44 – Haerin Kang (44)
Haerin Kang (44)
After my somewhat shriveled but sincere and passionate words, Haerin Kang escaped from my arms.
“…what can I do…”
she said hesitantly.
“I don’t mean to ignore it… but if you’re thinking of killing Ban Yi Jae, that’s absolutely not acceptable. If it’s going to happen anyway, it’s only right that I kill him, not him. They are my prey.”
“Strong Haerin.”
I said.
“The expression ‘prey,’ is prohibited from now on.”
“……..”
“You don’t hunt people. You never hunted people. People are just people.”
“… but he must be me…”
“that’s right. I made you a killer.”
“……”
“But you don’t have to live like that. You’ve never ‘really’ killed anyone yet. There is no need to follow the novels I wrote.”
I said it with an honest heart.
“The killer in the novel and you are definitely different people. Of course, they are the same person, but the Kang Haerin I love is you here. So it’s okay.”
At my words, Kang Hae-rin lowered her head, chewed her lips carefully, and thought for a long time.
“Because I found out.”
She said.
“It became a problem because they found out that I was a character in a novel. yes? What he said was not wrong. If only I hadn’t known that. But now, you know, you’ve become a different person.”
Through her words after long deliberation, I finally realized her sincerity.
Like the rhythm that breaks a new record in group jumping rope but collapses the moment you become ‘conscious’ of it.
Like feet that get tangled as soon as they become aware of the fact that they are running in first place in a two-person triathlon.
She came to doubt her own existence.
That’s why you were worried
At first, I would have been on my own.
A beautiful face, a perfect body, a look that everyone looks up to, a flawless personality, speaking skills, wealth, and even excellent acting and martial arts skills.
A work of art created by one person, Lee Dong-min, with the greatest efforts he can create.
Because you would have thought that it was you.
But as time went on, she would ask me again and again why I was rejecting her.
Moreover, he must have been afraid to see the ‘disparities’ appearing between the self he wrote in the 『Journal』 and the real self.
Because Lee Dong-min’s perfect ‘ideal type’ is in the novel, Kang Hae-rin in reality gradually moves away from it.
Fiction and reality are different.
Fiction is nothing more than a compilation of reality.
This is actually my opinion. Anyway, in the constant rejection and rejection, Kang Hae-rin in the ‘real world’ was little by little frustrated.
Unlike fictional characters, real people have emotions, and if they fail, they become frustrated and despair.
Kang Haerin’s words made my heart heavy.
The existence of Kang Hae-rin became sad.
The grotesque imagination that Kang Hae-rin would have killed producer Ban Yuri and fed me the meat is also the same.
It was a morbid delusion that I would never have had if I hadn’t had a ‘prejudice’ against Kang Hae-rin.
In short, because she was the creator of Kang Hae-rin, I doubted and distrusted her more than anyone else.
Kang Hae-rin ‘felt’ that fact.
So I was desperate.
“… Is that why you asked to be killed?”
There was considerable silence between thoughts and words.
Even though the process was not revealed at all, Kang Hae-rin answered as if he had read my mind.
“huh. If even you think of me that way… it’s right for me to act that way.”
I felt like my face would turn red.
I pretended to be cool, but wasn’t it me who treated her with stereotypes more than anyone else?
“Haerin Kang, you just need to be yourself.”
I hugged Haerin Kang again.
“… It’s not something a person who wrote a novel would say, but I think it was written when I was sick in the soul. Now I’m more mature than I was then, and I’m healthier. That’s why I don’t love Kang Hae-rin in that novel as much as I did back then. The real you, I like you better.”
speak up again
It was the only thing I could do.
Maybe these are words for me.
“I will protect you. And we’ll make it so we can live happily ever after. Trust me.”
“… huh.”
After a while she spoke to my chest.
#
After talking with Kang Hae-rin, I first decided to pull back my original plan and live with her.
This is to prevent the imminent trespassing of Ban Yi-jae.
