That woman’s first bad ending-6
It was from the time I was born that I knew something was off.
If you’re not an idiot, you’ll probably know that you’re feeling different from other people.
I couldn’t understand the feeling of sadness. If the attendant was crying, he just thought it was ugly.
Having learned that from her father, Yuria didn’t like people who cried.
It was for this reason that I seldom cried in my childhood.
As I was able to think to some extent, I did not cry as I had been taught by my father.
As a member of Taylor, didn’t you always have to be perfect and thorough in everything?
As long as a person who cries is far from that, I tried not to cry no matter what.
He did not cry when he was beaten or punished.
In the process, the world started to fall apart again, but Yuria was not paying attention to that.
After all, everything was done according to my father’s words.
That was the reason why I was curious about the position of family head.
Everything was done with just one word, and if you wanted anything, you could get it.
I didn’t believe in God, but in the sense of perfection, the position of head of household was like a god.
A place where you can know everything and do everything. However, the desire was not so great.
I just thought that one day I would be able to reach it.
Since he has no siblings other than himself anyway, if no one is born, he will become the head of the household.
In the midst of that, Robert was born. It was then that I realized that things were changing.
It’s different from before. The gaze of the attendants looking at her was different from when she was alone.
That is what being the firstborn means.
At least within the frame of a conservative aristocratic family, isn’t that existence close to an heir?
Yuria was no fool.
I felt that Robert’s existence was a ‘threat’ to me, so I started observing him from a fairly close distance from a young age.
I had no intention of doing any harm. I had no intention of checking it, it was just an observation.
“…You cry very well.”
It was only when he was just born, but Robert, who cried well even in old age, seemed completely different from himself.
normal. There was nothing he was particularly good at, and if there was something difficult, it was faster to find his mother than to overcome it.
It was then that he realized that he wasn’t out of place like he was.
He couldn’t figure out why people cried, so he wanted to find out why through Robert.
Do you cry when you are sick? However, he did not cry even when he was in pain.
If so, why the hell are you crying because the animal you only raised died?
Curious about that, I tried killing some, but I couldn’t easily figure out why Robert was crying.
On the contrary, he was only scolded by his mother.
In the process, she also noticed that her mother’s affection for Robert was growing stronger at some point.
In reality, it was nothing more than caring for a child, but Yuria felt great displeasure at that.
“It was mine.”
I don’t understand what affection is, but that expression he gave to Robert was the one he gave himself.
Only to me, only what I owned. I felt something boiling in my chest.
Is this called anger? YuRia smiled quietly at the emotion she had felt for the first time in her life.
I didn’t feel too bad.
Although I was aware of emotions, it was because I instinctively realized that I shouldn’t express them easily.
I naturally got used to hiding my feelings.
Perhaps to express this, well. Maybe after my mother died.
Since she already knew that her mother was not in good health, Yuria lived like a calm daughter until her mother died.
I also stopped killing animals. It was because she didn’t think it was necessary to understand why Robert was crying.
It was enough to become a householder without crying. He had no intention of imitating the one who had taken what was his.
Rather, shouldn’t it be the opposite of what Robert is doing?
and waited Time passed, until my mother died. Unexpectedly, the condition deteriorated rapidly.
It was difficult for her to resist the bizarre urge she felt whenever Robert cried, so Yuria did not bother to watch her mother die.
What is so great about people dying and living?
If it were mine, I would have cared a little, but I didn’t want to care as much as my affection for Robert.
sniff-
Even after his mother died, Robert continued to cry. What was strange was the attendants who cared for such a child.
I’ve been taught that crying is wrong, but why the hell do you cover up such behavior?
Crying was an act of weak people who couldn’t do what they had to do.
Yuria thought that what she was about to do was good in her own way.
If you can properly fix your younger sister who is so weak, your late mother will probably think of it as well.
Wu took Robert’s hand and headed for the basement. It was funny that he liked to play with his older sister.
playing? It was a problem from liking that kind of thing.
“Sister, what is this?”
Even while tied to a chair in the basement, I laughed at the innocent question.
Soon after, I had to scream as my nails were pulled out, but it was inevitable to become a better person.
In fact, Robert’s behavior was corrected to some extent.
It was a problem that it wasn’t completely fixed, but it was certain that he wasn’t crying all the time like before.
‘It’s a little better.’
It’s true that it’s still hard to look at, but it’s not as soft as it used to be.
However, it seemed that there was no way to fix it as much as it was incompetent.
While contemplating how to take care of his hands, the thought that came to mind was that there were always people around Robert.
In the name of close friends, sometimes the attendants who approached Robert sympathized with his younger brother.
Isn’t sympathy for the poor? I didn’t know where Robert was feeling sorry for.
I’m just getting scolded for not being able to do my job, but can I call myself Taylor when I can’t stand that much?
He didn’t even need to be friends.
You will have to use all of them later anyway, but what would you do if you messed around with the feeling of friendship?
So I deliberately kept them apart.
He deliberately spread bad rumors so that Robert would be abandoned by his close friends.
“You look bad, did something happen?”
“…it’s nothing. It just happened.”
Sometimes, when Robert’s face was dark, he realized that what he was trying to do had succeeded.
