.
“Why are you laughing?”
“Nothing.”
After answering that, I accepted the chocolate with gratitude.
“thank you.”
Except for my family and my one and only friend, no one had ever celebrated my birthday. How are you preparing a gift like this for me? A heart of pure gratitude was born.
“Then I will go.”
I wanted to say thank you, but Si-eun immediately got up from bed and headed for the door.
“You want to go?”
“Would you like more?”
“no. That’s not it. Are you here to give me this?”
Si-eun stopped walking at my question and turned her head.
“Think about it. Idiot.”
With these words, he sticks out his tongue and then walks away again.
The sound of the door closing was heard, and the room regained silence.
I open the bag that Si-eun gave me.
A mixture of stars, cars, clouds and chocolate in the shape of a heart. No matter how good his cooking skills were, he had never made chocolate before, so the shape was very bumpy. But it sure looked like it was made with care.
When you pick one up and put it in your mouth, the sweet taste spreads throughout your mouth.
Contrary to what Si-eun thinks, I don’t like chocolate. Still, somehow, this chocolate felt delicious. Even if I gain weight, I want to eat it all tonight.
The lingering scent of Si-eun.
The smell of chocolate that lingers in your mouth.
Reflecting on these, I thought.
It makes me happy that someone cares about me.
A feeling that never existed for me before.
If you give this heart a special name.
That’s obviously… … .
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Maybe it’s loveSo, I was late, but I was able to realize.
I fell in love with Si-eun.