96 – Before and after processing – 2
“Answer me. “Can you believe that I am the one who created this world?”
As soon as I heard that, two possibilities came to mind. There is a possibility that Laura was the creator of this world, and the possibility that she was the author of the original novel.
You said you created a world in a novel, so theoretically both were possible.
The worries did not last long. If you look at them separately, they are ambiguous expressions, but if you put them together, they become quite clear. At least, it was something that God or the Creator would never say.
‘So that means he was the author of the original novel…….’
When I was delayed in answering because I was worrying about what had happened, Laura raised the corners of her mouth as if laughing.
“You still don’t believe me? I knew it. “Even if I ran wild like that, I would have written it anyway.”
“A character in a novel?”
“In the novel…… Uh?”
What I was about to say was intercepted. There is no longer a need to be polite, so speak informally.
Blink, blink. My eyelids blinked a few times. A little vitality returned to the blood-red eyes. I was slowly getting used to that surprised reaction.
Except for Priscilla, who cried as soon as they met me, both Rosaria and Elisier thought of me as just a character in a novel when they first met.
“And what you wrote must have been Lily Lopan. First of all, Lily Lopan. Right?”
“Well, what is it? You…… To what extent, no, how…… I know…… ?”
“It may be the first time for you, but it’s already the fourth time I’ve been asked this question. I never thought I would hear this four times, but here I am. “I’m trying to use it to possess so many people, but I don’t know.”
It didn’t seem like a story worth telling with porridge, so I fixed the tray with magic. Meanwhile, Laura’s eyes were shaking violently.
“Yes, number one…… ?”
“It means you and I aren’t the only ones brought here.”
“… ….”
Laura stood blankly for a while as if she was shocked by my words, then slowly looked down at her hands.
Clear tears began to fall one by one from her eyes.
“Well…… Ugh… ….”
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The liquid that was dripping down soon became a line. The clear liquid that ran down her cheek and wetted her palm.
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry…” … Using something like this…… By making you trapped in a place like this…… Really, ugh, I’m sorry…… It’s my fault… ….”
I didn’t expect her to cry, so I hurriedly approached her and comforted her, telling her that it was okay not to blame herself.
To be honest, out of the four possessed people, I was the only one who was okay, but I’m not tactful or stupid enough to mention that in this situation.
Besides, it’s not something Laura should feel sorry for. She probably didn’t drag us here, and she didn’t write this novel with the intention of possessing people from the beginning, so what’s there to feel guilty about?
Guessing from her current reaction, Laura also seemed close to being a victim of possession.
‘…… ‘Then who dragged us here?’
Like one of the common clichés, I thought the author was in the dark, but that wasn’t the case. His head was confused.
“Ugh…… hehehehe…… Turn it off…… Wow, ugh…….”
Laura crawled into my arms, crying and bursting into tears. She hugged the body like she did Priscilla.
The tears subsided only after the sun completely set and darkness came. Laura swallowed her last cry and raised her head. She had cried so much that her eyes were swollen.
When the recovery magic was used, the eyes were still half filled with sadness.
“Have you calmed down now?”
“…… I do not know.”
Wow, Laura hugged my waist tightly.
I heard the reason why the room was made like this, and it was said that the reason it was in this world from the beginning was because it was unpleasant to look at. Of course, I am a being who should not have been in this world in the first place, so it doesn’t matter.
I couldn’t even tell you why I didn’t want to see it.
“It’s a bit awkward to talk here, so let’s move to a room first.”
“…… “Can’t we move it?”
“No.”
“Uh, yeah… ….”
At her firm refusal, Laura nodded her head, almost exhausted from crying. Since she seemed weak, I asked her if she would like to eat porridge, and she shook her head.
She must have received permission anyway, so she immediately called her servants. Not long after, urgent footsteps were heard. The urgent footsteps stopped right in front of the door.
“Will you allow me to enter your bed, Your Majesty?”
“…… Do whatever you feel like.”
The voice was still cracked and hoarse, but that was enough. The door opened forcefully. Dozens of maids came into the room, showing courtesy.
And then I gave a puzzled look, looking back and forth between her burnt-out, ruined room and at Laura, who was sitting on my lap, looking tattered and even tattered.
“…… “How did this happen?”
The chamberlain who had been knocking on the door earlier asked for an explanation with his eyes.
“It seems that the charm that the succubus had cast at that time was not completely lifted. “It was just a minor accident that occurred while Your Highness was trying his best to suppress his lust.”
I brought out an excuse I had thought of in advance. Everyone looked surprised when they heard that he had suppressed the succubus’ fascination with his will.
“I understand. “Do you need any additional treatment?”
“It’s okay now, so I just need to give you a new room so Your Majesty can rest.”
“Yes. “I will guide you.”
We were immediately taken to our new room. Laura was still irritated. She was offered new clothes and showers several times, but they were all sharply rejected.
“Still, it would be a good idea to wash your body. “Don’t you feel uncomfortable?”
