The next day, Renee’s dorm.
Theresa rolled her eyes and looked at Renee with a haggard look on her face.
“You look pretty tired.”
“Ah, I’m a little sleepy… .”
It wasn’t a stupid word. Dark circles were coming down under her eyes, and a sigh came out of her mouth, wondering what was so worrying.
However, there is a beauty that does not fade even in the midst of it, and even that wretched beauty feels decadent. Teresa, who remembered that it was so funny, immediately burst into laughter and uttered those words.
“So, did you get the answer to the quiz?”
Startle. Renee’s body shook.
A pink energy began to spring up around him again.
Renee’s head nodded after the energy that soared over Renee’s whole body.
“yes… .”
It was a tone that trembled slightly, something that could be called shyness.
Renee licked her lips, choosing what to say next, and then took a deep breath and continued with such a grumpy word.
“Once I got an answer… .”
“Why?”
“… I don’t understand.”
“Well?”
Rene, who was starting to moan, reflected in Teresa’s eyes. After procrastinating for a long time with a sound of pain, Renee closed her eyes tightly and began to pour out the words.
“Ugh… I don’t know why this feeling comes up. There was no such thing as an incident that made it happen, and there was no other reason, but it happened all of a sudden… .”
It was a gibberish word. It was a word full of confusion.
Theresa said, ‘How can you be so cute?’ I felt a thought come to mind.
The transparent color of the girl, who was confused after realizing her first love, was Teresa’s favorite color.
“It doesn’t have to be a reason.”
An answer mixed with laughter. When Renee raised his head to him, Teresa continued with a smile on her face.
“Isn’t there an answer to the quiz? The feeling of coming to you without a reason and sticking with the reason behind it. That is love.”
“… !”
Renee’s face turned red.
Hearing the word ‘love’, it happened immediately.
Hearing the words directly, which I couldn’t even put into words because I was shy, it was because I felt my stomach tighten.
“That, though… !”
“I can assure you of this. No matter what the saint puts on her heart, that reason cannot define love. Love doesn’t ask for a reason. I just want it to be called love.”
the next word.
It was the realization that Theresa had gained throughout her life, living under the name of the apostle of love.
“Love is love. The feeling of looking at someone other than myself. It’s the feeling of finding me in it. That’s what the painful excitement is, and that’s how parents look at their children.”
Renee shook her head again at the words she heard.
“Love wears so many garments. A child who is very capricious, sometimes with curiosity, sometimes with longing, sometimes with hatred. So, it’s a feeling that’s easily misunderstood because it’s hard to know what you’ve seen.”
The words he heard were stabbing Renee, who was trying to deny himself.
“However, in the end it is love. Everything that is covered over it is, at least, a breakdown. Love is a feeling that no other word can define.”
It was a word that revealed himself who was shy and turned away.
“Don’t try to give reasons. For the saint, all you have to do is accept the feelings engraved in your heart as they are.”
Renee thought. Now, what kind of clothes is this feeling that says love.
Curiosity about why he treats himself so fervently.
A longing for a more mature figure than himself in a subject that is only a few years older.
A resentment against those unconscious actions that make him suffer.
Looking back, I was wearing a lot of clothes.
‘That, that… .’
After all, it was all about love.
Hwa-ah-ah.
Renee felt a sensation of heat spreading throughout her body.
It was so hot that I wondered if it would be overcooked and die like this.
I should have calmed him down, but why is this guy’s heart so diligent at times like this?
Theresa finished her speech with a smirk at Renee’s blushing to the point where the apple cries out to her brother.
“It’s natural. Saints are not human. Don’t be too shy.”
“That, the pole, the pole… .”
Renee’s snout, which has often been broken in recent years, was also vomiting incomplete words.
The head is creaking. was moving up and down.
Really funny looking.
In addition, to Teresa, it was a look that felt more beautiful than anything else.
*
“You suffered.”
Vera’s voice. Renee felt her heart beating violently at that low, hard ringing.
“Yep… !”
“How was your class today?”
what did you do What class did you and Theresa have?
I had a fever and I couldn’t think well. I tried to think of him somehow, but nothing came to mind.
In fact, it didn’t come to mind because he hadn’t actually done anything, but Renee, who was filled with the thought that ‘I have to answer Vera’s question,’ was not realizing him.
So, the answer that came out was the same answer again.
“I learned something good!”
Immediately after Renee had answered, he closed his eyes tightly and asked himself.
‘What’s good… !’
Are you coming up with a nonsensical answer? What if Vera sees himself strangely?
While Renee was just cursing his snout, Vera, who was looking at Renee, nodded and answered in the usual tone.
“Great.”
In fact, no matter what Rene answered, the answer she returned was the same.
To Vera, Renee was faith and truth, so there was no reason for Vera to be strange about him, even if Renee answered so far.
Immediately after answering, Vera continued the thought as he looked at Renee’s flushed red complexion.
