204─The Heart of a Human Face
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A built barracks, or more accurately, inside a hut.
At Fersen’s separate location, Lizzy held out her red-hot thumb.
“Unless you give up wearing a mask now…… “Why don’t you call the congressman first?”
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“Or will you be gentler than that and treat me yourself?”
Lizzy stares at him with lifeless purple eyes, a clear mockery on her small lips.
However, when Fersen did not show any reaction to what she said, Lizzy withdrew his outstretched hand and looked up at him.
“I’m sick.”
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“If this appeal is not enough, should I at least let you hear my moans of pain in order to show me that pretentious kindness?”
What is Ferzen thinking in his head now?
Also, what a tug of war he is with his ugly desires.
Lizzy, who did not know anything about it, continued to provoke him.
“Ah…… “Now that I think about it, Seosun was wrong.”
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“The first thing to do is to comfort me, who was hostile to so many soldiers.”
Lizzy patted the seat next to him with a slender hand, and the corners of his mouth twitched up.
“What are you doing? “I need you to sit next to me and lend me your shoulder so I can lean on you and receive comfort.”
“Lizzy.”
I flinch.
It’s as if he can no longer watch his own rudeness and wantonness.
When his very low growling voice contained her name, Lizzy instinctively trembled.
At the same time, Fersen, who was taking steps towards him, gradually narrowed the distance between him……
──I brought you a meal!
No, the distance that was meant to be narrowed becomes longer again.
This was because Limbel, the non-commissioned officer who brought his own meal out of his tent, called Fersen.
It only lasted for a moment, but when the heavy atmosphere that was suffocating her was relieved, Lizzy took a deep breath and wiped the cold sweat from her forehead.
Tak.
And then, when Ferzen took the meal Rimbel had brought and put it down on one side and closed the tent, Lizzie swallowed her saliva.
Is this because the cloth fluttering in the wind might expose the scene inside?
Fersen is a method of tying the ropes between the gaps together and tying them tightly.
“…… Even if you don’t, don’t you know better that I can’t run away?”
Lizzie felt signs of the imprinted trauma about to attack due to the visual sense of enclosure, but she did not give in to it and continued her mockery toward Fersen.
This does not mean that I have partially overcome my fear of him……
Because I resigned myself to the fact that I was defeated and submitted to him.
Little by little, I got used to the disgusting despair and frustration.
“My eyes are scary.”
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“Have you decided to temporarily take off that mask that didn’t suit you?”
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“Are you going to hit me now? Or are you going to vent out the stress that has built up along with your unresolved s*xual desire?”
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“If you think about it, there was a reason why I, who was useless on the battlefield, was in your unit.”
Lizzy looked up at Fersen, who had already come closer, carrying her plate of rice that had been placed on one side of her, and her body trembled to the extent that it was pitiful for her to see.
However, without closing her lips that mock him until the end, she moves her trembling body and assumes a seductive posture like a prostitute clumsily seducing a man.
“If you want…… Please tell me to spread my legs at any time. “Your Excellency Count Ruerg.”
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Despite her endless ridicule, Fersen, who had been staring at her silently, squats down in front of her.
Then he reached out one of her hands and took hold of her right hand, caressing it so gently that it gave her goosebumps.
“Lizzy.”
Soon, Ferzen breaks the long silence she had maintained until now and calls her name once again.
“Are you getting used to that fear and fear little by little?”
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“Then you are going down a very wrong path.”
“Ha…… Ahahahaha…… “
The disgusting feeling of his large hand caressing your hand, clearly felt beyond your skin.
I wanted to pull out her right hand to shake it off right away, but Lizzy didn’t and instead burst out laughing and forced the corners of her eyes to not smile.
And then he clearly responds to Fersen’s words.
“Are you going to let me face it again?”
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“In the past it was a leg, now it must be a hand.”
Lizzy’s complexion became increasingly pale as she felt as if she was being dragged to the slaughterhouse, where the endless screams of sheep echoed.
But she no longer screams and has learned to make her voice purely her own.
“Why…… “Are you hesitating?”
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“The method of destroying people is not unfamiliar to you.”
As if to further narrow the already narrow distance.
Lizzy throws her head forward, rests her chin on his shoulder, and chirps a whisper that seems to fuel her ugly, dark desires.
