235 – EP.10 Belief that things will get better-4
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Compared to coming down together, going up the hill alone was steeper and took longer.
As I trudged up the hill with no end in sight, I glanced at the scenery that Yoon Sia captured in her eyes from the same location.
The moon hanging over the shoulder line showed off its light just as it did when it came down.
Even as I looked at the moon, which attracted everyone’s attention with its gentle appearance, I did not think it was very beautiful.
Trudging, I climbed a long, long hill.
The best thing about being possessed here is that I have a lot of time alone to think.
Is it because I stay at home?
After doing homework, previewing, and reviewing, there is more time left than I thought.
When I have time like that, I think of memories of the previous world.
When I think about the end, I wonder if there will be any memories, but the good memories of people meeting each other still remain, so I don’t feel like I need to correct it.
Excluding the hectic dimensional movement at the beginning, I met quite a few people.
Lee Mi-na, Namgoong Soyu, Choi Garam, Emma, Maria.
As I became involved with them, I had to experience a different death each time.
Death caused by someone else’s will and sometimes death caused by one’s own will.
I kept the bad ending of death in my heart every time, and as I was frantically adjusting to the new level, I forgot about it.
No matter what the ending was, the time spent with them wasn’t that bad.
[…Is that possible?]
A memory of the time when sunlight coming through the window brightened the room.
The sight of sharing an awkward silence with Maria, who was blushing shyly.
[If you do this, it feels like drinking the moon. You should try it too.]
I remember the time when I drank a glass on top of the pavilion and looked at the moon.
A picture created by a glass filled with moonlight and Soyou’s red eyes that are like jewels.
[Master. Could you please hug me just once… Just once…?]
A memory of the time when we danced slowly with the dance of colorful fireworks as lighting.
The dance moves I made with Emma, who was smiling tightly in my arms.
[Don’t worry. As an expert, I am by your side, so you won’t get hurt!]
The memory of that time when I was moving my sluggish body and was out of breath.
Garam’s laughter, laughing lively and shouting to fight.
And….
[Well done. It looks like what I was doing didn’t go anywhere.]
[Thank you. In-ho is always cool, so I can’t help but notice his clothes.]
[Today I was a bit poor and couldn’t beat the first part, but next time you’ll catch me and try to beat it to the end.]
[That makes sense. Should I try it too?]
Memories with Imina.
I have already told her roughly her family history.
She may have wanted to ask whether she would be okay with this.
On her way home from work, I can still see her sunken face as she brought up her own weaknesses in a trembling voice.
These days, I think of Lee Mi-na more often.
It may be that I am superimposing her appearance on top of Yoon Sia’s face.
Choi Garam also had an unfortunate family life, but it felt subtly different.
Lee Min-a and Yoon Sia look alike.
He carries the burden of life alone, and although he is pessimistic about the world, he shows sincerity by not stopping.
And ironically, even the fact that I am next to them resembles them.
Maybe that’s why, when I look at Yoon Sia, I think of Lee Mi-na.
“That’s why I want to take care of you more.”
I finally arrived at the house and muttered as I entered.
As always, random thoughts end without any conclusion.
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As I entered the house without anyone welcoming me, the cold temperature of the living room hit me.
I headed to the second floor, shivering at the temperature, which was not much different from outside.
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When I looked at my cell phone to see if things were going well and wanted to send a KakaoTalk message to Yoon Sia, I got a call.
“Hello.”
[…It is me.]
At the sudden self-introduction, I looked at the sender.
The word [Father] Was floating on the screen.
This is my first conversation with my parents since I finally came here.
“Yes.”
I don’t know what to say, so I keep my answer short.
[Suspension.]
The voice on the other end of the phone uttered the word ‘suspension’ and then there was a long silence.
As if saying these words out of one’s own mouth is extremely shameful.
[… Suspension will end soon, so I called to see if you were getting ready for school.]
A business-like voice echoed through the room.
“Yes.”
I don’t know what to say, so I reply briefly.
[Okay, don’t bother me with this again. If you don’t have the brains to study, you shouldn’t have an accident.]
A short clicking sound was heard at the end.
I shouldn’t rationalize it, but I’m starting to get a bit of an idea as to why the child in this family became so irritable.
[If you have an accident again this time, know that there will be no support or anything.]
A one-sided conversation continues.
I had nothing to say other than ‘yes’.
[Hang up.]
The phone is disconnected.
Come to think of it, I didn’t even check how long I would be suspended.
I search the room and find an official suspension letter.
The suspension period lasts until this week… In other words, the student must return to school next Monday.
I think of the things I will face when I go to school.
My existing friendships and my reputation, which is obviously extremely low….
‘No matter how it ended, the time spent with them wasn’t that bad.’
This is one of the thoughts I had while climbing the hill.
I have a feeling that I will not be able to live up to my name in this dimension.
If not for those two, Yoon Sia and Shin Jeong-ah, a force majeure that appears from somewhere would cut my lifeline.
In the past, I would have tried hard to avoid death.
However, through the time I spent with Maria, I was able to look at dimensional possession from a slightly different perspective.
I ended up being possessed by this world.
Let’s correct the things that can be corrected as much as possible.
I think we can make this world, little by little, better.
I believe so.