158 I’m sorry. I’m so sorry
***[René, Mrs.]***
Beep beep.
An unlikely voice came from the dark corner of the barn.
I didn’t think there would be people there.
It was so close to the wall that it was invisible when entering the barn.
It was dark inside the barn, but I knew it was a woman by her shape and voice.
Maybe, no, it’s definitely the woman she was pushed and hurt.
I thought it would be nice if she came back to life, but at that time she was already unable to control her body properly.
It’s been a few days, so I thought he was already dead.
but alive
And now, because of that woman, he is about to die.
“Joe, be quiet!”
Renée cried out in embarrassment, but the woman did not keep her mouth shut.
A sharp sound as if ripping the air goes out of the barn.
‘If barbarians hear this sound and come.’
When I thought that, I was terrified.
We have to stop this woman’s freaky screams somehow.
‘Otherwise I will die.’
A short wooden stick entered Renée’s terrified eyes.
Perhaps it was a piece of lumber left over from building a barn or slave quarters.
It was half-buried in straw and filth scattered near the entrance.
Without even thinking about it, I ran and grabbed the wooden stick.
“Noisy. I told you to be quiet!”
Saying that, Renee raised the bar high.
I was trying to scare her, but the woman’s voice didn’t stop.
I can’t help it.
There is no choice but to live
Renee took a step towards the woman and slammed the bar down.
***[Goruka, Red Hawk Chief]***
The village wasn’t just men.
It seems that there are all the families of the people who kidnap and trade the steppe tribes and even the people who do chores.
There were men, women, and even children.
He usually doesn’t kill women or children.
The steppes taking lives was usually limited to adult males.
But this time things are different.
The people of the kingdom in front of me are all enemies.
They kill all men, women and children.
As soon as they entered the village, the warriors fired arrows as soon as they saw the people of the kingdom.
The warrior’s arrows shot with magic almost never miss.
Every time an arrow leaves a demonstration, one person is sure to fall.
“I found it! I found the women and children! It’s over here!”
Hearing someone shout in the distance, the warrior in the middle shouted.
Before the afterglow of the shouts had disappeared, several warriors started running toward them.
These are people whose wives, daughters, or sons have been kidnapped.
My sister’s husband was running in front.
I heard that my sister and the daughter of another wife were kidnapped at once.
The brother-in-law gritted his teeth and had a hard expression on his face.
Goruka also turned his horse in the direction of the shout.
It was at that moment that the distinctive sound of the steppe people rang out.
Rescue is the first thing a steppe child learns when born.
It was ringing from the opposite direction from where they had found the child.
My brother-in-law, who had been running as far ahead as I, glanced behind him.
When our eyes met, Goruka lightly winked.
it means i’m going
The brother-in-law soon turned his head and hurriedly walked away.
Before Goruka could look away, he saw his brother-in-law swinging an axe.
A kingdom child who was confused in front of his brother-in-law running in a straight line gets hit in the head by an ax and falls down like a leaf.
Goruka turned his head without emotion.
Steppe horses are short, but fast and clever.
Since they were young, they lived together like family, so they recognized the owner’s will even without speaking.
Goruka flattened himself and pulled the reins tight, and the horse immediately rode off to its destination.
The cries for help ceased before I knew it.
What caught my eye was a shabby-looking barn.
Hurry.
As he murmured, his speech speed increased.
Upon reaching the barn, Goruka jumped off his horse and kicked the door open.
In a dark barn, a woman in a dress holds her hands high.
A thick wooden stick was held in the woman’s hand.
The shadow of a man lying on the other side of the woman…
“sister!”
The woman lying there was so dry and bleeding that it was difficult to recognize her previous appearance, but it was definitely his older sister.
The woman was about to slam the stick at her sister.
Without even time to think, Goruka pulled out the ax from his waist and swung it.
An ax is driven into the woman’s head with a thump.
The moment the woman hesitated, several arrows flew from outside the barn.
The arrow pierced the woman’s neck and flew into the wall of the barn, where it lodged.
