25 – Half Consideration: Chapter 25
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Today was the day of the March Mock Test.
The saying that the mock test in March was the result of the CSAT was still valid.
The faces of most of the classmates were full of spleen.
Of course, Eunha was also sitting and studying.
I was too focused to speak.
Well, it’s the last year of college entrance exams, which I’ve been through countless times.
It was natural to want to take the first step for him in a good mood.
Even I, who experienced the college entrance exam once, was a bit nervous.
But a good university for me was a university like Eunha.
I couldn’t build proper memories in high school, so I wanted to build them in college.
Someone might think it was an impure intention, but it can’t be helped.
Because that’s what I want and there’s nothing else to consider.
Because I wanted to do everything I could do with Eunha after I became an adult.
I wanted to drink with Eunha and go on a long trip.
If I could do all the things I couldn’t do because I was a student, with Eunha, would there be anything else that would make me happier than that?
But when I become an adult, I have to go to the army, so what should I do?
Ha… It was already dark before my eyes.
The thought of going to the training center after shaving my head again made me want to die.
Unknowingly, I let out a very thick sigh.
“Haa… “
“What happened?”
“No. Because my future is bleak for a moment.”
“Because of the mock exam in March? It’s up to you to do it last time.”
“It’s another concern.”
“What is it?”
“No comment. This is an unsolvable problem.”
It was too early to talk about the military to Eugene next to me.
Perhaps the word military service is very small in Eugene’s head.
But what about the galaxy when I have an army?
There is a saying that the end of the day is the end of the day, and how to break up most of the time.
There is a saying that when the body gets farther away, the mind falls.
Just get married first? No Also, this goes too far.
But if you want to keep me waiting, wouldn’t it be legal to have a husband and wife relationship?
But to marry as soon as you become an adult, there’s no way your parents will approve of it.
In the end, I couldn’t stop thinking until the Korean test paper arrived in front of my eyes.
Yes. Even if you worry now, there is nothing you can do or guarantee.
Let’s think simply.
The best thing to do is to solve the problem in front of you and silently do what you have to do.
And what I have to do is ‘How can I make Eunha like me more’.
It could be that I study hard.
Maybe it’s to show off your cool side.
To make such an effort, I had to like Eunha more.
But for some reason, it didn’t seem to be a problem.
I don’t know why, but the size of time and the size of my heart toward the galaxy are proportional.
I can’t explain it in words, but I felt like I could smile when I thought of Eunha no matter how much time passed.
When I think of galaxies, I can’t think of anything other than galaxies.
Anxiety due to the uncertainty of the future, as well as unfortunate events in the past.
Eunha’s smile is so pretty that I forget everything.
My heart is pounding, but it makes my heart calm.
“Let’s start the test.”
I opened the problem sheet and underlined it.
To be honest, I’m not confident in Korean, but I managed to finish it with proper time allocation.
Eunha was also quite tired and was lying on the desk.
I didn’t want to disturb the rest, so I didn’t go to Eunha’s seat.
In the end, the long 100-minute math test began without talking to Eunha.
Mathematics was a subject I was more confident in than other subjects, so I solved it one by one from the first.
I did not solve too difficult problems and passed them over, then meticulously organized the problems that could be solved.
I tried to solve the last problem with some time left, but it was impossible in the end.
Before long, the exam time was over and the test papers and OMR papers were collected by the teacher.
I looked toward the galaxy with his hand above his head, but the expression of the galaxy was not bright.
It seemed that the desired results were not coming out.
Lunchtime started, but Eun-ha was staring blankly at the blackboard.
I wanted to approach him carefully, but I didn’t know what to say.
The more you try, the bigger the disappointment.
I thought about what could be said to soothe the disappointed Eunha, but I couldn’t come up with anything.
If you said that the March mock exam was not something to be concerned about, it seemed to deny Eunha’s efforts so far.
However, it cannot be said that the original result was a cold one for Eunha, who has been working hard.
I kept thinking about it, but I couldn’t think of anything I could say to Eunha.
