146 Escape
***[René, ex-wife]***
A day at the monastery is tightly packed.
As soon as I wake up, I fetch water, do some chores, and pray to God.
After that, I did the same thing every day again.
Sweeping the floor, mopping things, clearing the livestock, drawing water and pulling weeds again.
It was a useless repetition of labor that had nothing to do with anything helpful or developmental to him.
nothing special happens
Every day was the same.
Spend your life meaninglessly
Hard labor and starvation were painful, but it was also difficult to endure the meaningless passage of time like a cow or a pig.
I’m just breathing.
It was not human life.
If I had been by Oscar’s side, by my husband’s side, I wouldn’t have lived this life.
Every time the thought occurred to him, he became more distressed and angered him for hanging out with another woman without knowing that his beloved wife was here.
‘I’m here… I’m in such pain.’
Not knowing that, he is smiling at another woman.
It was unfortunate and sad, and it was connected to anger again.
I want to let you know.
I want to shout out to that person that my beloved wife is here and that she is here with you.
So I wanted to tell her to stop being such a villain and come back to me.
forgive the past
please forgive me
If you’re still mad, please, it won’t happen again, please.
‘I’m an idiot.’
Why do people only realize after making mistakes and losing?
I only found out after I lost it.
It was only later that I realized how big and deep her husband’s affectionate love was and how much he treated her with respect.
Those days were really precious and happy.
‘Whoa.’
Renee took a small breath and lifted the water bottle.
I put a lot of strength in my arms and walk with my feet apart while holding a wooden water bottle.
My body swayed with the vibration of the bucket.
Water splashes little by little and falls to the floor.
Renee took a few steps, being careful not to spill any water, put the bucket down, rest for a moment, and walk again.
Each time, his arm hurt as if it were about to break and his back felt heavy, but René took less rest than usual and hurriedly filled the large water tank.
I don’t have much time.
There was not enough time to carry the water bottle and hide the hidden food under the clothes.
Hurry up.
‘It’s today. If it’s not today, there’s no chance. I must go out today.’
Today is barn clearing day.
I heard that sooner or later, straw and bran, etc., will be coming in to feed the animals during the winter.
The family that supports the monastery sends the remaining straw after the wheat harvest, and it is said to be the first quantity.
People were talking about clearing and tidying up the barn for storage because more were coming in in the future.
I don’t know how much, but I’m told it’s quite a lot.
The barn for storing straw was also a much larger building than the one Renee usually cleans.
The large barn is on the edge of the monastery, so Renée doesn’t usually go there.
But this time there was more to do besides clearing out the barn.
Since the patrons come in person, the monastery is all cleaned up and polished to a shine, and there is really a lot to do.
A few days ago, the entire monastery was in an uproar.
In monasteries, which are mostly women, women do all the dirty work.
The same goes for clearing the barn.
Since they had to do many times more work than usual, everyone was so busy that even Rene, who only moved within the confines of the monastery, was mobilized to work in the barn.
The woman who always checks and monitors what Renee is doing seems to be busy too.
I’ve only seen it once in the morning.
‘Today, today is an opportunity.’
After hurriedly filling the bucket with water, Renee went up to her attic after making sure that there were no human eyes.
As I put my arm deep under the shabby bed, I grabbed a small bundle.
Pulling it out, it came out wrapped in a rag-like piece of cloth.
It was a bundle made by attaching rags that had become so worn out that they could no longer be added after being worn several times.
Renee quickly unfolded it.
Inside were several finger-sized bread crumbs and an old leather canteen.
This is the food I gathered after I made up my mind to run away.
Given a small amount of bread and stew, they ate only the stew and saved the bread.
After finding a leather canteen that had been abandoned in the barn and taking it, he collected little by little the wine that others had left in the cup after drinking.
It wasn’t once or twice that I thought about just eating it because I was so hungry, but I still forcibly endured the thought of going to see my husband.
As long as you somehow get to the dukedom and meet that person, there are many ways to let her know that you are her former wife.
Simply mentioning a few earthly things will get that person’s attention.
Yes, it’s just that it’s difficult to approach your husband because your status is different, but once you can talk to him, it’s easy after that.
‘But you have to be careful.’
If you mistakenly mention the duke’s name, you might get strange suspicions.
A while ago, it seemed that a woman who was spying on her had been muttering to herself inadvertently.
I asked who Oscar was, and I was startled, but I might have noticed something.
Thinking of the woman’s face looking at him with strange eyes, Renee trembled.
‘The reason I came here is because I called that person carelessly.’
You should be more careful.
It is a disaster.
She, whose sense of the earth has not yet fallen out, must be even more careful.
Renée unrolled the bag containing the bread and leather pouch and wrapped it around her stomach with a long string.
dress over it
Unlike the dresses of noble women, monasteries wore long one-piece dresses.
Originally, it is supposed to tie a string around the waist, but there are more women who don’t.
Renee doesn’t tie her waist strap either.
Because of that, even if you look around the ship, it doesn’t show much.
After jumping and making sure that the bundle wrapped around her stomach did not slip out even when she bent over, Renee hurriedly came down from the attic.
He hears a voice outside looking for him.
Renee ran outside and headed towards the back of the building.
“Yes! I am here.”
“What are you doing when you’re so busy!”
A woman gets angry and nags.
