184 – Strong God
‘this is… … .’
Even as the monsters rushed to kill and devour her, Christine was focused on the warmth that arose deep in her heart, even though she realized that her life was short.
It was very warm, and I felt an unknown force drawing Christine’s attention. Christine reached out for the warmth, as if possessed by something.
He didn’t mind the rushing monsters or the menacing roar heard nearby. Right now, I just wanted to focus on the pulsation of the soul in my heart.
The pulsating soul began to sink slowly into the depths of the heart. Outside work was no longer Christine’s business.
Christine was realizing. If it was now, if it was this moment, if it was now, if the soul was soaked with warmth, even if she died, her God would personally lead Christine to heaven.
That’s why, without a single doubt, I threw my spirit into the bottom of my heart. Even though my eyes were getting blurry, I didn’t think it was dangerous at all. On the contrary, I felt extremely comfortable.
In front of Christine, who was sinking endlessly to the bottom of her mind, a brightly shining human figure descended. Rather than appearing, I had a strong feeling that I was there from the beginning.
I instinctively noticed. The fact that this meaningless warmth comes from the human form made up of that halo of light.
‘God… … Did you come to pick me up?’
It was shining brightly, very brightly. Even though they were obviously not directly facing each other, they were shining so brightly that I had to close my eyes.
But to no avail. Christine was still dazzled. He raised his hand and covered his eyes. Still, to no avail. He raised both hands and covered his eyes.
The light was still bright.
A brilliant halo of light reached out to Christine. Christine stretched out her hand as well. Christine’s hand and the hand made of lights met.
—-Are you my god?
Christine asked.
It wasn’t something that came out of my mouth. Because that body was already on the verge of being torn apart by demons outside. It was almost as if the thoughts in my head were spoken out.
In the first place, due to Christine’s personality, she wouldn’t have dared to ask a question before God.
—-That’s right.
The lighthouse answered.
If so, there was only one action Christine had to take. I straightened up and knelt down toward the glow. So that you don’t feel disrespectful about anything.
bowed his head With all my strength, I bowed my head in front of God more sincerely, joyfully, and cautiously than any prayer and worship I had ever done.
—This lowly lamb dares to see my God.
No answer came from God. Christine was just fine. It was because he knew that even if God did not answer, he would never abandon him.
I wasn’t sure, but I was sure. Christine’s existence itself was the proof and conviction.
ㅡRaise your head. I am not here to receive your faith.
ㅡI understand. my god
Christine obeyed God’s command. The halo was still burning with the momentum to burn the sight, and the dazzling effect was still there.
But Christine didn’t turn her head any longer. He didn’t even close his eyes or lower his eyes. I was just trying to engrave a little more of God’s image into my eyes.
—My little lamb.
ㅡ… … yes my god Please tell me.
The answer came a bit late. It wasn’t that he dared to think of something else in front of God, or that it was a disaster.
It was because he was so moved that God had called him by the glorious title of my lamb, and had to hold back the tears that were about to burst out.
—-What are you doing here.
—-In order to rescue God… … hig. You are fighting.
ㅡDid you achieve your goal?
—- No… … sniff no I haven’t achieved it yet. Please do not forgive this sinner’s immorality.
Tears flowed from Christine’s eyes. One drop turned into two drops, two drops turned into three drops, and then a huge waterfall flowed down uncontrollably.
At least, this was close to a very restrained axis, as I couldn’t cry proudly in front of God. Otherwise, Christine would have cried out loud.
—My little lamb.
ㅡSigh… … Hehe, whimper… … Yes, my… … Whoa, my god… … .
The halo of light descended closer and closer. Correspondingly, the glare became more intense.
By the time I thought that the form of pure white light was completely eye-level with Christine, my vision was stained pure white with white light without even a speck of dust.
ㅡDo you believe in me?
ㅡ… … Yes?
It was such a shocking question that Christine, who had been crying so much, stopped crying without realizing it and asked it again. do you believe in yourself? Christine blinked her teary eyes.
ㅡDo you believe in me?
ㅡOf course it is. I believe in you. I believe in you with all my faithfulness. If I don’t believe in God, who will I follow? Please do not doubt my faith. Please do not deny my faith.
ㅡI do not doubt your faith. I don’t even deny it.
A hand made of light caressed Christine’s eyes. Curiously, as soon as I did, the tears welled up and stopped without even a sob.
—I will ask again, my lamb. Do you believe in ‘me’?
And it was only after the question was asked once more that Christine was able to clearly identify who the light group in front of her was. It was Christine’s God, but not Christine’s God.
She was a goddess of loving-kindness that lost her divine status a long time ago and was downgraded to a mere spiritual body.
ㅡ… … .
Christine couldn’t answer.
ㅡYou don’t answer.
It wasn’t a reprimanding voice, but when I heard those words, my body flinched because it was close to instinct, so I couldn’t help it.
ㅡI guess so. It should be. You don’t believe in ‘me’ However, one thing needs to be made clear.
The figure of light removed its hand from Christine’s eye. The tone of voice changed from the revelation of a majestic god to that of a benevolent goddess.
—-Your faith and faith, strictly speaking, are based on misunderstandings. You worshiped your god as a god, because the soul of my poor child, merged with yours, confirmed the fragment of me dwelling in his body. So, the relationship between you and the God you believe in is more like a mistaken relationship between Christina and me. If it hadn’t been for Christina, your god wouldn’t have been more than a benefactor to you, and neither the boy would have become a god nor you would have become a saint.
Christine waited for the next word with blank eyes.
—-So child, I will ask again. In front of all the truth, even after you realize that the boy is not God, even after realizing that the relationship is not yours but the relationship with another soul dwelling in yours, do you believe in your god? Do you still worship your god even after seeing that the source of the faith you have accumulated so far started from false facts? Could it be?
