127 – Overcoming ordeals
It wasn’t a very good life. This includes both my previous life and my current life.
No, rather, it was a life that would be evaluated as the worst. As I was looking back on the past as if I was watching a movie, I could clearly see that fact.
“This is the worst.”
“Really? “I thought it was just the life of an ordinary villain.”
“No, it’s the worst.”
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After committing my first murder – or, to be more precise, after committing my first murder in this world.
I started to think about what to do next, and eventually made a choice.
In some ways, it was naturally impossible to deal with the worst organization called the Evil Brigade alone.
So what I chose was none other than gathering colleagues.
The first comrade I chose was someone who was already destined to die.
It didn’t matter how well the evil brigade’s headquarters was hidden. Because I had their locations all in my head anyway.
After manifesting her abilities, she rescued a tragic heroine who had been imprisoned as an experiment and was about to die someday, and suddenly gained as a colleague the main character who would become a mid-boss and later the gatekeeper of the Academy.
After gaining the ability to heal, he went to the main character who could help him in the future and betrayed him and was attached to the evil brigade, and healed her wife and made her stand on their side.
Using the game’s memories, information, and capital power, we rescue and attract the villain who will become the boss of one chapter and the protagonist’s strongest ally in the second half of the chapter, and then make them feel indebted to us by making them feel indebted to them. Iranian emotions were used to attribute it to the organization.
After giving up on her life and watching the boss of a chapter who was on the verge of going crazy, he approached her at a dramatic moment and brought her and her younger brother in as colleagues, binding them to the organization through feelings of affection.
After laying the foundation for Repentance, he finally succeeded in completing an organization by attracting other extras.
These are people who were already destined to die. Or, even if he doesn’t die, he’s a person who will be heartbroken by experiencing something that could cause him to go crazy.
Since I saved them by changing their fate, shouldn’t they help me? Rather, if I continue to use them to save others, wouldn’t I be able to make this world full of tragedy move in the right direction?
So, I am doing the right thing now.
“Bringing those who were destined to die? Save them and make them survive? “You’re being damned.”
In the end, that is an excuse. Don’t you know?
Rather, I am just a criminal who twisted their fate and made it even worse.
“Corrupting the heroine.”
Tragic heroine – Eugene.
No matter how much she died, it would have corrupted her that she would have died happy, with her wide smile on her face.
Even though I could have handed it over to the hero and given him a chance to have a true happy ending without dying this time, I pulled him in for me.
“Make the main character a supporting character.”
Mid-boss and academy security guard – Sang-hoon.
Even though he was devastated by losing his mother and Eugene, he was using the hero who eventually overcame and led him to victory until the end by turning him into a mere criminal.
Together with Eugene, he saved her older brother’s mother and deprived her of the opportunity to live a smiling life.
“Leading the helper down the path to destruction.”
A boy who was a villain but was saved and became one of the best helpers, and a boy who suffered from an unfortunate past and as an experiment but was saved and would become the best helper – Jeongbo and Zero.
He instilled a sense of debt in them, pulled them from good to evil, and then wielded them as he pleased.
I pulled in people who could have given help right away and then empowered the main characters, due to my selfish whim.
“He is his worst enemy, but he can also be his worst ally, and he takes advantage of him as he pleases.”
Excluding the final boss, Eunji was probably the most difficult villain.
She pretended to save her and her younger brother, and ultimately did her favor, killing her would-be enemies and coaxing them into settling down with her kind words.
She nodded her head, saying it was only natural to smile and say that she was the one who ultimately took advantage of her younger brother, but that her younger brother allowed her to stand on the hero side.
“Damn it. At last. “It was irredeemable trash.”
He could have taken a better path, but keeping them by his side was purely for his own purposes.
In the end, I was just a damn selfish bastard.
Kang Hyeon-woo was born as an orphan, grew up in an orphanage, wasted all opportunities in life, grew up as a person who terrorizes others, and eventually lived a life befitting a criminal and met a befitting end.
Lee Hyun-woo also had another opportunity to live a new life, but he gave up on his life, blaming his lack of talent, so he kicked the opportunity away and became a villain once again.
“Well, I was just a coward.”
Since I was a child, there was nothing I could do but violence, so I used violence even as an adult.
If I tried hard, I could have lived a normal life like everyone else, but I was afraid that I would have to face the terrible truth I saw when I was young. Because I wanted to compensate for my unfortunate childhood life, and because I wanted to succeed more than anyone else, I fell into the path of evil.
Even though I came to this world where I had another opportunity, I eventually gave up.
He eventually gave up, making the excuse that he couldn’t become a hero with his weak strength, and so he was attacked by a villain who targeted the day he went to submit his resignation letter, hurting his precious people.
Because he didn’t have the courage to go down this path after being told that he was a villain by others, or because he feared that people like his new family, including himself, might die, he ended up betraying them all and living as a villain.
In the past, I was pushed around by the numerous failures and miserable facts I experienced as a child, and in the present, I was once again afraid of continuing the past and failing again.
In the end, he was just a coward who became a villain and got others, including his loved ones, involved.
The stubbornness of a child who twisted everything and wrapped himself up by saying that it was for the sake of others and that he had no choice, but in the end, things didn’t go his way and he got upset and fussed.
The vanity of a child who is unable to face reality due to his lack of ability and wants to live a life full of envy and not being ignored by others.
I may have been able to realize that this is the meaning of the existence of the country that created Repentance only now that everything is over.
“Maybe I have become an adult without being able to escape from being a child yet.”
Blue sky, spacious house.
A family that smiles warmly, friends who laugh and talk while joking, an abundance of capital, and a satisfying life that lacks nothing.
If we were talking about a novel or a game, it would be like one main character. A life where you can live confidently and be recognized by everyone.
I had the delusion of a child who went out the door expecting everything, but I may have been moving forward even though I knew it was the wrong path, in order to somehow achieve the dream that I couldn’t give up even though I already knew it was a lie.
Becoming a new villain and gathering my friends to form Repentance may have been a family game where I found people who could become family with an asshole like me.
“You’re not even an adult anymore, are you?”
“You’re an adult at heart, right? Now, on the outside… I’m an adult soon. Well, it doesn’t mean anything now.”
But I guess I should stop now.
Although I was an adult in the past, I was ruined in my first life when I acted like a child, so shouldn’t I be more mature in my second life? Even more so since there is not much left until adulthood.
Of course, it was already too late.
“I end up here anyway.”
These are the words of a loser who was defeated by the Dream Eater who is currently speaking to him, and who ultimately cannot do either this or that.
Even if you come to realize and regret now, the end of the person who threw away even his second life here is only a belated regret of someone who has already ended.
Those who are eaten by the dream end up either dying or facing a situation worse than death.
If the Dream Eater wins, he will become a doll that will be manipulated and hung in his dreams, but this time he will become an extra.
Even if Dream Eater is defeated and someone else wins, in the end, the person trapped in the dream will just turn into a corpse and pass out.
If there is only one way to escape from this place-
“What if there was a chance?”
“…What?”
The Dream Eater who is controlling this dream is here right now, smiling and looking at me with somewhat bitter eyes.
“If there was a way to get out of here and start over, what would you do?”
Like a story in a game. All I had to do was give up on all the ones I had already caught and take them out myself.