“It’s because of that woman! That woman did it!”
A woman stood behind the warrior who fired the arrow as if hiding.
Maybe he knew that his sister was trapped here and came to rescue him.
No, obviously.
The woman ran to the fallen kingdom woman and started kicking her.
Goruka ran to her sister’s side and picked her up.
“sister!”
“…”
When the cloth covering his forehead was removed, a torn wound was revealed.
The wound itself was not severe, but it seems that too much blood was lost.
Besides, he was too weak.
His body was so thin that his bones were exposed.
I heard that it hasn’t been a few months since he was kidnapped, but why is he like this…
Anger surges through the body.
‘I don’t forgive. never forgive Even babies are killed.’
Goruka was overcome with rage and grabbed the axe.
He slams it straight down at the woman in the kingdom whose throat makes the sound of the wind whistle.
The woman was staring into space with a blank face as if she didn’t know that.
***[Rene, everything]***
save me… save me…
I was trying to say that.
But no voice came out.
The wind from my throat is not a new word.
I was the main character of this world.
A bright future was promised.
‘But why…’
how did it happen like this
All I could see was a dirty barn floor.
maybe it’s down
But I couldn’t remember.
I remember the steppe man jumping into the barn, but I have no idea when or why he fell.
I could see the floor turning red.
The blood from the forehead of the woman he had pushed earlier came to mind.
Whose blood is this?
I was thinking about that, when I suddenly heard a sound.
A steppe woman came right next to me and was shouting something.
My body seems to shake a little, but I can’t feel it.
It gets darker.
Suddenly, I remembered my husband’s face.
It’s not the current Oscar, but the face I’ve been tired of seeing in my previous life.
It is different from the beautiful appearance of the kingdom.
It was an ordinary appearance with no fancy spots in any corner.
But for some reason, his face that came to mind right now was shining.
The appearance is the same, but it just shines.
It was blinding.
Maybe it’s because it’s not real, it’s a memory.
Suddenly, emotions surged up from the depths.
Miss you.
I missed his laughter, soft gaze, and friendly fingertips like a spring breeze.
Emotions I had never known at the time kept welling up.
‘I want to go… I want to go back to those days…’
back when I was happy
I resented my husband for a while, but now I just want to go back to the gentle days, the time we lived together.
If that’s the case, I think I can do anything.
“…”
I thought I didn’t love her, but maybe it was different.
I thought that those days of gentleness were boring and boring, but as if I was the happiest, I thought that maybe I loved my husband in my own way.
A small daily life with my husband came to mind and faded again.
After repeating it several times, I felt my consciousness become quiet little by little.
The sound became smaller as if it could be heard far away, and the thoughts that came to mind gradually increased in interval.
It fades.
Maybe this is just dying.
In my previous life, thoughts came and went like this… I don’t know because it didn’t go that way.
But as I felt my fingers and toes getting colder and my body getting stiffer, I realized that it was the last time.
I don’t know if I’ll be reincarnated in the future or not.
But this life will be the last.
I felt that way slowly.
I’m sorry for the words that came to my mind at the last moment.
If I had known it would end up like this, in my past and present life, I would have said I was sorry.
I can’t reach you anymore, but…
sorry.
I’m really… sorry…
As I murmured to myself, something cold touched my neck.
A groaning sound rang in my brain.
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Deguruk, it looks like the scenery has been turned upside down, but I’m not sure.
I suddenly thought that maybe I was already dead.
***[Heroine Oscar]***
While we hurried down to the frontier, a messenger brought news.
It was a message that the steppe people had already raided the Baron’s territory, which had led the abduction.
It seems I’m a little late.
It seems that the civil servants who were moving ahead of the procession to get permission to enter and exit other territories were also contacted separately.
The news came that the route had changed a little.
Until now, they had gone through the cumbersome entrance and exit permits, but they said they changed to using money and power.
Thanks to that, the time is much shorter.
A day after receiving the report of the first steppe raid, the second messenger came.
Perhaps he ran without a moment’s rest, but the appearance of the dispatcher was unreasonable.
