I will not let you go -1
Have you ever had a drink with Adele? The answer to that question was yes, of course.
If you ask me, have you ever drank alone? I had to answer no to that.
In the past, we noticed each other’s feelings a little late, and this time, the feelings continued and it was a little different life.
It felt like it was quite natural that there was a shake in the gaze facing each other.
She and I are probably seriously thinking about what each other is thinking.
In the past, Adele and I may have had a fairly comfortable relationship as Grand Duke and Subara, but now, the Grand Duke and Duke were on an almost equal footing.
I wasn’t her subordinate, at least in this life we haven’t been together for very long.
So, this place was special. It is a drinking party where no one participates, just the two of them.
I took a deep breath and sat down. Adele, who was staring at me like that, smiled.
Adele, who tied her long hair neatly together, quietly took out a bottle of wine.
You can’t find it often in the center, but it’s a high alcohol alcohol that you can see quite often in the north.
Adele accepted the position because she tends to drink a lot.
If I hadn’t drank in the first place, I wouldn’t have taken the risk and come out here.
“Are you good at drinking? I always seem to drink a little at banquets.”
“Drink in moderation. I can’t drink at all.”
“is it. Well, that’s good, and if you can’t drink, I tried to give you a little bit in moderation.”
It seems like he was trying to hurt his pride, but he wasn’t easy enough to succumb to such a provocation.
alcohol? It was alcohol that I couldn’t get drunk even if I drank it alone.
Even more so, he received divine power from the saintess and was not even poisoned, so how could he get it?
Even though I don’t hate being drunk,
Walking around drunk in my position wasn’t good in many ways…
When he lifted the glass, the drink poured over it.
Unlike the clothes she usually wears, Adele was wearing a slightly more comfortable and thin outfit, so she adjusted her gaze so as not to draw attention to her exposed collarbone.
In fact, it’s all a bit exposed. There was more exposure than usual.
Could it be a nightgown? I don’t know if it’s okay to wear that kind of clothes in front of an outsider.
No matter what you want to say in your heart, isn’t today just a day to be small?
I carefully squeezed the alcohol given to me by Adele and poured it straight into my mouth.
I frowned for a moment at the burning heat, then slowly let out a breath and opened my eyes.
It was a high-alcohol drink, so I felt like my body was warm.
Adele chuckled at my reaction and drank from the bottle.
She gulped and drank, then emptied half of the bottle and let out a small breath.
Even then, he looked at me for a while and then shrugged his shoulders.
“Not bad. I was worried because I haven’t had too many drinks in a quiet place. It’s not without its own atmosphere.”
“I thought it was surprising that the banquet was not held. Did you do that on purpose?”
“Because I wanted to talk to you two. There are things you can’t say with a lot of people.”
From those words, I realized that what she was talking about was about ‘memory’.
As my expression hardened, Adele waved her hand and poured me another drink.
“I have no intention of doing that right now. It doesn’t matter if you just drink quietly.”
“…How were you?”
Come to think of it, I haven’t asked after Adele since I came here.
How have you been, what have you been doing? I knew vaguely, but didn’t I know the exact thing?
Everything was a little out of line with what I remembered.
A lot has changed since seeing the start of the new year in the north.
The fact that I became the head of the household, and the fact that the subjugation that should have been going on until now has come to an end neatly.
I thought maybe there would be some changes in the North as well, but
Adele, who did not immediately respond to my answer, just stared blankly at me.
His lips, wet with alcohol, were glistening.
Unlike his pure white skin, he was dyed red by himself. Then, he shook his head slightly and put the drink to his lips.
“I haven’t been thanks to whom.”
I laughed bitterly at the tone that blatantly blamed me.
Along with the thought that we should contact each other often from now on, I also have the thought that Adele cares about me more than I thought.
Adele continued with me, who was unable to answer such words.
“Because of someone who said he would keep in touch often and didn’t write a letter for two months, and because of someone who said he was busy but met people well. Because of someone who appears without even trying in a dream on such a subject. I haven’t been well.”
“sorry. About that.”
“More things came to my mind than I had thought of before. It’s still hazy about how I died, but it’s vague about what I was thinking while I was with you.”
If it’s enough to bring back the emotions of that time, it’s probably because I’ve recovered most of my memories.
But what was surprising was that he couldn’t remember the time when he died.
If it was a strong memory, I thought I would recall it quickly, but it might be the last thing I remember.
The fact that I came out of the dream must be the process of the rest of the memories coming back.
In my life with Adele, having been with Adele for most of my life, I couldn’t argue with what she said.
After all, isn’t it my fault?
