113 – Exploration
The sight of Roel sitting on the bed and stroking Ross’ head made Bella feel pressured to say something, so she tried to open her mouth, but her tongue swelled. I couldn’t even open my mouth like it was right.
With Roel in front of her confused emotions, she came so close to chaos that she agonized over whether to define them as emotions.
As Bella was biting her lips in her nervousness, Roel suddenly broke her silence and opened her mouth.
“Are you okay?”
“Ah… , When the priest and the wizard checked, there was nothing wrong with the body. It’s just that they don’t seem to know why she can’t regain consciousness….”
Roel nodded at Bella’s words and turned her head to meet her gaze.
“Are you okay?”
Roel’s worried voice made Bella feel like her legs were going to give way.
While it was funny that he was worried that Ross would blame himself for this, Roel, as always, genuinely worried about himself.
Even though he himself doesn’t deserve such kind consolation.
“Yes…. As… I’m fine thanks to S.”
Bella cleared her throat at the cracked voice.
“Thank God.”
Having said that, Roel stood up and took Bella into her arms. For an instant, Bella felt a strange sense of relief at Roel’s body odor.
“… And I’m sorry. Because I am away.”
“No. Who would have known. That Claire would betray me….”
Roel’s sincere apology to herself made Bella feel even more heavy.
I don’t think she would have been weighed down by her guilt so much if she had rather been angry with herself or turned her back on her.
To Roel, who approaches Roel with her whole heart, Bella couldn’t make her lame excuses or ignore the situation.
Sincerity is sometimes the most powerful weapon to destroy someone’s hypocrisy. Like an animal caught in a trap, Bella couldn’t escape.
She suddenly realized that Bella was crying as her vision turned hazy.
It’s ugly.
In this situation, she cowardly took out her weapon.
It was disgusting to see a small sense of relief rise behind the guilt that filled my heart with the warmth of Roel’s warm embrace.
Bella raised her hand and pushed Roel’s chest hard.
She then knelt down.
A bewildered Roel looked at herself with a wavering gaze, but Bella couldn’t help it.
She felt like she was filth and she couldn’t hold Roel anymore. She didn’t want to dirty Roel with her own hands.
If you think about it, from a certain moment, the evil deeds done to Ross were not for Roel, contrary to her initial intention.
Even though she knew that she was not wrong and that she was against the idea she wanted to prove to Roel, she turned away.
She has an ugly desire to prove her need to Roel, who wants nothing from her. It brought sadness to Roel and unhappiness to Ross.
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Now, the beginning of all her faults was that she was herself…. She admitted, and whatever punishment she deserved.
“I’m sorry…. I, I ruined everything….”
Although she was Bella who had a knack for debating with numerous subjects, having deep conversations with scholars, and wrapping herself in several sentences to many people.
She said that now she could only say sorry without any excuse.
Roel knelt down on Bella and brought her to eye level and smiled at her. She said in a sweet voice as she wiped Bella’s tears from her cheeks.
“It’s okay. I’ll fix it.”
How? The word lingered in her mouth, but she couldn’t get it out.
“If Ross gets up, let’s confess and apologize to everyone.”
“Yes, of course….”
At Roel’s words, Bella weakly nodded her head. She may not be forgiven, but admitting and apologizing for her own mistakes, even belatedly, is to pay for her sins even a little bit.
“Don’t worry. I will also apologize.”
“Uh… ?”
At her belated statement, Bella looked at Roel with her bewildered eyes.
“I did it because I was worried. It is right for me to apologize as well.”
“Oh, no. Roel doesn’t have to apologize. This is just my opinion….”
Bella hurriedly brought her words out, but Roel shook her head with her wry smile.
“Well…. Even though I know that you are misunderstood, cursed, and hated by people for what you did for me…. It’s my biggest mistake that I didn’t correct it because it was to my advantage.”
Roel furrowed his eyebrows with a self-deprecating smile.
“Perhaps I was shaken. Having entered the academy after being recognized for my efforts on my own, this is the first time I have ever received so much help from someone, so I wanted to pamper myself with that comfort.”
“I… I want to be the person Roel needs….”
“You are already important to me. Not as the Crown Princess, but as a person named Bella. And as lovers.”
Bella bit her lip at Roel’s sincerity. She knew from the start. Even if you don’t show Roel his need, Roel won’t abandon himself.
