115 – I love you
I sit down slowly.
But it wasn’t because I was weak.
Just quietly, with a slight sense of calm.
I didn’t care even if my clothes got wet on the wet ground.
Ashera puts her hands on the ground first, then White lowers her stance as well.
“… ….”
A brief silence fell.
Ashera still had a slightly dazed expression, and White only watched her carefully.
Wouldn’t there be more problems somewhere?
I wonder if she still has that scene in her eyes.
White narrowed her eyes as she harbored other miscellaneous concerns.
“…… Have you calmed down a bit?”
White asked, and Ashera held her mouth tight for a moment.
She shut up, but the answer came quickly.
“…… Yes, it’s fine.”
It was an answer that he spits out with a faint smile.
It was a very small, but clear smile nonetheless.
White’s expression improved.
…… At the same time, emotions begin to fluctuate wildly.
It was an obvious feeling of anger.
And the target of that anger was none other than ‘time’.
‘…… Dare.’
Why, or why.
A lot of questions came to my mind, but the first thing I thought of was unbearable hatred.
White’s expression slightly distorted.
‘Why, did she show her the sight again?’
Unbearable passion was about to come out of her body, but Ashera was still in front of her eyes, so she struggled to suppress her emotions.
However, that didn’t mean the feelings went away.
Rather, I suppressed it inside, and because of that, the hatred and resentment only deepened.
…… Why did she inflict another pain on Ashera?
It was only that question.
Isn’t she the one who used the magic to interfere with her time?
She was none other than herself.
She said that it was she herself who did the magic that interfered with time and challenged the authority of the gods.
But why does her time ask her for her sins?
Why was the side effect directed at her that should have been directed at herself.
I couldn’t understand it, and that’s why the anger continued to expand without knowing the end.
“… ….”
And then, it was around the time White was trying hard to hide his fierce anger inside.
Ashera had been looking at White like that all along.
I was still trembling with anxiety, but it wasn’t the precarious look in my eyes that looked like it was going to collapse at any moment like a moment ago.
White quickly captured her expression with a sense of pity. She
She didn’t want to reveal to her that she had these thoughts.
That’s why, though it’s unstable, it wears a faint smile on its lips.
“…… White.”
At that point, Ashera finally pulled her lips apart.
A strange expression began to settle in her golden eyes.
“I understand. What White has been through and why she has changed so drastically.”
As she spoke, she let out a blank laugh as if she had collapsed once.
…… I couldn’t help but understand
If you had only heard about it, you might have been a bit puzzled.
But that wasn’t the case.
Because I could see it with my own two eyes right away.
…… I don’t know what kind of harmony it is, but somehow I was able to witness the fragment of the future that White said.
That’s why my mood was more subdued, but I still felt much more relieved.
Ashera bit her lip.
“…… I must have committed a terrible sin.”
In the words he uttered, there was a strong sense of shame and guilt.
White was startled and quickly grabbed her hand.
“…… No. Like I said, it’s not something you’re going to suffer from. You didn’t do it because you wanted to, and that’s why you’re not the one who has to bear the guilt.”
So, don’t think like that.
…… So, please don’t say things like that.
Muttering as if clinging to it, White gritted his teeth roughly.
…… Eventually, the anger began to increase in size.
However, this time the target of that anger was slightly changed.
‘…… Shasar.’
Remembering the enemy demon king who was the culprit behind everything, White fiercely flashed his eyes.
…… She should have been killed too.
Even if I can’t kill, even if I can’t, find a way somehow.
Then, she should have pierced its heart and throat with Violet.
“… ….”
Uh-
Grinding her teeth, White wrinkled her expression.
At the same time, I promise.
‘…… Just this time.’
This time, definitely.
With all my might, with all my might.
…… She said she would protect her.
She said that she would turn back time again, though she did say things like that.
I really didn’t want to.
The first return was simply because there were no other options, so I had no choice but to walk.
When the world is heading towards destruction, and the only person left to stop the runaway Ashera is himself.
That’s why it was a choice and a decision.
But this time was different.
…… Her memories of her with her, her memories of her with her.
I didn’t want to reset it again.
It was okay to call it greed.
Even if it was just a choice tinged with selfishness, there was nothing to say.
But what can I do?
What he really wants is a peaceful life with Ashera.
…… I already had too many things on my back to make such an extreme choice to turn back time.
“… ….”
Biting down on her lower lip, White gently shook her head.
…… It wasn’t something to think about right now.
I raised my eyes again and looked at Ashera.
Still, she was staring at White with a slightly, very slightly relaxed expression on her face.
Within a moment, Ashera spat out quietly.
“…… You look very angry.”
“…… !”
White’s body jerked for a moment, her eyes widening slightly.
However, he manages his expression quickly.
As if she said nothing was wrong, as if saying that there was no such thing.
“…… No.”
White replied, avoiding her gaze, and Ashera’s gaze changed even more insistently.