But I’m not sure if this is the right option.
The existence of ‘I’ who anticipates what will happen in the future is probably the disruptor of the order in the novel.
And since Kang Hae-rin has already become such an existence, the degree of disorder will rise further.
According to the story in 『Ilji』, Kang Hae-rin killing Ban Lee-jae is a predetermined result, but we do not know how the existence of the two of us will change the future.
The main character, Kang Hae-rin, thinks she will never die from Ban Lee-jae, but will that happen?
Kang Hae-rin said ‘I will not kill’ to my persuasion, but he was still worried about ‘no countermeasure’.
“I am confident that I will not become a monster.”
So Haerin Kang said so.
“If only Ban Lee Jae is killed, then we can be happy. I already killed that guy in my head. You just have to do it.”
Tapping her head lightly, she put on a face full of competence and confidence in herself.
“If you kill Ban Yi-jae, nothing threatens us. Then wouldn’t it be better for me to sort out the man… and make us happy as soon as possible than to go out uncertainly? And have a baby…”
“… do you want to have a child?”
“Yes, a baby that looks like you.”
“……”
Seeing my expression, she added.
“Since I was born in Dong-min’s head, in theory… is this supposed to be incest?”
“… I didn’t think so.”
She laughed as she saw me blushing.
… There was nothing wrong with her words.
I mean, other than her jokes about incest, she could kill Ban Yi-jae herself.
Can Hae-Rin Kang kill Ban Lee-Jae without damage?
She thought it was too simple.
It probably means that she believes in my worldview and the ability I gave her, but as I said, there are many variables.
‘Reality does not proceed like a novel.’
There are many things to worry about.
‘I won’t become a monster?’
Once Kang Hae-rin gets blood on her hands, can she remain as ‘sunny’ as she is now?
That’s why I decided not to follow the story of the novel on purpose and to disrupt the order altogether.
The same goes for me living with her.
We do not follow the novel.
We will transcend fiction.
From nob le mt l. co m
Just as I declared that I didn’t want Kang Haerin to kill, and that she was not a character in my novel.
“no way. Harin.”
“……..”
‘Ban Yi-jae’ is Kang Hae-rin’s first victim, and can be said to be the victim of ‘Kang Hae-rin’s beginning’.
If he doesn’t know about the novel, if we don’t do anything to break the flow, he’ll break into Kang Hae-rin’s house as originally planned.
I thought about him
It was a very trivial occasion, but Ban Yi-jae was a man who had already accidentally committed murder.
If I remember correctly, I would go to a club with my friends and get into a fight and stab a man to death.
Fortunately, he was not arrested.
From nob le mt l. co m
Just as it changed his life, wouldn’t Haerin Kang become like him by committing murder?
“……”
A murderer cannot go back.
Even if you quit, you will, and even if you quit, you will soon be plagued by temptations and impulses.
That’s why I’m stopping Kang Hae-rin.
If, by any chance, she actually commits murder, she will be tormented for the rest of her life, suffering from an incomparable murderous intent.
In the future, I had to find Ban Lee Jae.
He will be able to use that information to protect Kang Hae-rin and find Ban Lee-jae at the same time.
Ban Yi-jae, who has a sadistic personality, has long revisited and excited about the experience of ‘beating’ someone to death, so he imagines that he wants to do it again.
It is connected with s*xual desire, and it leads to the morbid imagination of wanting to kill as much ‘beauty’ as possible, not the man who was the previous victim.
Of course, the story of 『Ilji』 is that the target was Kang Hae-rin, who was mentally endangered, so he received true education, but if I left it alone, similar results would come out, but this is not true education.
If Kang Hae-rin becomes a murderer, it will be my defeat.
The victory condition is to isolate my creation from society without her intervening.
“The novel will go down.”
I told Haerin Kang.
“The PD accepted the request.”
“Not at all?”
“huh. Other platforms too.”
