223─Inflection Point
“What happened…?” … “
Finch!
The medic who was organizing the medicine on the shelf turned his head at the sight of people entering the barracks, and upon seeing the condition of the red-haired woman, Lizzy, her shoulders trembled slightly.
“Some medicine…” … “I came to get it.”
“…… “
“Am I, with treason flowing in my veins, not even allowed to be touched by a lawmaker?”
“No. Oh, please sit down.”
Even though she wasn’t on the front line, I knew what kind of person she was.
The medic felt sorry for himself, thinking that he had these wounds behind the traces covered by dust and blood stains of the enemy soldiers, as he had seen them sparsely in passing.
“Please let us know if you have any symptoms of additional internal injuries other than the external injuries.”
“Every time I urinate…… “My crotch hurts.”
“Oh, that’s…… “
It was an embarrassing enough comment, but the medic listened to Lizzie with a calm expression on her face and began to give her an answer.
When he becomes a member of parliament, he receives the most money.
It was related to the wealth of nobles–especially when dealing with venereal diseases, so there were few lawmakers who were not knowledgeable about this area.
“This is probably because I was unable to maintain cleanliness properly after living on the battlefield for a long time. Since it’s not summer, the inflammation won’t spread any further…… “I will prescribe medicine and ointment, so take them, and if you have time, just lightly wash the affected area with water.”
Of course, Lizzy also knew that well.
The congressman gave a hint to induce thinking in that way.
She couldn’t say right away that Fersen had raped her and ripped open her private parts.
After receiving treatment for her bruises and broken fingers, Lizzie returned to her cabin with the prescribed medicine and ointment, pulled down her pants, and carefully looked at her private parts.
“…… “
It didn’t seem like it would close at all, but before I knew it, it was closing tight and my swollen labia were trembling.
Lizzie carefully spread the ointment on her private parts, thinking that someone might have brandished her private parts with a cane.
“Ah…… “
Meanwhile, Lizzie shuddered as she saw some of Fersen’s semen, which had been staying inside her own womb, leaking out of her.
I thought I had washed it cleanly, but is my womb still so full of his semen that it is leaking out like this?
Lizzy wiped it away with a smile, not knowing whether it was mocking or laughing, and carefully placed her hand on his lower stomach, which was still bloated and full.
I felt like I wanted to spit out all the semen he was holding in, but this was one of those weapons that could threaten Ferzen as much as it would destroy him.
So, Lizzy applied her ointment to her private part again, took her medicine, and went to see Astel, the head of her department.
“You…… !”
There, Astell saw Lizzy’s face, her eyes widened as if in surprise, and with a sigh, she brushed her bangs away and pursed her lips.
“Are you okay…?” … “
“It’s okay.”
“I said I took some care on the battlefield, but…… “I also have limits to my ability.”
“I know. “Don’t worry, I didn’t come to complain to you, the captain, about that.”
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I’m glad that’s the case, but his expression seemed to indicate that he wasn’t comfortable in this atmosphere and that he wanted to tell me his business as quickly as possible.
“I want to move again.”
“Where?”
“Where can I go? “It’s where members of the same unit stay.”
“It’s not that far…… No. To put it bluntly, the nightmares you have every time you fall asleep are the consequences for us. That’s why I moved you through your suggestion.”
“I won’t do that anymore.”
“There is definitely a reason for my rant, but honestly, there must be some good things about being given a space to myself.”
“…… “
Lizzy did not respond to Astel’s words any longer and remained silent.
The reason she goes out of her way to change her place of residence is to increase the risk that Fersen will kill her.
Soldiers kill themselves in places where people’s attention is focused.
If you are willing to expose your ugly inner self to some extent in the aftermath, do so willingly.
In particular, to completely silence her, she would have to smash or melt her own head so that she cannot give feedback.
If you get into her cruel hands like that, she will definitely say something.
…… Of course, this is only a temporary solution.
Even if there are countless eyes on the battlefield.
Because those countless eyes won’t be looking at you.
“Okay…… Do whatever you want. “I will tell the unit members.”
“Thank you.”
“Is there anything else you want to say?”
