163 – Homogeneity
With a strange sense, he regained his vision in pitch-black darkness.
I could clearly feel the unpleasant pain sensation as if my brain had been torn apart.
My heart is stuffy, as if my heart’s blood vessels are blocked by the wall of despair.
It is a feeling of lack of existence due to extreme self-loathing and inferiority complex.
On the contrary, heavy despair oppresses the whole body.
‘I’ raised my body up in extreme despair.
My vision flickers on its own.
It’s only then that I realize that the world I’ve been feeling has turned upside down.
I move without stopping toward the place where the goal remains in the blur in my head.
The lower half of the body receives commands from the brain and faithfully executes them.
The poison called despair is eroding in my wildly beating heart.
It is an unpleasant feeling that the blood vessels of the whole body are full of insects.
I suddenly feel uncomfortable. What did I really want?
It feels like a part of the brain responsible for memory has been scraped off with a sword.
However, in my mind full of confusion, only one name remains as if it were imprinted.
“Roel….”
Emotions exploded in my heart at the one word I blurted out.
Intense enmity, hatred, and envy and longing.
Those things mix and stimulate the brain.
Shadows sway in the moonlight.
The soul lost its human form after being eaten by the darkness, but the body has not yet lost its original form.
“Roel….”
I can hear the heartbeat of someone passing by.
The man, who, as usual, gave me a sneering, disgusting, and reluctant look at me, collapses to the floor with an expression that doesn’t understand what has happened to him.
I desperately held on to the torn neck, as if I was trying to catch the life flowing out of it, but it was futile.
It was a fatal wound close to instant death.
“Kuuu…” .”
I looked down at the man who had been looking at me with frightened eyes and very slowly lowered his foot.
I trampled on the hand that desperately gripped his neck.
“Keuk, kek….”
As if stepping on an insect on the street, the man’s breath stopped with a groaning sound.
He wanted to be apologized for his wrongdoing, but he died without even reflecting.
He is a piece of trash.
“aaa !!!”
Screams echo through the hallway. The woman exhales heavily and runs away, but her upper body is severed with just one of her light gestures.
This time it was an instant death.
As he walked by, he heard a clicking sound from under his feet.
I stepped on the guts the woman had poured out. It’s a beautiful bright pink organ.
I heard whispers of committing a corpse, but my target wasn’t a woman lying on the floor with her lower body apart.
She is more beautiful than any woman, addictive, and ruinous for me.
They heard the woman’s screams and saw armored knights approaching.
My mouth was itchy. It feels like every single one of her teeth is shaking.
The urge to break something hard tickles her chest.
“You bastard—!”
I tried tearing off the man’s head and chewing on it as he raised his sword.
I was devastated by the reality that the itchiness was the same.
Just in case, I repeatedly tore off the heads of people around me and chewed them, but I wasn’t satisfied at all.
Unpleasant feelings soar. I’m annoyed that I didn’t get what I wanted.
With his claws and teeth, he used his claws and teeth to disarm his body, killing everyone, even those who jumped out the door after hearing the commotion.
Blasted his head, ripped out his chest, and kicked his limbs as he rolled across the floor.
“Roel, Roel, Roel―――!!!”
I cried out the name I wanted to deny.
I barked like a beast so that the plunderer who robbed me of everything could understand.
And then, as if in response to my cries, a man with a greatsword appeared at the end of a hallway lined with fragments of flesh and brain.
The cool blue eyes erase the disgusting hypocrisy and glar at me with anger.
“Ross.”
At the moment I heard a voice calling my name, magic spread like an explosion, and walls and floors shattered.
The gale created by Magi gathered debris and made vision dizzy.
“You, you, you———!!!”
It was stolen. Even what I thought was the only thing left of me.
If that’s the case, take it again and that’s it. I will kill you and reclaim the things that were taken from me.
“―――!!!”
Based on fierce hostility, all mana runs rampant in the right hand.
The black orb, which concentrated magic, demonic energy, and even stale emotions, was shot at Roel, tearing everything in front of him.
The dormitory building shakes like an earthquake. The black sphere swallowed Roel.
Before the thought of killing him was over, the black orb, which boasted intense power, faded in vain in the light.
