110 – 110. Between love and resentment (3)
Why did Kang Ha-neul suddenly turn on the broadcast while drunk and complain to the viewers?
Why did she say that everything in this world is fake and didn’t even try to consult her academy classmates about her worries, so she bluntly confided her worries to viewers who didn’t even know her face?
To summarize the cause in one word, Kang Ha-neul’s actions were, in fact, close to desperation.
This is how Ha-neul Kang felt when she opened her first can of beer.
Jealousy and resentment towards Yewon Ji.
Sense of disappointment and betrayal towards Ahn Su-ho.
And a sense of skepticism about the world itself.
Kang Ha-neul’s psychological state was such that negative emotions were suppressing her love for An Su-ho.
Everyone wants to relieve negative emotions and throw them out. Kang Ha-neul was like that too.
Her problem was that there was no way for her to release the negative feelings that had settled in my heart.
People usually complain to others when they have a hard time and try to get comfort and sympathy, but there was no ‘person’ around Kang Ha-neul to complain about.
As a result, negative emotions only piled up inside Kang Ha-neul. Add to that a large amount of alcohol, and in the end she turned on the radio halfway in despair.
The desire to complain to someone.
However, I do not want to face the ‘characters’ of this world whom I have known face to face.
At the end of such thoughts, Kang Ha-neul came to the conclusion that he should tell his friends on the Internet about his worries. In fact, she explained it logically in her own words, but there was no logic in her actions of the river sky. When she peels off the glossy packaging, she is just, she did nothing but do something she couldn’t handle while drunk and not thinking about her future.
“Heoteun. What do I, I really don’t understand? Actually, I’m prettier than that sister, right? That sister, her face is a bit smaller than mine? It could be a little bit pretty. That sister is him. Because she’s so, so skinny Oh? But all the places where it came out came out and all the places where it went in went in, right? Her face isn’t bad either. No, not me, my friend. Friend. My friend is like that flaw. Sibaal…….”
The broadcast was suddenly turned on without notice after taking a break from broadcasting for several days due to the kidnapping incident. The number of viewers was not high yet. However, the few viewers were watching Kang Ha-neul’s raw Ha So-yeon with excitement.
“Yeah? The phone keeps coming back, but you don’t answer? How many times have I told you I don’t want to receive it! Now, if I get it now, I don’t know what to say. Khing.”
Kang Ha-neul drank beer while trying to ignore the bell ringing from behind.
About an hour after the broadcast started. In the meantime, the alcohol in Kang Ha-neul’s house started to show the bottom. As much as she was, she was in a state of drunkenness.
Viewers were happy to see such a disheveled appearance of the river sky, but there were also some who played vicious pranks while watching such a river sky.
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Kang Ha-neul read the message sent by the viewer with blank eyes. Immediately, a look of displeasure appeared in those eyes.
“Mr. Lee. Are you shooting me like this just because I drank? Hey! It was written in the announcement that it was forbidden?! Do you think I’m drunk? I’m not even drunk yet! You’re a van, a van! Die-! Ehehehe! Ugh! Ugh, ugh! Heying…….”
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Like a manic-depressive patient, Kang Ha-neul cried and laughed repeatedly. It seems that such a reaction was interesting, and the next donation came up right away.
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“Drinking cat…… ? I’m not in the mood today…….”
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“Ah… …. Well, is that so? If it wasn’t for the listeners, I would have been groaning alone, but it seems like I’ve felt a bit relieved after confiding in it-“
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Chat chats went up quickly at the sight of him succumbing to capital. Kang Ha-neul laughed at the sight.
I don’t even know myself anymore. As if to be what it is.
Suddenly, Kang Ha-neul felt an indescribable sadness rising up. She was the one who started the broadcast, but she almost fought with Ahn Su-ho, and her own situation, fawning and trembling at her viewers who did not even know her face, was miserable and unseemly.
-Tiririririri!
Then the bell rang again.
The river sky, which glanced at the phone thrown on her bed, tried to ignore the sound.
However.
-Can-can!
Kang Ha-neul suddenly raised his head as the sound of blows rang out in succession. Her gaze moved to the window on the other side of the room.
“…… Uh?”
The shadow of a person looking black beyond the window.
Embarrassed, Kang Ha-neul stood up hesitantly. Her room was on the 5th floor of the building. I couldn’t see anyone passing by through the window.
