114 – Words I Couldn’t Say
Tuk, Tuduk.
One drop, two drops.
The rain started to fall.
Shoot ah-
Instantly, it poured down and colored the forest darkly.
“… ….”
Ashera’s mouth was tightly shut.
At the same time, a stream of water slowly runs down her jawline.
Could it have been the rain?
Or was it something else?
I didn’t know, but at least it wasn’t important.
“…… Master.”
White called out to her, struggling to raise her fallen body.
She
She called, but there was no answer.
“… ….”
Ashera, who was still maintaining her silence, White slowly moved her steps toward her.
…… What happened, I didn’t know.
I didn’t know, but there were a few things that could be predicted.
‘…… Side effect.’
White’s wet face was distorted by the rain.
…… Side effects of time magic.
It was impossible to know how it would be applied, even to the person who created the magic.
However, it was possible to guess to some extent.
The uniqueness of time magic, the pattern of the clockwork that appeared just before, and even the brilliance of pure white.
There were many factors to judge, but in the end, there was only one thing that made White come to one conclusion.
“… ….”
It was none other than Ashera’s expression after the brilliance disappeared.
…… To the extent that it could be said to be miserable, his expression was ruined.
Despair, regret, guilt, denial.
Various emotions were intertwined in a complex way, drawing her tears at the same time.
Tuk, tuduk.
Again, her tears fell and wet her ground.
“…… I am.”
Soon after, Ashera begins to open her mouth.
White lifted her head with a flash, directing her attention to her.
“…… I, no, what the hell.”
“…… Master?”
“Ah, ah… ….”
Despite White’s anxious calls, Ashera did not answer.
No, even if I couldn’t, it would be fine.
“This, what the hell is this…….”
Just muttering to herself, she distorted her expression.
──I saw it.
I saw the past, or, I saw the future.
…… It is a time zone that is now gone, but I was able to see the events of one day that clearly existed.
A miserably ruined world, the sky swallowed up by the apocalypse.
…… And, the girl who made it all happen.
None other than himself.
“…… OMG.”
Covering her face with her palms, Ashera began to let out her drool.
“…… !”
And by that point, White’s complexion had gotten darker than that.
She had no choice but to do so.
“My, disciple. I, what the hell am I doing.”
…… The look on Ashera’s face as she slowly begins to weave her words, the fluctuating sound of her voice.
“In that future, what the hell did I do…… ?”
One thing.
Because White couldn’t help but think of one possibility.
“…… How.”
There was a look of astonishment that could not be hidden in the voice that was spit out.
Wildly ripping through her bangs, White began to shake her body.
“…… How, how could this happen?”
“Yes, yes?”
While staining her white cheeks with tears, Ashera struggled to answer White’s voice.
However, White could not bear to answer such a reaction. She
She couldn’t.
…… Because I knew
What kind of scene did the pure white brilliance of a while ago create?
What kind of scene did he create and what did he show Ashera?
Half forced, it was because she knew it.
White’s complexion turned white.
“…… I didn’t count this. How, remember. Something happened.”
I was just muttering.
…… As if she had half lost her reason, she muttered in a trembling voice.
“…… My, sir?”
“… ….”
Even in the midst of this, Ashera’s call was heard. She
She was even more desperate because she was heard.
“…… This is wrong.”
Spouting out words that didn’t make any sense, White took a step forward.
Step forward, and at the same time grab Ashera’s shoulders.
“…… It’s wrong, something like this.”
“…… What are you saying.”
Without replying to Ashera’s question as she still shed her tears, White gently hugged her.
Then, slowly lowering her body, she starts muttering again.
“…… Why did i come back Why did you do that crazy research while ignoring even the end of the world?”
…… White’s blue eyes fluctuated mercilessly.
As if she had encountered an earthquake, or as if she had faced a rough wave.
“…… Asherah.”
Within seconds, White quietly put Ashera’s name on her lips.
And at the same time, she hugged her tighter.
She seemed to be saying that she could never let go.
…… Or, as if she couldn’t let go.
“…… I didn’t tell you the whole truth because I wanted this ending.”
Closing her eyes tight, White parted her lips again.
The voice was still shaking violently.
“Not to make you go through despair again. Not to show you the sight…… !”
“…… My, sir.”
“…… It’s wrong.”
