63 – It would have been nice to have some counseling
What are you going to say?
‘Yes, I’ve been waiting for this…’ … ‘
I’ve been playing the game calmly since before, but I felt a lot of agitation in the play.
With that in mind, it would be appropriate to listen to Tsubasa’s concerns.
Hyunjin thought so and prepared himself.
“Let’s talk first.”
“Well, I will.”
As Hyunjin spoke thoughtfully, Tsubasa cleared her throat lightly.
“Hmm, I see. We must talk first…….”
Hyunjin felt a bit cramped at Tsubasa’s worry after asking to hear it, but when he thought about it, he thought it was natural.
If you think about it, don’t you think it’s hard to say in real life, not in the world of fiction.
Hyunjin crossed his arms and waited for Tsubasa to open his mouth.
“I want to consult. That’s it. How to calmly control your emotions in front of others…… It’s the same thing.”
“Yes…… ?”
Do you really need to ask me about this?
You seem to be much better at controlling your emotions that way.
Hyunjin thought as he lightly pressed the back of her nose.
‘That’s probably the reason.’
You can control it well in normal times, but you can’t control it in front of your family.
The way to control your emotions is to be flexible with your thoughts.
Hyunjin thought so and opened his mouth first.
“There is no other way. It is according to the mind.”
“That can’t be…… ?”
“When you have to pretend to be sad, you just shed tears while thinking sad things, and you have to use your emotions flexibly like that.”
Because I really learned that from Ed.
I thought it didn’t work at first, but it worked.
Hyunjin didn’t dare say that.
“Ho, ho…… It’s a very unique way.”
“I don’t think it is unique.”
“It’s unique enough for me.”
If this is unique, how do you usually control your emotions?
Hyunjin thought so, but realized that he had overlooked one thing.
‘No, wait a minute. Isn’t this a typical cliché?’
Hyunjin briefly forgot that the place she possessed was the love comedy world.
“Wait a minute, Hoshizora-senpai. If…… Is something going on?”
“Huh? What do you mean, Jin-kun?”
“Tell me properly. If I can help, I will help. You didn’t mean to talk about trivial things like how to control your emotions, right?”
As Hyunjin questioned, Tsubasa silently lowered her head.
Can I say this?
I was hesitating.
‘Hyunjin is…… I’m sure he’s a good person, but can I trust him…… ?’
While worrying so much, Tsubasa thought about a person named Hyunjin.
‘It was friendly from the beginning. Award-worthy. But when I said it, they all listened. Like a prince…….’
After all, Tsubasa was also a girl.
She had to wear a mask thoroughly in order to work as student council president or maintain her grades, and she was often told that she was cool-headed and charismatic in front of others.
That’s just a fictional situation.
Tsubasa wasn’t really like that at all.
She was like everyone else.
She likes sweet things, likes to pet cats, and often eats late-night snacks saying, ‘I need to lose weight…’ … She’s just an ordinary high school girl who thinks the same way.
Except for the fact that she has an unusual fondness for fighting games.
There was a reason why Tsubasa had to hide herself.
Family’s wish, inferiority complex toward older sister, and expectations of others.
Those things were enough to make Hoshizora Tsubasa act as an excellent student who shines her family, rather than an ordinary girl.
‘How was it here?’
Just because he is a suspect, he doesn’t remember all the episodes in that work.
Memories can be misleading.
Isn’t there a law that says you have to remember all the scenes just because you’re an otaku?
‘Hmm.’
Hyunjin was worried.
What words should I say, what words of comfort should I say?
One thing was certain.
Tsubasa Hoshizora was exhausted from the current reality.
As if she had become a salaryman tasting the bitter reality.
Tsubasa was like that too.
I wanted to lean on someone.
Until now, no one knew Tsubasa’s secret.
When I first met Hyunjin, he saw through the essence of himself wearing glasses at the game center. He noticed
At that time, her heart sank because she thought she had been caught.
Tsubasa tried to scare him.
Or else it wouldn’t be bad to keep her by her side.
The recommendation didn’t go through smoothly.
What kind of person is Hyunjin to Tsubasa?
I thought about it a little more.
‘He looks a bit playful, but when he is serious, he is serious and cool. Above all, he is a person who is full of consideration for others.’
Anything like that would be what you would call nature.
If you define Hyunjin as good and evil, he is definitely a good person.
Tsubasa decided to make a decision.
Let’s not burden such a good person.
I thought that it would be enough for me to take the childish light that I wanted to rely on others by myself.
“…… Don’t.”
“Yes?”
