“Dojin, are you crazy?”
A few drops of rotten water flowed out of Dasom’s mouth.
“Sister, that’s not what I mean⋯⋯.”
“Be quiet and listen to your sister.”
That’s what I said, but Dasom couldn’t figure out how to continue the story. Why was he angry in the first place?
because of that girl? not. It’s annoying, but it feels a little different.
Originally, anger towards others should be like boiling lava, but now his own blood was surprisingly cold.
It’s so cold that my blood vessels hurt. It would be appropriate to describe the feeling of the thorn vines moving back and forth in the arm.
This is anger against yourself. He felt helpless and disgusted with himself for not being able to protect his only brother.
Then, when Yu-Jin becomes happy, does this feeling disappear?
If he encourages him as if he is hoping, and encourages him to do well with her once again, will he be able to return to the starting point and live happily as usual?
No, never. That’s just an ideal.
An ideal is only a theoretically perfect form. It cannot be substituted for the imperfect and absurd reality.
Didn’t Dajun Lee prove that?
If the parents had exercised their power as a local maintainer from the beginning without practicing the humble values such as humility, equality, and sharing, no one would have touched the younger brother.
If he had evaluated his younger brother from a more objective point of view and tried to find out his shortcomings and try to change it, even if he had only tried to guess his younger brother’s school life based on those shortcomings, the child would not have died.
Such a thing must never happen again. No, I wouldn’t do that.
It was then that she felt as if she knew what to say.
“What? misunderstanding? At this point, do you feel like you’re on her side?”
Even if there is a misunderstanding, even if it can be solved, it is meaningless.
What matters is what happens after that.
“He has no intention of accepting your heart. So it didn’t come out.”
Yu-jin’s face became even more miserable, but Dasom had no intention of stopping.
“Even if it’s just that something happened and there was a conflict, it would be resolved if you left a phone call or a text message.”
Dasom lowered her voice, took a deep breath and opened her mouth again.
“Dojin-ah, this is your fault too. A confession shouldn’t be done so suddenly. You should have thought about how the person in front of you would feel before speaking up.”
Yujin’s shoulders shook slightly.
“Most people, I mean, pretend to be kind in order not to be hated. But if you mistake it for a favor and hit your heart without any preparation, it’s really embarrassing. If you react wrongly, everything you have built up until now may collapse.”
It’s not an improvised word. Because she was actually a person who had suffered for a long time because of such an irresponsible confession.
“You too, don’t just whine and think about it. Why did she reject your heart⋯⋯?”
Dasom’s eyebrows raised slightly as he continued to speak. It was because of the small light that was floating in Yu Yu-jin’s eyes.
Perseverance, or persistence.
Those eyes, which I usually thought were very cool, felt like the devil’s mouth of a child who doesn’t listen these days.
“⋯⋯Dojin-ah, don’t be offended and listen.”
I didn’t want to end up like this, but I can’t help it. If I just let it go now, I’m sure I’ll be hurt even more.
What we need now is a thorough awareness of reality.
“Yeah, sister, I understand, you can be mistaken. You are the only man in the club. But think about it. Seol-ha was a member of the club from the beginning, Ga-ryun joined because she liked Seol-ha, and Min-seo just joined because she liked movies. You are here because you like the club, not because Dojin likes you.”
However, if you continue to speak in a state of excitement, the logic will disappear and the meaning will be distorted.
“⋯⋯Then what about your sister?”
“uh?”
Dasom was speechless.
Why are you in the club?
So, it was because we became friends through a ⋯⋯ game, and during that dinner party, he said that he would join a club because of drunkenness.
But no one really believes the story that came out of the drinking party. If I was going to refuse, I could have refused enough.
He just entered because of Yu-Jin. Because I wanted to see Dojin up close.
But can I say this now? This is the exact opposite of the logic I followed a while ago. Second of all, if you say something wrong, even the act of ‘protection’ you’ve done in the past may be exposed. Then it’s really over.
