4. Think only of me – (21)
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Kikik.
When I carefully opened the door and entered, I saw Chersha sitting back in her bedroom.
As soon as he sees himself entering, he smiles a little, but his gaze reflected in the sunlight looks like a picture drawn by a master, and his eyes do not move.
Even seeing her again, the reunion of her meeting her after 8 years, was really… Beautiful.
Every time I face her, I have that kind of feeling without even realizing it.
“Sit down for a moment.”
Chersha looked at her and gave her a small wink as if telling her to sit down on a chair near her. She naturally moves her body and heads for her chair.
“So, how is it? Do you like the room?”
As if to gather himself up for a moment, Ed gently leaned back in his chair and asked cautiously.
“Well, not bad.”
She said with a small smile at my words, but in her own eyes, it seemed like a mediocre figure that was neither liked nor bad.
Well, if it were the Kalua family, Chersha would have stayed in a better environment than this, so she thought maybe she wouldn’t be noticed by her.
“Isn’t that… Heavy?”
As he gestured at the armor he was wearing, he laughed out loud at Chersha’s pure appearance.
“Puff… “
“Oh no! Ed? Why are you laughing all of a sudden?”
“I am a knight. It is also a knight that has reached the highest level.”
“What is that? Then, isn’t that chunk of scrap metal not too heavy?”
It was a lump of scrap metal, and it seemed like the first time I had ever heard of knight armor being described that way.
Even as Ed looked at Chersha with dumbfounded eyes, she steadily began to answer that innocent question.
“Well…If I had to answer, I got used to this weight. What would that be? In terms of simple weight, it’s heavy. But if you are a knight, it is a weight you must bear.”
“Huh. It’s actually heavy, but aren’t you bluffing that you’re in front of me?”
“Chersha. Do you think I would dare to show you that side of me right now?”
Ed’s gaze was so clear that she looked at her as if she was asking her question, so Chersha couldn’t bear to come up with another answer. Her cheeks blushed and she shook her head.
‘…Ah.’
The coquetry of a young woman.
Ed, dazed by Chersha’s appearance, turned her head slightly away from Chersha.
A beauty that is dangerous just by looking at it. Ed could not easily be caught off guard by the charms of Lady Ashera and another Chersha.
In itself, it seems that someone has drawn the ‘beauty’ of completion.
Chersha’s appearance, which still had the appearance of a small girl, felt like freshness in itself.
Maybe, Chersha, she was looking at her and talking to her, but when she came to her senses, she was looking at Chersha as if she was possessed.
“More real than that. Ed… You have pride as a knight. Oh, was it rude to say that…?”
“Excuse me. And if you’re asking if I have any pride as a knight, I’m definitely content with living as a knight. It’s a little bit like saying it with my own mouth, but it’s my pride, so I guess I have something like that.”
An immediate answer without hesitation. At that answer, Chersha looked at Ed again.
Warm, affectionate, soft. Mature look.
Eight years later, Ed has the same main feeling he felt while looking at Ed eight years ago, but he is clearly different.
It has a softness, but a will that won’t easily bend to anyone. Should I add something like that? There really seemed to be no hesitation in talking about my actions or attitude.
It is straight. Pure. Clean.
Receiving such a variety of feelings, Chersha felt her heart tickle without realizing it.
‘…Really.’
More than the day we first met two days ago, the moment we met yesterday. And until now, Chersha couldn’t help but feel it without even realizing it.
Like now, the more Ed faces him, the more she realizes that she is falling for him.
“Ed. Then how do I look in your eyes?”
I thought I would fall for him more and more if I talked about him for no reason, so I ended up talking about myself.
“How does it look? What are you talking about specifically?”
Seeing the question full of curiosity, Chersha began to lick her lips.
“…I’m asking how you think things have changed. Compared to 8 years ago, both you and I have changed a lot. From the appearance to the atmosphere and the individual achievements. Didn’t each of you put in a lot of effort?”
“How did it change… Um.”
As I listened to Chersha’s words, I slowly glanced at Chersha.
Creepy.
Chersha trembled slightly at Ed’s gaze.
It’s not the kind of eyes that seem to evaluate oneself. It was just those eyes that looked closely at each one of them.
How did you change during those 8 years? Also, a tenacious gaze that will not miss each one of how he has grown.
“…Pretty.”
Then, at the sudden words, Chersha lifted her head in a daze and looked at Ed.
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“You look so pretty?”
“…Muh, what do you think?”
Chersha unconsciously grabs my hand and asks.
She’s obviously a common compliment to her own appearance, heard everywhere.
She was confident that she had accepted those compliments numbly from a certain point on, but now the words that flowed from Ed came to me in a very different way, as if they were of a different kind of language.