“…… I don’t want to use anything here. Never.”
Laura grabbed her bedsheets as if they were going to tear them. Her once-white bed sheets were covered in soot.
“Then at least change your clothes. “I can see everything.”
The clothes she was wearing were still nothing more than rags. Except for the school uniform coat I gave her, almost all of her skin was exposed.
“It doesn’t really matter whether you can see it or not. Or why are you giving me sh*t? Should I show you more? You can take it all off here. I know it with honor. I have no memory of showing my bare skin to a man. You are the first. I showed it to Dolores when I was taking a bath, but you’re not going to get into trouble for showing it to a woman, right? That’s right-“
Laura, who had been pouring out words at rapid fire for a long time, seemed to have missed the point about half way before suddenly shrinking again and studying me intently.
It seems that she was so emotional that the words came out without her realizing it.
“I’m sorry…… I’m really sorry…… Stop without even realizing it…… I was wrong…… Sorry… ….”
“It’s okay, don’t worry.”
Tears welled up in her eyes, as if she was about to start crying, so I comforted her again. Laura clenched my hand tightly, and only after taking several deep breaths did she finally regain her composure.
“Are you calm?”
Nod, instead of answering, a silent nod came back.
“Okay. There are a lot of things I want to say…… Let me ask you this first. Did you, by any chance, return to the point where you were first possessed after watching the ending of the work, or if you tried to escape from the original content, your body was forced to move like the original?”
“…… “I don’t think that’s a question I can answer.”
Laura held out the blue notebook she had been holding dear even before she lost consciousness.
“So, I’ll give you this instead. If you read this, you will know. “It was written that it was too dangerous to accept all at once.”
“I couldn’t see anything.”
“No, you will see it now. Come to the side. I’ll show.”
She walked next to him. Just as they said they would now be visible, the letters that had been pressed down on the notebook, which had previously been blank, were appearing.
“It was triple sealed so you couldn’t see it. “The first seal will be released when the diary is found, the second seal will be released when the contents have been read, and the third seal will be released when I have recovered all of my memories.”
“The person who cast the spell was you before you lost your memory?”
“Yes. To be exact, it’s not that I lost my memory, but that I gave up on myself.”
“You gave up your memory?”
“…… You’ll find out when you read it. “Please don’t tell me any more than that.”
Laura was adamant. She took over the diary and opened it from the very first page.
[You…… Nope. The fact that I’m reading this means that I’ve somehow escaped this damn regression or broken its deterrent. It doesn’t matter either way. In the end, the point is that I was able to read this.]
[I put three seals on this diary. One is a seal that prevents me from finding it, the other is a seal that allows me to retrieve only superficial memories, and the last one is a seal that allows me to retrieve all of my memories. If you’ve read this far, it means you’ve unlocked the second seal. Even if you’re curious about why you did such a troublesome thing, just read through to the end. Because there’s a reason for everything.]
[The reason I sealed my memories…… Because it’s me, I’ll be honest. I was scared. I didn’t have the confidence to hold on any longer. I was scared that I was becoming Laura instead of myself, I was scared that this regression would never end, and most of all, I was scared that I would give up. I kept thinking that one day I would give up living as myself and become Crown Princess Laura.]
[The person I am at the time of reading probably does not know the situation I am in at the time of writing, so I will explain. The more time I spend acting like Laura from the original, the more I spend it. It’s not my will. It means that the body is forced to move like the original.]
[At first, I did this for a short time, but as time went on, it became difficult to move of my own will for even an hour a day. I had to grit my teeth and use my strength to move even for that hour as I wanted. Do you know how it feels to have to watch your body’s freedom slowly being taken away? I don’t know. Because I won’t remember. That went very well, that one. It’s not usually a damn experience.]
I looked at Laura for a moment at this point. His expression was stiff.
[True. You mentioned regression in the previous paragraph, right? This also needs to be pointed out. At first, I thought that if I killed the Demon King, the regression would end, right? That’s how I ended the novel. I remember? But it wasn’t. No matter how many times I killed the Demon King, no matter how many times I killed him with the holy sword instead of the hero, I always returned to the point where I was first possessed. And as the regression repeated, I lost my body’s freedom.]
[So I decided. Before our hearts are completely broken, let’s seal our memories while we still have some hope. And as Crown Princess Laura, let’s continue our life for an unknown amount of time and bet on the possibility of miraculously reaching this point. Well, if you’re reading this, it means your last gamble paid off spectacularly, so give yourself a little congratulations. Although I won’t remember anyway.]
[Question here. So how many times did I repeat regression before I made such an extreme choice? I’ve drawn it on the next page, so count it when you have time. If you don’t have time, skip ahead.]
I opened the next page as written in the diary.
A block consisting of four vertical hatches and one horizontal line was drawn endlessly. It was the same in the next chapter and the next chapter. I could barely see the letters after flipping through five or six pages.
[No. 1463.]
[This is why I did this ‘annoying thing.’]
[Because no one can endure the memories of the same time being repeated that much.]