“⋯⋯.”
No, they don’t matter. It’s not like those eyes are asking themselves.
yourself.
You are asking what you think of the individual Yu-Jin. I’m asking you to tell me I’m asking for confirmation.
hey i like it I like it as a friend, as a family.
I like it.
What if I met a man named Yu Yu-jin in college for the first time without any background like everyone else?
If only he hadn’t been like his brother.
Could he have come to like him?
I don’t know why, but a thought like that suddenly popped into Dasom’s head.
“No, my sister.”
Is it true that he likes Yu Yu-jin in a pure sense?
“So⋯⋯Liquor⋯⋯.”
I wasn’t confident
“⋯⋯Sorry, I forgot.”
Yu Yu-jin interrupted the words that were leaking out of Idasom’s mouth.
“Do, Jin-ah. Just ⋯⋯.”
“No, it’s okay. your sister is right I should have thought about why I was rejected first, but I was just obsessed.”
Yu Yu-jin, who looked up at the ceiling for a moment, got up immediately.
“Thank you for listening. I will go soon.”
couldn’t stop
She had no choice but to stare blankly at the back figure disappearing through the crack in the door.
* * *
I lost contact with Yoo-jin. She didn’t even have the courage to contact her.
In the midst of sitting and spending meaningless time like that, Yu-Jin Yu first contacted me.
― I’m sorry for calling you suddenly, what I want to say⋯⋯.
Without seeing everything, I ran out in a hurry.
It’s been a long time since I’ve seen him in a military uniform, so he feels a little more reliable, but that’s just his appearance.
The eyes peeking through the long eyelashes had long since lost their shine.
Dasom felt her heart sink.
Eyes I’ve ever seen Yes, he knows those eyes.
Those are Lee Da-joon’s eyes.
before dying.
Being isolated, something you could build when no one was on your side.
now it is I no longer had to worry about complicated emotions. It was more terrifying than that. I’m afraid I’ll lose I’m afraid I’ll leave again
I know that once a word is said, it cannot be picked up. I know that kid doesn’t trust me anymore. I have to do it though.
We must do everything we can to protect this child. You have to make yourself happy as much as you hurt yourself. Never again, never, let the last time goblin or pests hurt Dojini.
so that.
By installing a GPS app on Yudo-jin’s smartphone and installing a spycam at home, he was thoroughly prepared for any emergencies. They stick around every day and make Dojin realize that he is not alone. It made Dojini finish all the work she had to do so that she didn’t have to work hard. He learned and fed a vegan diet that was reputed to be good for health. He disposed of the plastic model that was not suitable for Dojini’s age, a hobby that made him weak, and blocked all media that had a detrimental effect. In that way, while bringing only good things, he tried to recover Dojini’s health both physically and mentally.
All to protect Dojini.
But that was a blatant lie.
He only wanted to restore the lost trust. I just wanted to believe that one day I would be able to be on Dojin’s side again if I showed my constant loyalty.
monopoly desire.
Looking back, that day, when Yoo Yu-jin told her story, the emotion she felt was not anger.
that was impatience.
Because if Yu-jin has a girlfriend, she just becomes an uncomfortable girlfriend. It’s just that he becomes a madman who calls himself the older sister of a man who has no blood.
Because the only person in the world who can wipe the blood off his hands will be taken away.
I hoped to get his sincerity on the subject of using him as a substitute for someone else, and on a subject that I had never shared my sincerity with for fear of being treated as an abnormal person.
It was only after he left the company that I found out about that simple fact.
An unbearable sense of guilt welled up. I just wanted to say I’m sorry somehow. He hoped that Yu-Jin would punish him for his atrocities.
But in the end, without being able to achieve anything, he again reached out to Yu-jin and got help.
“⋯⋯.”
A stream of water flowed down from Dasom’s eyes once more. The tears that fell wet Yu Yu-jin’s cheeks beneath him and flowed down again.