#37. Without you.
For a moment, I thought I had heard Harin wrong.
“I think I heard it wrong, can you tell me one more time?”
“…Let’s lose once.”
I did not understand well.
To be honest, it was out of the question for her to become a celebrity because she won so much, but nevertheless, I never imagined that the words of losing first would come out of her mouth.
“…Is it okay if I ask the reason?”
“That’s…”
Her expression as if it were difficult to say something.
I knew Harin better than anyone during her academy days.
Harin was not overwhelming compared to Sihwa in terms of her fighting power, but she was still a valuable talent who reached S-class.
Good grades are essential to graduate from S-class.
She was, on the contrary, the kind of woman who had asked me for her advice, but never said that she would lose on purpose.
What the hell is the reason…
“Can’t you just close your eyes and listen to my request just once?”
Hmm…
It was award-winning, but actually, it wasn’t difficult to ask for it.
Because she decided not to be sexually greedy.
“…That’s why you lose 1, so let’s aim for 2nd place instead of 1st. Is this correct?”
“Yes! That’s right!”
“Why don’t you want to get 1st place?”
“Of course it would be nice to win 1st place… Um… I have to prepare for the next competition. It’s also burdensome to compete as the representative of my class…”
It could be true if you really think about it, but even so, Harin’s words were very strange.
Clearly there must be another reason…
“Harina.”
I looked into her eyes.
“The promise we made before. Remember?”
“Promise?”
“The promise you made to my little finger.”
For a moment, Harin’s eyes went cold.
“…Is that the promise that the pair will not hide anything?”
“Yes.”
She was standing still and talking, and suddenly she took one step closer to me.
“Inwook-ah.”
“What… What?”
Harin pushes her face to me while doing her hair.
“You. Are you keeping that promise?”
“…Huh?”
It was me who asked the question, but it felt like she was interrogating me.
“You promised not to hide anything from me. Are you keeping it?”
…I will.
Come to think of it, I didn’t have the right to question her for this promise.
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No. Even so, does Harin know what?It was her eyes that were a little bit bitter to say they were floating.
“Ah. I have something to hide from you.”
“Huh, right?”
After Harin stepped back from me, she made an unknown expression.
“That’s what I meant…”
It seems like he was talking to himself, but I couldn’t figure out what he was doing.
Harin looked out of her window for a moment, and then she shook her head.
“So will you do my favor or not?”
But when I thought about it, I thought that it would be difficult for her to get 1st place if Harin couldn’t do it even if I tried to be good at cancer.
I had no intention of showing all of my abilities during the evaluation, but rather, I was going to do it with the feeling of supporting Harin.
“Um … Harin says if you want to lose your strength and do one round, she won’t say anything until then.”
He was reluctant to agree with her plan.
“Thank you! Inuk-ah!”
Harin felt really good, and she suddenly put her arms around mine.
She wanted to tell her that she would be misunderstood, but she couldn’t say that to her, who was smiling.
I feel a strange feeling in my arm.
Harin said that she always preferred to put her arms around her rather than hold her hand.
[Inwook-ah! The height difference between the two of us is the height of the ideal couple!]
[Who the hell decides that?]
Bona Mana It looks like you’ve read a strange article on the Internet.
[Huh? Was it written like that on the blog?]
[It’s all about making money. It’s just that I’m trying to get the number of views from guys like you.]
[Chi… But if you hear the reason written here, you won’t even be able to say that!]
Harin slowly stood next to me and slipped her arm between mine.
[Sweet! This is the perfect balance between men and women! How are you going to respond anyway? Are you going to respond?]
Is that so? Actually, I don’t really know.
[If you like it, that’s good.]
I answered her with a smile.
I had no choice but to question her so familiar behavior.
Harin Yoon.
You are in front of me right now, do you really have no memory?
* *
I cried a lot.
I thought it was the saddest day since the day Choi In-wook told me that he couldn’t have children.
11 O’clock in the morning.
It’s already too late to go to the academy.
