30 – Lyeowoon’s Diary☆
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Date: December 25th
Weather: Snow
Today is the Christmas I’ve been eagerly and anxiously waiting for!
I felt good from the moment I woke up in the morning, and when I tidied up the bedding and looked out the window, it turned out it was snowing!
The weather wasn’t that cold, so I didn’t think the snow would accumulate much, but still, it’s a white Christmas. Even though it’s just a day with a little snow, it somehow makes me feel really happy.
As soon as I saw the snow falling, I called my brother who was lying in bed. (Sometimes, I can’t figure out what he’s thinking. He was lying in bed, staring blankly at the ceiling.)
When I called, my brother finally got up and confirmed that it was snowing. I excitedly exclaimed, “Brother, it’s snowing!” But my brother, as always, didn’t seem very impressed and responded to me expressionlessly.
At first, it was a bit disappointing to see my brother like that, but now it’s okay. Just being able to have this kind of conversation with my brother makes me happy.
Anyway, we immediately started getting ready to go out. It’s our first Christmas in 10 years that I’m spending with my brother, so it was natural for us to plan to go out and have fun all day and come back.
Hee hee~ even while taking a shower, I couldn’t help but sing because I was excited to play with my brother. It’s a bit embarrassing, but I thoroughly enjoyed the excitement while splashing around.
After showering, I got caught up in a big dilemma. I was deeply agonizing over what clothes to wear.
I’m not someone who particularly likes clothes, so I didn’t have many clothes in my closet, but it was still difficult to choose what to wear. Now I kind of understand why my friends used to complain about never having anything to wear.
After struggling to choose an outfit, I finally came out of my room. When I did, my brother was sitting quietly on the sofa… To be honest, I couldn’t keep my eyes off him.
It hasn’t even been a month since I saw my brother as an adult, so I couldn’t adapt to his appearance and demeanor. I know with my head that he’s my brother, but why does him silently sitting there look so cool?
All the guys around him seem like little kids, which enhances the sense of inferiority. I can honestly understand why my friends were so in awe of my brother at the graduation ceremony.
We happily headed outside. Oh, what about So Young and Woo Ri Ka? Today, it’s just the two of us spending time together.
By the way, I asked my brother yesterday if it would be better to spend Christmas together with everyone. I strongly disagreed with that opinion, of course.
Oh, of course, I also like spending time with everyone. The graduation ceremony was really fun too. But today, I just wanted to be alone with my brother.
The reason… well, I wanted to monopolize my brother? Um… is it something I shouldn’t say as a younger sister…? Oh well, who cares. No one is going to peek into my heart anyway.
Anyway, when we came out, the snow fell softly over our heads. Every year around this time, I always see snow, but why does my mood always improve when I see it?
I couldn’t help but run around in excitement, and I almost slipped and fell, but my brother caught me. It was embarrassing to fall, but it felt good to know that my brother cared.
Then we went to have lunch. If we were going with friends, we would have gone to eat tteokbokki or malatang like we always did, but since today is a special day with my brother, I wanted to eat something with a nicer atmosphere.
After some consideration, we decided on pasta! I’m not particularly fond of pasta, but it was the only thing that came to mind for a special meal. I should have eaten a variety of foods more often if I had known it would be like this.
We went to a pasta restaurant recommended by our friends. It was really nice sitting face to face with my brother, quietly eating the food. But even so, I felt like the portion was too small.
I was definitely full, but still felt hungry. I wanted to order one more menu, but I just couldn’t bring myself to do it.
Next, we went to a cafe. While having a cup of coffee, I had various conversations with my brother. It wasn’t anything special, but it was a time that made my heart feel full.
After that, we went to a karaoke room. You might wonder why we went to a karaoke room on Christmas… Well, what can I say? I’ve never experienced anything else. Besides, it’s a bit awkward to ask my brother, who just came back after 10 years, what he wants to do. It couldn’t be helped.
But the karaoke room turned out to be quite fun. My brother didn’t know many recent songs, so I sang most of the time. Even though I couldn’t let loose and sing like I would with friends, it was still enjoyable being with my brother.
