168 – 163. Dormitory
In the end, the argument was this.
Is it s*xual desire or love?
That is the question.
In fact, anyone can have this kind of concern at least once.
But isn’t there such a saying?
“You don’t have dirty fantasies about someone you really like.”
Senior Joo-hee, who was drinking coffee at my words, is startled.
A nearby cafe with few people.
We had come in for a while and were talking.
I emphasize it again as if it were the truth.
“Did you know? You don’t have dirty fantasies about someone you like.”
“……Is that so?”
Senior Joo-hee was embarrassed as if she had heard it for the first time, but I nodded without hesitation.
That’s the way it is.
You don’t get horny with someone you really like.
“That’s why you shouldn’t confuse s*xual desire with love. Did you know? Have you ever masturbated with that person? Then you need to re-establish your feelings.”
“……”
Senior Joo-hee’s shoulders immediately sagged.
To be honest, this was also a case-by-case basis. Anyway, I was trying to get her to think again by talking to her like this.
‘Wait a minute.’
Then suddenly.
I realized a hidden truth.
Judging from her reaction now, doesn’t it mean that Senior Joo-hee has masturbated with me?
Suddenly, I imagined Senior Joo-hee moving her hands vigorously, moaning and calling my name.
Smack!
‘You’re crazy!’
I immediately slapped my cheek and came to my senses.
No matter what, this is not it.
That’s why I didn’t go to a bar but a cafe on purpose.
I could take advantage of Senior Joo-hee’s confusion and say, ‘Then, senior, shall we check it out?’ and take her to a hotel.
I could make her excited by saying, ‘Emotions are originally difficult to define by oneself. It’s important to feel it.’ and making physical contact with her while she’s confused.
Or I could just say, ‘Let’s have a drink and think about it together.’ and go to a bar and get drunk together and I don’t know what else I could do to corrupt her!
To be honest, it seemed very easy!
‘……The probability seems high.’
What would this woman be like in bed?
If you continue to think by yourself, you often cross the line.
This was exactly the case right now, so I answered while looking at Senior Joo-hee, who was confused, once again.
“Senior, but that’s not shameful.”
“Huh?!”
The senior, who had been drinking coffee all the time because she thought it was shameful, replied awkwardly.
“It’s natural for people to do that. You’ve lived much more intensely than others, so you may not know about this and make a mistake.”
“……”
“It’s not shameful. There are people who are too honest about their s*xual desires.”
Seo Ye-rin is a typical example.
I don’t know if it’s because I saw Seo Ye-rin’s true nature, but Senior Joo-hee’s concerns felt rather light.
That’s why I can give her advice without any burden.
The numerous fantasies I had just thought of were still lingering in my head.
It seemed like I could drag Senior Joo-hee to a hotel if I pushed her a little harder.
“It’s getting late.”
After finishing the remaining coffee in one shot, I smiled at the senior and said,
“Let’s go back to the dormitory.”
After that, we headed to the dormitory together.
There was no separate conversation on the way.
Sometimes the senior would glance at me, but that was the end of it.We had arrived at the dormitory before I knew it.
I hadn’t eaten dinner, but I wasn’t hungry.
I just wanted to go back to my room and lie down. My body wasn’t tired, but my mind was exhausted, and I wanted to get away from Joohee sunbae.
“Well, I’ll be going then. I had fun today, sunbae.”
As I greeted her with a smile, Joohee sunbae, who had been staring at me, took a step closer.
“Just once.”
Joohee sunbae’s flushed face had become familiar to me.
With a voice full of longing, sunbae asked me.
“Can you just hug me once?”
“…….”
“I want to see if I’m mistaken, like you said.”
Sunbae’s request was sweet.
So much so that I wanted to reach out and hug her without even realizing it.
So.
“No.”
I refused.
“I don’t think that’s a good idea.”
I have someone I like.
I didn’t know who it was, and I didn’t understand my feelings clearly, but I understood sunbae.
Even so, I needed to draw a line.
“…….”
It was the first time.
I had seen sunbae’s face like she was about to cry.
Unlike the sunbae who had been so confident in front of the gangsters, she looked like she was going to collapse at any moment.
I quickly went into the dormitory.
Thud, thud.
The sound of my footsteps felt unusually loud, and the inside of the dormitory was unusually quiet.
I felt guilty for leaving Joohee sunbae alone.
But strangely, I was sure that what I had done was right.
I went into my room, thinking that I should go back and play a game or watch YouTube to refresh my mood.
“You’re here?”
Choi Yiseo, who was lying on the bed looking at her phone, got up from her seat.
“Don’t you come here too often?”
I’ve been coming here too often since I moved into the dormitory. I understand why I come here because it’s convenient since I naturally get closer to my room when I come to school.
But now I come here almost every other day, so it’s embarrassing.
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“I was helping the freshmen and came here to rest for a while. It’s not very comfortable to lie down in a place like the lounge.”
“Are you still helping the freshmen?”
I said that she was helping them too often, but Yiseo smiled and changed the subject.
“Did you have a good time with Joohee sunbae?”
She knew.
I tried to answer lightly, but the image of Joohee sunbae just now came to mind and I suddenly stopped talking.
