Veronica Riel Reina Rosenberg.
Facing her, Laura’s mother, Ferzen removed her hand from her trimmed sleeve.
The purpose of her visit is not difficult to predict.
Laura, who suffers from the eccentricity of the full moon, has to participate in the war, whether she likes it or not, in order to be taken care of by herself.
If he doesn’t want to do that, he will have no choice but to confide in his secrets, but in the Grudda family, the Claudia family and the Rosenberg family will all be purged.
So, from Laura’s point of view, she would have had no choice but to convince her parents somehow.
I don’t know what kind of excuses he made in the process, but I can guess even that if he dares to come and ask for an answer.
‘… … Looks good.’
She had known for a long time that her mother and father harbored the illusion that she was in love with Laura herself.
It was strange that Ferzen was not aware of it because he had good eyesight.
That’s why Ferzen gave me a clear message in the past to let me clear up that misunderstanding.
Looking at the current situation, it seems that I couldn’t, and the excuses I threw out seem to be an extension of that unresolved misunderstanding.
In the eyes of Laura’s mother, Veronica, is it reflected as a love that cannot be separated even by war?
Shake!
And Laura, who was standing behind her mother, Veronica, bowed her head with a small shiver the moment she made eye contact with Ferzen.
I don’t know how he understands the situation right now… …
No, he probably has a clear picture of what’s going on without any misunderstanding.
Of course, Laura had offered other excuses at length.
However, from the fact that she wanted to participate in the battlefield she could fall into, Veronica only looked like a daughter who was blinded by love and was willing to take risks.
So, out of the three people here now, Laura was the one who burned the most.
Even though I did mix with him, it was close to the form of rape.
Rather than having s*x with each other, it is closer to the mating of animals.
But will Ferzen manage this situation gently?
First, you must declare that you must accept yourself as a concubine.
Second, if you fall in love, you will have to explain why the woman did not stop her from participating in the battlefield.
To be honest, rather than going through such a process, it would be much more convenient to bring out the facts related to the Genoese Count and press them down.
Since a fairly long time has passed, do you think there is a better relationship than a simple master-slave-like hierarchical relationship? …
Even if that were the case, I don’t think it’s a deep enough relationship to cover up this situation even at the expense of one’s own.
“Don’t let me move. ma’am.”
“good. count.”
At Ferzen’s words that broke the long silence, Laura’s mother first left the garden and headed to the drawing room as if she had waited for it.
Leaving her daughter Laura unkind and walking alone seems to be very angry with the current situation at first glance, but in reality, it is a taunt to each other to come up with an answer that is correct enough to persuade them.
Ferzendo.
Laurado.
Knowing this, he sees Rimbell leaving behind Veronica and swallows silence once more.
“… … ”
For Ferzen, to be honest, it just hurt my head.
I didn’t want to create a situation like this, so I gave her a clear message to clear up the misunderstanding.
“… … ”
Laura also knows how burdensome the situation is for Ferzen, so instead of looking at him, she only stares at her feet.
But since the water has already been spilled, keeping your mouth shut won’t change anything.
“It’s okay, it’s okay… … ”
“what.”
“Come on, you’re comfortable… … Bar, in the direction… … ”
“Do you know what that means?”
“… … ”
“The father who took the woman of the Count of Genoa and gave birth to you, and the mother who raised you, believing you to be her own daughter, will walk parallel lines from that moment on. I heard that gold seul is very good, but if I try to solve the current situation by mentioning this fact, it will all collapse horribly.”
There was clearly something that Ferzen was seriously mistaken about, but Laura did not bother to point it out.
Who would believe that he was suffering from the curse engraved on his soul through reincarnation?
However, although it is shorter than in the previous life, the memories of the parents who gave him a lot of affection during this life will pass through our minds… …
They certainly seemed to believe their sincerity, no matter how vain they were.
From Ferzen’s point of view, this fact would be absolutely absurd, so let the work proceed according to that picture.
