76 – There’s Nothing Left
Monday came and I arrived at the classroom to listen to the second week’s lecture on the world of fairy tales.
“Hello, Mr. Hansol.”
“Yes, hello.”
I sat next to Hwang Hyun-ah, who was sitting first.
If it had been the same, the one person who should have been between us was not there today. No, it no longer exists from today.
Hwang Hyun-ah smiled sheepishly, perhaps feeling a little awkward at the sudden change in her seating arrangement.
“Ara… “It looks like he’s really not coming.”
“… “I see.”
Even after the professor came and the lecture began, Ara did not come.
「Sorry. Due to personal circumstances, I can no longer take this lecture. I will upload all the parts and related materials I played in the presentation paper. I’m really sorry.”
Yesterday evening, it was Ara’s message that was posted in the group chat room.
Embarrassed, Hwang Hyun-ah asked what was going on, but Ara simply answered that it was her personal situation.
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Hwang Hyun-ah said that it was the personal circumstances of the daughter of a chaebol family, so she did not ask any further questions. She couldn’t even say what would happen if she suddenly disappeared.
Ara has already done all the research for our group’s assignment by herself, and has also finished her part in creating her presentation paper.
Although I’m a little curious as to why Ara is dropping this honey lecture of hers, I can’t blame her.
During the lecture, Hyuna Hwang, who was busy doing other things on her cell phone, asked me as if she were passing by.
“Have you heard anything, Hansol? Because she’s the same as Ara… “
“No. “I don’t know either.”
“… Please?”
She was immediately convinced and focused on her cell phone again. It seems she was easily convinced because she had seen the awkward relationship between me and Ara all week.
I took out my cell phone from my pocket. I can’t even turn on the screen, so I fiddle with it and worry.
‘… ‘What’s going on?’
I didn’t ask Ara anything either in her chat room or in her private chat room. Because I decided not to do that anymore.
But… I can’t help but feel worried.
Even before she came to college, she had a crazy schedule and was never absent or late to school, but suddenly she gave up in the middle of a lecture like this.
I wonder if there is some kind of illness. Or did something happen at home? To the extent that Ara has to drop out of her school?
All kinds of random thoughts shake my head. Because Ara still holds a very large place in my heart. Because she’ll probably always be like that.
She took a deep breath and turned on her phone screen.
「Noona Ahyeon」
… Should I ask? She just made the excuse that it had been a while since she had contacted me and asked if anything was going on at home.
After Yoo Ah-hyun returned to Korea, we lost contact with each other, and after she entered college, we didn’t really keep in touch with each other, but it’s not an awkward relationship.
I can ask questions naturally enough while hiding my intentions. But…
‘… Let’s quit. ‘You’re overreacting.’
I turned off the screen of my phone and put it back in my pocket.
It’s true that it’s strange for Ara to drop the course while taking it, but that doesn’t mean it’s a big deal in itself.
If something really serious happens, someone in the house will mention it to me first.
Let’s not worry about unnecessary things anymore. It only creates regrets.
“… This concludes the presentation.”
On Thursday, Hyuna Hwang gave her presentation, and we were able to successfully complete the group assignment without Ara.
Professor Shin Jong-cheol praised our group, saying they did a great job researching the data.
After the seasonal semester ended, I was able to get an A+ in the world of fairy tales.
It was my first A+, which wasn’t even on my first semester report card, but I didn’t feel as good as I thought.
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Ara, who canceled the ‘World of Fairy Tales’ lecture, packed her belongings from the dormitory early and returned to her home.
I already felt like I was going crazy, but I didn’t think I could pretend to be fine if I bumped into other people in the dormitory.
However, she told her father, Jae-jun, that she had come because she just wanted to relax at home during the vacation, and he did his best to smile and pretend to be okay.
Even in the midst of all this, the obsession that had been deeply embedded in her heart, that she should not disturb her father, was not removed. No, it was stuck even stronger.
That’s all that’s left for Ara now.
After hurting Hansol for a long time, she eventually lost him and that was all Ara had left.
‘… Sol…… ‘
After returning home, Ara stayed in her room every day and did not come out.
From that day on, the same scene kept appearing in Ara’s head.
In front of Hansol’s house, two people under a streetlight. Hansol and Soyi.
Two people walking hand in hand.
Giggles, jokes, and hugs full of affection.
