137 Divine Scenario
***[Heroine Oscar]***
“master!”
As the light faded, Benno’s voice sounded like a howl.
It is as if the end of the world has come only for Benno.
While I was surprised to hear the great secret of this world for a while, thinking that he was buried in despair and nervousness made me feel sorry and somehow funny.
Benno hugged me tightly and groped me frantically.
“Are there any abnormalities? Any discomfort in your body? Where do you feel pain…”
Check your skin and eyes, and even between your fingers.
Even though he should have known there was nothing wrong with his body, he put his hand on his forehead to see if he had a fever, and asked if he was okay again.
All the while, Benno didn’t let go of me.
He was holding me with one arm.
It seems that I couldn’t come close while the light enveloped me.
That’s why I’m afraid that I won’t disappear somewhere, so I’m holding on tight.
He often hugged me when he was very young, but that was a long time ago and, moreover, when no one was around.
I never touched my body while someone was watching.
‘It must have been that much panic and worry.’
It’s strange that he’s already grown taller than Benno.
It felt like a grown child watching an old father.
‘Was Benno this small?’
When I was little, when Benno hugged me, the land seemed very far away.
I was very surprised at first because I had never been hugged by anyone.
It must have been about the same height as looking down at the floor as an adult, but perhaps because of my small body, I felt really high at the time.
But Benno now is slightly smaller than me.
He looked bigger and stronger than anyone else when he was younger, but now he is…
Benno was probably 49 this year.
There is a little white hair on the top of the head, and wrinkles around the eyes.
For some reason, I felt a little sad, a little longed for it, and my heart became complicated.
My tear ducts were loose and my nose was a little stuffy.
“Benno, it’s okay. There’s no pain anywhere.”
“But… master, tears. Is there something wrong?”
Benno panicked and started examining me again.
“It’s okay. It wasn’t bad. You saw the goddess’ amulet shining.”
“Not all gods do things that are beneficial to humans.”
Benno’s face as he said that seemed as if he had died and came back to life.
In that short time, the color of his face changed, like a person who had just been buried in the ground for about a hundred years.
The Priestess, who was lying face down, opened her mouth as if she was embarrassed.
“I… you’ll be fine. It just wasn’t a bad thing. I bet you on my neck.”
Benno glanced at the priest.
“It’s not that I don’t believe what the high priest said. But your neck is worth more than a scratch on the duke’s finger.”
“…”
Benno, who is always polite to people, seems to have a razor blade in his mouth now.
It was probably because the light was shining from the talisman Shin Gwangjang gave him.
I must have been very angry, so Benno’s arm that was holding me strained and tightened it as if it would break my back.
Benno, I thought you were getting weak with age, but it’s not at all.
still strong
I laughed lightly and tapped Benno on the shoulder.
“I’m fine, Benno. I’m not sick anywhere. And… nothing strange will happen again. It’s fine, so let me go now.”
Realizing that there was power in his body, Benno untied his arm.
“… I’m sorry, Master.”
Benno quietly lowered his head and let me go.
But without leaving even a single step away, he stood right next to me.
I turned my gaze to the priest who was making a troubled expression.
I heard he came here several times to ask if I or Katrin were okay.
I thought that staying here instead of going to my temple was simply because I wanted money, but it seems different.
He didn’t seem aware that this world was repeating itself, but he might be realizing something was wrong.
‘And he’s probably worried about me.’
In the life of Oscar, which was repeated many times, he took care of my miserable corpse each time.
He was the one who took care of me until the very end after Benno, my escorts, and my close aides all died.
While listening to the people’s harsh curses, the priest held onto the corpses stained with people’s saliva and blood and cried, wiping them clean with his hands, and cried and cried again and again.
Seeing my death, which no one mourned, he alone wept.
I thought that the memory might remain with the priest now.
That’s why you keep caring about me.
I smiled softly at the head priest who still had a troubled expression.
“… Hierarch, thank you.”
As much as the number of repetitions in life, I spoke with plenty of gratitude, and the priest opened his eyes round.
You wouldn’t know what I meant.
“Uh… I did something…”
As the priest opened his mouth, tears suddenly began to pour from his eyes.
“Uh… uh…?”
The priest wiped away the tears with his hand as he panicked.
“Why all of a sudden…”
He doesn’t seem to know why he’s crying either.
The priest covered his face with both hands as if trying to pour in the tears, but the tears continued to pour down, and eventually his entire face was drenched as if he had been submerged in water.
However, when the tears did not stop, the head of the priest lowered his hands and shrugged his shoulders as if he had given up.
He whispered, wiping down tears.
“I’m sorry. I don’t know why, but I’m crying all of a sudden. I don’t think my eyes are mine. It seems like someone else is crying with my body.”
Benno’s alertness softened, as if he felt something while watching the two of us.
The sharp gaze directed at the head of the priesthood also softened slightly.
‘ah!’
The reason why Benno and the people around me worry too much about me may be because of the emotions accumulated over the course of life.
‘Yeah… I think so.’
No matter how noble the blood, their worries were too much compared to other families.
Even if they don’t remember it, it’s probably engraved in their souls.
After the high priest left, I stayed in the room for a while without going back to Catherine.
According to Benno, it was a fairly short period of time when I was engulfed in light.
But in the meantime, I learned a lot.