In the future, he would have to confess that fact only to his parents.
“Uh, uh, anyway… … This, a lifetime… … Bae, Earl’s chaff, by your side… … Tied up, it can’t be, it can’t be… … ”
Of course, when it was decided that he could not overcome the curse engraved on this soul, he was concerned about the option of becoming his concubine and managing her forever… …
The war is about to start soon.
Yuriel couldn’t even have children.
For him to accept himself as a concubine, the circumstances were not easy.
So it wouldn’t be a bad idea to give up on it and prepare for self-reliance.
… … No, it was actually bad.
From whether his parents really believe in this fact.
Even if he believed him, would he be able to safely take care of his eccentric without Ferzen’s help?
Furthermore, even if we take care of it safely, won’t this secret leak out?
… … Rather, would it be better to take my own life in this life as well?
Laura’s mind was complicated enough to think like that.
You might even beg for him with a wrought-iron cloth.
I beg you to endure all this.
… … But Laura didn’t.
Ferzen, who knows his secret, has kept this fact secret until now in exchange for using this as a leash to use Rosenberg as a long horse.
But will he ever benefit from Rosenberg?
The battle for the throne has already ended, and on the contrary, if Rosenberg had seen a reflex benefit from his long stay with him, he would have seen it.
Ferzen von Schweig Brutein.
At least, it can be seen that he has fully shouldered the responsibility he had to endure from the moment he put the collar around his neck.
This ideal was beyond his responsibilities, and Laura refused to beg.
Rather than asserting her self-esteem, it could be said that Laura was caring for Ferzen, who took care of herself until now.
“… … ”
Then, hearing Laura’s words, Ferzen slowly turned her head to look at the scenery of the autumn garden.
It was like that back then, but when I look at Laura, a strangely unpleasant feeling of sympathy rises.
This would be homophobia in a macro sense.
In a microscopic sense, it would be self-hatred.
The curse she is suffering from is not so different from the obsessive-compulsive disorder that has been engraved on her.
Is that so?
Struggling to overcome it, or embracing a disastrous compromise with frustration… …
It seemed that all of them were repeating their past in the same way.
If you think about it, what she will experience in the future is also a kind of future poem, isn’t it?
If you do not try to break that bond with death, you will live your own life in the present.
If I were to break that bondage with death, I would live the life of Isabelle Ron-Pierre Genova.
Since two people have already proven it based on their only one life, it can be said that either way is closer to unhappiness than happiness.
But then, can people like you really not be able to pursue happiness that is not stained by even a single point of unhappiness?
“Laura.”
“… … ”
“Laura de Charles Rosenberg.”
“yes… … ”
Laura raises her head at Ferzen’s voice calling her name.
And from that woman, Ferzen could see the overlap of her past, who suffered from severe obsessive compulsive disorder.
“I do not harbor the feeling of love for you.”
“… … ”
“Maybe it will be difficult to see you as a woman in the future.”
“… … ”
“Also, Manwol’s eccentricity is hereditary of blood, so you will have to claim infertility.”
In the cultural context of the times, being a woman unable to have children was a more miserable label than imagined.
In addition, she has to give up the idea of marrying the man she loves and having a harmonious family, so it would be difficult for her to come to a conclusion with her heart, even if she understands it with her head.
But if Laura said she would endure it all, Ferzen agreed to reach out to her so that the things she had now would not crumble.
“Uh, why… … ”
However, Laura did not readily accept the irresistible sweet offer, and held back hesitation.
Because there was no benefit that Ferzen could gain from this.
“… … ”
And Laura’s question naturally became the advice Ferzen gave to herself.
So, Ferzen could not immediately answer Laura’s question and closed her mouth.
If there is a clear motive for lending her a hand, there is probably only one.
Isabel Ron Pierre Genovado.
Even Fersen von Schweig Brutein could not walk… …
Another mirror that reflects the two of them, she must have wanted to see her pursuing happiness close to an utopia.