I could see Roel standing tall alone, unmoving in the midst of the torrent of demonic energy. It was something I had longed for and imagined.
That’s why the hatred rises even more. A wild breath like a beast flows out of his mouth at the limitless hatred.
It spews demonic energy from its entire body and rushes forward to tear off its head.
“You idiot!”
With a voice filled with anger, the greatsword flashed.
It was a blow with enough power to split his body in half, but he evaded the attack with explosive speed.
I immediately swung my fist with mana in an effortless movement.
Roel, who avoided the attack with a quick movement that couldn’t be seen holding a greatsword, moved his center of gravity and hit me with the side of the greatsword.
He raised his arms to block the attack, but the impact threw him out of the window.
I had to bounce off the building and roll on the ground a few times before I could stop it. Before my shaky vision could be restored, I hurriedly pulled back when I felt a presence above his head.
Thump–!
A greatsword is slashed where the head was just now. The fact that you sincerely want to kill me burns my brain. Demonic energy erupts and surrounds the surroundings.
On the contrary, Roel, who was shining so beautifully, inadvertently spat out in a voice filled with soggy desire.
“I envy you.”
That talent that makes all my efforts useless.
The luck of getting the things I can’t get so easily.
The arrogance of taking the love I didn’t receive for granted.
He screamed as if to vent his grudge.
The whole body groans and ignores the limits of the body.
With ferocious momentum, he attacked just to kill him.
It has been a long time since I lost my reason for controlling my breathing or distributing my strength.
Utilizing only madness as power, it unleashes attacks close to self-destruction.
The fists wrapped around demonic energy are powerful enough to burst the opponent’s body one by one.
However, Roel did not allow any attack. With his overwhelming ability, he easily blocks no matter how many attacks he pours out.
I even gave up my soul to gain this power, but in the end I couldn’t reach Roel.
In that hopeless reality, the intent to kill is extremely strengthened.
“Die, die, die―――!!!!!”
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No matter how much he cried and knocked, Roel did not waver. He was only devoted to defense, and those blue eyes never left me.
“Why the hell….”
Seeing Roel muttering as if he didn’t understand me, the infested hatred exploded. He lost his temper and threw himself like an animal.
Roel’s greatsword moved. Both legs were lost in the air in the blow that followed, along with arms extended to choke him.
“Quaaa!!!”
I rolled on the floor with only my body remaining.
I desperately bit on Roel’s shoe, but he just looked down at me with a pitiful look.
It hurts…. It’s not the body, but that gaze looking down at me as if pitying me hurts me as always.
Howled like a beast with a voice filled with resentment.
“Give me, give me, give me…” !!!”
“Ross….”
Teardrops fell on my head. Tears mixed with the blood that flowed from the torn forehead entered his eyes and flowed as bloody tears.
“I, you… I wanted to save you.”
The anger soared even more at the voice full of sincerity without a single lie. Are you deceiving me until the end? To me who heard the truth from the demon king–!!!
My heart beats like crazy. The blood vessels were twisted, and the magi that started from the heart was concentrated and gathered in the mouth.
“Stop it… please.”
The burning sensation as if the brain were burning in Magi and the terrifying pain were intense, but he endured it with only the hostility to kill him.
But as always, Roel was always faster than me.
“… Sorry.”
The moment the voice reached my ears, I was freed from the ugly emotions that weighed down my whole body.
My vision is shaking.
The world turns.
When the world finally stopped, I saw Roel, who was shaking and sobbing with my head propped up on a dropped greatsword.
“… Sorry. I’m really sorry….”
Towards my disintegrating body, Roel apologized endlessly.
The world turns pitch black.
The sound fades away, the senses disappear.
Yes, it was wrong from the start.
Even though I know very well that I can’t be a hero in the first place.
Even though there is a track record of being betrayed for every effort.
It was my fault that I entered the academy without giving up hope.
I have always been a loser in my destiny. A loser who is destined to win no matter what.
For the sin of forgetting it, I will now suffer in eternal despair.
The demon king who retrieved my soul burst into a mad laugh.
A voice mixed with laughter asks me.
―So are you?
At that moment, I woke up from my dream.