“What, what. Who are you-“
Kang Ha-neul’s words did not continue until the end. As soon as the assailant appeared suddenly, she opened the unlocked window and entered the room. She vomited a black smoke screen.
-Tuhwaahak!
A black smoke screen covered the broadcasting camera lens. At the moment when viewers were taken aback by the black screen, an unknown assailant approached the computer with strides. Only then was Kang Ha-neul able to recognize his identity.
“Oh, brother?”
“… ….”
Ahn Suho did not answer. Ahn Soo-ho looked at her monitor in silence, then she closed the browser window where the broadcast was in progress. Even that wasn’t enough for her, so she pulled out the camera and microphone wires.
“Kang Haneul.”
Ahn Su-ho finally opened his mouth after turning off the computer. He seemed to have rushed over, but his breath escaped from his mouth.
“Why aren’t you answering the phone? I called several times.”
“…… Because I don’t want to receive it.”
Tears leaked from Kang Ha-neul’s eyes. She raised her voice and fired at Ahn Soo-ho.
“I didn’t get it because I didn’t want to receive it! Why! Then, even after you say that in the morning, if you secretly call me, I’m your brother! Do you know how to do and receive it?! Did you know that!”
“Heaven. Be quiet a little If you can hear it from the next room-“
“Listen! Listen! Tell everyone in the neighborhood to listen! Take the punishment for breaking into a female student’s room without permission, Ahn Su-ho!”
“Hey, just be quiet-“
At that moment, Suho Ahn frowned at the sharp scent of alcohol. He broke into a sweat as he looked at the strewn bottles of liquor above and below his desk.
‘How much did you drink right now…….’
“Heaven. Once you calm down Since you’re drunk right now, let’s activate your avatar first. Huh? Calm down and let’s talk.”
“No! Why should I do what my brother says? And I’m not drunk! I’m not drunk, hehehe, hehehe…… “
“Heaven?”
“Huh! Go, go, bite and suck Ji Ye-won or something! hehehe. Why do I, I say I like you, but why do you not like me? …. Hey!”
“Hey, when did I say I hate you? I like you-“
“I want to cross both legs! Do you know how sad I was to hear that…… aaa!!”
-Kung kung kung!
A student in the next room banged on the wall on the side of Kang Ha-neul’s room, saying it was noisy. Ahn Su-ho broke out in a cold sweat. He’s currently sneaking into the girls’ dormitory.
“Khehehehe, huh?”
“Heaven. Please. Please calm down Try activating your avatar first. Calm down and let’s talk. Huh? Please.”
Kang Ha-neul, who was crying sadly, closed his mouth and Ahn Su-ho desperately asked for it.
“Story. Got it? Story.”
“… ….”
Kang Ha-neul, who was looking up at Ahn Soo-ho with a whimper, nodded softly. Soon, a white halo of light enveloped her body.
“…… “
When Kang Ha-neul finally showed up, she was the avatar with the sky-blue hair she used for broadcasting. The swollen eye area and the tangled hair are all neatly tidied up.
“………… Ah.”
Of course, the drunkenness was completely gone. Kang Ha-neul, who belatedly realized her own ugliness, pushed Ahn Su-ho away with her face blushing.
Kang Haneul lowered her head as if turning away from Ahn Suho. Ahn Su-ho also did not bother to speak.
A moment of silence fell between the two.
“…… Why are you here?”
Soon, Kang Ha-neul asked a question. With reason regained thanks to her avatar ability. That’s what she asked the man who betrayed her at dawn.
“I wanted to stop you because you were saying everything you couldn’t say on the air.”
“…… Thank you for that Is that the end?”
“And I have something to tell you.”
“Are you asking for a pair of legs?”
“Right.”
“Brother, do you think that makes sense based on common sense? To the person who confessed that he likes you, in fact, there is one more person I like other than you, so let’s get along well as the three of us? You think that makes sense!!”
“…… “
“What about Ji Ye-won? Could Ji Ye-won accept it?”
“…… He said he respected my choice.”
“Ha.”
Kang Ha-neul, whose legs were losing strength, sat down on the bed. She tousled her hair nervously, with her contorted expression on her face.
“…… It’s lamb. It’s strange to accept common sense. But Ji Ye-won accepted it. Brother, do you know what this means?”