However, a lot of information came in from here and there all at once, so I couldn’t understand it properly.
It’s like having hundreds of translucent balloons inside your head.
I knew there was something inside the balloon, but I felt like I couldn’t see it properly, and several things I didn’t know exactly took up space in my head.
But there are also things that I have come to know clearly.
Igor was not important.
He played a role only once in his first life.
I saw him crossing the star with several priests and praying for something to the god.
He probably did something to Oscar.
In the repeated life that followed, Igor was rarely seen.
Then, in this life, it suddenly appeared.
Looking at that, Igor has nothing to do with the death of Oscar and the end of the world.
And maybe even with the Wrath of the Goddess.
‘The reason why the goddess is angry.’
I bit my lip.
The increase in the number of monsters has been happening since long ago, when I was born.
It is only now that the human eye has caught on.
‘Rene.’
The increase in the number of monsters began with the birth of Renée, who had the soul of his ex-wife.
That’s all you can see clearly.
Only when she dies will the number of demons stop increasing.
And maybe the curse hovering around me and Katrin’s body.
Curses are not caused by a man named Igor, but by God’s hatred.
“…”
you have to kill her
When I thought so, a corner of my heart ached.
At one time, I hated her for betraying me so much that I really wanted to kill her, but now that feeling is gone.
With Katrin by my side, my ex-wife became a figure of the distant past.
It hurts when I think about it, but I still became a meaningless person in my life.
It is not that she has committed a sin so great that she deserves to die in this world.
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Just the fact of being alive itself is a sin.
You still have to kill it.
“ha.”
I let out a small sigh.
Benno, who was standing nearby, continued to look at me worriedly.
I smiled at him and shook my head.
I put my head on the back of the chair and stare blankly at the ceiling.
Perhaps because of my mood, it seems that a dark aura is spreading around me.
“…”
Yes, it must be because of the thought.
When I closed my eyes and opened them, I couldn’t see anything.
Only the plain ceiling caught my eye.
I took a small breath and straightened my body.
Aside from killing Rene, there was a mountain of things to think about.
We need to think about what the curse really means.
‘Catherine said that she seemed to fall asleep with her eyes open, but the curse probably played a role in changing the character of Katrin and me.’
The deaths of Oscar and Katrin were not caused by a curse, but by their violent behavior and sly nature.
If the personalities of the two were gentle and kind, that would not have happened.
But the curse doesn’t work on me now.
Unlike previous lives, maybe because I am me.
Catherine’s case may have been the same because I met her often and was close.
‘If you think so, the sacrifice Igor performed was probably to chase my soul to Earth.’
This is just my speculation, but that is the only piece of god that has anything to do with a god beyond the stars on earth.
In a life that has been repeated many times, other possibilities have not been noticed.
“…”
When you think about it that way, the front and back coincide.
Throughout my life on Earth, I have been lonely.
Couldn’t connect with anyone.
Parents and siblings were not the only ones.
It’s the same with everyone you meet.
Even if you become close to someone, if you notice, something happens and distance arises, and when your mind does not leave, you physically distance yourself.
Adopted, transferred, or estranged anyway.
Even if I managed to get married, I was taken away by another man, and my soul was always lonely.
It makes sense if you think that it did not belong to the earth.
The earth god, maybe the whole earth hated me for not belonging to it.
You are not a soul to belong here, go away.
Maybe that’s why I felt more at ease after coming here.
It felt like coming home.
I didn’t miss Earth at all.
‘I thought it was because I had a family and someone important to me, but it was different.’
Because I was a soul that originally belonged to this place.
But it’s strange.
Without distinction between soul and body, Oscar would continue to be a piece of God.
It’s like watching the world end because Oscar is dead.
He may have weakened somewhat due to the separation of his soul, but he should have been happy, a person with the blessings of the goddess gathered in one body.
Most of those blessed by the goddess die happily ever after.
Everyone knew that.
But if Oscar is a piece of God, why does this unfortunate life unfold?
“…”
I was lost in thought for a moment, then took a long breath.
The contents of a novel that my ex-wife wrote.
The things of this world that unfold according to its contents.
What if it’s not just man-made fiction?
‘Maybe… that was a scenario written by God.’
How the wife got the idea for the novel is unknown.
It is said that gods from across the planet are good at whispering in dreams, so maybe I saw it in a dream.
‘I don’t know how they intervened, but this world was a scenario created by a god from across the planet.’
At least that’s what the lives of Princes Oscar, Catherine, René and Robert would be like.
‘I guess it was possible because I brought the soul of the earth.’
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Just as I couldn’t mix with the earth, the soul of the earth may not have to obey the providence of this world.
A life that was not possible originally unfolds.
If you think about it that way, it is probably certain that Crown Prince Robert is a light boy.
‘But this time I’m back in the original world.’
It doesn’t give the same results.
You can change it.
i change
Because both body and soul are equipped with pieces of God.
I can change the future with my own power so that what happened before does not happen again.
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Just worried about it.
‘The goddess is getting weaker.’
As the priest said, if the curse of the god across the planet is getting stronger, it means that the power of the goddess is getting weaker.
It must have been because it gave birth to the world over and over again in order to prevent its destruction.
Because of repeated births, it seems that the goddess has weakened to the point where she can no longer give birth to worlds.
‘And he must have poured his last strength into calling me here.’
no more repeat
This was the last chance.