76 – Their Fate (1)
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She was a villainess who had to die.
The goddess defined my life like that.
And I also agreed with that.
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She was a villainess who had to die.
I couldn’t dare to offer a counterargument to her as she dismantled my past and future without leaving anything behind and thrust it in front of her eyes. She was the autopsy doctor of my life and a bystander to my torn fate. One day, she suddenly appeared before my eyes and revealed everything about her future life. The goddess then tried to disappear, leaving behind a sneer of her own. You will die like this. No matter how hard you struggle, you won’t be able to change it.
Without needing to exercise her extraordinary intuition, I realized that she was a true goddess. Instinct. In an instant, time and space were distorted, testifying to the authority of the goddess. I collapsed in front of such an irresistible fate.
My knees were sore as I knelt in helplessness. The goddess spoke to me. You can never be connected to the crown prince. She taunted him, saying that the best thing to do would be to marry an insignificant commoner and spend the rest of her life in a nameless countryside.
I wanted to deny it. It was like trampling on my entire life up until now. That’s why I can’t do that. Until yesterday, I was no different from the queen of the Academy, and there is no way I can survive as a plaything for commoners. I struggled to please tell him no.
And the goddess laughed, saying that this was proof that I could not change my fate. Even if I were to tell you my fate, I would fall again into arrogance and conceit. They said that all they could do was change the color of the shroud they would wear when buried in the coffin.
The moment I realized that it was true, miserable tears flowed from my eyes.
When the goddess saw my tears, a lively laugh burst out from the lips of the goddess. Only then did I crawl towards her feet. Now, I threw away all my remaining pride and continued to mutter the words that came to mind. I don’t really remember what I said. It seemed like he was begging for his life.
Only then did the goddess look down at me. Even though she laughed at my attitude of asking the goddess of death for her life, she said she would grant the request. At that moment, there was someone who came forward to save my life. She was the only person who shed tears when I died.
And the goddess said that from now on, she will possess my life and guide my destiny. Looking at it, she said some unknown things, such as telling me to help her with the support she had sent me. I nodded dumbly, not really understanding what it meant. Seeing that, the goddess laughed again and tapped my forehead.
At that moment, my consciousness began to fall out of my head. And in that empty space, the spirit of a new woman rose. She is the possessor who inhabits my body and the navigator who will guide my destiny. The only person who cried for me was the mourner whose fate would never come true.
Her name is. She was called Kim Yuna.
That’s how the strange symbiotic relationship began, sucking the parasite’s vitality into the host’s body.
After Yoona came into my body, she devoted herself to studying for over a month. I looked at her like that from beyond her consciousness. It was quite awkward to look at what was happening in my body from a third party’s perspective, but I was able to get used to it quicker than I thought.
As I got used to this life, I slowly began to grind my teeth against her frustrating behavior.
Why don’t I know? I can’t change my destiny just by studying. Because I saw the future. Because she knew the duke’s ambition better than anyone else, her attitude felt frustrating. I knew that I had no right to complain, but my gratitude soon disappeared and I was filled with impatience.
Of course, that doesn’t mean I have a sharp alternative. There was no sign of any breakthrough in this breathtaking fate. If things continued like this, it seemed like even the possessed person who came for me would eventually plunge my life into an abyss.
It was frustrating. I was impatient. My anxiety kept rising. I continued to worry, chewing on my nails that I couldn’t even tear off. What on earth did the words the goddess mean? Sponsorship of Bingui High School. What on earth does that mean? Why on earth did she possess me at a time like this?
Why did it come to me at the worst possible time, when I was exiled to the back of the classroom, a place for insignificant commoners?
…
…A commoner.
At that time, I suddenly remembered the story that the goddess had told me in passing. They said that the best fate for me would be to marry an insignificant commoner and spend the rest of my life in a nameless countryside.
Of course, there was a possibility that it was just ridicule. But I didn’t think it was just meaningless nonsense. It must have some meaning. Even if it wasn’t in the literal sense, that commoner could have been a hint to change my fate.