“………… What?”
“It means Ji Ye-won is not a real person, but just a character in a novel.”
A sudden leap of logic. However, Kang Ha-neul calmly continued to explain.
“Me. When I read novels, whether it was a harem or a reverse harem, I thought it was very contrived. I don’t know if the background is a fantasy world in the Middle Ages, but there’s no way modern people who have good common sense would admit such a group affair with a smile hahahaha, right? That’s just a possible development because the writer gave up on reality to satisfy the readers. Contrived. Writer’s convenience. It is something that cannot happen in real life.”
“… ….”
“Brother. You said this morning that this world is also the real world, right?”
But he said he couldn’t admit it. Kang Ha-neul added that.
No matter how real this world is, the essence is fiction after all. It is a man-made miniature garden filled with decorated things created by the artist, Cheonma of Pleasure.
As evidence of that, all sorts of contrived developments are prevalent in this world. Even if it was Ji Ye-won right now, and she almost died three times in less than two months, she is a living witness to the contrived nature.
He said that the hardships, adversities, sufferings, and sorrows he had experienced so far are proof that this world is a lie.
“…… I strongly agree with that part.”
Ahn Soo-ho nodded softly at the earnest appeal of the river sky. Ahn Su-ho suffered from contrived incidents as well. Rather, in terms of degree, if Ahn Su-ho suffered more than Kang Ha-neul, he would have suffered, but not less.
“Certainly, this world is contrived. It’s been a long time since I stopped talking about reality. But… ….”
Ahn Su-ho set his eyes on Kang Ha-neul. A weak smile forms on his lips.
“How about if you don’t have a bit of reality?”
“…… Yes?”
“Unrealistic. Contrived. Unusual things that make you doubt if this is real. Things like that happened often in the world I used to live in. If you think so, isn’t there much difference between the world over there and here?”
“…… Could it be that Ji Ye-won accepted both legs like that, are you trying to say that?”
“In fact, there is no guarantee that the original world we live in is not a model garden.”
Ahn Su-ho did not answer Kang Ha-neul’s question. He instead confided in her a thought that had been sitting inside her all along.
“The important thing is how I accept the world. If I think I’m real, I’m real, and if I think I’m fake, I’m fake.”
“You said that now-“
“Heaven. Did you come to like me because I’m a real person and not a character?”
At those words, Kang Ha-neul was speechless. Cowardly For a moment, such a feeling flashed through Kang Ha-neul’s mind.
“I wasn’t. I liked you even when I wasn’t sure if you were the possessor or not. It doesn’t matter if it’s real or fake. To me, Kang Haneul was just Kang Haneul. That’s why I came to like it.”
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Like Kang Ha-neul’s impression, what Ahn Su-ho said now was truly cowardly.
A strategy that appeals to Kang Ha-neul’s emotions instead of giving up logical explanations.
“You say the whole world is fake. I said it all meant nothing.”
“…… That.”
“Then what about me? Am I just a character that means nothing to you?”
At that question, Kang Ha-neul reflexively tried to shake his head.
No.
That’s not true.
The reason why Kang Ha-neul fell in love with Ahn Su-ho was not because of the factors related to his essence. It was just that a person named Ahn Su-ho fell in love with the image he had shown in the past and took his heart away.
Although I was confused about loving him, saying that An Su-ho was just a created character.
It paradoxically meant that even though she accepted Ahn Su-ho as her character, she loved him. That was the truth.
“Heaven. Say it. Why did you fall in love with me Did you notice that I am a possessor, that I am a person from the original world just like you?”
“…… No.”
“Then?”
“Because oppa, oppa was just good…… “
As Ha-neul Kang replied, she noticed at a glance that she was playing around as Ahn Su-ho intended. But that didn’t make the words she put in her mouth false.
“I would have loved you even if you were made. And you will be the same It’s a story that, after all, you’ve accepted this world, or at least me, as real, and not as a lie, without you even knowing it. In the end, what matters is how you accept it. Even if it’s fake, if you think it’s real, I think it’s no different from the real thing to the person who accepts it.”
“… ….”
“If I, like you, thought Ji Ye-Won was just a character in a novel, Heaven would have chosen you without hesitation when I found out that they love me.”
At those words, tears welled up in Kang Ha-neul’s eyes.
