293 – EP.11 Things You Have to Lose to Know-2
From Noble mtl dot com
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Kim Seong-ah was leaving school with Lee Hye-ji. Her Hye-ji was going to her house because she invited her to go with her.
Her
She felt strange seeing her follow her without any reason, but since there was no reason for her to refuse, her Seong-ah nodded.
“Aren’t you coming to school tomorrow?”
“It’s Saturday, right? Ah… Self-study?”
“You don’t have to study on your own. I’m jealous… Then what are you doing tomorrow?”
“I… I should just stay home. There’s nothing special to do.”
“Aren’t you looking for your brother?”
“Oppa? Ah….”
Kim Seong-ah closed her mouth. Maybe she really should go out and look for it.
She wonders if this man, who has nowhere to go, is wandering around her street and making her life suffer.
‘Is there really no place to go?’
While she was worried, a thought suddenly occurred to her.
As the blood runs up her neck, she thinks back to the words she said when she screamed at herself.
It seems that the story was related to her girlfriend.
As she thought about that, her chest felt tight and tight again.
‘There was a place to go.’
There is a place to go even if it is not our home.
When her thoughts reached that point, her breath caught in her throat.
“Sister?”
Her Lee Hye-ji looked at her with a worried face.
“If you wait, it will come on its own.”
She adjusts her voice and pretends to make a loud noise as if she were relaying a normal sibling fight.
They are not siblings or even family.
“I really hope we can reconcile.”
Lee Hye-ji spoke quietly. She then pointed with her finger to her right.
“I have to go this way.”
“Oh, I’m this way.”
Seongah Kim pointed to her left.
“It’s the opposite. Then go in.”
“Yes. Have a nice weekend.”
“I have to go to school tomorrow….”
As Hyeji spoke sullenly, Kim Seong-ah laughed awkwardly.
“Ahahahaha… That’s right. Let’s go in then.”
“Sister, you look unwell today. Please rest well.”
“Thank you for your concern. Shall we go then?”
They turned their heads and greeted each other until they became dots.
As her friend disappeared on the other side of her path, Kim Seong-ah’s face slowly hardened.
“I’ve been feeling sick since a while ago.”
As Hye-ji said, she had not been feeling well since lunch.
“Wasn’t it good what you ate for breakfast?”
I remembered the breakfast that was particularly tasteless and had a strange smell.
My body deteriorated over time. Maybe that’s why the way back home was longer than usual.
I felt like I walked twice as long as usual.
I wiped the cold sweat from my forehead with the back of my hand and opened the rusty door.
Unlike before, a small creaking sound was heard. This is because In-ho worked on the hinges.
“…….”
She passed through a small yard with neatly cut grass next to her.
She then climbed the stone steps and opened the front door.
Her unlit living room welcomed her.
“……”
Yes, this picture is familiar.
This was the scenery she was supposed to enjoy.
She laid her body down as if she had collapsed.
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Her body trembled from the warmth of the cold wooden floor.
Saturday, early morning.
Even considering the late rising sun, the surroundings were very dark.
“Ugh….”
As she trembled between dreams and reality, the sounds that came out of her mouth were not words but moans.
I felt nauseous and my forehead was hot.
“It’s the living room….”
Like the morning wind, she muttered in a very low voice.
Only one shoe was taken off. Her smiling face was mercilessly distorted, tired, and sad.
“Wow….”
I felt sick to my stomach. She hesitantly got up and headed to the bathroom.
It was a short distance of only a few steps, but it felt as far as yesterday’s walk home from school.
After a grueling marathon, she arrived at the bathroom, opened her lid cover, and stuck her face into the toilet.
The sound of spitting out everything inside.
The sound of the soul pouring out resonated in the house for a while.
“Mister… I’m sick…”
In the midst of repeated pouting, she inadvertently called out someone who was not there.
“…….”
And realize it.
Another vomiting comes to her.
Having lost all the moisture from her body, she flopped down on the bathroom floor.
As she was going up and down, it seemed as if dozens of invisible burdens were on her shoulders, and her breathing seemed difficult.
Even without her hand touching her forehead, she could tell that her body was hot.
The coldness of the bathroom floor was cooling her body at least.
“It hurts….”
In a daze, she muttered as she sat there.
“It hurts….”
She was nauseated. Her nausea on an empty stomach was causing her pain.
“Mister….”
She once again called a non-existent person.
There was no one in this house who would come running to her in pain.
“I’m sick… I’m sick.”
Whoosh, whoosh, she turns her body and comes out of the bathroom.
And she crawls into the kitchen.
Her throat was so burned. Her dry lips cracked open, and her blood flowed.
She holds onto the slightly protruding refrigerator and raises her body as if she were climbing a rock wall.
She opens the door with all her strength and takes out her water bottle.
I didn’t have the energy to bring her cup. She lifted her bucket to her mouth and tilted her head back.
“Keheok, kolok! Cough!”
She was gulping down water in a hurry, but soon coughed and spat out the water, as if she had heard her.
The bucket of water fell on the floor and wet the floor.
“hahahaha… That’s bullsh*t….”
She said as she looked at the mess on the floor and her own body, which was soaked with water.
Although she spat out most of the water, her thirst was quenched.
She sat down.
I didn’t know that the heat of her body would cool down.
“It hurts….”
Her head is hot, her stomach is nauseous, and her throat is sore.
It is difficult to control her body, and her vision is blurry.
“It hurts. Me.”
“It hurts, it hurts….”
“Mom… Dad… Uncle…”
She called upon those who depended and followed her.
But none of them could help her.
In this dark and big house.
– Ugh, Mom! Dad! Mister!
She sat on the floor and cried sadly, like a baby crying.
There was no one who could answer that sadness.
In this dark and big house, there was only her.