It was my fault for not caring too much about the North, for thinking that Adele would be fine even if I didn’t hear from her for a long time.
Adele snorted when I said I was sorry, emptied the bottle and took out a new one.
His face was a little red, but he didn’t seem drunk.
I just thought it was easier to express my feelings on my own.
“I am not going to say anything about him. I thought you knew what was going to happen. But, if you’re wondering what…”
Adele, who glanced at me for a moment, carefully removed her hesitant lips.
“Why were you with the saintess?”
“…If it’s Adrian, are you talking about when you became the head of the household?”
“Yeah, I heard that they came out holding hands.”
Looking at Adele nodding, I felt sorry for the moment.
At that time, I acted that way because I wanted to show that I would become the family head and that Taylor would change.
The aristocrats thought so too, and I didn’t mind since no one asked about my relationship with the saintess except for Count Yugris.
I hadn’t considered what Adele would think, who probably hadn’t heard anything about it.
As I was thinking about where to start explaining this, Adele took a deep breath and touched her forehead.
The crumpled brow seemed to urge me to explain.
He hurriedly opened his mouth with an expression that looked like he would be attacked by any kind of evil if it wasn’t for a compelling reason.
“Well, I just did that to talk about family renewal. With or without personal intentions-”
“hand.”
However, the answer I heard was completely unexpected, so I tilted my head blankly for a moment while looking at Adele.
hand, that’s it. Then Adele let out a deep sigh as if frustrated, then pulled my wrist and folded my hands together.
“Didn’t you ask for a hand?”
His shoulders trembled at the warmth digging between his fingers.
I had no intention of resisting, but it was true that I was taken aback by what had happened so suddenly.
Adele, who had been holding my hand for some time, stared at it.
I fidgeted with my fingers and tickled my palms, then wiped the backs of my hands with my sleeve and smiled.
“I can’t let someone else catch it where I can’t see it.”
“Yes?”
“It’s saying don’t hold hands with other people. If you do, I’ll… feel uncomfortable. I’m so frustrated, I can’t sleep.”
Saying that, Adele smiled and her cheeks turned red.
It was only then that she realized that she was intoxicated, as two empty bottles of alcohol were scattered around beside her.
I wasn’t quite drunk yet. Just being a little more honest.
It wasn’t that I didn’t have this kind of experience at all, but it was the first time Adele acted like this in this episode.
It was equally disconcerting.
“Haven’t you already caught one before?”
If I remember correctly, there was a time when we held hands and moved together on New Year’s Day.
Didn’t you hold it together when you painted the paper? Adele nodded casually and smiled.
Her chin rested, her elbows resting on her knees and looking at me, her expression was full of laughter.
“It did. I just caught it this time. Because I want you to think a little more about yourself.”
“I already value it enough.”
“No, if that was the case, you wouldn’t have risked taking over the family headship without contacting me. didn’t you say I will help you whenever you ask for help.”
Adele stood up from her seat and strode towards me, pressing her finger on my chest.
The hair that fell from top to bottom touched her cheek.
Dazed by the scent tickling the tip of her nose, she bit her lip and slowly opened her mouth to Adele.
“I thought it would be a nuisance.”
“If you were even a little twisted, you would have been the dead one. Did I mention that YuRia is still alive? Why didn’t I think the opposite would be you?”
Adele, who laughed like it was absurd, looked a little angry.
However, that emotion was closer to worry about me than anger.
As if I were finally pouring out the nervousness I felt while I wasn’t in touch, and the feelings about not being able to sleep properly.
Adele’s hand pressed down on my chest as I opened my mouth.
“…it was disappointing.”
I didn’t ask what was sad about it.
Adele, who knocked me over and climbed on top of me, looked down at me.
The reddened face indicated that she was slightly drunk, but
What she says will be her sincerity.
So I listened quietly, and Adele pressed my forehead and continued talking.
“Did you think that if you asked for help, I would say it was a nuisance? Was I only that much of a person to you?” “…That’s not-”
“if not. What am I to you?”
I couldn’t answer that easily, so I looked at Adele for a while without saying anything.
The eyes that were always cold were shaking a little.
I didn’t know which answer to give here. Even after dying 100 times and living 101 lives again.
It is not easy to understand a woman’s heart at once. Adele spoke to me who was still silent.
“Answer me. What am I to you?”
Suddenly, her body leaned over, revealing Adele’s shoulders in the clothes that came along with her.
In the gap that is slowly getting closer, and eventually even the breath is trying to reach. Adele whispered in my ear.
“Until I tell you, I won’t let you go today.”