194 – … I don’t know why I’m doing this either.
12 Midnight.
Maiev soaked her body in her bathtub, enjoying the warmth. The moonlight streaming in through her window illuminated her curved body in pure white.
Maiev, who had been quietly wiggling her toes, suddenly pulled the teacup back with telekinesis. The glass that her red eyes were staring at contained the blue magic power of Flan.
‘Gift?’
An item given by Flan simply out of generosity, without any conditions. Since it is an item received from another person without compensation, it would be sufficient to call it a gift.
I hit the teacup with my fingertips until it made a sound.
Then, the teacup emits blue light and resonates. When Maiev felt the man’s well-refined magic power, her body suddenly became stiff again.
─It is a gift I can give to someone I cherish.
She was curious about the psychology that led her to say such words to herself. It was a relationship that started with bad luck, and she even acted as a slave.
‘It was only one day, but….’
It didn’t feel like it was a fake performance. In other words, it was clear that Flann had treated her with sincerity for at least yesterday.
“Sharing time, sharing time, sharing time….”
Flan muttered, repeating what she had said.
It was something she thought she would never understand, but she couldn’t understand herself, who was now quite convinced.
I felt like I knew a little bit about what a ‘precious relationship’ was. It seems like we have a relationship where we feel somehow reassured when we’re together and want to stay together for a little longer.
But is it really that valuable?
Is it worth sacrificing your life, is it worth your time, is it a feeling of desperation? . Questions and thoughts continue to confuse each other.
“That’s stupid.”
This was something I said to myself.
While carrying out my mission, I tried to find out the name of my anxious feelings, but both failed. Looking at the results alone, nothing was achieved.
But, nevertheless.
“….”
Why do I feel like I haven’t lost anything? Maiev played with the teacup for a while.
She came out of her bathroom after a while.
There was a pile of letters that arrived from the void, but I ignored them. It was a day with a lot of thoughts, so I thought getting sleep was the priority.
Lie down on the bed and cover yourself with the blanket.
… But she couldn’t sleep.
I kept getting worried about the teacup. When I thought about it, there was no separate cupboard in the dormitory in the Chinese world. And how did Flan store the tea cup?
‘If dust accumulates, then go ahead and wipe it off.’
Even though she was thinking that, Maiev eventually got out of bed. She tried making the cupboard this way and that, but she didn’t like them all.
She suddenly thought.
Why am I acting like this?
It’s just one teacup.
“Because it’s my teacup, right?”
Isn’t it natural for her owner to take care of her things? So this is not strange. Also, it has nothing to do with Plan. Absolutely not….
Maiev drew her cupboard over and over again.
In the end, she couldn’t find anything she deserved, so she hugged him and fell asleep.
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The next morning.
Immediately after Maiev woke up, she left the world of fire. Flann, who was doing her work at her desk as usual, asked her without even giving her a glance.
“Was yesterday a good day?”
Plan is as insensitive as two days ago. There is no sincerity in his words or facial expressions.
Actually, it was a natural thing. Because Maiev and Flan only had a one-day appointment.
Maiev nodded slightly.
“It was helpful in some way.”
“Okay. “Now it’s back to normal.”
A voice so chilling that it seems like yesterday’s events were just a fleeting imagination. Maiev began to feel a little nervous again.
‘… Are you regretting it? No way? I?’
Just as Maiev was thinking that, Flann calmly continued her words.
“Then do you have the courage to speak honestly now? “Why did you come to see me again?”
Maiev was also silently frustrated.
“What difference will it make if I talk about it?”
“It changes. “Because we will be honest with each other.”
“What good is it if we are honest with each other?”
“The precious relationship I experienced yesterday starts from honesty.”
Maiev thought for a moment after hearing those words.
My worries gradually deepen. It was almost impossible to deceive Flan anyway, so she thought it might be better to be honest.
In the end, I made a decision.
“The Lord of the Void wants Flan. “I have come to place a curse on you.”
“It seems like a pretty important mission. “You got it.”
“I don’t think he was promoted based on ability. “You probably know that I was your slave.”
“Then I understand.”
Maiev also nodded her head.
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“That’s right. At the same time, you want to test my loyalty. “Is this someone who will betray the Void, or is this someone who will be loyal?”
“It was expected.”
He didn’t seem particularly surprised when he heard Maiev’s story. He asks, just sipping her coffee.
“Why does the ruler of the void want me?”
“It is now under the princess’s rule, but in fact, there is another true ruler of the void.”