Then Ferzen let go of her right hand that he was holding on to.
“…… “
And while she felt a subtle sense of relief at Fersen’s actions.
Lizzy frowned with regret that could hardly be explained in words.
Tuck!
“Evil!”
However, as if to overshadow all of her emotions, Fersen snatches her right hand that she had let go of in an instant, forcing her thumb to bleed……
“Okay…… ! “Sigh!”
Lizzie instinctively let out a scream as the hot steam from her plate engulfed every inch of her soup.
Unfortunately, that scream is drowned out by Fersen’s other hand covering the corner of her mouth.
“Eup! Ugh!”
Lizzy, whose thumb is red-hot and writhing ugly like a trampled earthworm, is trying to rebel……
It was impossible to overcome his strength.
Jureuk.
The tears falling from the corners of her eyes ran down her cheeks and wet the back of Fersen’s hand as he covered her mouth.
However, unlike her expression marked with pain and fear, her unique purple eyes were clearly smiling.
Shock!
And Fersen, who was faced with that eye smile right in front of her, felt the extreme comfort and comfort that her tailored symmetry gave him……
She could clearly feel how in an instant she was transformed into the most disgusting self-loathing.
Wow!
“Okay…… Nope…… !”
In the end, the self-loathing that seemed like it would make me vomit.
Without realizing it, Fersen was consumed by the anger that was deeply coloring her mind, and he grabbed Lizzy’s slender neck violently.
Then, her pale complexion turns red due to her inability to breathe, and her purple eyes begin to lose their focus……
Lizzy’s mouth replaced her eyes with a naked sneer.
…… In the first place, why are you trying to live like an ordinary person who has achieved glory wearing a mask that doesn’t suit you?
He felt a sense of “Satisfaction” As he dipped his thumb into the soup and watched himself struggle against the burning pain, but it was no different from eight years ago.
Human nature is something that ultimately does not change.
No matter how much time passes and no matter how many decorations you put on.
It is the true nature of each individual that can never be hidden.
‘Ah…… ‘
Do you know what kind of expression you are making right now?
The sight of him getting angry at his bare face as his mask was unintentionally removed was truly like a ferocious beast.
Whether it is a vacant seat or a private seat.
I wonder if anyone has ever seen his expression expressing such hatred.
‘Really…… ‘
It looks ugly and shabby.
If it’s like this, how can we live while hiding its true nature?
If Fersen had made us aware of the absurd world and our own weakness.
On the contrary, he reminds Fersen of the ugly and shabby appearance he was hiding.
“Okay…… Eww…… “
Lizzy’s body soon begins to droop, with her eyes completely losing focus.
Then Fersen looked down at her face, stained with tears and snot, and she belatedly removed her own hand and checked her breathing.
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Not breathing.
The handprint clearly engraved on her slender neck clearly showed that she had not controlled her strength at all.
Once we recognized that, numerous negative emotions, including skepticism, self-loathing, and shame, washed over us like a wave.
However, trying to ignore it, Fersen secured Lizzy’s airway and breathed into her.
Because the situation is different, if she puts pressure on her lungs, all of her ribs will break.
“Cough…… !”
As if the judgment was wrong, Lizzie, who had stopped breathing for a moment, opens her eyes and curls up with her coughing.
Seeing her starting to collect herself like that, Fersen turned his back on her.
“That soldier…… “I told you something good.”
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“Rather than breaking it all at once…… Cough! “This way, the toy will last longer.”
Looking at him who had stopped walking at her own words, Lizzy stammered at the unpleasant touch that vaguely remained at the corner of her mouth.
And finally, she adds one word.
“My lips…… “How was it?”
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“Was it good?”
“I will call the medic.”
But what came back was a completely unrelated answer.
Eventually, Fersen opens her tent and goes out, followed slowly by Lizzy’s laughter.
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Afterwards, asking her own sergeant-at-arms, Rimbell, to call her medic, Ferzen walked to her secluded spot and placed a stick of her tobacco in her mouth.
…… I’m glad that night has come.
Because no one could see her own face now.
…… Also, I’m glad Yuriel isn’t here.
Because she was able to avoid being exposed to her ugly side.
When Fersen left after smoking the tobacco, there was only a bunch of tobacco that was cruelly trampled and extinguished, as if representing his current feelings.