235─Peach Blossom
The morning has dawned twice.
However, because Fersen had not yet returned, Prince Raymond gave a warning to take good care of the injured and walked outside.
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Although he did not tell Fersen separately, he even attacked the enemy’s position at the moment when the operation began……
‘It didn’t help at all…’ … ‘
There was also an intention to divert the attention of the enemy once more so that the detachment could arrive comfortably at the Rubelta River.
In fact, it was to make Empress Gremory change her pace quickly so that she could help Fersen shake off the chase.
However, such efforts were in vain, as Ferzen had not returned even now, entering the second day, and Prince Raymond showed slight nervousness and anxiety.
If we received help from the previous head of the Brutein family, who had walked the path of an Auror Knight, we would have arrived long ago.
“…… !”
However, soon, when the faint image of a person was seen in the distance, Prince Raymond opened his eyes wide and turned his head to his soldiers nearby.
“Follow me right now!”
“Well, Your Highness…” … !”
As soon as the order was given, the soldiers who were on guard saw Prince Raymond rushing out of his camp and ran after him in panic.
* * * * *
‘If you don’t keep your body, how can you…? … ‘
At the point when the Ernes Empire’s camp was right in front of us, Prince Raymond, who had arrived, led his soldiers and ran towards them. Fersen stopped in his tracks with a faint smile on his face.
Actually, I could have arrived faster, but I deliberately didn’t do that.
No, there were some things I didn’t do on purpose.
The connection was unstable due to the compulsive impulses that continually disturbed my mind, and the consumption of magical energy was extreme to receive help from the previous heads of families who had walked the path of an Auror Knight.
Of course, I didn’t mind receiving help when I was certain that the trace had been completely lost……
Fersen steadfastly walked through the snow field with his own two feet to purposely overwork his body.
As soon as he arrived, he wanted his tired body to be forced to sleep.
The compulsive impulse that continues to linger in my head without stopping–a compulsion that cannot be satisfied continues to deplete my mind.
Even without using the extreme analogy of drug withdrawal symptoms.
What not to eat.
Not sleeping.
Don’t people simply go crazy due to lack of basic needs?
When a person feels a certain desire like that, the pain of not being satisfied and the endless lack of it is something that cannot be expressed in words.
Sabak.
Soon, when Prince Raymond arrived within a stone’s throw of him, stepping on the accumulated snow, Ferzen knelt down on one knee, looking at him with a gaunt face.
Then he takes the sword he handed him from his waist and holds it out in front of him.
“Fersen von Schweig Ruerg…… I returned from my mission. Majesty.”
“…… “
I just didn’t see him for two days.
The sight of Fersen in front of me makes me feel like we are reunited after ten years.
His appearance was still imbued with unwavering loyalty to the imperial family and unfussy dignity……
For some reason, for the first time, Prince Raymond felt a faint sympathy for him.
“Really…… It was a lot of hard work. Count.”
Taking back his lent sword, Prince Raymond looked down at Fersen and asked.
“Was there anything unusual in the course of carrying out the mission?”
“Yes. Nothing happened…… “There was none.”
In fact, it wasn’t like that.
He felt like he wanted to vent his pain over this unsatisfied—deficient impulse, but Fersen suppressed it all and raised his head.
This is a difficult problem that cannot be solved even if you tell it about it anyway, so you can’t burden the shoulders of the commander-in-chief of the battlefield just to feel a little more at ease.
“I understand. Then…… Rest in peace. Count.”
“Yes. Then I…… “I will let you rest.”
Fersen gets up and walks past him to the camp.
However, Prince Raymond did not follow Fersen into the camp.
If I turned around now, I would see Fersen’s back looking so weak and small.
…… That is certainly not what Fersen himself wants.
“Your Highness. Eat it inside. “The wind is cold and harsh.”
“The weather is hot, so let’s stay like this for a little while.”
Finch!
The soldier who spoke with a worried heart looked puzzled at Prince Raymond’s words, which were difficult to sympathize with or understand.
But soon, as a deep look of water appeared on his face from the side, the soldier slowly lowered his head without saying anything more.
* * * * *
Squeak!
Ferzen entered the barracks without even reuniting with the remaining members of his unit, and immediately lay down on the cot and closed his eyes.
His unresolved, unsatisfied obsession still cries out and torments him……
The fatigue of the body, pushed to its limit, suppresses even that and forces one to sleep.
Fersen closed his eyes, feeling the strings of consciousness gradually fading, like a person who has been lost in water and slowly sinking after struggling for a while.
With this body.
Become a villain.
…… It was the first time I made the choice to escape.
* * * * *
Boom!
Late in the morning, Fersen, who had forced his exhausted body to sleep, opened his eyes in his cot and slammed his fists on the floor and roughly chewed his lips.
It was okay when I was dazed because of the strong energy of the water horse that remained, but as it gradually dissipated and my sanity returned……
Inevitably, the strong intoxication that Lizzy engraved on her comes to mind, and the impulse of obsession that she lacks fluctuates.
No one forced him to endure it.
The given situation did not lead to suppression.
Since there was no way to satisfy it, Ferzen let out irregular breaths, feeling as if he was suffocating.
Is this what a person feels when they have an incurable disease?
Even though it was a bitterly cold winter, the cold sweat dripping from his forehead clearly showed how mentally stressed he was.
“…… “
Fersen, who struggled to get up, swept down his altar and took out the strong drink from it.
It was something that was held as a type of good that was worth a considerable amount of money.
…… Right now, if Fersen didn’t get some alcohol, he felt like he couldn’t bear it anymore and would kill himself.
An extreme distraction of reason.
That alone will be of great help to me now.
“Cough…” … !”
Maybe it’s because it’s a wine with an overwhelming alcohol content that makes it feel like it’s melting your throat.
The moment he uncorked the drink and drank it, Fersen felt quite a bit of pain.
Even though she had been on an empty stomach for two days and could not eat anything, she felt sore and indescribable pain.
However, just by forgetting about her obsessive impulses and immersing herself in her pain due to her lack of spirit, Ferzen felt much more stable.
Soon, her mind went beyond the pleasant intoxication and entered the realm of near-intoxication, and Ferzen couldn’t even control her steps and sat down on the floor disgustingly.
“Pfft…” … !”
However, as her screaming and empty stomach caused vomiting, Ferzen barely managed to get up and leave her barracks.
So she walked to the back of the Beetle Beetle camp and vomited her stomach, and a light mixture of blood came out.
I wonder if her stomach was hurt.
Or maybe her neck was injured.
In an unknown situation, Fersen took Isabelle out of her space and roughly rinsed her stuffy mouth.
“…… “
And when the water fell down, melting her accumulated snow and forming a pale puddle……
“hahahaha…… “
Fersen laughed as he saw her own ugly side reflected there.
‘Loer…… ‘
At the last moment, you said you would be my absurdity.
‘Even if it wasn’t you…… ‘
The Lizzy you left behind became my irrationality.
Sabak.
She sat down helplessly in the snow, leaning on Isabel next to her, and Fersen looked up at the dark sky.
There are only a few hurdles left to overcome.
She wasn’t sure she could get over it, and Fersen felt a rare sense of frustration.
Adversity given to a wizard is also a valuable opportunity to advance to the next level……
On the contrary, it can become a despair that destroys everything.
‘It’s already February…’ … ‘
In a few days, Uriel and Laura will come here.
But Fersen did not want to meet them.
Because I didn’t want to show myself this miserable.
However, time always flows regardless of the will of mortals.
On February 4th, about a month before the spring flowering, the supply unit arrived.