I tried to tell this story as it was, but it seemed like it would only make me feel bad.
Everyone went to lunch and only Eunha and I were left in the classroom.
I wonder if 10 minutes have passed? Eunha raised her head and moved her gaze towards me.
Then he walked over and stood in front of my desk.
“Hangyeol-ah. I’m not feeling well today, but would you like to eat lunch alone?”
“Huh?”
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Apparently, the disappointment was so great that the rice didn’t go in.
I couldn’t bear to ask Eunha, who was smiling even though she was in a bad mood, to go out to eat with me.
“Ah- I will.”
He looked like he wanted to be alone, so in the end I ate lunch alone.
When I came back to the classroom, I saw Eunha lying face down on the desk.
I didn’t bother to approach Eunha like that.
I didn’t want to bother anyone by going there.
Having someone by your side when you’re in pain doesn’t necessarily make it any less difficult.
There are times when I want to clear my mind on my own, and there are times when I want to organize my thoughts by myself first.
Careful not to ask what’s going on.
Careful not to ask if there are any difficulties.
Consideration for not forcing yourself to brush it off.
Consideration that does not ask even if you know, and does not ask even if you want to know.
I decided to fill half of that half-hearted consideration with just waiting in silence.
Lunchtime was over, and English, Korean history, and inquiry subjects were all over, and it was time to go home.
“… “
I was on my way home with Eunha.
There are no words and the way home is full of silence.
I just silently moved my steps.
In the end, it was at the point where we always parted that we heard Eunha’s voice.
“Then Gyeol-ah. I’ll see you tomorrow.”
“Yes. Go carefully, Eunha too.”
“Yes. Bye.”
I parted with Eunha without a pleasant wave of handshake.
I just looked at the back of the galaxy as it walked helplessly.
The image of Eunha from behind kept popping up in my head, and even at home, I only thought of Eunha.
I didn’t even eat lunch, so I wonder if I’ll starve myself until dinner.
Shall we send a message cautiously?
Couldn’t it be that she’s crying in her room with the blanket over her?
I wanted to put my worries to rest, but in order to do so, I had to contact Eunha.
Hearing Eunha’s bright voice made me feel relieved, and I wanted to see Eunha smiling and saying that she was okay.
However, I couldn’t do that because I knew Eunha’s altruism.
She’s sure if I ask if I’m okay, she’ll try to smile and say it’s okay.
In the end, asking her questions to Eunha about whether she is okay is what bothers her more.
The only thing I can do is stay by her side when Eunha gets better.
Worried about Eunha, she held onto her smartphone for a while before putting it down on her desk.
Even while eating dinner or watching online lectures, all I could think of was the galaxy.
She checked her smartphone several times, thinking that Eunha might not be able to contact her by any chance.
Eunha contacted her, but she thought maybe I hadn’t checked and went into the message room several times.
Even though it was past ten o’clock at night, she hadn’t contacted Eunha.
It seemed like I couldn’t contact you today.
She eventually gave up, washed up in the bathroom, and returned to her room.
I also went to bed early today because I was tired from the mock exam.
But the moment my back touched the bed, the cell phone on the desk started to ring loudly.
Startled, I ran to the desk and picked up her cell phone.
The word ‘Eunha’ was clearly written on the smartphone.
I quickly pressed the call button and answered Eunha’s call.
“Hello?”
– Hello. Was Hanyul sleeping? Sorry. I called too late…
I heard the powerless voice of Eunha over the cell phone.
As soon as I heard Eunha’s droopy voice, a part of her heart felt cold.
I wanted to comfort Eunha right away, but unfortunately I didn’t know what to say.
In the end, Eunha and I went on the phone with very common words.
“No. I don’t go to bed this early What’s going on?”
I thought it was a slip of the tongue when I asked what was going on.
It was a moment of regret, thinking ‘I should have talked about something else’.
The galaxy spoke very weakly and in a very thin voice.
– Just… I felt like calling Hangyul.