75 – The light went out
“… “Sol, do you want to do it?”
Slight excitement and anxiety were visible in Soyi’s shaking eyes.
And in my eyes, reflected in her eyes, I will see strong lust and desire.
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‘Do you want to do it?’ ?’
To be honest, I definitely want to do it. I want to trust my instincts and knock him down right away.
I am confident. I’ve only ever been in a relationship with one woman, but I’m confident that if I’m in a relationship with that one person, she’ll do better than anyone else.
It may be Soi’s first time in this life, but she can keep it from hurting.
Because I know where to touch to get a good response, which position you prefer, what intensity and how long it should last.
“Sol… ?”
She looks a little scared of So-yi as she just stares at her without answering any of her questions.
From her perspective, she must feel afraid.
After we were in the middle of a kiss, my boyfriend got horny and just stared at me.
The difference in her strength is so significant that if I put my mind to it, Soyi will not be able to resist at all and she will be destined to be trampled by me.
After thinking about how to say it, I eventually decided to be honest.
“If I say I want to do it, are you okay, Soi?”
Soi I asked if you would allow that.
Because we are lovers, in the end, in order to do such a thing, the other person must consent.
Especially for us in this life, since it is our first experience as lovers, confidence in each other is even more important.
I have the utmost confidence in Soi, who loved me even when I was like that in my past life, but I don’t know if Soi feels the same way.
“… I am…… “
Soi lowered her head, avoided my eyes, and hesitated.
… Well, of course it’s not possible. We just had our first kiss today. It’s only been a little over a month since we started dating.
Is it really an adult relationship to have s*x right after kissing? Anyway, this doesn’t apply to those of us who have just turned 20 and are just starting our first relationship.
In the first place, our first experience in our past life happened in just one year under Soyi’s lead.
I had my first kiss in three months in my previous life, so I can say that progress is already very fast in this life.
I tried to talk her out of it by making her smile, showing that it was okay for her to refuse.
“So, if you want to do it, it’s okay with me… “
The words that almost crawled out of Soyi’s mouth shattered my expectations.
“It’s okay…” ?”
“…… “
When I asked again, Soyi just nodded her head slightly without answering. I was dazed and unable to react to her affirmation.
… What? Why did you allow it? In my previous life, it took a year, so why already… ?
I have some doubts, so I ask again.
“Kim So-i, you understand what I was asking about, right? “Aren’t you misunderstanding something else?”
“It’s not a misunderstanding… So, Sol, you did that… If I really want to do it, I… Are you okay… “
“… Okay?”
As soon as those words fell, I moved.
First, she placed her hands on Soyi’s shoulders.
With just that small movement, Soyi closed her eyes tightly and trembled.
“Ugh… !”
“… “Am I really doing this?”
“…… “
Soyi, who closed her eyes tightly, could not reply and only nodded her head.
I placed her left hand, which had been placed on her shoulder, on Soyi’s waist. And then she slowly raised her remaining right hand…
Taaak!
“Hey!”
I hit Soyi’s forehead with a chestnut.
I hit it very gently, but the small pain combined with the shock of being caught off guard made me scream loudly.
The strange atmosphere was broken and Soy protested to me with slightly teary eyes.
“What, what!!”
“What do you mean, don’t deceive people? How can you be okay if you’re so scared and trembling? “You’re forcing me to do it because I said I wanted to.”
“Oh, no… Really, I’m fine… “
“So you’re saying that saying ‘it’s okay’ is wrong? We’re having a first night and I just want to do it and you just have to be okay with that? “You should do it because you want to do it.”
How can you do your job when you’re acting like a lamb being led to the slaughter?
Of course, when we had our first experience, Soyi was very nervous and trembled, but it was different from then.
That was a tremor that came from fear as I tried to force myself to accept me.
“But Sol says you want to do it… I shouldn’t accept her girlfriend… “
“What… ?”
What is that? What Joseon Dynasty is this? Isn’t it something that the wife has to do unconditionally if her husband does it?
It is very different from the Soi I knew in my past life. In the past life, Soyi held the key to our relationship, but in this life, Soyi is too obedient.
“I will never do anything unless it is something you want to do.”
I spoke firmly. Soyi had a somewhat sad look on her face.
“… “Aren’t you disappointed in me?”
“What disappointment?”
“Sol, you want to do it, but you can’t because of me…” Since I’m a bad girlfriend, I have to do something like this… “
For the first time in a long time, Soyi became very wrinkled and died. It looks like his inferiority complex has kicked in again.