Roel knows that he is different from other people, but will he change like everyone else? Because I was afraid of that and tried to prove it myself.
In the end, it was her own fault for not trusting Roel…. Bella could realize, along with her guilt that her heart felt weighed down.
“We are lovers, Bella. Lovers are for each other, not a relationship where you sacrifice for one side only.”
Bella couldn’t hold back at Roel’s words and shed her big tears.
Raising her Bella, Roel turned her around to look at Roel lying on her bed.
“Let’s move Ross to the academy.”
“Ha, but… still conscious….”
“The academy will be safer than here. Because the cult’s followers must be hiding somewhere in the imperial palace. I can’t stay here long either. And I have a good feeling that Principal Nelson might know how to bring Ross back to consciousness.”
Roel wiped her Bella’s tears and smiled warmly.
“Bella, trust me. Even if you don’t have to get wet alone, I can definitely become the best on the continent.”
Roel whispered a low voice in Bella’s ear, her blue eyes shining.
“… You will always be by my side I’ll promise.”
***
After being absent for the weekend, Ross has returned to the academy. Even with him unconscious.
Waiting anxiously for Ross who disappeared without a word, Luna heard the next day from Lakar, who shared the same classroom as Ross, that Professor Lycan was unable to attend class because Ross entered the ward during the ordinance.
As soon as the morning class ended with the other members who heard that Ross had entered the ward, he headed straight to the ward.
When they went to the first floor of the main building where the ward was located, someone was already talking to Professor Joy in charge of the ward.
“I’m sorry, but patients in the room can only visit after school.”
At Professor Joy’s words, Ellie put her hands together in front of her chest as if pleading.
“Please, is it impossible to just check the status for a moment? It takes less than a minute….”
“No. Rules are rules. Come back after school. ”
Ellie lowered her head helplessly at Joey’s stern words. As Professor Joy finished the conversation and was about to return to the ward, Aria stepped up to her side and hurriedly intervened in the conversation.
“Hey, is Ross okay?”
“… Yeah, Principal Nelson said it would wake up on its own in time. I don’t have any scars on my body, so there’s nothing to worry about.”
At that, everyone let out a sigh of relief.
“Oh, where did this guy come in after drinking alone?”
With a sigh of relief, Kane, who had been worried about Ross in his heart, threw a sneaky joke, but no one in her hallway laughed.
While Kane stroked her chin out of embarrassment, Professor Joy didn’t miss the chance and went inside the ward.
“Kane, please pay attention.”
She had a lot to ask, but Arya, furrowed in anger at having missed her Professor Joey because of her Kane, glared at her, and Kane shrugged her shoulders.
“Still, I will wake up soon. You don’t have to worry too much.”
At Kane’s words, everyone in her nodded her head. She was told that there was nothing wrong with her body and that she would wake up soon, so everyone in her relaxed.
“Ah, I was worried for nothing! Let’s go get something to eat!”
Aria grumbled that she was worried for nothing, and Kane, who chimed in, turned her body and headed for her restaurant.
“Thank God. Nothing special.”
To Lakar’s consolation, Luna nodded her head along with her sigh.
“I will.”
It was futile to be nervous, knowing that Ross was in big trouble, but…. Just knowing that Ross was okay gave Luna a satisfied smile.
The moment she turned to follow her staff to the dining room, she heard Luna’s voice grabbing her steps.
“Hey, hello. Are you Luna? Can you talk to me for a minute?”
At the sudden proposal, Lakar, who had been ahead of her, stopped her steps and turned around to look at Luna and Ellie.
Luna told Lakar to go to her restaurant first, and Lakar nodded her head without saying a word and moved her steps again.
Luna turned her body to probe Ellie. Her black hair that reached her shoulders, her beautiful appearance, and her eyes as beautiful as obsidian made Luna feel herself shabby.
Because Ellie in front of her eyes was enough for anyone to say that she was beautiful.
Ellie’s eyes also quickly ran over her Luna. As if she had finished her search, Ellie raised one corner of her mouth like her winner and spoke as if giving an order.
“Let’s move her seat. I have nothing to say in a place like this.”
She was offended by the way Ellie looked down on her, but Luna nodded her head without expressing it. She also had something she wanted to ask Ellie.
“Good.”