confession (2)
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Jimmy’s remaining drunken spirit was abruptly broken.
Jimmy patted his head, which still had a headache, and asked, just in case.
“What did you say now?”
“I think I have three years left to live.”
“Ha… What a funny joke…”
Jimmy let out a laugh.
Rey was silent, and there was a moment of silence.
Jimmy wondered if Ray had a history of holding weight like this and yelling.
Or am I still a little drunk?
“Rei, you’re going to become the youngest swordmaster in the history of the Empire. You’ll become a greater hero than Harcia… You said that.”
“I’m sorry, Jimmy. That was a lie.”
Jimmy was annoyed.
“I’m losing my taste for alcohol, so I can’t stop this funny joke…”
“Jimmy, for most things in the world… there are no miracles without cause and effect.”
Ray raised his head again and spoke calmly to Jimmy, who met his eyes.
“Anything comes with a price.”
Rei, who was younger than Leah’s age now, abused her body.
Because mana is an energy source with infinite possibilities.
Knights of this world could run faster and longer than horses.
Those born with exceptional talent could instantly accelerate their bodies to break through the speed of sound or even cut through a steel fortress with one blow.
Someone born with an incomprehensible talent was able to open the sky and annihilate part of the area by itself.
Therefore, Rey was able to fight with the adults by overusing her body as an energy source called mana, at an age when other children could run around clumsily.
And from then on.
Ray was already gnawing at the future.
“Miracles come with a price. This is my destiny, and this is the path I have chosen.”
“Ah, Ray, so…”
Jimmy, who had washed his face dry, couldn’t stand it any longer and showed annoyance.
“Where are you feeling sick these days? But why do you keep saying such unlucky things? He, he, nobles… If it doesn’t work out, please ask your majesty the Emperor for some treatment. Won’t you listen to my request?”
How many famous healers and priests were in the Empire?
How many precious medicinals are there that are difficult to put a price on in the warehouse of the imperial family?
Jimmy forcibly smiled and slapped Ray at the fact that he was doing the shovel.
However, Ray’s expression was still so calm.
Jimmy was afraid of that.
“Everything will be fine. So…”
“After Harsia’s death, there are hundreds of records of the Empire who died trying to learn the space sword. I also couldn’t overcome the side effects.”
“Ray…! Don’t talk like this here, and if you’re too anxious, go to the therapist…!”
“Neither the healers summoned by the Marquis of Frislan nor the great clerics in the Imperial Household to take care of His Majesty have come to the conclusion that the problem of my longevity is unsolvable.”
Just as divine power cannot solve aging and old age.
Rei’s body, which had been overused and torn from within, could not be resolved even with divine power.
The human body was designed that way from the genetic level in the first place so that it does not recover indefinitely, but self-destructs if abused over a certain period.
Therefore, Rey’s lifespan was a problem that could not be solved with divine power.
Jimmy then realized.
Ray had already found a solution for the longevity, and concluded that life was impossible.
Jimmy, who finally understood that fact, looked at Ray again.
Although Ray confessed that his life was short, he was still calm.
It was then that Jimmy understood the strange sense of distance that Rey had ever seen others…
That it was Rei’s defense mechanism, who knew her fate.
Jimmy finally understood.
“Lay…!!”
Jimmy clenched his fists.
Rey was denigrating the countless blind sacrifices and devotions as nothing more than ‘fate’.
Jimmy felt a pain in his chest and clenched his teeth.
A lump of dark emotions entangled within me kept making me nauseous.
“Bae, the Count… Bella… the children… Do you know?”
“I don’t know.”
Jimmy finally burst into anger.
“Why are you hiding that until now?!”
“Because there was no need to gossip. Breaking up hurts my heart, but…”
Ray took a deep breath.
“The pain will fade as time goes by. It will come to mind all of a sudden, but in the end, it will be remembered as a memory.”
There was no need for me to feel heartbroken for a long time, talking loudly about the future of parting.
Jimmy jumped out of his seat and shouted at Ray, who was talking like that.
“Lay!!!”
Bang, Jimmy clenched his fists as he hit the table.
“Now you’re talking nonsense like that…!!!!”
As time passes, the pain of parting will also be diluted. It was a theory.
However, in Jimmy’s eyes, Ray was never fully aware of his position.
“You, how many people you love… how much you are loved…!!”
“Jimmy, anyway.”
Rey stopped Jimmy and asked again.
“What do you gain by grieving over a breakup in advance? That’s too wasteful.”
At the sound of Ray’s dog, Jimmy laughed out loud haha.
Haha, Jimmy, who laughed out loud when he heard a really funny dog whistle, slammed the table again.
“You can’t die like that!!!”
Jimmy groaned and screamed.
“You have to take responsibility for what you’ve done!!! You alone… Do you know that there are only one or two people who depend on you, follow and admire you?”
Jimmy wanted to ask.
How can you say goodbye so lightly?
How could you think that the relationship you have built up over the years can be so lightly arranged?
However, when I looked into Rei’s eyes.