Despite hearing Ashera’s voice clearly, White simply went on with his words.
“…… This is wrong.”
…… She didn’t have the confidence to respond.
She was confident in answering her call. She was not confident in answering her call as usual.
It’s broken.
Slowly, I felt something starting to break.
I couldn’t accept it.
She brought her truth out to her not because she wanted this.
She knew she would blame herself, but the reason she spoke up was because she still thought she would be able to overcome it.
…… Because you haven’t experienced it right now.
She decided that even though she did it herself, it was something she couldn’t remember, so it would be possible to overcome it.
…… I did, but what does this mean?
A side effect of the time magic or something, it didn’t matter at all to talk about logic.
She was just desperate.
It shouldn’t have happened.
…… What she saw, she still didn’t know.
But she just couldn’t figure it out in detail, so it was possible to guess at least roughly.
She expected this result from the beginning, so while she was telling her truth, she minimized what she had done as much as possible.
She spoke of the many massacres she had done and all the things that led to the destruction of the continent by reducing the scale.
…… However.
I did.
What kind of harmony happened, what kind of purpose did it have?
…… Did ‘time’ show her the true sight?
“…… Please, Asherah.”
…… Give more strength to her arms as she embraces Ashera.
And at the same time, he began to spit out as if wishing.
“Don’t remember, don’t even think about it. It’s gone now, and it wasn’t something you wanted to do in the first place.”
Sure.
…… Therefore.
“…… It’s not something you should feel guilty about. As long as time is rewinded, nothing happened.”
…… Ashera’s answer did not come back.
Yes, but White carried on with her.
When she didn’t answer back, she felt rather relieved.
“If you feel pain over that, if you suffer from future events that you could even glimpse at.”
…… Slowly, madness began to creep in White’s voice.
“…… I will turn back time.”
“…… !”
And those were the words that were spoken soon after.
Ashera’s two golden eyes opened wide.
“…… Disciple. Now, what to say.”
With her trembling voice, she calls out to White, forgetting even the terrible memory of the woman she saw just before.
However, White was just stubborn.
With a calm voice and a dark expression.
White parted her lips again.
“…… So, help me not to make that choice, Asherah.”
With a smile resembling Ashera’s distorted expression, as if shed tears at any moment.
“Even if sinful karma is engraved on your soul, even if you have committed an irreversible evil.”
It was a trembling voice, but at the same time it was a voice that struggled to control the fluctuating emotions.
Slowly and quietly.
White continued her speech.
“All of that is not your fault. And I intend to hold those sins against those who should truly bear the karma.”
…… What comes to mind is a man behind all of this.
He was a man with dark red hair who had committed an irreversible foolish act in a now-disappeared future.
A ghastly murderous intent dwells in White’s eyes for an instant, but quickly dissipates.
“…… I know what you’re thinking. He must be overcome with a terrible sense of guilt.”
But, even so.
…… Adding a little, White gritted his teeth.
Tears were flowing down before I knew it.
One drop, two drops.
Slowly, but surely.
“I am on your side. Asherah.”
While moistening his cheeks with the flowing tears, he speaks in a more intense tone.
“Even if everyone in the world does not forgive your sins, I will stand by you.”
“… ….”
For a moment, Ashera’s body trembled.
Obviously aware of the shaking, White bit his lip.
“If a god who does not forgive your sins says he will punish you, then I will drop that god. At least I don’t need a god to hold you guilty.”
“…… Disciple, sir.”
Suddenly, Ashera’s voice as she called out to White had regained a sense of stability.
What kind of feelings did White really have?
Is it a sense of relief or more anxiety?
I couldn’t tell. She
She didn’t know, but she still went on with what she had to say.
…… She was just saying what she had to say.
“I will protect you no matter what. I came back for that.”
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Sure.
…… Therefore.
“… ….”
Slowly, he loosens Ashera’s arms from her embrace.
At the same time, she leaned back and met Ashera’s eyes.
“──.”
…… Her golden eyes were wet with her water.
However, the tears stopped flowing.
Only a little bit of water left was making her eyes blurry.
“…… I will.”
Muttering, she gently lifted one hand.
She wipes a drop of tear from her eyes with great care.
And then, spit it out.
“…… Please don’t cry, Asherah.”
…… Even before turning back time, the words she had always wanted to say.
The words she should have said, but the words she couldn’t.