#126. It was just infertility.
Actually, from the moment I arrived here, it was complicated.
My ex-wife.
Harin, Sihwa, and Jena were all completely different people, so it was quite difficult to predict how they would react.
One thing is for sure, Sihwa must have been very angry right now, and my prediction was only hit like a ghost in this case.
“…Don’t talk like manners. I’m barely holding back the desire to throw it down here.”
Duck. Drop.
Water dripped from Sihwa’s bangs, which were drenched in water.
“It’s not that I have nothing to say. But be careful. So, let’s hear about Choi In-wook first.”
But Jena did not back down.
“Yes. It’s Sihwa Just calm down for a bit. Inwook-ah. I hope you can explain it to us properly.”
All three eyes are on me.
It would be best for me to mediate.
I swallowed my saliva and coughed in vain to begin the words I had prepared before coming.
“Hmm… Hmm… First of all, I’m sorry for not being honest in the first place.”
Three people showing a cold reaction.
If you open all the refrigerators in the world, wouldn’t it feel like this?
It was within the expected range up to this point.
“But I want you to know that I also had some circumstances.”
“Just do something that doesn’t make sense.”
Sihwa cut off my words and raised his chin as if to continue.
“Once I first regressed, I didn’t know that even you all regressed.”
“I don’t even know if you have memories of your past lives, but you wouldn’t think it was strange if you went to visit me and said that my sperm was healthy.”
Harin imagined the situation I was talking about and let out a laugh as if she was funny.
“So I want you to know that I couldn’t tell you right away, and the reason I couldn’t tell you even though I have all the memories of the past…”
It was because of the conditions that the spirit of the beginning suggested to me.
“It was because my child was going to save the world.”
“Now do you seriously think that’s a reason?”
Sihwa immediately scolded me as if urging me.
“Besides, you should have told us. This wasn’t just a game of love between men and women. They do great things to save the world, but if you know it, then what can be done?”
“I agree with you on this.”
Jena, who had been silently listening, opened her mouth.
“If the original spirit hadn’t even invited us into our dreams, how long were you planning to hide it?”
“Even if I didn’t, I thought I’d talk about it sooner or later.”
Since my relationship with them had gone so far, I had to tell them the truth.
“But… the reason I was hesitant to talk about it…”
I decided to confide in them the fear that had been engulfing me to this day.
“Do you remember exactly what the spirit of the beginning said?”
“You didn’t say anything. Of course I remember.”
Harin nodded her head.
“You said that only one person can give birth to a child who can save the world…”
“Yes.”
“If the purpose of that spirit is to send me back to the past and create a hero…”
I closed my eyes.
“You mean that maybe I can only have one child.”
After hearing my words, their expressions began to distort.
“…There is only one of us that could ever have a chance to have children.”
Jena put her hand on her forehead and dug into the core.
Sihwa looked at me with a blank expression and then smiled.
“Ha. No. Then isn’t it too easy?”
“What is easy?”
“I have to save the world. Then we should start thinking about what causes this healthy earth to perish.”
The calm voice began to gain confidence.
“Of course it must be because of the monster. I wonder if these fucking monster cubs are going to ruin the earth. So, Choi In-wook, who was the strongest hunter, needed the spirits.”
The words of the poem were something I had been thinking about myself.
“Then, of course, I’m not the perfect match, am I?”
“You Shihwa. You have to listen to what Inwook has to say…”
“No. Let’s just talk common sense and cool. Of course, I’m not treating you as insignificant children. Admit it You are all talented people who have reached S-Class in your respective fields. But you guys can’t fight better than me.”
To be honest, I also agree with that statement.
If you thought that you had a child for the sole purpose of saving the world, choosing a poem was the wisest decision.
“Then, isn’t it a very natural decision for you to step back even for the sake of the world?”
“…I don’t think so.”
There was no hesitation in Jena’s dark brown eyes.
“If what you said is true, there would be no need for Nana or Ha-rin Yun to be called to the place in the first place, nor would there be any need for them to return before that.”
“That’s right. That’s right. Sihwa According to what you said, we didn’t even need to be candidates at all?”
Even now, when Sihwa grabbed my wrist and tried to leave, Jena and Harin came together to deny her logic.
“Think well. If a weak child is born and becomes a hunter, the probability of death is high.”
“Shihwa!”
I thought it was a statement that crossed the line, so I wanted to tell him to go there.
“Choi Inwook. I want you to think seriously too. If you think your child will be at the forefront of the war between high-level monsters, who would be the best match for you?”
Sihwa got up from her seat as if she had nothing more to say, but no one was holding her.
It feels like a typhoon has been swept away.
Obviously a nice restaurant with a nice view and great food, but none of us laughed.
“Inwook-ah.”
“Huh?”
I could tell from Harin’s expression.
She seemed to have something to say.
“As you may know, I am the successor of the GW corporation.”
“Yes.”
“If you say it’s okay, I… I’m confident that I will raise my child in a better environment than anyone else.”
“If the child becomes a hunter, we can fully support him or even attach someone to make sure he is never sent alone in a dangerous situation.”
“You know… I took a bridal class… I have the confidence to work really hard…”
“I want you not to forget me who worked hard in my previous life.”
“Harina.”
“I’ll get up first. Go in carefully.”
After those words, Harin lowered her head slightly and got up with her bag.
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Now all that’s left is me and Jena sitting side by side.“…Choi Inwook.”
“Yes.”
“Do you want a cigarette?”
It was the timing I was craving for.
* *
We went down under the tower and headed to the garden on the first floor of the building.
Jenna is silent all the way from the elevator.
What is she thinking now?
Yena, who kept her expressionless expression, went ahead without even looking at my face.
As soon as she went outside, Jena pulled out her cigarette from her pocket and held out one to me.
“Come on.”
“Fire?”
“Here.”
When the fire started to ignite at the end, it was as if painkillers were being injected into me as I was burning.
The conversation lasted about 30 minutes, but I didn’t lie and felt like 10 years old.
Jena was also in a complicated mind, she also deeply sucked her cigarette and spit it out.
“Choi Inwook.”
“Yes.”
“I know…”
Jenna leaning against a street lamp and looking at the sky.
White smoke rose from her mouth.
“I have nothing to brag about.”
There was a bitterness in her voice, like cigarette smoke.
“As Yoo Shi-hwa said, he doesn’t have the power to crush the heads of real monsters.”
“I can’t even say that I will raise a child in a good environment like Yoon Harin.”
Her self-deprecation did not end there.
“Yena…”
“…I thought I would appeal to him that he clearly has talents and qualities as a healer, but I keep thinking that it is not possible to save the world as a healer.”
It was the right time to comfort me, but I couldn’t immediately remember what to say.
“That’s why I can’t tell you to have a baby with me.”
A single tear ran down Jena’s cheek.
“I don’t have the confidence to raise them better than them. I can’t give birth to a better child than them, so I… It’s so hard to be greedy.”
“The title of a true S-class healer is not something that will go anywhere and be ignored. Why are you so shabby here?”
Jena’s voice was trembling as she stepped on her fine cigarette.
“Oh. But if I hadn’t had children, I might have spoken to you more positively.”
“There is one thing I can do better than them.”
I felt the tears in my eyes grow red more and more.
“I love you.”
“As far as I really love you, I think I can do much better than them…”
Jena, unable to continue her words, buried her face in my chest.
“…It was just infertility. Mr. Inwook.”
Tears flowed down the corners of my eyes at the sound of her screaming resentment.