But as I sang more and more, I got really excited… and ended up dancing and laughing. Now that I think about it, it’s a bit embarrassing…
Just before leaving the karaoke room, I asked my brother to sing a song as well. I made him sing a popular song from 10 years ago… Honestly, it was quite amusing.
He seems to be really good at singing,
Hmm, looking back now, it seems like that time was the best. We didn’t have a conversation, but just holding hands and walking together made that time feel really precious.
I wish we had played a bit longer when we got back home. Thinking about it now, it doesn’t seem like it was that way.
Oh, right. Something like this happened too. I was a bit hungry because I had a light lunch, and I smelled a really delicious scent coming from somewhere.
I followed the scent and saw that they were selling hotteok (Korean sweet pancakes). The winter snack that comes to mind… hotteok…!
I got excited and ran towards it. Luckily, even though there were so many people on the street, no one was standing in line.
I stood in front of it for a while, contemplating how many to eat, and finally decided on six. Two for my brother and four for me. Like that.
I told the hotteok vendor and made a bank transfer. Well, that lady said my brother and I looked really cool and pretty, and that we were the most attractive couple she had ever seen, so she gave us some extra.
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She said my brother and I were a couple…!
I wanted to deny it right away and say that we were siblings, but I didn’t want to disappoint her or risk not getting the extra service. So I didn’t deny it. There was no other reason. …Really.
Thinking about it, there’s quite an age difference between my brother and me. I’m still in middle school.
I wonder why my brother and I don’t resemble each other at all. Did I look more mature? Or maybe she was just teasing us, knowing that we’re siblings. I’m curious about what that lady was thinking.
We happily ate the hotteok and went to take the last few photos for today’s schedule, our three-cut of life.
I’m also a girl, but I didn’t know why girls always want to take pictures when they’re out having fun. But today, while playing with my brother, I felt the desire to leave some evidence and memories for later. I understood my friends’ feelings a bit more.
I deliberately put funny headbands and decorations on my brother to tease him. I wondered if he would just stay still. But he didn’t react at all.
So I thought, whatever, and… In the end, I put a poop-shaped hat on my brother and took a picture. I really didn’t plan on doing that. But since my brother accepted it, when I looked at the result…
I just saw the picture, and now I see that I made my brother do various poses. It’s funny to see my brother making a V sign with an expressionless face.
After taking the picture, the sun had already set by the time we left. Time passed so quickly, even though we didn’t do much.
If I were an adult, I would have had a drink with my brother… I was a little disappointed. Why am I still only 16?
Anyway, on the way back home, we happened to pass by a alley. It was still snowing, and by the time it got dark, there was quite a bit of snow piled up compared to this morning.
That sparked mischief in me again, so I secretly gathered snow and threw it at my brother, saying “eight!” But the strange thing was, the snow didn’t stick to my brother at all. Even if I threw it two or three times, it didn’t stick.
So I kept throwing, thinking when would it stick. My brother just watched me without any reaction…
If someone saw that, they would have wondered what we were doing.
After a while, I caught my breath and looked around.
Hmm…
That alley… It was the same alley where I first saw my brother.
It brought back a lot of memories. I was crying and upset when I first saw him. Thinking back now, I feel really sorry and embarrassed, but I also got angry at my brother and kicked him out. Those memories passed by one by one.
Then suddenly, I had a thought.
Why does my brother act as if he has no emotions?
I have never seen my brother show any emotions on his expressionless face, no matter what the situation. From the day I first saw him, to meeting him at the factory, coming back home, and even now as I write my diary.
I don’t remember it well, but I’m sure it didn’t used to be like this in the past…. There seemed to be something happening in this world, but I didn’t have the courage to ask about it.
Because, it’s clear that it wouldn’t be a good thing.
But still, I did such a terrible thing to my brother who just came back.
The more I think about it, the more sorry I am to my brother, and my heart hurts.
Having these thoughts makes me feel like there is still a wall between my brother and me, which is a bit sad. I feel like I don’t know much about my brother either.
I want to know more about my brother…. but it doesn’t seem like the right time. I hope there will come a day when we can break down this wall and talk to each other openly.
Anyway, it was a really enjoyable day.
The end!
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