At that point, Yuria was already well-adjusted to the status of Sogaju.
What would happen to Robert if he became the family head?
In the past, I just thought that a position would be given to me, but
As time went on, it seemed like Robert was becoming more and more a threat to me.
He was obviously a pathetic and useless younger brother, but he couldn’t figure out why people had a crush on Robert.
It wasn’t even that he was good at using a sword. It wasn’t that his head was soaring and he was thinking genius thoughts.
But why do close friends arise and public opinion sympathizes with Robert?
If such forces gathered, they might one day threaten themselves.
Suspicion bloomed in the place of the family head, which was taken for granted.
If he can’t become the family head… what will Robert do himself?
“It might kill you. Didn’t you do something yourself?”
A nobleman said so.
Because of the mask, it was impossible to recognize the face, but Yuria focused more on the nobleman’s words than on his true identity.
He did it for Robert himself, but he could rather be caught and killed using it as an excuse.
It was after that that his attitude towards Robert changed.
The attention he gave because he was a younger brother disappeared, and the thought that he would kill himself by taking away the position of family head was full in his head.
Should I kill it beforehand? No, there was no need to move so urgently from now on.
Rather, such an action will only cut down on your support. It was better to just narrow the radius of action.
They were forbidden to go out of the house. Wanting to build their own power, they withdrew their authority.
I thought it was fortunate to see him gradually fall apart.
Even if it wasn’t the nobleman’s words, it was true that he gradually became afraid of Robert.
Even if it does not move like itself, forces gather.
His weak personality also changed noticeably from a certain moment, and it seemed as if he had become a different person.
I heard that you yelled at the butler.
Robert’s eyes, which had not been able to say anything to the attendant until yesterday, were quite cold.
Eyes that didn’t even contain any emotion, YuRia believed that Robert was also at a loss like herself.
Now you will understand your actions. When he was about to relieve his anxiety about the competition for family heads, Robert said.
“I hate you.”
I couldn’t help but laugh at the words that he had never even cared about me and that he hated me.
The eyes looking at him were empty.
What kind of thoughts do you have?
The problem was that he had a weak heart because he was just a younger brother.
I won’t watch anymore It was from that time that I became obsessed with the position of family head.
If Robert becomes the family head, he will die. Didn’t you say you would kill me with your mouth?
It was Robert who even cut off my fiancé. It was different from before.
When he said that he would become a family head in earnest, he was clearly alert.
The younger brother, who was weak and lacking, was telling himself that he would compete for the position of head of the household.
Of course, at the end of it, there is only a future where you win. Things did not go so easily.
“Sir Louis will support Prince Taylor-”
“The dynamics of the north are unusual. It seems that Robert Taylor captured Temuchin himself-”
“The church appears to support Robert Taylor.”
Isn’t it ridiculous I thought I was definitely in control.
I definitely believed that everything was going according to the flow in the palm of my hand.
At one point, Robert was holding a knife to his throat.
Everything built up over the years was crumbling.
“Were you trying to do something with only 10 people?”
where did it go wrong The world, which I thought was simply out of place, was turned completely upside down before I knew it.
The sky was below. Yuria’s world has already been turned upside down.
As the memory returned, what came to mind was the reason for Robert’s sudden change.
In that memory, he suppressed Robert wonderfully.
Sometimes he was killed by the mad Robert, but it was always Robert who died.
For the 100th time, Robert couldn’t change himself, but in the end, didn’t Robert the 101st take his own life wonderfully?
With a small smile, Yuria looked into the void.
duke, lord.
It was a position that I coveted so much, and at some point I eagerly wanted.
The heart that had been jealous of him for the first time that he had been deprived of his affection became, above all, greed that became tyrannical.
The spire, built over a long period of time, was crumbling.
The pavilion, which was believed to reach the sky for a moment, was collapsing in vain.
“under.”
Something that was slowly cracking felt completely shattered.
Something that will never return is now completely gone.
I didn’t want to see the world anymore from the chair I was bound to, but my body bound by magic made it impossible for me to choose death on my own.
– Yuria, my daughter.
My mother’s voice that I heard one day rang in my ears.
I didn’t know why the voice that was just annoyed came to mind now,
I definitely remembered where the feelings I had for Robert started.
Was it jealous Did 100 deaths start from something so insignificant?
Not even a laugh came out.
Now that I can’t even laugh at myself, I’m just a puppet.
I had no desire to do anything.
I just wanted to live like this and die as soon as possible.
A future that will unfold before my eyes, a future where someone else is in the place where I should be.
I just couldn’t face it.
By the time darkness descended on the empty cellar again, the woman tied to the chair was still staring into space.
The brain that constantly repeats thoughts gradually stops, and the reason that has always made cool judgments also hardens.
I remembered the person I once ignored.
I couldn’t do my job and shed tears pathetically. A servant who ended his life with his own hand.
Took.
Took.
As the weak tears hit the floor, YuRia’s eyes were tightly closed.
Yuria could never accept that she had become a worse person than that.
However, time passed, and soon after, the woman who closed her eyes simply entrusted her consciousness to the space.
Let time pass until I die like this.
My brain, which was spinning furiously, stopped, and I immediately stopped thinking.
However, Yuria was still in the basement.
It would probably be there forever.