Normally, I would have gotten angry at her, but today instead, I hugged her gently.
“Soi, you have never been an ugly person to me.”
“… I said something negative again. “I’m sorry, Sol.”
“You haven’t done much these days. “It’s getting better.”
“Yes… “
I advised Soyi, who put her head in my arms, to sleep at my house today.
Of course, it wasn’t a secret suggestion, it was just an invitation to sleep in the same bed.
“Okay, let’s sleep now. “I have to go to the store tomorrow too.”
“Yes.”
We took turns taking showers, giving Soy some comfortable clothes, and we lay down in the same bed.
It was originally meant for one person, so it would have been a bit narrow for two people to lie down, but it wasn’t bad since they slept right next to each other.
‘At that time, the two of us slept on the bed in my room… ‘
It felt good to sleep in the same bed with Soi after a long time, as it brought back old memories.
Soyi, who was in my arms, asked quietly.
“… Sol, if you want to do it right now, let me know.”
“I told you. If you want to do it, you will do it. Besides, we don’t have any contraceptives right now. “Have you never thought about that?”
“Oh, that’s right…” “
Actually, there is one thing… I didn’t necessarily say that.
Just as Soi followed my pace in the past life, this time I plan to follow her pace.
Besides, in the first place… Once I start, I am not satisfied with just one try. You can’t use it with just one.
“Thank you, Sol.”
“What?”
“For coming to me. For choosing me. For loving me…. “Just thank you for everything.”
“I will return it to you as is.”
Including everything from my previous life.
The next day, we went to work wearing the same clothes as yesterday and received subtle, knowing glances from Kwak Joo-hee and Im Dami.
Neither of us bothered to make any excuses.
———-
“Huh? This… “Sol didn’t take it with him.”
Meanwhile, that evening, the day Soyi slept at Hansol’s house.
While organizing her bag, Ara discovered that the material that Hansol was supposed to take from her print bundle was still in her bag.
“What should I do…” “
Actually, there was nothing else to do.
This kind of print is already available on the computer and can be sent to his cell phone or email.
Ara knows that, but…
“Well, it’s a shame I already printed it… “
Ara agonized over excuses that did not work.
I thought I should give this print to Hansol as it was a waste of effort to print it already.
If tomorrow were a weekday, I would have met you in class and returned it, but tomorrow is a weekend.
Hansol and Ara’s group was announced on Thursday, but considering the time it took to create a presentation paper and a PPT based on it, I felt like I had to return it right away.
‘Sol said it was around 10 o’clock when he finished work… ‘
In the end, Ara left the dormitory around the time Hansol got off work. She justifies herself with the excuse of giving him this print.
‘Let’s wait in front of Sol’s house.’
Ara, of course, did not go directly to Soi Bunsik.
If you go there, you will see the unpleasant sight of Hansol and Soyi bickering.
Waiting in front of Hansol’s one-room building, Ara was troubled.
‘… “What should I say to Sol when I meet her?”
Should I say that you did a good job today? Or should we encourage each other to work hard on the task?
Although it hurts my heart to just look at his face like that, he was still someone I wanted to see, even if it was just a small excuse.
“Uh… ?”
After waiting for a few minutes, Ara was able to see Hansol walking from afar.
… But he wasn’t alone.
Now, Ara was accompanied by the woman he hated the most.
She quickly hid so as not to be discovered by them.
Why on earth did Soyi come to Hansol’s house with him? As far as Ara knows, Hansol takes Soyi to her house and she returns home alone. But today we are together.
Ara felt something was wrong with her.
The two people who were talking fondly from afar hugged each other.
Ara tried to suppress the disappointment that burst out of her heart.
‘Because the two are lovers now… Because that’s natural… ‘
But even that firm attitude collapsed due to the actions of the next two people.
“Ah, ah… !”
Ara let out a small scream.
The faces of the two people were connected at one point.
Also, Hansol put his hand on the woman’s face and acted on her first.
“So, Sol… “
Without realizing it, Ara flailed her hand towards Hansol. However, the shock prevented him from taking any steps.
Leaving Ara alone, the two walked away. Their destination was the same.
Hansol’s house. The two entered the house where Ara lost her place after confirming their love for each other.
“Ah, ahhh…… “
Ara collapsed on the spot.
After a while, the lights went out in Hansol’s house, even though he did not come out of the visible house.
The light in Ara’s eyes also went out.