A pile of missed calls.
It looked like they were from the academy.
But I didn’t have the energy to even think of replying.
Have you ever been so helpless in your life?
Leaning on the bed blankly, I buried my head in my knees.
“It’s really bad… I…”
There was no plan after rejection.
I never thought I would be rejected in the first place.
Because unlike in my last life, I was ready to put everything down.
If he didn’t want the S-rank rank, he could have thrown it all away…
But I couldn’t do anything with the words that came out of his mouth.
[My world has been hell since the day you left me.]
[There were many days when I thought I would rather die.]
When I saw Choi In-wook uttering those words with a painful expression, it felt like my heart was being ripped apart.
And it wasn’t that he didn’t know his heart.
As the saying goes, I thought it was spring only after I lost.
The most splendid days of my short past life were those with him.
And it was me who ruined those days.
It was his husband who gave the cause. In the end, it was me who pulled the trigger.
When the memory of yesterday came to mind, tears began to fill my eyes again.
“Are we really over…”
You said we wish each other happiness.
I can’t be happy without you.
My vision was blurred by tears.
* *
“Ha…”
How about this…
Bona Mana Choi In-wook’s return to bankruptcy was a planned future.
It could have been tomorrow, it could have been an hour from now, it could have been now.
I tried not to think about him, even though I promised myself that, in the end, when I came to the bankruptcy, I had no choice but to take care of him.
As I sat on the sofa and turned my pencil round and round, I thought about how I should face him.
Choi In-wook now thinks he’s the kid who confessed to me drunk…
I think I’m even more awkward because I’ve been rejected…
Ugh…
I was thinking of packing my bag again and just running away, so suddenly my fever started to spread.
“No. But thinking about it, it’s ridiculous.”
In my previous life as well as in this life, this was my space.
It was the club that I first selected and joined, and it was the club I came into to draw with ease.
Do I have to run away because I noticed him? Really.
And it was Choi In-wook who confessed first in his previous life.
I was thrilled to think that the man who confessed as if he would give the whole world kicked the me I am today.
Ha… Really…
Of course, in the eyes of him during his academy days, I could not have been full of the castle.
Harin Yoon or Shihwa Yoo.
Because both of them were women enough to put their tongues out when it comes to specifications.
Of course, in terms of pretty appearance.
But now I am…
To be honest, I don’t know about their appearance, but compared to the background they had, I was nothing.
At least they won’t worry about where to pay the back deposit…
I almost never talked to Choi In-wook in my previous life, but my school days and early 20s were not such a happy life.
I had to live harder than others. The moment I let go of my heart, reality seemed to swallow me up.
Dad who lost his business.
Mother, who was ill while watching it.
20 Years old. By the time the other friends started drinking and going to the club.
I had to mop and finish cleaning.
I had to regret the tens of thousands of won, and I had to save in thousands of won.
However, the family’s situation did not show any signs of improving.
It was a life in stark contrast to the lives of Choi In-wook and his ex-wife.
It was the same with the car that Shihwa Yoo brought when she was in MT.
A sports car that looks like tens of thousands of won just by looking at it.
Yes. If you’re by my side, even if I confessed to you, it’s worth rejecting.
Even if you are like me, you are more than a child like me…
I felt exhausted from my body and laid myself down on the sofa.
“I don’t know… You bastard…”
It’s really hard to make me even think like this.
Because he’s a very talented person to piss me off since the last life.
“Who’s the bad guy?”
I was startled by the voice from the back.
When I got up and turned around, I saw Choi In-wook organizing his luggage and taking out a pencil case from his bag.
“What is it? When did you come?”
I had made up my mind not to be annoyed with him, but when I looked at his face, a sense of embarrassment welled up.
“Just. But is there anything bad about it?”
Yes. You. Because of you.
“Not at all.”
“But why did you say to yourself that you are a bad bastard?”
His expression that he really doesn’t know.
Ah. Take heat.
Really.