After receiving the letter from his bosom, I slapped him on the shoulder.
“Good work. Rest now.”
“Thank you! But it’s okay, Duke. This much is…”
The liaison officer staggered away from speaking.
It seems that he fell asleep as if he had lost his mind while he was talking.
The tension must have been relieved by delivering the letter to me.
“It’s important to rest when you need to rest, so go up to the cart or wagon and get some sleep.”
At my words, the dispatcher bowed his head embarrassedly.
He went away, and I opened the letter on my horse.
‘The second attack…’
In the letter, it was written that there was an attack by the steppe tribes in the Viscount territory next to the Baron territory.
They are different from the grassland tribes that attacked the first time.
The main culprit of buying and selling the grasslands was the baron who was attacked first, but there were several nobles connected to it.
Perhaps the raid is still taking place in another place.
It seems that the baron was planning to expand his business by contacting lower nobles under the pretext of his engagement to René.
In a short period of time, he had meetings with several nobles.
Not all of them turned into businesses, but some of them seemed to be thinking of joining the human trafficking business.
There were a few families that I had contact with over and over again.
Even the Viscount, who is bordering the Baron’s Territory, said that he had been actually involved since about a month ago.
I don’t know how the steppe people found out, but the families that actually took part in human trafficking were likely to be attacked more in a few days.
This is why this job is tricky.
It might be a case of one or two lesser families without estates, but the viscounts you just contacted were nobles with their own history.
An aristocrat with a history has families connected to it.
They will go out to retaliate against the steppe raid.
There was a possibility of claiming that we should not leave it as it is, and that we should go to subdue the grassland tribes.
‘If that happens, a war will really break out.’
I let out a small sigh.
I wish that future would never come, but it probably won’t.
The kingdom despises steppe tribes.
He would not tolerate the fact that the grassland tribes trampled on nobles like himself, even if they were outlaws.
They would carry straw into the fire, not knowing that it would bring their ruin.
Let’s hurry anyway.
I thought so and started riding, when small water droplets began to fall from the sky.
The kingdom did not run out of water this year.
But it wasn’t even raining enough.
There has been little rain for a while, and many people are worried that the drought in the grasslands is coming down here.
If it rains, thank you.
but.
I looked up at the sky.
weird.
It just felt like it wasn’t raining.
I can’t say for sure, but somehow it seems that the rain has emotions.
‘like….’
There seems to be a word that fits, but I can’t think of it.
The escort captain pulled his horse close to his side.
“Duke, you’d better go inside the carriage. It’s a big deal if you catch a cold.”
“…it feels strange to be in this rain.”
The captain of the escort suddenly looked up at the sky.
He tilts his head and mumbles.
“After hearing the words, there is definitely something… cozy. I feel relieved to be in the raindrops.”
“so do i.”
Hearing our conversation, the nearby soldier also tilted his head.
“So am I. I feel fortunate.”
“…”
It’s a strange thing.
Why do I feel this way?
“Maybe this rain is the blessing of the goddess.”
The captain of the escort suddenly said.
Goddess blessing.
People in this world stick that word everywhere.
Everyone said that it was a blessing from the Goddess when something pleasant, strange, or joyful happened.
If it rains at a time of thankfulness, like now, it is also a blessing from the goddess.
But I thought that this rain might really be like that.
Being still in the rain, deep inside I feel relieved.
“Duke, please stop going into the carriage now. Even if it’s really a blessing from the goddess, it’s the same. If you get caught in the rain, you’ll catch a cold.”
At the urging of the captain of the escort, I got off my horse and headed for the carriage.
There’s no way you’ll catch a cold just because you’ve been exposed to this much rain in midsummer, but thinking about these people’s worries, you can’t do anything about it.
As I entered the carriage, I suddenly felt that I heard a sound from somewhere.
sorry.
I turned around and looked around, but I couldn’t see anyone’s shadow anywhere.
‘Did I hear it wrong?’
I tilted my head and went inside the carriage and sat down.