Renee listened silently without reply, then bowed her head.
“Sorry. I’ll be careful next time.”
“…”
The woman glanced at her, but perhaps because she was busy, she said nothing more.
A few more women came out and Renée followed them to a barn on the edge of the convent.
From then on, for a couple of hours, I was hectic.
At first, the seniors who often checked on Rene lost interest as time went by, and Renee took a job removing useless items and trash from the barn.
As I walked in and out of the barn, the light of the sun in the sky was getting weaker before I knew it.
It’s time for the sky to turn red in a little while.
The number of women working in the barn was also cut by more than half.
Most of the superiors went to rest, and the only ones left were the weak old men in the monastery or those without family support like René.
Ranks in monasteries are determined by the presence or absence of patrons.
Even if he came in later, if the family gave even a little money to the monastery, he could get better food and a better place to sleep.
Because of that, Rene’s senior, who had been in this monastery since he was a baby, was the lowest rank even though he had been here the longest.
That’s probably why he particularly hates noble women.
The old man, who always kept a watchful eye on Rene’s actions, was nowhere to be seen.
It seems that he went to rest for a while.
‘Now.’
Renee came out of the barn pretending to take out the trash.
No one is here.
Rene headed to the back of the monastery.
The other day, I heard a senior officer and another woman whispering.
It seems that there are people who go out from time to time to meet men in the monastery.
It is said that there is a hole in the wall at the back of the monastery slightly hidden by bushes.
If I hadn’t heard that, I wouldn’t have even thought of running away.
But since I heard that, I knew there was a possibility.
If someone comes and goes through that hole, you’ll be able to go somewhere.
the sky turns purple
After searching for a hole for a long time, Renee’s heart darkened little by little.
I couldn’t find where it was.
‘No way… it’s already blocked.’
Or did he lie after noticing that Rene was secretly listening?
I want to tease Renee.
It was when I thought so and bowed my head.
A tree branch that seemed to have been stepped on and broken came into view.
“!”
When I found it and looked around it again, there were several places where it looked like something had stepped on it.
Renee bent down and crawled through the bushes.
‘found!’
There was a hole in the bush big enough for people to get through, and it was connected to a hole in the wall.
The hole was so low in the ground that it could never be seen from above.
Small flying insects flew around her, crunching bugs caught in her palms on the floor.
But the joy was so high that I didn’t even care about that.
Renee lowered her hips and crawled.
And the next moment, she was lying outside the monastery.
“It’s out…”
When I suddenly muttered in a small voice, I finally realized it.
Came out of that damn monastery.
escaped
She’s free now, wherever she goes and what she does.
***[Renée’s Senior, Abandoned Baby]***
I guess I met Countess Becker when she was about ten years old.
One day, the countess visited the monastery as a patron.
Then he told how he had come to the monastery.
For some reason, the Countess took an interest in her.
The Countess asked on her second visit several years later.
[Do you want to know who your mother is? If you want to meet me, I can do my best.]
When asked if she knew who her mother was, the Countess blurted out vaguely.
However, it was possible to guess that the Countess knew.
No one but himself can understand how happy he was at that time and how much joy he felt.
For a long time I wondered who my mother was.
At first, when I was very young, I wanted to meet my mother.
He dreamed that his mother was coming to meet him, and he imagined that his mother was crying and asking for forgiveness while holding him in her arms.
But by the time I was ten years old, I had already abandoned that wish.
The earnest desire had turned into hatred and had turned into hatred before I knew it.
Most of the people who enter the monastery are noble women.
Ordinary commoners were rare.
Even the older women had fairer skin than hers and had never had their hands wet.
Everyone, without exception, was wrapped in beautiful clothes.
He longs for a splendid world he has never experienced and laments while crying.
However, having lived in a monastery since he was a baby and never experiencing the outside world, he did not see such a world even in his dreams.
I can’t even dream because I don’t know.
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Judging by the fabric wrapped around the baby, her mother must have been a noblewoman, but all she knows is this small monastery.
This monastery was her whole world.
It would have been better if they had just thrown it outside.
I just wanted to get some fresh air.
Even if I had to die miserably, I wanted to laugh, cry, love, and give birth to a child like a human being.
However, as long as he belonged to the monastery, all of that was too much.
The mother who gave birth to her defined her life.
When the countess asked if she wanted to meet her mother, her hatred was connected to vengeance, and she was cursing the mother she gave birth to.
Because of that, he has only one answer.
There was no other choice.
[Please let my mother fall into a painful situation to the point of death. If you do that, you don’t need anything else. You don’t have to know who your mother is. No, I don’t want to know. I will dedicate my life, my life, to the Countess, so that the woman who gave birth to me will think more painfully than dying… just do it.]
The countess narrowed her eyes and answered with a smile.
[I’m not a very nice person. If you look at whether it’s good or evil, it’s probably on the evil side. But I also love my children. For the sake of my children, I do not mind harming others. From my point of view, I also don’t like your mother very much.]
After saying that, the countess nodded lightly.
It is to grant one’s wishes.
From that day on, he became the countess’s dog.
The countess does whatever she wants.
That’s why he treated Renée more harshly than anyone else, and that’s why he instigated her to run away.
[She will make your wish come true.]
A small smile came to my mind as I remembered the time when I heard the words of the Countess.
‘at las….’
A wish comes true.