Tsubasa couldn’t hear Hyunjin’s voice for a moment.
So, she asked back.
“Don’t hug me alone anymore.”
“No, so…… Did I tell you everything?”
Tsubasa couldn’t bear to look right at Hyunjin’s face because she felt ashamed that she had revealed her inner thoughts.
“A lie.”
Hyunjin quietly opened his mouth.
When Tsubasa was thinking to herself, Hyunjin observed Tsubasa.
This is―― I’m sure you’re asking for help.
Because she doesn’t know what to do.
After all, Hyunjin was an old enough man, and seeing Tsubasa’s mannerisms, he was certain.
There is something difficult.
“You know what? Hoshizora-senpai, if there’s something she doesn’t want to answer, she avoids her gaze.”
“Eh?”
“The fact that people who try to make eye contact usually do that means that there are things that are difficult to answer.”
“That’s right, but…… “
It is difficult to notice with ordinary observation.
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Nevertheless, Hyunjin noticed.
“If you don’t mind talking to me, just be honest and ask for help. Unexpectedly, I might give you the right answer, right?”
“Pooh-up.”
At Hyunjin’s powerful words, Tsubasa covered her mouth and laughed.
“You know what, Jin? You are very stupid.”
“The fool is not me, but Hoshizora-senpai.”
“Right. Actually, there was something I wanted to discuss. I told you about Kosanke, earlier.”
“I did.”
Tsubasa sighed and continued her words.
“There will be a meeting with Kosanke soon. Iori, Hozuki, and Hoshizora. Three families like this.”
“There was such a meeting.”
…… No, wait.
Really?
If this is the case, it’s a meeting that you don’t know if you’re going to go to. Thinking so, Hyunjin felt a moment of confusion.
She said that if she went to that place called Gosanke’s meeting, Amelia would surely go too, and then Edna herself would accompany her.
Wouldn’t she then reveal her position to Ayako and Tsubasa?
There are things I have been forced to tell Ohana, but they probably still don’t know who I am.
If you knew, you would have been called ‘Lionheart’s butler’ or ‘Amelia’s servant’ first.
Hyunjin opened his mouth thinking that far.
“You don’t want to go?”
“Well, to be honest, yes. Actually, isn’t it? Seats that require formality are uncomfortable.”
Tsubasa grumbled.
Hyunjin nodded her head and spoke in sympathy.
“Yes, definitely. Starting with the dress code, etiquette…… There will be a lot of things to take care of.”
“Are you familiar?”
Tsubasa carefully opened her mouth.
If she’s going to run into her anyway, wouldn’t it be one way for her to open up in advance that she’s a butler?
Hyunjin thought so.
Tsubasa’s attitude was that she trusted herself.
Hiding her identity is not a good thing.
What if she ran into Amelia’s butler at Gosanke’s gathering?
Surely, Tsubasa would feel cheated.
I was so excited that I explained the situation in detail to the servant of the other house.
At that time, it would be difficult to persuade the circumstances separately.
‘Just…… The question is how much Tsubasa knows my identity.’
I already know everything, but revealing my identity is very futile.
Hyunjin thought so and decided to ask.
“Senior Hoshizora.”
“…… Huh?”
“Can I ask how much you know about me?”
Then Tsubasa said with a slight embarrassment.
“Muh, I don’t know what you mean. Kim Hyun-jin, a first-year student at Hoshizora Academy…… Is that it?”
It was the first time. To see Tsubasa so flustered.
Except when she met her older sister Yozora, she had never seen her particularly flustered, so Hyunjin thought the current situation was strange.
“If you say so, the evaluation given to me is a little generous. For example…… She was going to give me a position like the Commissioner of Discipline.”
“That’s right. The other day, I saw a gangster at the school gate…… “
“Because you simply drove out the gangsters, you made the chairman of the moral order committee with that? Isn’t that a bit absurd?”
When Hyunjin questioned, Tsubasa took her stance as if she was slightly stepping back.
“I also have something to confess, so please tell me as much as you know about me. Senior Hoshizora.”
Hyunjin grabbed Tsubasa’s wrist as she tried to get away from herself and stared at her with quite serious eyes.
‘Go, confession…… ? Confession? Now, wait a minute. You’re too serious…… ! I, yet…… Prepare your heart aaa………… !!’
For a moment, Tsubasa’s feelings were that it wouldn’t be strange even if the bomb exploded right away.
Her heart beat like crazy, and her face turned red.
Unfortunately, the confession that Hyunjin was trying to say had a completely different meaning.