The house was quiet. The sky, which had had a brilliant color a while ago, was also dyed a dull gray color.
After wandering around the house for a while in a drowsy atmosphere, I found a piece of paper on the table.
―I’ll take a look while I’m in Seoul. We’ll be arriving late, so don’t worry about the two of us and take care of our work.
“No worries. I gave you the password, and he will come back when the time is right.”
The older sister, who quietly uttered a word, went straight to the bathroom.
“Dojin-ah.”
“Oh, my sister. why?”
“When you come home, wash your hands first. And if you’re going to see it, see it now. I’m going to wash my sister.”
After washing my hands, the door to the bathroom slammed shut as soon as I got out. With that cold attitude, I had no choice but to move as if being kicked out.
“⋯⋯.”
I sat down on the sofa in the living room and calmly looked back on what had happened in the park a while ago.
My sister didn’t believe me. I was mistakenly thinking that it was pure guilt that I was with her.
So I proved it and asked him to believe it.
That was it. it was all
⋯⋯Are there any mistakes?
A sigh escaped reflexively. I felt the sound of the shower blaring slowly from beyond the living room, soaking my whole body.
All the way home from the park, my sister didn’t say a word. I tried to talk to him a few times to check his reaction, but the only thing that came back was the cold sound of his breathing.
If I had shown a passionate reaction like Midsummer or Yu Ga-ryun, I would have been able to continue the story even with sophistry.
In this situation, if you try to squeeze the horse by force, isn’t it pouring water into the poison that fell out?
I was tossing and turning for a while, looking for a solution, when I heard the sound of a door opening from beyond.
“Dojin-ah.”
The older sister, who was roughly dressed in a large box tee, opened her mouth while wiping her hair with a towel.
“Uh, uh. sister.”
“You ⋯⋯ stink of sweat.”
“uh?”
“Wash up and come quickly.”
* * *
As I stepped out the door, a cool breeze blew past my skin. It wasn’t an unpleasant feeling. Rather, it felt like cooling my hot hair.
Yeah, whatever it is, you just have to take it easy. as it has always been.
“Dojin-ah.”
Suddenly, a shrill voice was heard from far away.
“Come here when you are all washed.”
A voice was coming from the bedroom.
“hurry.”
At the voice of a little urgency, I hurriedly moved. The hallway was pitch black with no fluorescent lights turned on.
And the same goes for the bedroom.
“sister?”
Someone grabbed my palm as I was about to turn on the fluorescent light in frustration.
I turned my head in surprise, and what caught my eye was ivory hair that was waving faintly.
My older sister buried her face in my back and opened her mouth in a low voice.
“Don’t look this way.”
“Sister⋯⋯?”
“Turn your head back, quickly⋯⋯.”
There was a strange sense of pressure in his slightly trembling voice. Seeing that she turned her head while fumbling with her palms on her face, the older sister reached out over my back and closed the door.
Soon after, the door was locked with a shuddering sound.
“Sister, what is this?”
“Stay still.”
I felt a soft touch on my back, which had been standing on the edge of tension. Without a moment of resistance, my sister patted me on the back and started moving forward.
Something is going wrong. Such a feeling passed through the nape of my neck.
“who-.”
“I told you to stay still!”
I felt a slight pain in my arm. It was because of my sister holding my wrist by the back.
Like a detective transporting criminals, the older sister who subdued me soon threw me on the bed.
“If you just stand still, noona will take care of everything for you⋯⋯.”
Through the thick darkness, a pure white outline was shining little by little.
The bulging chest stimulated the primal instinct, and the curved lines below it created a sensual atmosphere.
was not naked. She was still wearing underwear.
On the contrary, the appearance, which was covered with a thin cloth that seemed to be blown away by even the slightest breath, reinforced the bizarre atmosphere.
It was the first time in my life that I felt the nerves all over my body swell at the half-naked woman I had ever seen.
“what are you doing?”
But contrary to that physiological reaction, the words that came out of my mouth remained cold.
