217─The Sheep Swallowing the Wolf
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“…… !”
On the way back to the camp, on the way.
Suddenly, the horse he was riding, as if slipping in the rain, tried to sit down, and Fersen desperately held on to the balance of his shaking body.
“Pfft!”
Even if you lower your back and hold on to the reins tightly.
It was not difficult to protect one’s body from being thrown off the horse.
“Your Excellency the Count!”
The troops around him opened their eyes wide and called out to Fersen in surprised voices, but fortunately he did not fall from his horse and get hurt.
It is not because Fersen, who was on top of the horse, reacted well, but because the horse, which had been sitting down from the beginning, made an effort to prevent its owner from getting hurt.
“…… “
Fersen, who came down from his horse while breathing irregularly, walked in front of him and checked the condition of his horse.
Puh.
Phew……
Dark red blood flows thickly through his nostrils as he exhales.
When I checked his right front paw, which was shaking exceptionally, I found that it was swelling at a rapid rate.
I received injuries that wouldn’t be surprising if I broke right away on the battlefield, and I’ve held on tenaciously until now, but have I reached my limit?
“…… “You worked hard.”
Even Fersen, who was not well versed in veterinary medicine, could easily realize that the horse he had brought from his family was running towards his death.
Therefore, Fersen, who took Isabelle out through his altar while gently caressing her mane, created a warm ice plate and lifted his horse.
And then gently covers it so that it doesn’t get hit by the pouring rain.
If you were born as an animal that couldn’t speak and were not tamed by humans.
He must have ended his life paddling across the vast plains.
So, this is a consideration to take it easy at the end of a life that is controlled by human greed.
“Eggplant.”
Soon, Fersen takes a step forward.
However, among the members of the unit who followed him, only Lizzy could not view him in a positive light.
Because it was a clear contrast to his miserable self.
That’s why the feeling of resentment in the violet eyes that followed Ferzen’s back only intensified.
* * * * *
When they arrived at the camp, Fersen’s horse died.
Seeing how a mere animal leaves this world more comfortably than his family, I can’t help but laugh.
And as Fersen left alone to bury the dead horse, Lizzy bit his lip.
The terrible duplicity of being able to harbor feelings of pity and mourning even toward such beasts, but not toward one’s own clan and family——it is indescribably nauseating.
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“…… “
Is it natural that something like a toy is worse than an animal?
Lizzy is now fed up with her situation of resigning herself to rationalizing facts that can never be rationalized.
Even after coming into her own hut, the feeling did not subside easily.
Why does Uriel love such a man?
Why do the imperial family of this empire and its people rely on such a man?
Why does the world favor men like that?
She clearly claims that it is wrong on solid grounds by her own standards.
Everyone, this world, has denied it.
His body is shattered.
My life is trampled upon by him.
The family was destroyed by him.
Even if his family was killed by him.
In fact, was it all reasonable?
“Ah, it’s you…… “
Lizzy clenches her fists and squeezes out the voice that won’t come out.
“No…… !”
But there was no one in this world that that voice could reach.
The voice that screams as if struggling, like a person struggling to escape from a solitary confinement that can never be left……
Like his fist hurting when he knocked on the wall, he was nothing more than an echo returning to himself.
It was gradually drowned out by the sound of rain pouring down outside.
“Ha…… Ha…… “
After a while, as the feeling subsided little by little, Lizzie gasped for breath and clutched his chest.
To be honest, it would be wrong to say that my emotions have subsided.
Accurately, you could say that this cruel world captured those feelings and forced them to the ground so that they could not raise their heads.
It was truly cruel to have feelings that were not allowed to be expressed.
Other people paint their own pictures with different colors.
It is not allowed only to oneself, so it remains forever colorless.
“Ah…… “
A slight feeling of dizziness that comes on for a moment.
Lizzy touched her forehead as it felt like her whole body was losing strength.
Jureuk.
Then Lizzy belatedly felt the feeling of blood flowing from his nose, and after wiping it away with the back of her hand, she quietly looked down at the traces.
“…… “
It feels like a person is rotting and festering alive.
After that day, Fersen did not say anything or extend a hand to him.
The world he presented to himself seemed to be taking away the vitality of his entire body just as time passed.
Just because you take a fish out of the water and throw it on the bottom and it doesn’t cause any harm, you can’t say it’s not violence.
And if you die, like a fish thrown to the bottom slowly dies.
Fersen will end all his knots by showing his fake emotions to his own body like today.
Yes, no matter how much I thought about it, I never wanted to hand over such a quick ending to Fersen.
But now he had nothing he could do.
If time passed like that, the ending would have already been decided, regardless of the resolution. Lizzy felt like she was suffocating and pulled out her hair.
No matter how desperately a fish flops to the bottom, it will only end up eating its own flesh.
Duung──!
“…… “
At some point, you can hear the sound of lunch being distributed, echoing through the sound of rain.
But Lizzy did not go to receive the meal, holding his body next to her in her arms.
No matter how desperately a fish thrown to the bottom flails, it cannot return to the river where it originally lived.
Wouldn’t it be possible to reach a puddle of stagnant water that could sustain one’s life, even if only for a moment?
Even if it was rotten water, Lizzy was willing to stretch her gills.
* * * * *
Too-duk-duk.
In the pouring rain, Lizzy, who was holding the corpse in her arms, moved forward, avoiding the gaze of the relatively relaxed soldiers.
It was not difficult for her to guess where Fersen buried her horse’s body, that vague location.
Even if you know the location, it is difficult to find the exact location because the wasteland soaked in pouring rain erases any traces of digging into the ground.
But that was the standard for the general public.
In the case of Lizzy, who can minister to the body of an elemental wizard, it did not take long to find it if she interfered with the land.
“…… “
Sure enough, the fingers that were scanning the skin felt something and flinched and stopped.
When she was told that the land containing her magic was clearly different from other places, Lizzy walked towards that place and concentrated her magic.
Then the wet earth cracked left and right like a pile of sand, revealing the words of Fersen, who had been brought from the Brutein family, located far below.
At that, Lizzy let out a laugh from the corner of her mouth and radiated her magic power to that horse.
If the body of a mere animal that has already died is not severely damaged.
The emotions devoted to this inextricable evil seemed like they would eventually devour him before Fersen.
Tu-deuk.
Fersen’s horse, controlled under his own magic, eventually raises its body.
If you think about it, even while he was trampling on his family, his family, and his life.
I had never even touched a speck of him.
So, even if he said it was pretentious, damaging the body of that horse that conveyed sympathy and condolences……
“Aha…… “
For the first time, he made Lizzy feel a feeling of joy.
Is this the kind of pleasure he felt while trampling on his family, his family, and his life?
“Ah…… hahahaha…… “
But even that laughter gradually began to subside after a while.
It’s not because I’m disillusioned with myself feeling joy in the process of destroying the body of a mere animal……
“…… “
This was because, in order to make it easy to climb up, the corpse of a horse, unable to even take a single step on the carved earth—had fallen miserably and was only flailing its hind feet came into view.
What should I say about that appearance?
Yes, it was as if Fersen had broken his left leg and was crying desperately……
I felt like myself 8 years ago.