Pounding.
Even Chersha could feel that her heart was beating so hard that she couldn’t calm down.
Looking at Chersha like that, Ed gave a small smile, and she slowly began to speak her words.
“As the youngest wizard in the history of the Mage Tower, he reached the 5th tier level. I know it’s such a great achievement that news of it has reached this far north from the East. So, Chersha, how much effort did you put in during that time?”
Continuing words calmly.
Even though my face blushed at the one-color words that praised myself, I looked at him with another thought at the end of the word ‘effort’.
Ed’s blue eyes, now saying that, contained himself so transparently.
As if he was looking only at himself in those eyes.
‘Ah.’
My heart kept pounding. To the point where I even felt like someone was playing with my breasts as if they were about to explode.
It seemed that the object was right in front of it.
Carefully called Ed.
“Ed…?”
“To be honest, I never thought that I would be disparaged by anyone for my hard work over the past 8 years. Hey Chersha.”
“…Yes.”
“I respect you now.”
Woe.
Chersha’s face was flushed red enough that anyone could see it now.
Chersha just kept wiggling her hand at the words she spat out while staring at herself. I couldn’t talk to Ed or take any action.
The satisfaction of being recognized by someone who wants to be recognized more than anyone else.
Apart from the feeling of affection she had for Ed, it wrapped around Chersha’s whole body like another joy.
“…”
She was Chersha, who kept puckering her lips for joy and flinching as if she was trying to say something. In the end, no words came out of my mouth.
Just, right now, the joy of this moment.
How can I describe this feeling of floating in my head? Even Chersha didn’t know.
It’s just… I’m so happy I can’t even put it into words.
That he acknowledges himself and recognizes his efforts.
He doesn’t have to explain himself word by word. Even with just a small word, he knows himself.
It was as if he recognized my frustration when he faced himself at the orphanage 8 years ago.
He still… Still knows me, and he cares more than anyone else.
Chersha was so happy with that fact alone that she couldn’t control her own body.
Warak in my heart. I wanted to hold him in my arms.
I wanted to express my heart that was about to explode to him.
‘…No.’
But. Chersha shook her head slightly.
Really… I think he won’t be able to control himself any longer if he does that. Now Chersha continued to force herself.
I feel like I’ll approach him if I’m not careful. Forcibly and again and again and again.
Now is not yet.
I had to find a surefire way to make him mine.
Chersha knew better than anyone else that nothing could be solved if only emotions took precedence.
I needed to suppress my emotions, at least not yet.
Ed stared blankly at Chersha like that, as if he was waiting. I just kept the cute Chersha in my eyes.
As if he knew the fragments of her emotions just by looking at them. Her affection was just looking at Chersha with her young gaze.
Just like when I saw Chersha eight years ago.
Ed He waited for her slowly.
Feeling Ed’s gaze, Chersha slowly calmed herself down.
“…Ha ha.”
She exhaled her excited breath, barely able to purse her lips.
“Still, Ed…You, you tried your best too. You worked as hard as I did.”
Chersha speaks slowly as if expressing her feelings. The trembling in that voice was now felt by both Chersha herself and Ed.
“Yeah… I tried too. It’s hard to say that I’m similar to you, but I tried my best, thinking about becoming your knight every day.”
Answering Ed smiled again and slowly held out his hand.
It seemed as if the time of the past 8 years had passed before my eyes, just as the moment passed by.
The moment I recalled all sorts of memories.
Suddenly, Lady Ashera.
I remembered her figure.
The appearance of an ideal female knight.
The blue flower of the north and her figure called a jewel.
As if despising herself for not having her talent, she treated herself normally, unlike her immediate descendants and her vassals.
And she is a woman who reached out to herself when times were tough.
‘…I am.’
Then, as Ed slowly extended his hand to Chersha, he hesitated for a moment.
Chersha herself now. Could she stretch out her hand to her like this?
The self who is greedy for all of them.
She realizes how absurd she is.
“…”
Ed’s hand stopped midway.
Chersha’s eyes followed Ed’s hand.
And sneakily.
Chersha She held Ed’s hand first.
And Chersha, who had Ed’s worried face in my eyes for a moment, seemed to be mine.
I slowly caress Ed’s hand.
“Ed.”
“Uh…”
“Only look at me.”
At Chersha’s sweet voice, which seems to contain her sudden meaning, her Ed looks at her blankly again.
“…Chersha?”
“Ed…no matter what kind of heart you are shaking right now. I do not care. Only when I am out like this.”
Chersha lifted herself up with strength in his hand that was slowly caressing her.
She slowly approaches Ed.
“Only think of me.”