163 – Persuasion (3)
“Then, shall we go upstairs?”
Lilian was still smiling mischievously after hearing what I said.
That smile seemed to be Lilian’s way of protecting herself.
But what about the real intention?
“…Why?”
Emotions are not only revealed through facial expressions.
Voice, gestures, even the movement of the chest that follows the breath, all express emotions in a rich way.
And in Lilian’s voice as she asked me, there was a faint hint of agitation that I could not swallow.
“There is a place to rest, right?”
An intense suspicion that could not be completely hidden was revealed in Lilian’s eyes.
“How do you do that…” .”
Lilian tried to force me into submission using her threats, lies, and her superior position.
Using her physical traps or powers would not have been how she wanted to do it.
In that case, she can easily guess the purpose of the place she will encounter when she goes up the spiral staircase of this library.
Lilian was so shaken that she did not notice such a simple fact.
‘She doesn’t know what those memories are, but it seems clear that it really happened. ‘She’s not even a fake memory.’
Just now, the memory that came to my mind like a video was a memory that did not exist in my mind at all.
So at first she thought it might be Lilian’s ruse, but now she was sure.
The memory that comes to mind is something that actually happened at some point in the past.
In her memories, Lilian was shedding tears.
Sadness and sadness rose up to her throat, as if she would sink into the mud of emotions that would be difficult to escape at any moment.
‘I’ll forget again…’ .’
Lilian was mourning my oblivion. So sincerely.
Before I lost my memory, my relationship with Lilian must have been special.
I’m not sure if the previous Leonhard was really me. This was available.
This memory will be her most powerful weapon to ‘convince’ her.
However, her memory was not perfect, so she couldn’t come forward hastily.
A lie will be easily discovered with only a flimsy memory, and at that moment, trust will be broken beyond repair.
So here, she had to use slightly different means.
Before that, I looked at Lilian’s face again, wondering if anything else came to mind.
Her purple hair, reminiscent of a dusky dawn, was the first thing that caught my eye. Her strands of shiny, shiny hair cascaded down her round, delicate shoulders.
Her elegant face, tightly packed like a doll, was slightly frowning, and her rich lips were tightly closed, as was her personality. With a forced smile.
As long as she didn’t open her lips and pour out hateful words, she was like a flower, no, she was more beautiful than a flower.
Once you see it, it will definitely be engraved on your retina and you will never forget it. Especially if you were crying like a memory you just remembered.
‘As expected, I don’t remember anything.’
Of course, I don’t remember seeing it in person. Even if I tried to think about it, I couldn’t think of it.
“What on earth is it? He didn’t answer the question and just kept looking. “I know I’m pretty, but if I keep looking at it, it gets worn out.”
Lilian became even more wary, as if she didn’t like my persistent gaze.
I raised the corners of her mouth in amusement.
“Okay. “I’m sorry I saw you so much.”
When I obediently backed away, Lilian grumbled as if she didn’t like it.
“Isn’t the attitude different? “You looked angry at me earlier.”
“It’s different now.”
“Why? What’s the difference? “There is no reason to change.”
Lilian jerked her head up sullenly.
I calmly lowered her head, following her movements. The distance suddenly became closer.
Lilian’s clean breath and my breath mixed together. It was at a distance where her lips seemed likely to touch at any moment.
“I….”
Lilian was startled and tried to step behind her.
But there was no place for her to run to, as her son-in-law was already blocked by her railings, bookshelves, and her arms.
Immediately, Lilian seemed to have resigned herself to my next words, her senses sharpened, and she moved her beautiful deer-like neck and raised her head. Standing with a faint smile hiding her emotions.
But no matter how calm she tried to hide her emotions, even that wasn’t easy in this street.
“I know more about you than I thought.”
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At my soft words, my transparent eyes with a blurry mix of red wavered, unable to focus properly.
“What does knowing… “I don’t know if I know.”
Lilian came out strong, but her breathing was uneven as she had already lost her composure.
“Don’t pretend there’s anything wrong. “You don’t know anything.”
Although he denied it verbally, Lilian’s eyes kept intertwined with mine as if he was still concerned.
I guess they want to know if I really got my memories back.
It was fortunate.
Her thoughts were flowing as I guided them.
Like this, I will let Lilian think that I am hiding something.
It makes you curious and makes you anxious. Then, a person’s imagination tries to fill in the unknown parts on its own.
And depending on how you handle it, imagination can become a more powerful weapon than anything else.
If only we could well control the direction of our imagination that inflates itself to fill the empty space.
If you do that, you can turn your imagination into a sharp and sharp sword that can stab you.
There is no need for further stimulation.
Lilian was already walking into the chaos of her own making.