Rock-paper-scissors with yourself reflected in the mirror always give the same results, but if the results could be different.
At least, when he had to confess the ugly side he was hiding to Euphemia and Yuriel, it seemed that he could be a little more courageous.
Rather than worrying about when an obsessive-compulsive disorder might strike even for the soon-to-be-born child, it seemed that I would be able to overcome it and see her lovely face with my own two eyes.
“I cannot tell you.”
“… … ”
“Finding the reason by my side will be the meaning of a small life that is not bad for you.”
The life of a man named Isabelle and Ferzen will be a good teacher for Laura.
So, if only she could be happy using the trial and error they went through.
From Ferzen’s point of view, there will be an invaluable footstep to follow.
Of course, it may be possible to achieve the same result if Ferzen follows her path.
This is a kind of self-satisfaction, it can also be called vicarious satisfaction.
But I didn’t think it meant anything.
Just as a person with an ugly face cannot see himself reflected in a mirror.
Ferzen himself and Isabel were the same, so even if I could take the first step I couldn’t take until now, facing myself completely, a lot would change.
“Laura de Charles Rosenberg.”
“… … ”
“What should I do?”
With the question, his right hand is extended in front of him.
And Laura let out a faint laugh in her heart, not even thinking of the option of rejecting it.
How did he become so weak?
It was sad that I couldn’t even suggest my own life choices and had to follow what others suggested, but I didn’t hate it.
Just like animals that have been raised by humans and castrated in the wild are released into nature, but they cannot adapt and die.
A woman named Isabel, an elemental wizard of unprecedented talent, and a determined woman who cut the family’s tragedy with her own hands… …
They already feel that it is more comfortable to be raised under one man.
Yes, this might be considered Andorra.
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Maybe that’s why his former self came into his hands.Shrek.
Laura, who had come to a conclusion soon after, carefully grabbed Ferzen’s outstretched hand.
“… … ”
Obviously, there are very few instances where he has touched his body with his bare mind.
Why do these big, warm hands feel so familiar?
Perhaps his instincts remember the sense of touch he had touched his body countless times while being encroached on by the strange wall of the full moon.
Unconsciously, Laura moved her hands to clasp at an angle, as if a domestic pet would rub its face against its owner to express affection.
“ah… … ”
And realizing it too late, Laura tried to pull out her hand in a hurry… …
“Branch.”
Ferzen, holding her hand tightly as it is, began to move.
“Laura.”
“Yes Yes… … ”
“The sun never goes below the horizon.”
“yes… … ?”
“It is called the definition of the phenomenon of white night.”
Shake!
Laura shook her body slightly.
I didn’t know that I would hear the word from his mouth, but it was also surprising to me that he clearly knew the definition of the phenomenon, in which only the author’s experience was written.
“The poles located in the north and south. When you get there, you will be able to face the phenomenon of the White Night with your own two eyes.”
What the artist did not set arbitrarily is a world created based on original common sense.
It must have nothing to do with the knowledge engraved in Lee Seo-jin’s memory.
“After the war is over, it would be good to go on a trip to find it.”
“… … ”
“It’s never ugly to be outraged.”
On the contrary, it would be even more ugly to give up and comfort yourself.
“There will come a day when you will be able to tell yourself that it is good not to give up.”
So show me how to overcome today blocked by the night where the dawn does not rise and to face tomorrow confidently.
After Ferzen finished speaking, hiding her true intentions, Laura lifted her head and looked up at his face.
‘really… … You’re a cruel kid.’
A child born by mixing each other’s blood suffers from the same oddity, so he cannot bear his seed.
It wasn’t that he couldn’t see himself as a woman, that he couldn’t love, that he didn’t understand.
But if you don’t love yourself.
‘At least I… … ‘
Isn’t it supposed to make you fall in love with yourself?
… … Obviously, he never had a girl named Laura de Charles Rosenberg as a woman.
… … The girl standing next to him now, more than ever, has become a full-fledged woman.