And, and… Kiss…
“Ugh, ah, ahhh…” !!”
Writhing on the bed, Ara screamed.
How many times had she already tormented herself by imagining the same thing?
But her stupid mind couldn’t stop imagining such things. As if she claimed that she wanted to be hurt more, she imagined scenes she had not even seen.
The two people go into the house and kiss again.
The two slowly touch each other’s bodies, take off their clothes little by little, and climb into Hansol’s bed, where he closes his eyes every night.
And… In the end, the two reach the final stage as lovers.
And Hansol’s girl, Kim So-yi, will lust after Hansol’s naked body, something Ara has never seen before. She will use the rights she has earned to her fullest.
You will massage Ara’s most precious man as you like and enjoy his reaction. With your hands, with your mouth, and in other disgusting ways you can’t even imagine.
In the meantime, Hansol’s face will continue to change. And those were facial expressions that Ara had never seen before. By another woman.
“Stop! Stop… !!”
Although Ara tried to stop her by pulling at her hair, she could not stop the disgusting delusions that her own head continued to produce.
As if he was happy to torment himself, like scratching her bleeding scars from cuts and stabs with his fingernails.
Knock knock-
As Ara’s screams continued, a knock was heard on her door. It belonged to the housekeeper who worked in this house until evening.
“Hey, lady… ? Are you okay?”
“I said it was okay!!”
“S-sorry… “
Ara answered the small question that worried her with a sharp scream. Even other small external sounds were very annoying now.
The housekeeper, who was usually polite and friendly to her employees, was even more embarrassed and ran away from her place.
Although she felt sorry for her, she no longer had the spirit left in her to maintain such manners.
It wasn’t just the housekeeper.
Wow-
Messages coming to Ara’s cell phone.
University classmates, middle and high school classmates and other acquaintances. I ignored all communications from everyone.
He didn’t even make an excuse saying that it would be difficult to contact him for the time being due to family circumstances.
Everything else is good now. Because it doesn’t matter what other people say about you.
“Ha, ugh… ! So, Sol… Solaa… !”
On the bed, Ara twisted her body and screamed. Her hand was making repeated movements between her legs, the lower half of her body wearing only her underwear.
It’s like comforting yourself by imagining the love affair of your childhood friend who was taken away by another woman. No one in the world could have imagined that Yuara would do such a miserable thing.
But I couldn’t help it. With her devastated and almost insane mental state, all Ara had left was her instincts.
Just as a patient who is about to die takes her narcotic analgesics to forget her terrible pain, Ara resorted to her physical pleasures to forget the terrible pain that radiated deep within her own heart. .
She had never experienced comfort with her own body before, but the first time was while imagining her precious man mixing her body with another person’s.
“Ha, huh… !!”
After a while, Ara reached the end of her pleasure and felt the lingering sensation of climax as her body trembled.
And only her emptiness came. How many times has it been today that she has comforted herself like this?
Ara hugged her doll that was placed by her head. It was filled with memories of her and Hansol.
“Sol… “
That day, the day Hansol went home with Soyi. Ara prayed to someone she did not know on the spot. Please let Soyi come out soon.
She said she just stopped by Hansol’s house because she had to see him briefly.
But the light in Hansol’s room was turned off. Soi did not come out.
“… “I want to die.”
After King Yucheol dies soon and his father, Jaejun, takes over as chairman, what will be left for him? What should I live for now?
She couldn’t know the answer because Ara lived her whole life just for that.
Until now, she had only thought about the future with Hansol at the end of this ordeal.
Knock knock-
Ara, who had been dazed, got a knock on her door again.
Perhaps because she had relieved herself to the fullest, Ara, calmer than before, answered softly.
“… I’m fine. Do not worry.”
“It’s okay, what the f*ck is it okay? “Why don’t you come out right now?”
“Sister… ?”
The voice coming through the door did not belong to the housekeeper.
Ara, who was a little hesitant, reluctantly opened the door at the urging of her half-sister.
“… Sister, why did you come to your parents’ house? “Did you come because of me again?”
“Why are you calling me pretty when I’m a cheating b*tch? … Have you forgotten what day tomorrow is? “Your brother will come soon.”
“Ah… “
Ara finally remembered.
Tomorrow is July 20th. It was the anniversary of the death of her mother, Han Seung-ah.