As if the halo had finished what he had to say, he stood up and looked down at Christine.
Christine understood everything.
The reason she worshiped the boy as a god was because Christina’s soul, which had been merged at the time of the soul bond, reacted to the fragment of the goddess dwelling in the boy.
So, if it hadn’t been for Christina’s soul and the Goddess of Charity, Christine’s relationship with the boy could have been very different. What is certain is that the relationship between the god and his followers must not have been.
That was the point. Even if you know that the beginning of the relationship has been broken, even if you know that your faith is from an illusion, can your faith not be shaken? Can you still treat God as God?
The answer has already been decided.
I felt as if the halo of light was gently laughing. It felt like she knew what she was going to say before she could even speak.
—-Of course, it is.
Christine made eye contact with the halo.
ㅡHave you faced the truth? Wasn’t it my will? Was it because of another soul? could have been different? What the hell does that have to do with my faith?
In that hwangan, determination dwelled.
ㅡMy faith may have been based on an illusion. Maybe all of that was a lie. Maybe the relationship has changed. It could be.
I stepped on the floor with both legs.
—-However, this one thing is certain.
I got up and faced the glow.
—-My faith, Christine Hildegard’s faith. It will never change forever.
okay. That was enough.
Did the truth come from an illusion? Wrong start? Could this not be the relationship? What does that mean? What does that have to do with Christine’s faith?
Christine would serve God, and who that God was was predetermined.
Only this one truth was enough.
—-That’s right. I knew you would answer like that.
The halo lightly beckoned toward Christine’s heart. At that moment, Christine felt her body lighten a little.
It wasn’t my mood. In reality, something had come out of Christine’s chest and was being embraced by the light.
—-That… … ?
—-It is the soul of that poor child who was in contact with your soul.
Christina Hildegard.
Christine looked at the woman’s soul embraced by the light with complex emotions, as she had been through thirty times in that woman’s shoes.
ㅡYou are a child who went through a very difficult ordeal and listened to my words without being able to rest in peace even after he died… … now i have to take it No matter how much I no longer exist, I can give you a gift of rest so that at least one soul who has served me wholeheartedly can rest in peace.
The human form made of light gradually began to fade. Christine had a hunch that the end was approaching. Now, there was no foreign existence left to Christine.
There was no Christina’s soul, no attraction to the Goddess of Charity. Christine and her faith in God were all that was left.
ㅡAh, now is your time. Don’t you already know how to make God dwell in that body? Don’t you know how to let your faith and your god dwell in him, not the other child’s faith and another child’s god, and how to accept the true god’s power, not half power?
The human form was scattered in brilliant white light.
ㅡGo away, child.
At some point, the goddess of loving-kindness stopped using the title ‘my lamb’ for Christine.
—Go and accept your God, no one else’s.
Because it was a title that only one person could call.
The demons stopped their actions.
It was because the woman who was on the verge of being torn to shreds by them suddenly stood up with blank eyes.
His left arm, which had been ripped off, was still missing, but his shoulder, which had been engulfed in black mana just a moment ago and was bleeding, was no longer wounded.
Demons had instincts.
No, only instinct.
The purpose of existence itself was to rip this woman apart, drink her blood, tear and swallow her flesh, and the holes called holes were created to commit crimes.
Their Creator told them to do it, so they had to do it. Intelligence was unnecessary to the black blood monsters. Reason was unnecessary.
It was enough to have just one instinct to covet the blood and flesh of the woman in front of him.
But now, the monsters no longer followed their instincts. He also ignored the Creator’s command that was forcibly injected into his head. I had no choice but to ignore it.
The power flowing from the woman in front of him, that white flame, was such an existence.
The woman’s body rose little by little into the sky. As if possessed by something, the monsters stared blankly at the body floating into the sky.
Suddenly, the body began to recover.
The severed left arm came back to life, and the black mana that consumed the body burned powerlessly and disappeared. Not only the scars spread all over her body, but even the tattered nun’s uniform regained her true form.
The woman opened her eyes completely. Conversely, the monsters raised their hands or arms to cover their faces. It was because the light and white flames bursting from the woman grew more and more intense.
The body rose higher and higher into the sky. The monsters looked at the figure with their heads bent to the limit, while covering their faces with movements that clearly showed signs of pain from the dazzling light.
“Sun…….”
An unknown person spat out such words.
It was impossible. Their creators had never made vocal organs for mere monsters like this. Horses were a luxury for monsters, and it was enough to just let out a menacing roar.
And yet, one of them unknowingly uttered the word sun. It might have been a miracle from God.
White flames added light. It was an existence worthy of being called the sun, an existence without deficiency, and an existence without deficiency.
The dawning light has shone upon the world. It was a kind of declaration and revelation. Even though light can’t have weight, it felt heavier than anything else in the world to the monsters.
The skin was crushed. Burning hotter than any existing magic and showing off its reality, the vast dawn illuminated the whole world.
As soon as the monsters hit the intense light, they burned like matches dropped into a pit of fire. It was only before his body turned into a handful of ashes that he lowered his bewitched face.
Instead, he screamed.
ㅡKyaaa!!!!!
ㅡ Kiiii Iik!!!!!
ㅡKeruk?! Keee Kreurrr
Various screams erupted from the muzzles of the monsters. Just being able to scream was enough to hold on. The vast majority of monsters melted away without even screaming.
Christine stared at the monsters that oxidized as soon as they hit the light with emotionless eyes, then quietly closed her eyes and held her hands in front of her chest.
Kangshin ＜降神>.
It was the name of the miracle that dwelled in that body.