“No. You’re angry right now. It seems that I am not the target.”
“… ….”
White didn’t answer, but Ashera continued her words as if she didn’t want an answer in the first place.
“If I can guess from what the disciple confided in, it might be anger toward Shasar.”
As soon as the name of Shasar came out of Ashera’s mouth, White had no choice but to harden her expression.
Ashera narrowed her eyes.
His eyes were always on White.
“… ….”
A moment of silence.
There was a silence that was uncomfortably white.
Ashera, as if demanding an answer from her, just kept her mouth shut and stared straight at White.
So, White had no choice but to open her mouth.
“…… Didn’t I tell you He planned everything, and it’s all his fault that you suffer and the world is about to end.”
“… ….”
Asherah nodded her head, as if telling her to continue, and White continued, revealing her anger.
“…… He’ll kill me. No matter what, by any means.”
I will definitely kill you.
Adding that with all her sincerity, White lowered her head.
“… ….”
Once again, there was silence.
White couldn’t lift her head.
What kind of expression Ashera is making, what kind of eyes are she wearing.
I didn’t have the confidence to watch it.
It was just, it was just complicated.
…… If she knew it would be like this, if she knew she would see it.
I wouldn’t have told you.
She’s telling the truth, she’s a secret, she’s carrying on what she’s been hiding, and she wouldn’t have told her the whole story.
She knew very well that it would make her suffer.
“White.”
“…… Yes.”
Respond to Ashera’s call.
However, there was no spirit in his voice.
Like a downcast puppy, White just hung her head.
“… ….”
And.
…… And, I didn’t see White.
As she looked at White, a calm smile appeared on Ashera’s face.
He looks sad somewhere, but he still has a clear smile on his face.
She slowly began to part her lips.
“I know you are worried about me. Because White is such a person.”
“… ….”
Looking at White who didn’t answer, Ashera smiled a bit feebly.
And then he spat it out.
“…… But, it’s okay.”
A word that means don’t worry about yourself.
White’s eyes slowly open wide, and slowly she lifts her head.
There was a clear worry that could not be hidden from the top of his face.
At that, Ashera quietly drew her eye smile.
“To be honest, it is very difficult. It should be said that it feels like a sense of guilt has become a thorn and stabs her whole body fiercely.”
“…… Asherah.”
White called her in her lower voice.
It was a voice full of intense anxiety, nothing more than that.
“But don’t worry, White.”
As she cautiously stretched out her hand toward White, Ashera continued her words.
“I’m fine.”
It wasn’t a white lie with an empty resonant, simply spouted out in the sense of not worrying.
White could read the clear sincerity in her voice.
Within seconds, Ashera’s outstretched hand touches White’s white cheek.
Start slowly and gently stroking the cheek.
The corners of her eyes curved gracefully.
“…… Because there is white.”
“…… !”
And at the words that were spoken before long, White had no choice but to open her eyes wide.
“…… Asherah?”
“I feel like I’m about to collapse, but I feel like I’m going to be swallowed up by guilt right away.”
She doesn’t answer White’s call, and continues her story.
She bites her lips once, and then she lets out a voice filled with the emotions she’s been hiding inside.
“…… Even if you face an unbearable truth, if you have White.”
“… ….”
“I’m fine. I had a vague intuition that I could endure it.”
Ashera cut off her words after a short interval.
In her bright golden eyes, there was a white expression that looked very embarrassed.
“…… Do you think you know what this word means?”
Ashera cautiously asked a question, and White blinked her eyes blankly and fell silent.
…… It was hard to accept what he was saying for a moment.
What do you mean?
What is it?
So, is she referring to the words that she is okay?
‘…… If that’s not the case, am I saying that if I’m there, I can survive?’
…… I couldn’t tell.
I didn’t know, but I wonder if he didn’t want an answer in the first place.
With a faint smile, Ashera opened her mouth again after she had waited for a while.
“It’s simple, it’s very simple.”
Slowly, Ashera began to lean her body toward White’s side.
She halfway, as if she were entrusting her body to him, or as if leaning against him.
White’s eyes widened, but Ashera didn’t care.
“…… I will not worry, I will not suffer.”
Not paying attention to White’s reaction, Ashera continued her speech.
A gentle smile draped across her mouth.
“If White wants that, she will try to get over it.”
“…… Asherah.”
“Isn’t it time to understand now?”
Responding to White’s call with a chuckle, Ashera ends her speech in a calm voice.
“…… I love you, White.”
“…… !”
White’s expression hardened like stone.
It was a momentary reaction, as if she didn’t understand what she was hearing.
It didn’t matter, Ashera just went into White’s embrace with her beaming smile.
Burying her head in her white chest, she smiled heartily.
Literally, as if she had completely erased her worries for that moment.
Then, she muttered with sincerity.
“I love you more than anyone else, I mean it.”
A word that made the White look blank, even for a moment.