She was nothing more than talking about family law and what-ifs, but to Kang Ha-neul, who was devastated to the point of exhaustion in mind and body during the day, those words made her very grateful and happy.
“Really, yo?”
“Yes. Probably. No, it must have been.”
Ahn Suho answered that and added.
However, she said that she accepted Ji Ye-won as a person, not a character.
Just as Kang Ha-neul was real to her, she said Ji Ye-won was also real. So, as she herself, she couldn’t give up on either side of the love that was too much for her.
“So I wanted to be greedy. In a world that is already vicious towards me, I think I will be able to endure it at least a little if I am fully with the people I love.”
In the end, Ahn Su-ho’s logic did not develop at all from that morning. His selfish decision to the last. It was nothing more than sophistry to convince Kang Ha-neul.
However, even if it was sophistry, the feelings contained in the words were sincere. And that feeling reminded Kang Ha-neul of the most essential part of the relationship between the two.
Does Kang Ha-neul love An Su-ho?
And does Ahn Su-ho love Kang Ha-neul?
I wasn’t convinced about Ji Ye-won’s problem. It’s just that he was newly aware of the love that had been inside him, and finally that love grew bigger than negative feelings like jealousy or betrayal.
“………… In the end, you mean to cross your legs. He couldn’t refuse the undeserved love. You speak well. It’s not like the male lead in some kind of drama…….”
Kang Ha-neul lowered his head and spoke in a pouting voice. Ahn Soo-ho, who had vomited out all he could, just stared at the river and sky in silence.
How much time had passed like that?
“Brother.”
“Yes.”
“Does your brother love me?”
“I love you.”
“Are you in love?”
“I love you.”
“Will you continue to love me?”
“Yes. In the future. All the way. I will continue to love you.”
“…… That’s it.”
That’s it. As the words reveal, Kang Ha-neul eventually gave up on compromising on this issue. Instead of compromising, she took a step back and yielded to Ahn Su-ho.
“I’m going to say that, but you have to listen. I lost.”
Finally, the river sky raised her head. Before she knew it, large transparent teardrops formed around her eyes. But she didn’t just look sad.
“It’s not that the legs are good. To be honest, I can’t stand Ji Ye-won by my brother’s side. But… ….”
Kang Ha-neul smiled. It was the first laugh he made after meeting Ahn Soo-ho.
“My brother says he wants it, so I’ll be generous with it. Anyway, if we go back to the original world, Ji Ye-won is a character, so we won’t be able to follow her…….”
“Heaven… ….”
“Instead, I promise you two things.”
The river sky hit the side of her bed she was sitting on. It’s like she wants to sit next to her. Ahn Soo-ho nodded and sat down next to the river sky.
“First. Don’t increase more women than this. It can’t be helped that Ji Ye-won met before me, but I can’t tolerate it after that. Especially the original heroines. Never touch. Let them quietly go out with Taehyung Ryu. Got it?”
“Yes. Okay.”
“And the second.”
Kang Ha-neul looked up at Ahn Su-ho. A reddish aura begins to form on her cheeks.
“…… I said I was generous, but I can’t accept that I fall behind in terms of characters.”
“You fall behind? I want you as much as Ji Ye-won-”
“No, I mean, I don’t want to fall behind her in a relationship. You said you confessed first, right? Then how far did the progress go? Have you ever held hands? Have you ever gone on a date alone? Did you kiss?”
“What, what?”
“All right. No matter how far you went with that b*tch…….”
– Puck.
Kang Ha-neul pushed Ahn Su-ho’s body roughly. He was sitting on the bed, and he collapsed onto the bed.
“…… I’ll get ahead of you today.”
Kang Ha-neul did not delay and laid his body on top of it. Ahn Soo-ho asked with a puzzled face at the soft touch he felt on his lower abdomen.
“Ha, sky? What are you doing now?”
“This, this is my second request! If you don’t want to listen, I give up! Go and bite and suck only with that b*tch!”
“You, are you talking sanely?”
“I’m sane now.”
-Paat!
The next moment, Kang Ha-neul’s body was enveloped in light and his avatar ability was canceled. Kang Ha-neul, who returned to his body, had a drunken reddish aura on his cheeks.
“Hey, you… ….”
Kang Ha-neul whispered in the bewildered Ahn Su-ho’s ear.
“But not anymore.”