What was the name? Did you definitely say Ellen? He looked like an ordinary commoner who could be found anywhere, but ever since he changed places, he has constantly shown interest in me. That alone seemed worth using. Maybe he was so impressed by my beauty that he would do anything I told him to do.
Yes. At the very least, it didn’t seem like a bad idea to make him my servant and use him as a means of use.
But this timid possessor seemed to have not even thought of such a thing and continued to ignore him. Maybe it’s natural. It makes no sense in common sense for the daughter of a duke to show interest in a commoner like that.
That’s why I had to tell you. Her goddess said that I could help her with her patronage. But unfortunately I didn’t even know what it was. While she was cursing her own helplessness, the unkindness of her goddess, and the frustration of the possessed person, the incident occurred.
The guy suddenly grabbed my hand.
“…!”
She was so shocked that she couldn’t even move. She froze, as if he, too, was embarrassed by her own actions. Only I realized that now was the decisive moment. If it’s not now, that commoner will never have the courage to grab my body again. She realized that she, too, would do nothing but avoid the sudden approach.
At that moment, I shouted to the goddess. It’s that kid. She said if you could help me with that sponsorship or something, I need it at this moment. She screamed with all her might, even though she knew she might not reach.
And soon, that cry became a sentence and appeared before my eyes.
[Yuna donated 1,000 won.]
Time has passed. Gradually, the relationship between her and Ellen became closer.
Of course, the speed and method were so frustrating that I constantly intervened among them in the function of sponsorship. As I gradually got used to the sponsorship, I learned about other functions and was even able to send messages, but unfortunately, it seemed that I could only send them to a child named Ellen.
Yoona is still poor at dealing with people, and she couldn’t even think of treating the approaching Ellen like a servant. But, well, it was fun to watch. The more I looked at her, the more cute her actions seemed, and Eren’s bold side embarrassed me and Yoona at the same time. Then, when she had the audacity to push Ellen into her bathroom, I unconsciously gave her an exclamation.
[Oh.]
It was really fun to watch the two people arguing in front of the bathroom door at that time.
For a while, I even felt like a bystander. Compared to my life, which was tense and tense with Elise every day, her daily life was so peaceful that watching it made me feel at peace.
And when that b*tch Ellie started begging to be tormented, I felt a refreshing feeling. Now you’re begging like that. I began to enjoy watching her daily life more and more. I was looking forward to seeing what kind of ugly side Ellie Jane would show tomorrow.
But the next day, when her mother slapped her in the face, she couldn’t smile.
It was violence that I should have suffered. It was even more ruthless and terrible than anything I had ever experienced. I wonder if she won’t be able to bear it and will break down. I was worried that I would regret coming into this cursed body and throw everything away.
And she was devastated, just as I expected. But not for the reasons I thought.
She despaired that she had ruined my fate because of her poor self.
…
I think it started from then. Like a chipped fingernail, cracks began to appear in my heart.
After that day, I could no longer send donations in a playful way. I couldn’t do that. Mom. The crown prince. Elise. No matter how much fate threw her body, Yoona did her best to overcome it somehow.
And she overcame it in the end. Now, with Ellen, I feel secure.
But her wicked fate was constantly trying to push her into the swamp of her despair.
At some point, I wanted to say that it was okay to stop. No matter how bad I was and how immature and stupid I was, it was very painful to see others taking responsibility for my karma.
If it weren’t for Ellen. She might not have been able to get through it without him supporting her and telling her jokes in every situation. He was the last support that protected both my and Yoona’s hearts.
No, actually, that too was a hangnail in my heart. It was a sharp fragment that bounced off the surface of the desk. Whenever I see Ellen smiling at me without knowing anything, I want to say this.
The Yoona you love is just a possessor who came to save me.
Her role is to save my twisted fate.
And when that role is over, she might disappear.