Because I felt that the weight in those eyes was never light.
In the end, Jimmy couldn’t scream any more and let out a choked moan.
“You… the hell… what were you thinking…”
“Jimmy.”
“…”
“Jimmy was one of the nicest people I’ve ever met.”
“…”
“So… that’s what I’m talking about. I’m sorry if this felt like a burden to Jimmy.”
“Lay…!”
“I’m even more sorry for telling you this on a happy day.”
Ray stood up.
Rey muttered to choose what to say, and eventually laughed awkwardly.
“I’ll try my best for three more years. So that there won’t be any problems… so that the rest of us can live with a smile… I’m not good at it, but after that… I’ll ask Jimmy.”
lest everyone wander too much when the time comes.
“Please hold Jimmy well.”
Rey knew that this was an unreasonable request.
But Jimmy also knew that it was an inevitable choice.
The two stood there for a long while under the terrible silence.
*
under the darkened sky.
Ray sat on a small hill on the other side of the Earl of Phillips and looked up at the night sky.
The night sky was full of stars.
If Rey had studied astronomy in a previous life, there would have been a lot of talk while looking at the night sky now.
How are the constellations different here and which stars are shining brightly…
It would have been quite interesting to study.
Unfortunately, Ray was not interested in astronomy.
The only thing Ray could understand was that the planet also had moons and that they were smaller than Earth’s moon.
Although the size of the moon was small, its beautiful presence did not fade.
Here on a bright moonlit day.
The translucent leaves shone softly in the moonlight under the night sky.
If you looked at the forest from afar on a day when the moonlight was strong, the forest would become a group of rays and expand like the sea, taking your gaze away.
“…”
Ray hated this world.
He raised his sword only for Bella, but had little desire to live on his own.
In the past, Rei was willing to die, so she abused her body by cutting off her lifespan easily.
So time passed.
As time passed, new relationships were formed and bonds built up.
Rey has long denied any ties with anyone other than Bella.
I have been whispering to myself that I can break the bonds that have been thin, mechanical, and calculated at any time.
I’ve been so in denial.
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Now that there are too many beings that I cherish deeply in my heart.Ray didn’t even bother to say it.
The feeling that fills my heart right now is close to regret.
Ray didn’t have to look straight ahead.
This was the end point of the criminal who clumsily imitated the emotionless superman.
“…Lea.”
Ray was forced to change his mind.
Will Leah be able to survive after Rei dies?
The people around Ray were all good people.
However, even after Rey’s death, Leah’s risk was too great for them to cover her with simple favors.
Will they take a huge risk to keep Rey’s faith even after Rey’s death?
That was a very hopeless hope.
At the very least, to entrust Leah to the Count of Phillips, Luna and Alesia had to sign a contract about Leah.
However, this also required the premise that Luna could be trusted completely.
Of course, Rey trusted Luna infinitely.
But this… that was the problem.
If Bella dies tomorrow for some reason.
After that, will Ray choose the option of ‘keep protecting Leah’?
“…”
Ray rubbed his brow.
There were still three years left.
Rey also understood that he needed some form of shackles, as he couldn’t simply rely on favor.
The correct means was to watch the situation a little longer and decide.
“Lay!”
A familiar voice was heard.
Karen was approaching in a light outdoor outfit.
I found Rey by chance while I was walking, and Karen came up to Rey with such an excuse.
Rey quickly relaxed her expression and said to Karen.
“It’s dangerous to walk around at night.”
“I have the power to protect myself? Rey taught me.”
Rey grinned at Karen’s confident reply.
Karen secretly sat down with her buttocks next to Rey, and took a look at the scenery Rey was looking at.
Feeling the longing air under the night sky, Karen smiled.
“I like this place.”
Karen liked the Earl of Phillips.
While traveling, I experienced a lot of convenient culture and was able to try on expensive clothes.
Still, Karen liked this place.
“I like my hometown where Rey is…”
Karen was a little shy, but smiled softly.
The two looked at the night sky from a close distance for quite some time.
The night air was a bit chilly, but a gentle heat enveloped the two of them.
Then Rey sighed and looked back at Karen.
“Stop going in.”
“Yes?”
Karen was taken aback by Ray’s words that broke the atmosphere.
Rey pointed a finger at the village and spoke again.
“Stop going to bed.”
“Would it be dangerous for me to walk around alone at this hour…?”
We were talking about going back together, but Ray smiled and shook his head.
“I have a prior appointment.”
“Ah, yes, that’s right…!”
Karen giggled and patted the back of her neck.
Rey let Karen go as it was, and picked her breath.
The cold night air cooled Rey’s emotions again.
Ray looked back and asked.
“Luna, how long will it take to recover the circle?”
Luna, who appeared after breaking the cover-up, answered.
“…In about a month, I can use most of the magic. …I can use it without overdoing it.”
It will take more time to fully recover, but after a month, any magic could be manifested without burdening the circle.
Rey understood the situation and asked Luna.
“Can I go with you to the Signi Mountains by then?”
“…I know.”
As always.
Luna nodded her head .