I quietly looked at her pathetic expression as she shook, trying not to let me know she was agitated.
“…”
While making eye contact with her, her eyelids, which were already rich in eyelashes, blinked several times.
Lilian’s lips moved, wanting to say something. But after much hesitation, the words that had formed at the end of her mouth could not come out.
Her hesitation was clearly felt in the slight trembling of her eyelashes.
“You are not Leonhard.”
Lilian struggled to push her words away. I could feel her despair even to me.
“Well.”
I grinned.
“I have never been Leonhard.”
“You…” .”
The smile finally disappeared completely from the corner of her intoxicated lips.
And then slowly the raw emotions were revealed.
“I really can’t like you.”
I felt a sharp thorn in those words as if it would stab me at any moment.
But it doesn’t pierce me with those thorns.
It seems like he clearly hates me, but unlike before, he didn’t actively push me away.
‘Because you would think that I might not have lost my memory.’
What do they say about those feelings?
“I hate you.”
Unable to hold back her anger, she continued speaking.
Yes. Should the stimulation end here?
If you touch it further, it may have the opposite effect.
“Okay. Hate as much as you want. “Still, I have to go upstairs and find a place to sit.”
“Yes?”
“Let’s rest. “You’re tired, aren’t you?”
“…Is such a thing said in a situation like this? “It’s really weird.”
“Standing and arguing like this. “It won’t be fun.”
“No? Am I happy? Both physically and mentally, I am healthy and without any problems. “Aren’t you tired?”
“Don’t be stubborn. “It’s childish.”
It seemed like steam was rising from Lilian’s head, as my words were venomous.
She barely managed to catch her ragged breath.
“Yes. I’m tired of standing anyway. Let’s go up. But don’t be mistaken.”
She spoke in a cold voice that pushed me away.
“It’s not for you, it’s for me.”
She said that and looked up at me.
I smiled slightly without knowing why the persistent gaze continued.
As soon as that happened, Lilian made a pitiful expression.
“You are locking me up, how can I get out?”
Now that I think about it, my one remaining arm was blocking her path.
“Oh, that’s right. Sorry.”
I smiled sheepishly and took her arm away.
As soon as that happened, Lilian slipped out from under my shadow and went straight up her stairs as if running away.
The distance she ran away was about the distance between her arms. It was because of her clasped hands.
She kept glancing at her hand that was connected to mine, as if she didn’t like it.
“And I’m not childish.”
She must have taken those words to heart. Lilian glanced at me and walked up the stairs with great strides.
Tiring!
[Memories of the previous episode begin to come to mind.]
It was at that time that another memory came to mind.
*
As I escaped from the man’s arms and walked up, my heart was beating like crazy.
Everywhere the gaze of the man who was following me so persistently touched felt hot, as if a fire had spread.
‘That can’t be possible. Absolutely not. ‘Leonhardt’s memories will never come back.’
Leonhard, who returned to face his destruction, was unable to recall the memories of the previous episode.
So, there is no way that Leonhard knows who he is.
It’s just an excuse to escape this moment.
Throb.
‘But what if? ‘
The moment Lilian thought that, she felt like her throat was closing.
‘When I think about it….’
She also felt like the Leonhard she first met was similar to the current Leonhard.
With the man who taught me how to live in this world.
Even after I let him go, I met several Leonhardts, but not all of them were like the first Leonhardt.
So I thought that man was special. Later, I thought it was just a glorified thing, as faded memories often are.
If you think about it, it wasn’t even a beautification. Honestly, I really hated him for leaving me behind.
If we meet again, I will definitely resent you. After that, he said, do you know how desperately he suffered and what pain he suffered?
The plan was to hit and push him so that he would never be seen again.
But….
‘No way…. No. Nonsense.’
Lilian tried to ignore the dull, tingling pain radiating from her heart.
But it was of no use. Her heart was still pounding and her lower stomach itched as if she had swallowed something wrong.
It’s all because of that man. That strange Leonhard.
Lilian couldn’t help but be aware of her hand holding me.
It was harder to forget his presence because not one but both of his hands were held in his large hand.
“I’m annoyed….”
Lilian muttered softly and looked at the man walking next to her.
Now he seemed lost in thought and said nothing. I hope it continues to be quiet like that.
A little while ago, my heart almost sank because that man was acting strangely.
After that, I had trouble controlling my emotions.
Of course, he was acting perfectly normal.
Even Leonhard would not have noticed the storm blowing inside him.
He was definitely confident in that part.
‘You shouldn’t even give them a chance to say anything.’
Lilian had a weakness for Leonhard.
Just remembering the pain makes the wound throbbing and numb.
She shouldn’t have discovered that weakness.