He seemed to have suffered a bit of trouble, but his voice was down, but he gave us all the novels he had posted on the N platform as well as the articles he had advanced to other places.
Right after that, I searched the news.
There seemed to be no ‘actualization’ other than Ban Yi-jae.
Among the victims in the novel, mainly celebrities.
And I searched for anything related to the episodes immediately after Ban Lee Jae, but there was nothing like that.
I had at least an hour left.
Only half Lee Jae needs to organize it.
Then, no one can stop Kang Hae-rin from living an ordinary life.
The problem was that it wasn’t easy.
“I’ll pack up and come. Harin.”
“huh-!”
Funny enough, because of the existence of Ban Lee Jae, Kang Hae-rin and I lived together faster, and she didn’t seem worried at all when she was being stalked.
“… I’ve said it many times, but Haerin will never let you touch Ban Lee Jae. And, I said You are different from the characters in my novels. Of course, other results may come out.”
I said sternly.
It doesn’t mean simply not being vigilant.
A lot might have changed.
Looking at Kang Hae-rin lightly carrying Song Yeon-woo, who was threatening Baek Yu-ram, it seems that her ability itself has been transferred intact, but-
Worst case, you never know.
What variables will there be?
Kang Hae-rin nodded at my words.
“Okay, me too… I’ll be careful.”
#
Returning home, I had no intention of hiding that I had become a community of destiny with Kang Hae-rin.
So, I was prepared for my sister to turn upside down and confessed everything.
She hung up the phone abruptly, wailing for a long time until her ears fell.
but after a while
He contacted me in a strangely resigned tone and said that he would come to help me organize the movers.
While waiting for her to come, I called the moving company and packed the surrounding items appropriately.
I also searched on my laptop in my spare time.
The red wine-colored laptop, which was also the opportunity to meet Kang Hae-rin for the first time, was still in a dead state.
It seemed like it would be of great help if it was turned on, but I decided not to obsess over it.
With just the fact that they know the world in the novel well, the main characters of the web novel can overcome the dangers well and achieve their goals in the end.
It was no longer the time to make excuses.
#
“Oh, are you here?”
Song Yeon-wu held on to his still aching back and gestured to his friend, while pushing panties, towels, and dusty books straying on the floor to a corner.
“Did you buy chicken? Oh, f*ck, I’m getting bitten from eating so much chicken, did you have any other options? No, no, come in, thank you, I’ll eat well. The alcohol is at home.”
He set the poor folding table with one leg creaking on the floor and took the bag.
The smell of chicken spread throughout the room.
“uh? this? Oh, don’t talk. Damn, I was bullied by a year to work on it. Emchang. f*ck.”
Song Yeon-woo laughed out loud as if he was stunned.
“I was going to give it a try because my breasts were so damn big, but it turns out that sh*t, you’re a martial arts girl, aren’t you? When I came to my senses, I was lying on the concrete floor. You should consider yourself lucky that you didn’t break your head, well.”
When he opened the fried chicken leg first, the juices ran down his mouth.
He said, guzzling a cold beer.
“I didn’t do it, damn it… No, anyway, I won’t even go near Baek Yu-ram anymore. By the way, haven’t you had a b*tch recently? I don’t like planning pornography.”
Song Yeon-woo looked at the phone his friend gave him.
“Ah, hey, this is what I showed you before. I don’t have a daughter after having a father once.”
He mumbled as if he was disappointed, but he showed curiosity at his friend’s unusual words.
“what? who? What year has it been that half of the world is trembling and unable to speak? Is she so pretty that she can’t even talk to a wagwu like you? do you have a picture? see. look.”
A friend browsed through the gallery and showed the picture.
“Wow, sh*t- how did you take the picture?”
Song Yeon-woo, who was getting more and more confused as he got drunk, had pieces of chicken sticking out of his mouth and shouted.
“This year, Haerin Kang, f*ck, I know, hey, this is the year I said. One year to throw me off-!”