Yoona must have sensed that fact as well. But the more she felt that the end was approaching, the more she spoke, as was her habit.
Even if it were the real Yuna, Ellen, she would love you.
…
That may be true.
But I didn’t want it to be that way. The reason Eren loved her was because she was Yoona. I wanted to change the relationship between the host and the parasite even now. Even I don’t want to be happy. Paradoxically, I also hoped for it.
Of course, nothing like that happened. Even though Yuna knew that now she would have to give up everything she had gained, she kept going. And in the end, she even received the duke’s tacit permission to marry.
That was a turning point in my fate, which should have been marked by tragedy. I lowered my head because I knew those might be her last moments.
…
When the final moment finally came, I couldn’t say anything.
…
“It’s been a long time, Miss Yoona.”
“…”
The day when fate came to an end. In front of the goddess who came again, Yuna could not say anything. Her goddess poured out heartless words to her.
“And congratulations. You really saved Miss Yuna from the bad ending. Now, neither the Duchess nor the Crown Prince nor Elysee. Not even she herself will be able to push herself to her death.”
“…”
“No. Actually, it’s more than that. Now all that’s left is to be happy, right?”
Only then did I raise my head. One word: happiness. It was a false badge and a signal signaling exit.
“…Yes. That’s right.”
“Hey, why are you crying like an idiot? Rather, it’s a moment to be happy.”
She also shed tears as she must have sensed that fact. But beyond that, her defiance could not be revealed.
“You wanted to make Yuna happy, right? That’s how you became happy. Now all that’s left is to make you really happy.”
…
“So, don’t cry, okay? It would be a waste of your beauty if you cried with a pretty face that you possessed.”
“Yes, the goddess is right.”
In the midst of the heated conversation, Yuna never once shook her head. I’m afraid that if I do that, my fate, which I had tried to turn back, will be twisted again. Even while I was crying, the kind possessor only cared about me.
Don’t do that. I wanted to tell you to think about you now. Of course, there was no way my voice could reach them.
And anyway, it might have been a pointless struggle now. At the last moment, the goddess’ merciless questions followed.
“Is that right? Then, can I ask you something now, Miss Yuna?”
“…”
“Are you happy now?”
“I…I…”
She hesitated. Maybe this might be the last chance. But her answer ultimately did not change.
“Yes. I’m happy.”
At that moment, I lowered my head. I was resentful of myself for not being able to do anything. And there was nothing Yoona could do now.
“I see.”
The goddess smiled. At that small smile, Yuna suddenly gasped and quickly raised her head.
“Hey…Wait a minute, goddess…”
“Thank you for your hard work, Miss Yoona.”
“Goddess, wait a minute…I…I’m still…”
“Miss Yuna is also grateful to you. I want to tell you once again that she really, really worked hard.”
“I might still have work to do… So, just for a little while…!”
“Okay then. Goodbye, Miss Yuna.”
When Yuna stretched out her hand for the last time, the goddess also stretched her hand towards her forehead. Her delicate fingers touched her forehead.
And then, everything started to come back.
…
It felt like I was dreaming. The sensation I regained after such a long time was so unfamiliar that it took me a very long time just to realize that I was alive.
“Yuna.”
I was no longer on the other side of consciousness. Very vividly, I had both my feet on the ground. The feel of the dirt floor against my bare feet was so cold.
“Is it Yuna?”
In my view, the deep blue moon and twinkling stars were gently melting into the pitch-black night sky. It was such a beautiful day that it was too much for me, who had been sleeping helplessly for a long time.
“Yuna!”
“…!”
Only then did I look back. There, standing there, was a boy whom the possessed person who had saved me couldn’t help but love.
But it wasn’t her who was in front of that boy. There was a vicious villainess whom she saved with all her might. There was a wicked person who was reborn in guilt and regret. On that topic, there was a liar who couldn’t even tell the truth for fear that her fate, which she had barely recovered, would be twisted again.
So, I returned to a new fate that I could not have created.
And she…
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