At that,
Choi Yiseo noticed that something was wrong and looked at me for a moment.
“Come here.”
She called me, stretching out her arms.
“I don’t feel like it.”
I had just had something like that with Joohee sunbae, and I felt uncomfortable about being in another woman’s arms right away.
But Choi Yiseo walked towards me and hugged me tightly, as if she was clinging to me.
“Are you having a hard time?”
There was nothing behind it.
Choi Yiseo, who was just asking me gently as if to comfort me, made me sigh without me realizing it.
“A little?”
“What’s hard?”
“Just…… I can’t do as much as I want for the people I like?”
After all, there was only one person I liked.
“And that I might just be selfish for thinking this way?”
It’s not like I can say something ridiculous like I’m going to hold everyone in my arms.
“I’m sorry. Can I just think about it a little longer?”
“How can you say such bad things and pretend to be good, Woojin?”Choi Yiseo spoke playfully with a smile.
Although I apologized, Choi Yiseo didn’t respond separately. Instead, she simply tightened her arms around me.
Whenever I talked to Choi Yiseo, I felt my heart lighten.
She tells me everything without holding back, whether it’s my selfish side, my indecisive side, or my honest side.
And yet, her tone of voice, emotions, and actions never change in the slightest.
It felt like she was comforting me, telling me that even someone like me was okay.
Unlike Seo Yerim, she affirmed me with a different feeling.
That it was possible.
I carefully hugged Choi Yiseo, who was telling me with her whole body.
How long had it been like that?
I lowered my hands, grabbed Choi Yiseo’s thighs, and carried her to the bed.
Thud!
Choi Yiseo was startled as I laid her down.
“Hey, wait! I didn’t mean to do that?!”
“Yiseo, do you know?”
It’s complicated because of Sunbae Juhee.
I know it’s morally wrong to do something like this.
Emotionally, I was still confused.
“Love and s*xual desire are different.”
s*xual desire is honest.
What can I do?
Love and s*xual desire are similar in color, but there is a slight difference.
As I buried my face in her chest, Choi Yiseo grabbed my hair and pulled it back sharply.
“I don’t have any clothes to change into, and I have to go now? So please stop?”
“I’ll finish quickly.”
“I said I don’t want to!”
“Then I’ll have to make you.”
When I said that Choi Yiseo would stop if I made her excited, she finally sighed and said.
“Kiss me first.”
Choi Yiseo let go of my hair.
I propped myself up on the bed with my hands and kissed Choi Yiseo, who was lying down.
We exchanged passionate kisses.
Choi Yiseo was now quite good at intertwining her tongue.
I felt like I was staining her with obscenity, which made me even more excited.
After finishing the rather long kiss.
I looked down at Choi Yiseo.
Bang!
She pushed me aside and jumped up.
“Phew, phew! Recharge complete! Should I go now, Woojin-ah?”
“Don’t talk nonsense! I’m really hard right now!”
“I don’t have time? You take forever once you start.”
“Then you shouldn’t have made me hard!”
“Woojin-ah……”
Choi Yiseo put on a sad face and asked me pitifully.
“I’m satisfied with just a kiss, but you’re not?”
“No.”
“…….”
“The heart and the dick are different.”
“Anyway.”
Choi Yiseo, who had immediately dropped the act, picked up her cell phone to leave.
I sharply questioned her as she briefly replied to the several messages she had already received.
“You were excited just now, too.”
“Uh, huh?”
Choi Yiseo’s gaze, which had been replying to messages, turned towards me.
Her rapid breathing, disheveled hair, slightly flowing sweat, and the way she unconsciously kept crossing her legs to hide her wetness.
Choi Yiseo was clearly in a state of excitement.
“Just say you’re not feeling well today and can’t go.”
“I’d really like to do that too. But I can’t. Woojin-ssi, watch some porn. It seems like your capacity has gotten bigger since you watched it.”
She had already checked that.
Choi Yiseo, annoyed that there was porn, finished replying and went outside.
“Hey, this is really bad! Look at this!”
She quickly took off her pants and tried to show me how bad it was.
“Y, you crazy bastard!”Choi Yiseo was startled when she saw me about to take off my panties and ran out of the room as if she was running away.
“…….”
In the end, I was standing half-naked and sighed while hitting my forehead.
I felt like I had returned to reality again.
As I recalled the gaze of my senior who had been looking at me sadly until just now, I hurriedly put on my panties and pants.
‘I think I bought some beer.’
I’m pretty sure the last time I drank beer was with Odesang hyung.
Of course, there was no beer in the refrigerator at this time.
With an empty heart, I checked the refrigerator just in case, and there were six cans of beer inside.
And a bottle of wine.
“Hmm?”
I clearly remembered drinking it all, so I wondered what it was, but there was a Post-it note attached to each of the beer and wine.
– ( ¯ㅁ¯ )
Drink moderately!
– I’m going to drink this with you! ٩( °ꇴ °)۶
“Ah.”
The handwriting was definitely Choi Yiseo’s.
The beer she bought for me to drink and the wine she bought for us to drink together later.
My heart ached when I saw it.
“Oh, really.”
I scolded myself for being stupid again for letting Choi Yiseo go.
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