‘Is the schedule difficult?’
What I remembered was worry.
Vera, who could not even imagine René’s inner thoughts, recalled his worries when he saw Renee’s abnormal behavior.
From a distance, a sight that would look ridiculous indeed.
Today, the two were walking with different thoughts.
*
Three days was enough time for Renee to admit his feelings.
Renee walked through the flower bed holding Vera hand in hand, keeping her head down and contemplating.
What does Vera think of me?
That was the thought.
I didn’t mean to express my thoughts outwardly.
Deeper inner feelings. I thought about what was inside that was not revealed.
I wonder if Vera will feel love for him too… I hadn’t thought of that.
Renee knew. Vera’s feelings for him were never love. It was so blatantly and clearly revealed that I couldn’t be ignorant of it.
Vera’s feelings for him were too bland to be called love, a hard feeling close to piety to describe it as something that was not enough to be called a liking.
A hospitable attitude and always a calm tone of voice. And even to this moment, those actions that were silently by my side were telling me that.
Awkward-. Renee felt a constriction in her stomach.
He felt that his heart was pounding like this, but he felt that the other person was not at all.
Renee’s first love was a needlessly honest person, so he didn’t show even the slightest bit of selfishness.
‘I’m fine… .’
You can be a little selfish.
Rene, who had been thinking about such a thought, realized what she had been thinking about a step later, and took a deep breath.
“Lady?”
“Oh, no.”
rattle. shoulders shook.
The heat was rising briskly again.
The words, ‘What do you think of me?’ were kept in my lips that were murmuring for no reason.
The reason I couldn’t spit him out was because I was afraid that the answer I’d come back would hurt.
It was because he knew what the answer would be, but he did not want to hear it through Vera’s mouth.
Renee didn’t want the warmth from the clasping hands to go away.
Even if it was just my imagination, it was okay.
Isn’t it okay to imagine that ‘maybe’ and that Vera might have the same thoughts as you?
Just right. Behind the sound of the cane, Tak. footsteps followed.
Renee felt a ‘going’ and resounding in her stomach, and moved on with a certain beat as the background sound.
Again, the thought continued.
… No, what came to mind this time was a delusion.
What if you could see ahead?
Renee drew a picture of herself next to the face she had drawn with her hands one day, recalling the face she had drawn in her head.
I drew two people looking at each other and smiling.
I know it can’t be done, but I drew a scene like that.
In the scene, himself, not a saint, and Vera, not a paladin, laughed.
Vera grabbed his hands and continued.
– Renee.
Brilliant! Renee’s body trembled.
The reaction that occurred because of that thought, that he seemed to recall a very manly scene.
Soon after, Renee’s hand began to squeeze Vera’s hand tight as his body began to gain strength.
Vera tilted his head, seeing Renee suddenly tightening his hand.
A reaction you see once while walking. In addition, it was a reaction I was quite accustomed to by now.
When I called Renee wondering if there was something wrong, the answer always came back as nothing, so Vera didn’t call Renee anymore. Just quietly examining your complexion.
It was truly fortunate for Renee.
Now that he realized that he had reacted strangely again, he wouldn’t have twisted his body in shame.
Renee didn’t know what he was doing right now, and while trying to shake off the thoughts that came to him, he suddenly remembered such a thought.
Although not able to see Vera.
‘Hey, hearing your name is… .’
maybe i can do it
It was a pretty tempting imagination.
It’s not like I’m doing anything that difficult, and it’s just a name. I’m just calling it, so maybe Vera would do it too.
Didn’t Vera also call himself ‘Rene-nim’ in the village?
From there, I just had to go a little bit further and get rid of that ‘nim’ character.
Rene, who remembered such a thought, licked her lips for a moment and continued to ponder, then closed her eyes tightly and vomited.
“Knight!”
“Yes.”
“Ugh… .”
chin. I was speechless.
I was going to ask for it from a moment’s urge, but I thought about how to ask for this.
Renee was sweating profusely and thinking about it. Vera patiently waited for Renee to speak.
Renee’s words continued after walking halfway through the flower bed in such a silent state.
“… that! Come to think of it, maybe we are being too formal! We will continue to see each other, but maybe we can be a little more friendly! I think so!”
A word with an accent similar to that of a medicine man came out.
Renee said, ‘Is something strange?’ After thinking about it, he hurriedly continued talking.
“That, right? Go ahead, keep going, keep going! Since we’re going to be together, wouldn’t it be better to close the distance a little? So, for example, calling each other by their first names!”
It was a rush.
I tried to say it logically, but I couldn’t come up with any excuses, so I shredded it.
bean. bean. Renee’s heart, which had finished speaking, was filled with tension and excitement and began to beat erratically.
Renee opened her ears and tilted her head slightly toward Vera, waiting for an answer.
Vera’s answer was after he finished talking and took five more steps.
“… Please take your word. You are very sorry.”
So it came back in the form of rejection.