“Ah…… “
“I guess it’s there.”
When Astel, who was trying to walk away, crossed her arms and looked at her again, Lizzy paused for a moment and then raised her head.
“Astel. “This is a question that might make you a little uncomfortable.”
“Anything is okay as long as you don’t cry and say you’re scared, grabbing my pants and asking me to send you back.”
“Then I’m glad.”
Lizzie, who had been placing her hands on the armrests of her wheelchair, put them together somewhat tightly and opened her mouth in her quiet voice.
“You…” … “What was the s*x experience like?”
“…… “
“Let me correct this. The s*xual relationship I experienced…… “
“Well, you don’t have to correct me.”
Despite her calm appearance, Astel expressed her embarrassment by stuttering, coughing and laughing excessively and cupping her face.
“The intention of this question is…” … “What on earth is this?”
“I just want to know.”
“My girl history?”
“No. “What does s*x itself mean to other people?”
Even though I have made scathing and obscene comments on this topic.
Astell was quite perplexed because Lizzy was the first person to ask a philosophical question about the topic.
‘Maybe…’ … ‘
It’s so hard and so exhausting.
Do I miss people’s embrace?
Even though she was of treasonous blood, she was a woman with a beautiful appearance.
If she seduces the soldiers who are condensed with the stress of her battlefield, she will gladly respond without saying anything.
And does Lizzy want to relieve her own solitude, loneliness, and the stress of her battlefield in that way?
“You…… “How do you think you express your feelings of love to the other person?”
“Well, I don’t know. “Are you saying you love me?”
“Well, that’s right. “Usually, the way to express your feelings toward someone is to say that you love them.”
“…… “
“But aside from that, when you say you love your partner, how can she express her feelings without words?”
“Could it be a gift?”
“You can do things like that even if you don’t love them, right?”
“…… “
“In that respect, s*x is the only way to express your love for another person through means other than words…… “I think so.”
“Really?”
“Sending love only through words will eventually become boring. So, if you love someone, you should be sparing in saying “I love you” As much as possible.”
“I see.”
“Anyway, that’s it. Friendship, worship, respect. There are many different types of human emotions, and the way we communicate them with others is different, right? In that respect, s*x is one of the few means of communicating the feeling of love. When I mix my body with the person I love, the feeling of that person focusing entirely on me, the feeling of each person exposing all their secrets and blending in…… Under. “What should I say about this?”
Scratch.
Astel, who was vigorously scratching the back of his head and smoothing out the dark circles around his eyes, soon spoke with an expression that showed he had gathered his thoughts.
“People are living together in the city center or village, but that doesn’t mean they’re really living together, right? However, when I come into contact with someone I love, I know that this person is the only one by my side in this wide and cold world…… “When I feel that way, it sometimes makes me feel even more affectionate.”
“…… “
“It is said that men and women who behave carelessly talk about s*x as simple s*xual entertainment…… “There is definitely value in that connection, so if you are thinking something strange, don’t kick away your future happiness.”
Astel finished her sentence with a deep sigh and looked down at her Lizzie before turning around and walking away.
At that, Lizzy no longer held on to Astel and sat quietly in the wheelchair, looking up at the now clear blue sky.
“…… “
Lizzy Paul Liana Claudia.
The question she asked her Astel had no particularly complicated intention.
She just wanted to know how much the sacrifice she made the night before was worth to others.
Kirik.
And through Astell’s answer, she realized that what she had lost the night before was something quite precious. Lizzy led her wheelchair with a bitter smile on her face.
* * * * *
“Ha…… “
Meanwhile, Astel, who had answered Lizzy’s question and walked away, belatedly touched her reddened ear and lowered her head.
Although it was embarrassing for Lizzie to be asked such a question, it was additionally absurd for her to ask that question to someone who had never seen her before and hugged her woman.
I thought she had put her head together and answered, but if I asked her to recall what she had said, not a single sentence would come to mind.
‘Still…… ‘
Astelle seemed to think that her appearance meant that she had attracted quite a few women, but Astel shrugged her shoulders at her somewhat satisfied self-esteem.