“But.”
“It is sealed, and a great wizard from each race is needed to unlock it. It wasn’t difficult to save the elf and beastman….”
Maiev continues speaking step by step.
“The level of magic among humans has not been high.”
“I appeared at such a time.”
“That’s right. “The princess has no choice but to pay attention.”
“What do you plan to do if you resurrect the ruler?”
Then Maiev twitched her eyebrows and answered.
“They will try to place the entire continent under the control of the Void. When great power is awakened, wielding it is a natural step. Even if the ruler cannot be revived, similar attempts will continue.”
“For now, I understand.”
Flan put down the teacup with a loud thud.
“It won’t be easy for you to turn your back on the void. Since he was born as a blood demon, even if he wanted to betray, it would be impossible.”
“That’s right. My life and my brother’s life depend on this mission. “Maybe it doesn’t end with death.”
“Well done Maiev. “Since you told me honestly, I will not kill you on the spot either.”
Maiev nodded her head slightly.
“… Did you notice it from the beginning? Thank you.”
Flann looked at Maiev blankly. Maiev had a confused look on her face.
“And it is your choice whether to carry out the mission or not.”
“Yes?”
“It’s just like the expression. It is your freedom to attempt the mission. However.”
Plan’s tone became more serious.
“The rule of emptiness that you have lived by thinking that it is the truth. Let’s doubt that at least once. Also, let’s seriously consider what it means to live.”
“Independent life….”
“And one more thing. “The Void’s plan will fail.”
“How can you be sure?”
“Because I will be the one to change the world.”
Just one word.
The tone was so full of confidence that I believed it without even realizing it. Maiev shook her head unconsciously.
Plan quietly activated his telekinesis. I take off the picture frame of the world of Chinese characters hanging on the wall and give it to Maiev.
“The conversation ends here. Next time I encounter an enemy, I won’t show you any mercy, and if you look different, I’ll respond with a different attitude as well. “Don’t forget what I said.”
“… Yes. Then.”
Maiev left her place without a word.
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Maiev quietly returned to the void.
When she returned, she found that her own residence was a mess. Her roof was full of holes and her walls had collapsed in places, making her a ruin.
─Get out.
─A slow bastard.
─Inferior.
The wall was filled with mocking phrases written in red blood. There were no casualties as it was not a place where many people resided, but it was also not a pleasant experience.
However, Maiev desperately searched for her younger sister.
“My B, where are you? My B!”
Fortunately, she was able to find her younger brother without difficulty. Her younger brother, who was only as tall as her waist, was shivering pitifully in her corner.
“… !”
At the same time, Maiev’s eyes widened. Her Maivi’s body was covered in wounds and there was a hole in her chest.
“What is this…?” . My B, are you okay?”
“Sister…. She’s alive….”
But for some reason, her younger brother asked how Maiev was doing.
“Well, what on earth does that mean?”
“Everyone said she would kill her sister….”
Maiev chewed her lips in exasperation.
“That won’t happen. Don’t worry. “Her sister will take care of everything from now on.”
“… Sister.”
“Yes.”
“I’ll just shake it. Huh?”
“Why do you say that….”
It felt like a stone was being placed on her heart.
“My sister is having a hard time because of me. “I’m not feeling well and I’m stupid anyway, so I’ll just die.”
“This guy is talking nonsense.”
Maiev hurriedly rummaged through her arms, trying to find something about her. However, the only thing she could hold in her hand was the teacup that Flan had given her as a gift.
Suddenly his face and words came to mind.
─Think about what it means to live.
Maiev was lost in her thoughts as she looked at her sister writhing in pain. As of yet, she couldn’t understand anything Flann said.
‘What on earth are you talking about?’
Maiev thought intensely. Even in the worst situation, she tried to understand what she meant.
I am so desperate that I die.
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“Uh, sister… ? “Where are we going?”
“….”
Maiev hugged her sister and quickly began to draw a line of black magic.
“Sister, where are you going? “I said I had to report it.”
“….”
“Where are we going?”
“Shut your mouth if you don’t want to die!”
Maiev screamed.
Yet she also built a magic circle. She was more urgent than ever and desperate to the point of death.
After she completed the magic circle that transported her to the human world, Maiev mumbled absentmindedly, her face covered in sweat.
“… “I don’t even know why I’m doing this.”
In the end, Maiev chose to take her own life for the first time. I had no idea what result this would lead to. But….
She had no choice but to believe that she must be right.