“I’m sorry if I was disappointed. But now the only thing my sister can give me is this⋯⋯.”
“That’s not what you’re talking about.”
“⋯⋯Still, men like it. like this.”
I could feel the veins in the middle of my forehead rising.
“I don’t go anywhere and hear that I’m ugly. I’ve gotten a lot of confessions, and I’ve been offered many times whether I want to become a model. That, so Dojin is sure to be for you too.”
“My sister is only for that reason.”
I grabbed my sister’s hand as she climbed onto me and lifted the clothes she was wearing.
That hand was trembling.
“Are you doing this to anyone?”
“no!”
A trembling voice resounded throughout the room.
“You, only you.”
Her sister’s desperate voice was proving that it was true.
“You’re the first person I want to give to someone because they’re nice, too nice, and even forcibly. Well, if you don’t do that, I⋯⋯!”
So, I might be even more angry.
“⋯⋯It’s always like that, sister.”
At that one word, the sound of my sister’s breathing that had been circling the room subsided in an instant.
My sister stared blankly into my eyes for a moment, then began to catch her breath, shaking her whole body.
“Then⋯⋯.”
There was moisture in the voice that came out of her squeaky lips.
“Then what should my sister do?”
And it seemed that some resentment had melted away.
I don’t care. ‘Cause it’s common anyway
“If you say you don’t need money, you don’t need an introspection, and you say you don’t need all, all, all, what should I do?”
“I never asked you to do that.”
“It can’t be!”
My sister, who had shaken off my hand, wrapped her arms around my face and clasped it.
“⋯⋯I mean, I knew.”
“⋯⋯What.”
“Dojin knew from a long time ago that you dislike vegetarian food, that you sometimes get upset in the bathroom because of it, that the movies I bring with you didn’t suit your taste, and that you had feelings of dissatisfaction with me for meddling in my hobbies. ”
My sister looked into my eyes and continued to speak quietly, as if to listen directly.
“But I pretended not to know. No, I was trying to pretend I didn’t know. I thought it was insignificant. Because I thought that was the way for you. Because I thought it was right. So I installed a GPS app on your phone without your permission to monitor every move, and I used the excuse that I was worried that I might have entered a strange site and looked through the computer records whenever I had spare time. Later, I thought that was not enough, so I chased after them myself, and I was afraid that they would leave without my knowledge, so I stopped them from buying a car. As if I could be anything⋯⋯!”
Tears fell from my sister’s eyes and ran down my cheeks.
“I didn’t even want to admit it when you left. I didn’t want to admit it was my fault. After that, I have no means to hold you anymore. It was only after you completely disappeared that I could see reality. that it was all my fault From one to ten, there was nothing that wasn’t my fault. I shouldn’t have had Dojin appear in front of me. But in the end, I can’t do without Dojin. I can’t afford to live with my face. I’d rather die than that. So I hung up Even though I knew it couldn’t be, I shamelessly appeared in front of you and begged for forgiveness. And that wasn’t enough, so I got caught up in an incident that I don’t even know English anymore. I couldn’t even understand the topic even though I was a little bit upset, and I laughed out loud and did a lot of creepy things.”
My older sister, who was drooping while holding her collar to my chest, immediately screamed like a scream.
“If you don’t want something, you can’t be around this crazy woman!”
At those unbelievable words, I could feel a cry from the inside and some words coming up.
“Then what is your sister?”
That’s what I’ve been wanting to say for a long time, ever since I met her.
“Why did you treat me so well when you didn’t know anything about me? What the hell are you doing right now?”
Passionate emotions ran through my throat. Now I was talking almost as if I was vomiting.
“What kind of existence am I to noona⋯⋯.”
limit.
It is very dangerous to act with emotions in a situation on the verge of reaching each other’s limits.
Perhaps, it will destroy everything that has been built up until now.
However, change is always accompanied by shock. What has been destroyed can be rebuilt.
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If only he couldn’t bear that much effort, he wouldn’t have even started.